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Archive for March 2006

Double post today.

Nowadays ppl falling sick. Nt sure why, but weirrd. Grace got sore throat today, so when in musical she was v soft. Hope she recovers fast! I also feel that I am getting a flu myself. The symptoms are settling in, blocked nose, sneezing, headache. I hope I dun fall ill. I cannot afford to pon musical training. I think even if I sick I will still turn up. Hope dun spread flu can liaoz.

Today in musical we got to do relaxation exercise. Frankly, the music was the one helping me to relax. It was a realli nice piece of music and I wanna get my hands on it. Lucky the director ask us to stretch our arms, lie down, etc. If not I surely fall asleep standing. Afterall, horses sleep standing! So, if you see me standing staring into empty space, chances are I have fallen asleep standing!! Haha, cool rite?

Today, saw Grace. And she cut her hair. Now her hair is short. From my class ppl, I heard they felt it was a bad move for her to cut her hair. To me, I still find her pretty. She still looks great, and there is nothing wrong with short hair. My sis also keeps short hair. I think after Grace cut the length same as my sis liaoz. But I like girls with pony tails, haha, but I guess... Nevermind. After all, I ain't in love with your hair. Direct quote: "They say time takes its toll on a body, makes your younger and brown hair turn grey. But honey I dun care, I ain't in love with your hair, and if it all fell out, I'd love you anyway."

I think I can guess why ppl falling sick nowadays. The humid weather coupled with the high temperature is lowering our body's immune system. THose who read this, I hope you all take care and dun fall ill. Esp now wif the bird flu thingy, it is better to stay healthy. NEways, who likes being sick? I think fall sick just to skip school is stupid. Stay at home and suffer. WOw, hardly wad I call relaxing. In fact, go school better, at least you catch up wif work, for those who skip school, they haf to rush their work to keep up wif the class. It is give and take.

Oh yeah, Glenn oso becoming a wolfie!! Wootez!!! Welcome to the club dude!! Oh yeah, Im gonna learn to sing "True" and "On the way Down". Nice songs, they are. Of course, I still like True Light. Today during break in musical I was singing "True Light" and "On the way Down". Walked one round, just nice finish both songs, so time taken abt 8 mins. The bad part of being wolfie is the mask. Small, smelly, suffocating, eyes the size of slits, barely even able to see. If they do not make the eye hole larger, on the stage itself Imma fall off the stairs and end up wif a concussion and Dexter wun be Maurice anymore cus I'd be a natural crazy loony guy. Oh yeah, Glenn today sub Eugene as Beast, den he was REALLY FUNNY!! I mean, Beast is supposed to be intimidating, but glenn is otherwise. Smiling, tone wif hints of laughter. Even his rawr is cute. He merely said the word :"Roar." Hardly intimidating. He might as well haf meowed, since he is Kitty!! Why kitty? Cus he likes cats, I think, and his account is LegO.Cat!! MEOW MEOW!! NEways, Me thinx Ive been fooling around in musical too much, me gonna get serious!! Den try to influence WP to stop being so joker also. However, we may need a livewire, as having one joker is kinda good too, helps everyone loosen up by laughing at his antics. And WP realli have alot of funny antics up his sleeves.

Ok, I just released one very loud sneeze, I think I'd better stop here, wash face, drink milk, go sleep liaoz.

---Sign off---

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- If you have been tagged, you are to come up with 7 qualities of your ideal perfect lover.
- Do specify the gender.
- Then, list down and TAG another 7 people on their pages.
- If you've been tagged before, you do not need to do this again.
- HAVE FUN! (:
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Gender: female
1. Demure
2. Have a sweet voice
3. Someone who is willing to spend the rest of her life with me, love me
4. Romantic
5. Understanding
6. Somone whom i really love (need not beautiful or pretty)
7. Smart
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Tagged:
Grace
Dexter
Glenn
Tayyi
Wei Ning
Hui Min
Wen Pu

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K, realli have nothing to post. But Here I am, sitting in front of my comp, with the sian diao look and my hands magically moving across my keyboard typing out whatever you are reading when my brain is totally blank. I realli have no idea why I even want to post. Guess I have xtra time be4 sleeping and just wanted to update my blog. But update about wad? My weekend is so boring. I almost MISSED school.

I just finished reading yet another of Dan Brown's novels, Deception Point. Like the rest, the plot is intriguing, fiction deftly woven with non-fiction. It kept me flipping the pages. In addition, the plot keeps twisting and turning, but this time, I guessed correctly who was the overall mastermind!

Today is my sister's birthday, so I would just like to say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NING NING!!! Went to BP Swenson to eat dinner, den eat bday cake! Ice cream cake!! Den went shopping for her present. I buying mine to her from Lot 1. Need 2 go shopping tmr after musical. Who wanna go wif me???? Hope someone goes wif me, guy or girl both can. Shopping myself v sian one. Girl cld be better, den can gif me hints on wad to buy. Actually, my sis narrowed down the search liao, anything to do wif BBall or Mangas.

Ok, nth else to post, and dun wanna crap anymore, so stop here..... Chao.....

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Is it a sin to love you? Somehow I feel so, it's just that how can someone as imperfect as me love you? It's like I am trying to break into the upper caste.

Ytd Meet The Parents Session. My mom came to talk to Rozi, but that part nth much lar. Ytd my mom saw Grace for the first time. Lol. Den I didnt know she saw her, until dinner time when eating my mom suddenly say the girl I talk abt isit Grace Wong. Den I like huh? Wong? I dunno a Grace Wong, but my cousin is Bernice Wong. LOL!! Den I say nope, den I said is Grace Wang. Den my mom say she cldnt see tag clearly, just rmb seeing Grace W*ng. So she guessed Wong. Diao. But shud be correct lar, since she said Grace was wif 3 other girls. Which ytd when I saw was correct. The conversation was sth like that.

Mom: You know that girl you tell me abt?
Me: Ya?
Mom: I saw her today, her name is Grace Wong isit?
Me: err... No.
Mom: Maybe I saw wrong..
Me: Her name is Grace Wang
Mom: Oh, I saw Grace W*ng, cannot see clearly, but was she with 3 other girls?
Me: Should be, one was Rachel, the other I dunno, and the last one was RuYi.
Mom: I think she looks like those decent girls, but she isnt veri pretty.
Me: Oh........ (I dun realli get my mom's taste)
Dad: Are you interested in her???
Me: No...... (This is of course a blatant lie)
Mom: Why are you so eager to find out if ur son likes someone?
Dad: Oh no, my son dun like girls...
Me: Yeah, I like guys.

I feel that Grace is the prettiest girl I have ever saw, and the most talented one too.

Been feeling depressed these few days. I dunno for wad. Results? Maybe. I just dunno wad to do with my life anymore. Musical is very interesting, I felt I had alot of fun there. But, I wish I got a major role, like Maurice. I think, I am at a disadvantage cus I never had the courage or boldness to step forward and challenge for a role. Even if I had a high chance to win. I think I am too passive, I'd rather everyone got along and I dun wanna cause disputes. In fact, unless the director make me try out for the role, it is highly unlikely I wld volunteer for any role. Haiz, I think I am either a coward or indecisive. I kind of think I am a coward. I dare not do alot of things. Budden, when I went for tryouts, I wanted to try for Maurice the role, but the director never gave me a chance. After Glenn tried he immediately picked Glenn. Haiz.. Gaston's role I obviously cannot, I am neither tall, dark, nor handsome. Haiz. Beast? Nonono, I dun haf that height, nor the raspy voice. I dun even think I have the strength. Glenn lost the Maurice role to Dexter. And I feel that it is rather unfair for Glenn, he shud be given a chance to improve. In fact, today I can see that Glenn already putting in effort to improve. He even stop smiling! He also added feelings into his act. I feel v sorry for Glenn, prepare so much then lose the role. Haiz. Life is so unfair. I shud be more like Dexter, bold, daring, dare to ASK for sth. The problem wif me, even in other situations, is I dare not ask for things, even if I have the right to. Like, when I wanna swap items in the NTUC, I dun dare to walk to the cashier to demand an item switch because the one I got is "faulty". I dun dare to ask for refunds, ask for directions, ask for something, ask for ANYTHING! I dunno WHY??!! But I realli need 2 start being bolder, or else alot of opportunities gonna pass me by. Now, I already regretted when I first auditioned for the musical I wasn't aggressive enuff. I was so passive, I basically relied on the director putting me to roles. Haiz. I shud have fought for the roles.

The other time I posted abt a dream, ytd had the same dream again. Not exactly the same, just the "theme" is more or less the same. Hope it realli meant that the dream gonna come true. Dunno though.

Autumn arrives and the flower in my heart withers.....

Dunno why I posted the above line, just felt it was realli nice. I invented it :D. I think I gonna put it as my MSN nick sometime soon.

9 12-15-22-5 7-18-1-3-5

In my sEA of REd
ThERE liEs onli onE
OthERs cAn't suRvivE
SAvE my CrystAllinE DRaGon

Dragons
Green Dragon, Red Dragon, Azure Dragon, Crystal Dragon, Ebony Dragon
Reigning as the ultimatum in mythology
An aura of assurance emits from them
Channeling courage into people on its side
Erasing fear from their hearts
Inspirational
Lifting any doubts in people
Overcasting the skies of enemies
Volleying flames into their ranks
Effectively destroying thy foes

Dragons are indeed inspirational for me. My fav, numero uno, mythical beast. To me, the dragon is a symbol of undying power, unwavering courage, of not giving up for wad I stand for.

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Hols over..

Last day of my holiday and I am here typing this... For some reason, the hols seemed to pass very fast. It felt like ytd that was the closing day of school. And now, suddenly, I am faced with the prospect of going back to school. I feel a mixed feeling of apprehension yet excitement. I feel like exciting things await me in the next term, and I wanna know what is it. Apprehension because I do not realli wanna jump back into curriculum with all the hectic schedule. Not that I had a relaxing holiday. Really, why do they call it holiday when the school still pile you with homework? That is not my idea of a holiday. Holiday shud be the abstinence of work. Let me recount what happened to me in the hols. Very brief.

Friday: Nth much, just sat at home and DotAed the whole day.
Saturday: Again nth much, same old thing, played comp.
Sunday: Still nth much, played comp.
Monday: GO back to school in morn, den go Glenn house. Afternoon came out again to go musical.
Tuesday: Realli cannot rmb wad happened today, veri hazy. BUt I dun think anything big happen. Oh, WP came my house to play.
Wednesday: Started on my homework today I think. Afternoon went Dex house lame around, den cycle to Glenn house, stay there for awhile den go home.
Thursday: Morning went Glenn house, den play there and afternoon cycled to school for musical.
Friday: Go Glenn house in morning again. Did A maths until afternoon den played.
Saturday: Today was ONE TIRING DAY. Tuition in afternoon, 2 hr break piano lesson1 hr, by now headache, den went out watch movie wif Glenn and his bro. Shaggy Dog. Got one scene in that movie remind me of the Beauty and the Beast play. Cus the villain in that story is running genetic tests on animals producing funny results, and this teacher saw it and burned down the whole lab, so he got persecuted. Then the teacher was describing the sights "A monkey that was barking! Mice that Bark! A snake wif a dog tail!" And the jury was laughing and laughing, like when Maurice ran into the bar shouting abt a Beast and everyone mocks him.
Sunday: Do the rest of my homework, otherwise, boring.

Haiz, see how fast my hols flew by? I do not even feel I had any rest. At least tmr wld be a short day for me, as after recess I going Science Centre dunno for wad. Mrs Joseph bring us there. Actually I had more to post, just that I forgot everything. Everytime I sit down want to type up a post den I forget everything. Haiz.. I think I go read Da Vinci Code now.

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~~in no particular order.. list down
3 ppl you talk to online
4 ppl u see at school
2 teachers
3 ppl u love going out with
3 ppl in ur sms box

1) Grace
2) Wei Ning
3) Tay Yi
4) Glenn
5) Wen Pu
6) Dexter
7) Ting Jun
8) VLee
9) Chiam
10) Jordan
11) Hui Yang
12) Kenneth
13) Jin Zhe
14) Ming Xian
15) Wei jie

So what do you think abt no. 4? [Glenn]Funny!!

How nice is no. 6? [Dexter]Nice guy, just veri temperamental.

On a scale of 1-10, how good looking number is no.5 ?[Wen Pu]7..

Will you ever fall for no.11? [Hui Yang]No, she looks ok, but no.

Honestly, if no.8 met with an accident, what will you do?[VLee]Hehe, no more A maths, and I gonna be v sad cus I might then fail A maths. He is a goood teacher.

How much do you lyk no. 2?[Wei Ning]Alot, she is my only sister.

Will 7 & 13 make a gd couple ?[Ting Jun and Jin Zhe]No, unless they are gays.

Would 14 kill you one day?[Ming Xian]No

Who do you lyk most ? 3 or 10?[Tay Yi and Jordan]Tay Yi lar, I know him longer.

Get 3 ppl with blogs to do this thing?
1) Grace
2) Glenn
3) Dexter

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Today was an eventful day. This morning went to Glenn house in the wee hours. Ok, not realli "wee", it was 9. Go there sit around, watch glenn play DotA. One REALLI long game, that bored me half to death. Den nothing better to do, I whisper to his opponents and spam them, distracting them. LOL!! After taht, played alot of CS, den a few games of DotA. Den Glenn mysteriously say, lets go eat lunch. And it was 12 48. But after eating it was 1 15, den when I told him, he said "CRAP!! I Thought it was 2...." LOL!! Den we decided go school early. We cycled to school together. Oh, I forgot, WP wif us also. Den we happily, slowly, cycle to school. Reach school saw Jordan, Kok Hong, Theresa, and Hui Yang. They were at Bball court playing, wad else, Bball. den they were staring at us like "WTH?" Then they laughed and Jordan say Idiot Idiot Idiot. LAME!! after that lamed around, den realised it was too early, so went to Lot 1 sweet talk to buy drinks. Drank, den cycled back to school. By that time, its 2 30. STill too early, but went into I studio practise my pushing of Glenn. Want to get the correct strength so Glenn got ez time falling. But also must not hurt him. Last mon I pushed him den he flew forward and all the others gasped. They thought Glenn was hurt and I became like a bad guy. Actually, I was shocked myself. I did not really put in much force, I think Glenn was preparing to fall off, maybe. Not sure. But the way ppl looked at me... I felt uncomfortable. Den I apologized to Glenn ,den Glenn say no need, cus not pain, and he asked me to use that amt of strength. Cus it helps him fall off ezier. But everytime I push glenn off and he flies, everyone gasp again. Make me feel like an evil freak. NO no no, glenn was the one who asked me to use more strength. After practising, G and the other director came and we were learning a new scene, Gaston's Proposal and Gaston's plan. Or sth like that. Cool, I got another role, as part of the ppl in the bar. LOL!!! Den it was fun, cus we got to sing, and I also get to drag Glenn out. COol!! Dunno la, but I pity glenn, keep getting pulled and pushed around. Let me name a few.

#1: Chased by wolves scene, gets pushed off the chair.
#2: Beast castle scene, falls down when gates are opened.
#3: Beast interrogating Maurice scene, gets dragged off-stage.
#4: Belle sacrifices herself to be captive scene, gets dragged off-stage again.
#5: Gaston's plan scene, gets dragged away again.
#6: D'Arque comes to claim Maurice scene, gets dragged away again.

LOL! See how mani times Glenn gets pushed and pulled around? Sad man. Today, for the first time, I wore the lycan mask. It feels... Odd. the eyes are slits, that might as well not be there, for I cldnt see a thing. I blindly walked. And wads more, it was suffocating me. I onli put it on for wad, 5 mins? And I was sweating like mad and suffocating too. I was practically breathing in CO2. I like Grace's voice. She sings veri well. Haiz.. I wish I volunteered for Maurice the role. Den again, if I got it, I doubt Glenn wld be gg musical. SO I guess wadeva happens its Fate and its for the best. Yeah, look to love and you will see. HAHS, nvm... Oh yeah, that dream on Friday, a short snippet of it came through today. Insignificant lar... But still... K, crap generator malfunctioning... Sign off here...

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Dream

Last night had this weird but nice dream. It is NOT wet dream, pls dun think that it is.... NEways, I shall not say the details, but it felt veri realistic. And when I woke up, I actually thought it happened and I was elated. Budden I suddenly realised I was in my room and I had been dreaming. Why cant I just continue dreaming.... Oh yeah, disclaimer, this dream is NOTHING to do with sex or anything dirty. So DUN think dirty. AFter I woke up I was so disappointed. And I also got angry, I felt as though someone was playing a trick on me. But I consoled myself by thinking some of my dreams do come true. Cus I sometimes have "premonitions" in my dreams, and they are normally realistic feeling. And after that dream, a few wks or mths later, it happens, exactly as the dream depicted it. It has happened a number of times already. Oh, this dreams also come with audio. When the "characters" inside speak, I can actually hear them, that adds to the realism. Haha, I m speaking as though it is a game. It isnt. And I wish that that dream was true. Sad... Haiz... Been a long time since I dreamt. Is this a sign? That sth good gonna happen? Or is someone playing me again, giving me hope and then brings it crashing down.

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I just read Kah Ho's blog, and it made me think alot. I felt rather ashamed at myself. I mean, Kah Ho has already started planning for his Hols, and he intends to study the whole hols! He is so concerned of his studies, me leh, slacker... I read his plans and I feel like he is rly hardworking. He onli allocated 10 hrs to relax out of the 9 x 24 hrs. Rly sth if he can follow through with his plan. Seeing this has inspired me to pull up my socks, but then again, I am veri lazy. LOL!!

Today supposed to help WP do CME project in Glenn house, but Glenn decided to go Dex house, so end up we cannot do at his house, then Dex also dun allow WP to do at his house. Wah, make me cycle to Glenn house for nth. Nvm, at least train muscles. Budden, the time clda been better spent sleeping, since Wednesday is supposed to be for me to slack out of the whole week. Why? Monday got musical, reach home almost 7 liao, no time rest. Tuesday got Bethany Home, reach home 6+, rest 1 hr onli. Thursday, musical again, reach home 7 also. Friday got Peng remedial, reach home abt 3+, but Friday considered weekend liao. Luckily this week last week of school. Since I cld not do CME at Glenn house, I decided to cycle to Dex house wif Glenn. Then Glenn was showing off that he can cycle without hands. Reach Dex house we parked our bikes go gym workout. I tried pull up and managed 3, did not actually continue. I have resolved to train my pull up in the holiday, I aim to do 7. I believe I can do it! Shinjiru! I still keep accidentally swearing, and I do not understand why. Maybe I am just too used to? But I realli realli wanna stop using curse words. But I believe, with determination, I can remove them from my dictionary. 2 days ago I was talking to my mom, then I asked her if I am rude. She said I am not, but from my voice, pple will think I am rude, cus I always speak in a monotone and like veri bored wif that person like that. I also wanna change that. However, this problem onli surface when I chat wif girls, so I think I shud stop being so act cool and speak PROPERLY. I think it is STUPID for me to speak until like that, or maybe cus I am shy?

Watched this Korean drama ytd. The main character said sth veri meaningful. However, it was used in the context of golf, but can be applied to real life. Bad players question the club, good players question their skills. In this sense, we shud be questioning what have we done wrong, and not blame others when sth goes wrong. This is esp evident in ROZI. But what the heck, life wld be better if I do not try to reform others. He also said sth else profound. Good players watch for the target, bad players watch for the hazards. This can be interpreted as successful people FOCUS on their targets and not waiver from it, whereas common people watch out for the DANGERS, and when DANGERS exist, they tend aim to NOT hit the danger and end up they do not hit the target too. I hope you get my drift. Or the guy's drift. Whatever.

I think, from this day onwards, in whatever I do, I shall give my all. That way I will not leave room for regrets, for thoughts like "ARRGH I SHUD HAVE STUDIED HARDER" or "ARRGH I SHUD HAVE VOLUNTEERED FOR THAT ROLE" or "ARRGH, I SHUD HAVE TAKEN THAT OPPORTUNITY.." Life is full of regrets, but we shud try and minimise them. When you do have a regret, no use crying over spilled milk, no amount of tears can turn back the hands of time. Instead, make sure u do NOT lose such opportunities and dun give this sneaky evil a chance to backstab you. Actually, I have no idea who reads my blog, except I am pretty sure MX reads it. Hmm, ppl who read can tag? Well, I treat my posting like EW. Helps me improve my writing skills. The more used I am to write, the faster I can write, although I can write fast enough. Mrs Hoe was talking to us abt this girl in the O's who wrote 1000 words in the essay and scored A1. So everyone in my class, naturally, was awed. What awed me, was not the fact that that girl wrote 1000 words, but the fact she scored A1. In fact, 1000 words.. I've been writing that amount for exams. This year diagnostic test I wrote 1000+. Last year End-of-Year I also wrote 1000+. So did I 2 years ago during Sec 2. I wrote an essay 1000+, but end up I scrapped it and wrote my essay in 15 mins to hand in. It was EOY. Haha, Glenn saw me rushing through it. So, speed and word count does not make me WOW over an essay. It is the grade.

Was reading this chinese essay, it was talking abt human right to know sth and the right not to know sth. How mani times have a movie been spoiled just because someone who watched it before starts to comment and tell you what is going to happen? I bet everyone will have such an experience. At least everyone who watches movies before. So what the author is trying to express is sometimes, it is better for us not to know things in advance. Then the author gave an example, what if someone knows his whole life from start to end. When he is going to die, his life story, the ups and downs. That person probably will not work hard for if he is doomed to die young, he surely do not see the point in working hard, whats more, the thought will plague him and he will constantly worry of his death. When the pandora's box opened, 7 evils emerged, I shall not name them, however, the last evil, premonition, did not escape. Luckily so, for when everyone knows the future, there will definitely be chaos. Life wld lose its meaning and excitement, the thrill you get when you do not know what is going to happen nxt, each step illuminates the nxt. Life is meant to be like this. Anywaes, I believe life is just a stepping stone to Heaven. We shud be more concerned of long-term happiness in Heaven. Of course, it does not pay to screw up life too. Life is precious, so treasure it. I have already wasted so many years of my life... Looking back, w8, I do not have regrets. I do not regret slacking in P6 and end up in this school. I do not regret not studying hard and go into ACSI. I do not regret joining choir. For if I had not came into this school, had I not joined choir, I wld definitely not have met Grace. Even if never meant to be, there is at least a known before. That I have met someone so talented. That our paths crossed. Even if it was once. Even if it only brought me misery subsequently. I do not regret doing what I have done. I guess when you do not regret, you would be much happier. Life is meant to be happy. Live it. Enjoy it.Treasure it. Do not wait until your death bed then you regret not treasuring your life, not living it to the fullest. Sure, work is impt, but play is what we are meant to do. After all, work was invented by humans. In the Garden of Eden, Adam and Eve did not work. My advice is enjoy this life that God has entrusted you with. Do things that you like. There are commitments too, but try to enjoy doing them. Example, if you realli do not want to study today, then Don't. It is not going to do you good if you keep trying to mug it. It just makes you miserable n is totally inefficient.

Oh no.. I am so.. talkative? Typative? Boring? Haiz, crap too much. I hope you have gain some insight in life, this are just my 1/2 a cent worth of opinion and views. Why half a cent? CUs it is not worth 2 cents. LOL!!! K lar, pls tag if you do read my blog, and do share your views, even if you do not agree with me. Remember, great minds discuss ideas!

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Dotx, became an extra, but what the heck. I got a lycanthrope role. Lol..

Last week I was watching Campus Superstar, and actually, I find that Grace sings better than those contestants. Felt the quality was not there so I ended up going to do A maths, which speaks alot.. NEways, I think my toe has infection already. My nail grew inside the flesh and I cannot walk properly. Today was better than ytd. Ytd after I got home cannot move, if not v pain.

New resolution for me is dun use swear words. However, they unintentionally come out. Haiz, I need to work harder on it. Ytd waited for my mom in Lot 1 until 8. I went Popular and read a book on horoscope. Basically looked at mine lar, Horsey!! The drawing on the front was soooo cute. IT says I am impetuous, does things based on feeling and not logic. Which can also be seen as impulsive. I also looked at the snake one, it says does things based on logic not feeling. Lol.. Den my horoscope also says I shud be myself. Yeah, gonna be myself! But who am I? Haiz... After that went Mac to do my homework, since I dunno how long my mom gonna take, so dun waste time.

Peng gave us a chinese compo, mus use sth to represent sth else, like Willow trees to represent longlasting friendship. I was thinking abt it, I initially wanted to copy the story in the handbook, the one abt butterfly struggling to escape, is like success, struggle a little, den fly. However, figured that Peng wld probably recognize it, so I decided to compare butterfly to dreams. Dreams, like butterflies, are beautiful, but fragile. Many dreams are broken, you have to protect them carefully. Defend them from the wind. After all, dreams are easily erased by the wind, just as how a gust wld destroy a butterfly.

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Okie, another post, and I am still pondering if I shud follow TY and Dex and rate the ppl in the clan.

Friday was career fair. I was looking forward to it actually, but for no reason. That day me n WP went to nearby coffeeshop to eat lunch since we dun wanna eat school food. Den while eating WP was preaching to me abt the Bible, the last chapter, Revelations. Until now I still spooked by it.. After that WP was like talking to me abt the difference between infatuation and love. I was confused so he gave me an analogy. You know how when you want sth you will go the the ends of the earth to get it, but when you get it you dun want it anymore? Same thing. Infatuation is if you dun want that thing (in this case a human) after you get it, but love is different, you will treasure it more when you get it. So he asked me if I am infatuated with Grace or realli love her. So using the analogy, I pondered over it. For me, when I haf to fight realli hard to get sth I want, I will treasure it, but when I gain sth easily, I tend to neglect it after I get it. So, I feel that myself, if I gain sth, I probably will neglect it, but this is with items, not humans. With humans, I cannot give a solid answer. So I spent some time thinking abt what WP asked, and my answer was I THINK I will treasure her more. But I do not know for sure, it is just like a hypothesis. I do not think I will neglect her if she agrees, not that I think she will. But we brushed it aside, cus it is too theoretical, no concrete evidence.

Career fair was funny to me. Cus I wasn't looking at the unis, save for NTU. My whole time was spent finding ppl. First, find WP. I found him pretty fast, Fate! The nxt person I saw was Grace, but at that time we were finding Glenn, cus I met Ben while on escalator, den he was like "why go everywhere meet you?" Fate lar... We thot Glenn went FIFA exhibition, so went dwnstairs, den kena scolding from Tiger, he thot we run home. LOL!!! After xplaining we went back into the career fair. Then, WE SAW GLENN!! And Glenn was wif Ben liao, den they were finding Grace. Cus Ben wanna c how Grace look like. Serfee and Joanna asked me who Ben was, den I told them his name, but I think tell name also no use. Haha, maybe they interested in him? After that walk for like 20 mins, den saw Michele Cheow, den Ben was dragging WP to her, and WP was fighting to get away. LOL!!! That day WP and Ben keep gaying together.. Weirddd... After that do more walking, den met Tiger!! Den Tiger was chatting wif Ben while we just watched... After that, suddenly, Grace and her grp of frens were walking towards our direction! Hmm, when not finding den find someone, haha... That is wad I learnt that day. When ur looking for someone, you will haf a hard time finding, when you do not have the intention of finding someone, you will end up meeting that person. Den WP suddenly run up to Grace den ask her turn arnd den say he got fren wanna meet her, den at that time Ben was trying to push me to her. If he actually used force I surely stumble over liao.. I hope she did not get a shock.. But I think she thought Ben was bad influence, since he looks punkish. After that didnt do much, cept me n WP went Bras Basah to look at guitars.

Saturday newspaper collection. No elaboration, except my class was like 30 mins collect papers and 1 hr play at playgrnd. LOL!! Oso, while walking back to school, Rozi did not notice that half the class was missing!! Wow, wad a good chaperone.. Nth much happened on Sat. Sunday was WORSE!! Sunday equate to A maths day.. I was chionging my A maths papers. VLee gave 4!! Do until sooooo sian... Now I can finally relax, lol...

OK, I just decided, I am going to rate clan members. If you find it offensive, den too bad, you chose to read it. But dun worri, I will not use swear words, since my new resolution is to stop using swear words.

Clan LegO:
WP: My best friend and best clan mate. Dunno wad to do without him. School would probably be VERY boring without him. Preaches to me too, so I am very thankful. I hope I can be a good friend to him too. I mean, I hope I am.

Glenn: Used to feel he is my good friend, but recently, I dun feel so. He is like growing distant and if he does not treasure me as a friend, no sense in me keeping him as one. Right now I just play DotA with him and talk to him in the musical. Other than that I dun interact with him anymore.

Dexter: Thought he was my friend, but always seem to ignore me or give cold replies when I talk to him. EVEN when I am not saying sth stupid or senseless. However, he is a very loyal friend.

TY: Dun rly like him, I think he has a lousy attitude. However, like Dexter, I respect his non-backstabbing attitude. He is smart but not using his intellect well, so also no use. Also thinks his badminton skill very good and music is easy to learn. His dreams will come crashing down when he starts taking up music again. LOL.

TJ: Overall a great guy except for his nonsense. Nth much to comment cus he is abit distant from us.

Jin Zhe: I respect this guy alot. I like his matured way of thinking, and his tolerance of jokes targetted at him. Came to realise he is REALLI FUNNY!! Glad to know him and haf him as a friend.

WZ: I absolutely DO NOT like this guy. He is like a WAY detestable version of TY. Ya, he does not backstab, but his attitude is alot WORSE than TY.

GX: No comments, I dunno him.

George: I feel he is better than Glenn, at least he treats me better. Not so cold towards me. Oh, George is Glenn's brother. Den again, when you keep seeing someone, you tend to neglect that person, while if you see that person less, maybe you will treat him better. He is also very funny.

Ben: Punkish guy that sports long hair dyed brown. Haha, that hair is going to go after he goes to the army!! Heard he is very rich, he treat us to mac on Friday. Very soloist when playing DotA. Also a very funny guy. His manner of carrying himself may make others who do not know him think he is a bad influence, but after you know him, he is not that bad.

Choon How: Saw him once onli, very quiet. So not much to comment.

Ok, thats the end. If you feel insulted, it is not meant to insult you. But it is just what I feel. At the end of the day, you can choose not to remember wad I just typed and you can think it is all nonsense. The choice is yours.

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Favourite quotes

"Sick and tired of this world, there's no more air.."- Ryan Cabrera
"Going nowhere, waiting, suffocating, no direction.."- Ryan Cabrera
"You're all I wanted, you're all I needed.."- Ryan Cabrera
"Deep inside the corner of my mind, I'm attached to you.."
"I'm weak, it's true, cus I'm afraid to know the answer.."
"Cus my heart keeps falling faster.."- Ryan Cabrera
"I've waited all my life.."- Ryan Cabrera
"It's time to try anything to be with you.."- Ryan Cabrera
"All my life I've waited.."- Ryan Cabrera
"I'm scared to know the ending.."- Ryan Cabrera
"I know when I go, I'll be on my way to you, the way that is true.."- Ryan Cabrera
"Every little piece of the puzzle doesn't always fit.."- Sara Evans
"You may wonder how I can promise you now this love I feel for you always will be.."- Randy Travis
"You are not just time I am killing.."- Randy Travis
"As sure as I live, this love that I give, is gonna be yours until the day that I die.."- Randy Travis
"I'm gonna love you forever and ever, forever and ever amen.."- Randy Travis
"They say time takes its toll on a body, makes your younger and brown hair turn grey, but honey I dun care, I ain't in love with your hair.."- Randy Travis
"They say time plays tricks on memory, make pple forget things that they knew, its ez to see its happening to me, I've already forgotten every woman but you.."- Randy Travis
"It's hard to see the pain behind the mask.."- Martina Mcbride
"Bearing the burden of a violent storm.."- Martina Mcbride
"Through the wind, and the rain, she stands high as a stone.."- Martina Mcbride
"In a world that she can't rise above.."- Martina Mcbride
"But her dreams, give her wings, and she flies to a place where she's loved.."- Martina Mcbride
"Her name is written on a polished rock, a broken heart that the world forgot.."- Martina Mcbride
"I guess its not what you take when you leave this world behind you, its what you leave behind you when you go.."- Randy Travis
".. Taking off your makeup, wonder even why you even put it on.."- Rascal Flatts
"But baby you don't need it.."- Rascal Flatts
"Wish that you could see what I see when it's gone.."- Rascal Flatts
"But I can't help, falling in love with you.."- Elvis Presley
"Would it be a sin, if I can't help, falling in love with you.."- Elvis Presley
"Take my hand, take my whole life too, for I can't help, falling in love with you.."- Elvis Presley
"You know I'd walk a thousand miles if I can just see you tonight.."- Vanessa Carlton
"But I got lost a time two, wiped my brow kept pushing through, I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you.."- Rascal Flatts
"Every long lost dream led me to where you are.."- Rascal Flatts
"Others who broke my heart, they were like Northern stars.."- Rascal Flatts
"Pointing me on my way into your loving arms.."- Rascal Flatts
"God bless the broken road that led me straight to you.."- Rascal Flatts

Lolz, just some quotes from songs that I realli like. Most are pretty meaningful.. Can even use in compo! Or poems, or wadeva.. Or just for appreciating... These songs can be found on Windows Media Player Media Guide, just type in the title in the search box.

Recommended songs:
On The Way Down- Ryan Cabrera
True- Ryan Cabrera
Concrete Angel- Martina McBride
Just the Girl- The Click Five
Perfect- Sara Evans
Three Wooden Crosses- Randy Travis
Forever and Ever Amen- Randy Travis
Fast Cars and Freedom- Rascal Flatts
Bless the Broken Road- Rascal Flatts

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