Happy birthday to Grace :):)!

Happy birthday to my blog :):)!

Yepp, 31st Jan is a special date for me haha. Ok, for those of u who dun get it, im too lazy to xplain.

Yaa, I cant believe I have blogged for 2 yrs now, I wld have thought after 1 year I would stop.

Den again, there are alot of things that I thought and proved wrong.

It's funny, that this is my own blog, and yet out of fear of wad ppl might think, I cant type wad i thought and proved wrong.

Well, one of them can, I thought I wld forget abt her but well, to make a long story short, she's always on my mind.

Wondering why I'm typing in such short paragraphs. I guess its to make this post look long. I rly have nothing much to post, I'm too lazy to post abt happenings in school. Ok, maybe one.

Had quite a long chat wif Joel today, found out he goes to Glory Presbyterian church. Same one TY goes to. And that he has a personal website wif his twin, http://www.theohbrothers.com. I find him a v nice guy, just somewhat shy. And he plays the drums. Lol.

I'm quite distressed as to wad to do wif my time tmr. I have 2 hrs of nothing-to-do-ness. And after school, my sis wld be coming and WP too. Lol. There goes a quiet time observing ppl doing their PE.

(Ya, Alan knows why I enjoy watching ppl do their PE. Derek too I think.)

Ok, seriously have nothing else to post as life falls into a routine. I need sth unexpected and exciting to happeN!

[Wrath]
Who did you last get angry with?
>My God, I dunno! I'm a peace-loving person :).

What is your weapon of choice?
>Nukes anyday :).

Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
>yes.

How about the same sex?
>yes.

Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
>Frankly, no idea :). Should be someone frm my class haha.

What is your pet peeve?
>Err... Ok, I shall not pretend I understood this qn.

Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
>I keep them....... for 5 minutes?

[Sloth]
What is one thing you're suppose to do daily that you haven't?
>Er.. My homework?

What is the latest you've ever woken up?
>1-3pm

Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
>Er, Grace!

What is the last lame excuse that you made?
>Can't rmb seriously... I am so lame that almost everything I say is lame.

Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?
>yes.

How many times do you usually hit the snooze button on your alarm clock?
>I dun have an alarm clock!

[Gluttony]
Are you a meat eater?
>yes.

What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
>1 can. ( Yeah, I know, v little..)

Are you comfortable with your drinking and eating habits?
>No, my eating capacity varies to a great extent.

Do you enjoy candy and sweets?
>OK, I dun rly care much for them.

Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods?
>I love food, case closed.

Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"?
>LMAO! THIS IS FUNNY! But no :).

[Greed]
How many credit cards do you own?
>1000000 X 0.

If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
>SPEND SPEND SPEND!!! No idea spend on wad, but.. SPEND!

Would you rather be rich or famous?
>Rich, I dun care much abt having ppl know me.

Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks?
>Lets see. Yes. And after 1 year I quit. HAHA!

[Lust]
How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)?
>One, myself :).

What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice?
>Face?

Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons?
>Sadly. No. I'm a virgin :). And I havent kissed :).

Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a person of your chosen sex during a normal conversation?
>Nope.

[Envy]
What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
>Eh, no idea.

If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be?
>JUNNO!!!

Have you ever been cheated on?
>No idea.

Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
>Sob, height sob...

What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
>No idea..

[What deadly sin... ]
Do you do the most often?
>sloth.

Do you do the least often?
>lust.

Is your favorite to act on?
>Er.. dun understand.

*****

1. Have u ever *really* been in love?
Yepp

2.If yes,how many times?
1 timess.. I'm only 16 :).

3.Is there someone who u like at the moment?
Haha, yes, but only 1 person I LOVE.

4.Do u think u'll never stop loving someone once u start?
Weird phrasing, this qn..

5.What does love feel like?
Painful, painful, painful, painful.. Bittersweet, falls short of wad movies make them out to be, painful. Haha, how can I emphasize more, PAINFUL!

6.Is it different with different people?
Guess so.

7.What is ur dream person like?
her.

8.Are you ready to fall in love again?
No, NEVER WILL AGAIN!

9.If not, do u think u'll really have a choice?
Nope, hence I will not fall in love again.

10.What are two things u've learned from being in love?
1- NEVER TELL THAT PERSON!
2- There is no such thing as fairytale-like love.

11.Have you ever given or been given roses?
Nope.

12.Are most high school kids infatuated or in love?
infatuated, definitely.

13.Do u think that u should become friends with someone first?
Like duh? Its the safest route!

14.Have u ever had ur heart broken?
lets see, worse than that? Like blasted to smithereens?

15.Do u believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
Nope, but I believe in "Once broken, forever broken"

16.Have u ever broken someone's heart?
I guess so, my mom.

17.Are u the one who makes the move or do u wait for them to make the move?
I make the move. ANd fall flat on my face.

18.At what age did u start noticing the opposite/same sex?
Sec 2 for opposite, Primary sth for same.

19.Where would you like to go on a first date?
Anywhere she would like to go :).

20.Can u trust him/her?
Yes, definitely.

21.Would he/she commit to u?
Ask her that.

22.Do u want to be with him/her right now?
YES! I RATHER BE WIF HER THAN ANYWHERE!

23.Why don't u call them?
I dono wad to say, she wld be irritated.

24.What would you do if you were given him/her & urself for a day, together?
I'll take her to places she likes, do stuff she likes, And at the end of the day, propose to her.

25.Is that ur final answer?
Yes, sure.

Watched High School Musical the 8th time today, haha, that show just ROX! We should have done it as our musical instead of B&B :). Got more dance inside woots!

Ok, today was a slacky day. First up maths tutorial. Must have been the early morning that caused our minds to continue sleeping. Me n derek kept making mistakes in our identity swapping. Example, when the teacher calls me, I will answer accidentally instead of derek, and when she says derek, derek will answer accidentally. However, we insisted we were who we said we were and the teacher did not ask further. Den, do qn on board time. I volunteered to xplain qn 8. den xplain xplain and the teacher said thank you wei rong, and i said Im derek, and she apologized!! Den the girls sittin in front said we swapped identities !&*(). Darn, den she grew doubtful and asked us again. Howver, we insisted we werent lying and then someone asked whether the teacher trust the girls or trust us. Naturally, being a female, she trusted the girls. So I said those girls are liars, they are in computing course which girls wldnt take, so they arent conventional girls and thus are liars. Lol. After that the teacher walked over to check our names. she flipped my maths tutorial, no name, maths lecture notes, no name, file, no name. den DAMN SHE FLIPPED MY PHYSICS NOTES. Lol, and I wrote my name on that. Ahh crap crap crap...

Maths lecture we skipped it. Unanimous vote haha, it was spontaneous. We were like "Sian leh, dun wanna go maths lecture, AP GP so ez... Ok pon, pon ah? Pon? Ok pon." Case closed, we skipped maths lecture. Lol.. CT time, after my speech my form teacher praised me o.0... SHe said I was confident, know what I want, and isnt ashamed of saying "I'm rich". Den she said I can be a future leader lol. Hopefully.

Derek left school early today cos he needed to attend some seminar. Cool. And about half the class went to NYP. Not cool. I wanted the whole class to go. Den I can be "guai kia" (Good boy) and be the only one left in my class! Haha.. Sigh, however 10 other ppl stayed wif me. CRAP! Computing we had to write a programme to solve 3 qns. EZ.. Chinese the teacher let us do wad we want cos the class too few ppl. She's a rly nice chinese teacher lor. Den she was like talking to me n kiat lee. Haha..

KL and I decide to try out sth. We went to the cafe and ordered ice lemon tea without ice. Guess wad? They gave us one cup of ice lemon tea. NO ICE! Means we get ALOT more drink for wad we paid, compared to wif the ice. Den we tried again, ice lemon tea without ice, den say on second thought abit of ice wld be good. HAHA! IT works!!

Sigh, nowadays I just wanna stay back in school and walk around the compound. Dun feel like going home. GO home nothing to do one, so boring. Play computer until bored alr. I wanna stay in school and watch ppl do their PE, go for their CCAs. Haha, so interesting to watch them run.

Need to update our GP site soon. SIgh.. So much stuffs to do, yet I'm too lazy to do them. Nxt Wednesday is GW birthday and my blog anniversary. Hopefully sth interesting happens on that day :). The following monday is the release of our O level results. YahoO! I'm quite excited to be able to receive it. (And of course to see her, havent seen her since PJC finale night). SHe grew very tanned. Everyone I know who entered AC came out very tanned. Even glenn. Jin zhe. And I'm still irritated wif the MOE way of doing things. Screw them.. Screw HMT..

First and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLENN!!! Yepp, today, 23rd of Jan, is Glenn's bday!!! Most honourable chieftain turns 17!! lol -.-..

Okok. So some of you may want to wish Glenn a happy belated birthday. It'll brighten up his day knowing people care! Also, Grace bday is coming up and my blog 2nd anniversary too :):)..

Results are gonna be released soon, and actually, I'm quite nervous. Yet, I am excited to be able to receive it soon. Today lessons quite boring. Lunch me derek and kiat lee went out to eat at mac, since we had 90 mins of break. Econs lecture stinks.. We changed lecturer and the new one is so bitchy. She insists we sit on alternate seats -.-.. Computing equally crappy, the teacher refused to on the aircon and we spent 1 hr sweating in the computer lab. Its DAMN uncomfortable. Den Physics tutorial I had to stand cus I forgot to bring black file. Aiyo... Maths tutorial did binomial expansion exercise, so sian. I h8 binomial expansion, so tedious.

Ok, my school ice lemon tea is RLY NICE!! Can be bought from the cafe for $1. Lol.. I'm thinking of taking 4 H2s after JAE. Provided I qualify for it. Me n Derek were also looking at university brochures in the library. We realised that career opportunities that require chem is rly few. Mostly says Either physics or chem. Wow, so why learn chem..

I cant access the Private server for MU anymore!! Oh no!! I went to Atlans and den the game crashed cus of a missing file. Subsequently I cannot load the same character cus the game will just keep crashing. DARN!!

Wow.. Weird title huh. Just finished exploring Derek's website and concluded I'm wasting my life. I was looking at what he does in his free time compared to what I do in mine. He comes up wif self-initiated DIY projects that sound rly cool (a la Class IIIb laser and infra-red cam) during his supposedly free time. When I'm free, all I do is play games (lifeless ones at that) or lie on my bed staring at the ceiling for hours. Sometimes I enjoy standing by my window and look into the distance and stare for half an hour. And no, I'm not enjoying the scenery, I'm spacing out. Other favourite free-time activities I do include plugging my MP3 player earphones into my ear and listen to songs for as long as I can. Also I enjoy meditating on my bed with my dog. Sometimes, I also do peer counselling. I talk to my dog about all the ****ed up-ness of my life. Ya, you get the point, I'm rly not putting my life to good use! I should be motivated to do something, maybe not designing lasers or infra-red cameras, but I could say take up programming on my own? Write a programme on my own? Create a flash game? Heck, or even clean up my room.

Backtrack: I kinda enjoy meditating wif my dog, having peer couselling wif it, and lying down on my bed staring at the ceiling for hours. Sometimes I find life full of shit.

Ok, so I may not be a science guy like derek. I'm kinda an art guy. Some novel I have started on last year is still waiting to be completed. Maybe I shall go complete it. BUt I've written to a writer's block and have no idea how to continue. Stuck at chapter 5 I think. Thinking of joining dance actually. Oh w8, thats so random!!! Watched High School Musical 3 times. And I was thinking, how much fun it must be to be in the cast, singing and dancing. Gosh, I suddenly have a fetish for dancing. It just seems so cool and fun!! Of course, PJC ppl dun like. No idea why, they laugh at ppl who audit for choir and dance. ANyway, ppl who go PJC are called PJeons (pronounced pigeons). Sth I came up wif.

Come to think of it, I may not be lifeless after all. It's just I like to spend my time differently. I dun like self-imposed projects. Maybe cus I dun like responsibilities? But that doesn't make me irresponsible. I just like slacking off, enjoying life at its simplest and finest.

"Am I rly enjoying myself..?" Dono, everyday just seem like a day of worries and problems. No, I'm not feeling stressed out by JC. I feel like a genius at PJC man. I slack off in lectures, tutorials I'm spacing out, and I dun even bother doing homework. All that and I can still understand wads going on. "Not to mention some ppl are rather dim.." Shall not say who. "You have no idea who.." True.. I duno who, just know there are.

When does life have a meaning? Isit after u accomplish something big? After you gotten your degree? When you make your first million? When you meet your true love? Nope, I dun think its any of this. Life has meaning cus you think it has meaning. If you think slacking off everyday is meaningful then your life has meaning. That when you die you are satisfied with your life. You find it meaningful that while you lived you slacked off. A meaningful life doesn't have a fixed definition. You define it.

I should put a disclaimer on my blog. Just have no idea how to make it display everytime someone comes. I dun want it in the form of a popup since its annoying. And I also wanna compose a tune for one of my college songs titled "Perfect Strangers". Never got around to it. Thought of abit here and there but didn't write it down. It ain't even mine actually, just while listening to it, felt it could be improved.

CNY is comin and results are going to be released soon. I just wanna be out of PJC and go to some better JC. Actually, only 2, NJC and ACJC. All the other JCs I dun wanna go. I have not gotten my next issue of PC Gamers yet. Popular still haven't received their stock. Crap. What's more I think they only import 1 issue? Sigh, I hope I'm not too late.

Footnote: I dono why every time I settle down to blog I begin to forget what I wanted to blog about.

Back to post. Just realised there are quite a number of ppl in this world called Wei Rong. Haha, did a google on myself. There's this one, who has a blog and is currently in sec 4. My God, I thought it was some other blog i created without realisin it! Haha. Anyways, DotA trials today ran smoothly. I think. It's 2v2, and it's 12 mins. Sigh, that is so lame.

Today we have our first tutorials. Woohoo!! Our physics teacher quite chio haha, but v weird one. She can speak nicely for one second and suddenly her voice turn fierce for the next before returning to normal. At first very scary but I got used to it. Haha. She just went through the qns wif us. Have PE today also, soooo tiring. Run 5 rounds. I wish got SLACK PE! Haha. Lucky today must take height and weight, if not I dun think will be that simple. Maybe run 6 rounds. After run 5 rounds still must do Pull ups. Haiz.

Sth funny happened today. I think the canteen got some chio bu frm the school. Then all the J2 guys were like "Eh, so-and-so is in the canteen now, wanna go c anot?" Horny guys, all of them charged down to the canteen. Ah well, it sure was funny. I didnt go cus.... Im not horny haha!.

Anyways, my school no pretty girls one. Only got one girl look abit like *. And rly abit. Not alot. I think she got say Hi to me one day after lecture, but I nv reply cos I thought she talking to someone behind me. Den after awhile i turn around but behind me no one and she was still standing at my row there. I dun think she was calling to the opposite row cos she spoke quite softly some more. But nvm, Dun wanna think abt it, so long ago liao. Insanity lvl is at 72%! OH NO!!!! Left 28%!!! Must work my insanity doWN!!! Any ideas anyone???

KK, I go bang my head on the wall now. BYE!

"All of the things I've been looking for, always have been outside of my door.."

So long nv post alr.. Not much to update abt my life. JC feels so.. Sec School-ish, only difference is I dun have Glenn or Grace or WP.. And HPs are allowed.. And my allowance got a 2X increase.. Lectures feel like a massive class, tutorials feel same. Even my computing teacher remind me of Mr Ng. Sigh.. At least I spend less time being lifeless at home. PE also can kill ppl one, run 3KM sianz.. 2 hr of PE evry week also v sian... Haiz.. Tmr got DotA trials..

Maths so lame, taught Partial Fractions and Binomial Expansion.. Physics even lamer, teach SI units, Uncertainties, and Vectors. Vectors the lamest one, its E maths vectors. Wt, so me derek and kiat lee just slack durin Phy lecture. We did the tutorials. Oh, that isnt slack. Lol. Econ keep talking abt scarcity, so lame! We get it alr!!!

Oo, and computing we learnt a few lines, which I have no idea which line does wad.

#include

void main()

{

cout << "I am lame!";

}

shud be sth lidat. ALl it does is to cause ur comp to create a message "I am lame!" in MS dos. And we had 1 hr to learn that. Wt?! The teacher just kept ranting abt non-important stuff. Ok, i think i know wad cout means alr, its command output! yay! The teacher also said 2 funny stuffs today. Er, not realli funny, but gives u the -.-|| face.

#1 "Ok, you can now switch on your computers. To switch on, press the round button on the CPU" - Come on, I think everyone knows that? Or they wun even join computing?

#2 "Everyone press control alternate delete together." - Ok everyone, on the count of 3 press control, den count 3 press alternate, we must press control alternate delete together or the computer will not log in. It's a test of our teamwork!

So me n derek just gave each other the diao look. Me n Dex bought Glenn a bday present, a SPONGEBOB CUSHION!! Haha, he can bring to lecture and slp on it! Actually I wanted to get for him a SUPER big dog plushie but dex say too EX and cannot garuntee TJ WP and TY will share cost. My bday ez lar, just get for me PS3 can liao :):).. Haha..

Woots, Seishun Amigo is a nice song!! And everyone watch Nobuta Wo Produce!! 10 Eps onli, v fast watch finish, and got Misa Misa inside!

Games WANTLIST:
Supreme Commander
C&C 3
S.T.A.L.K.E.R.
Alan Wake
Spore
Overlord
Bioshock

Lol, am I greedy? Yepp Yepp.. And I like playing Burnout. Went to Best Denki to play on Saturday. Played one hour wif Glenn Jeremy and Dex. Lol, I first-timer got silver medal! The rest struggle to get bronze HAHA! I'm a natural ROAD-RAGER!! Lol.. So damn fun!!

Objects WANTLIST:
PS3
PSP

Ok, this not so greedy. Lol. PS3 can playback videos also and is the cheapest blu-ray player around! According to Derek. Lol..

Ok, I shud rly be sleeping, its 11 10 PM. Just blogging to keep myself awake longer, hopefully she comes online. But nvm, cannot stay up later alr, later mom scold.

P.S: 02 Jam is fun.

My only wish this year, is for her. Sigh.. Same as last year.. And the year before..

"..alone.."

Firstly before I start posting anything, Happy New Year!

Ok, so if ur wondering why the weird title, it simply means to me, 2007 will be the same as 2006. I mean, its gonna be just as shitty. Isit a bad omen to start a new year wif negative thoughts? As long as you have negative actions I think its ok, since negative negative positive. Or wad Mr Ng says.

Today, boring like ****. All I did was play NWN 2. And den played one round of DotA, won 2v5. And I wasnt the 5. After that George n Ben came online so I started another round of DotA. Halfway through I had to eat my dinner and Glenn n WP ask me go out cycle wif them. So I left the game and ate and took my bike out. Cycling on a flat tire is HORRIBLE. Can totally feel the sluggishness of the control. ANyways, found a new love. No, it isnt a girl. Its cycling alone at night.

Since long ago, People felt the night has some magic in it, albeit sinister. Somehow this magic is hypnotic and it makes me feel peaceful. Wads more, since there is nobody on the streets, I can cycle and sing all I want. Heck, even though the person opposite can probably hear but I dun rly care, for it seems they cant. Budden, got problem. Becus I sing den got shortness of breath, can't breathe properly. Of course got solution, cycle slowly. But cycle slowly dun have the exhiliration and the feeling of being free. When I cycle fast and alone I feel so free like the chains around my soul are released. When I sing while cycling and singing at home while bathing or doing nothing is realli different. Somehow can put more feeling into the song when I'm cycling.

To answer Glenn's qn. He asked me why I looked so distressed. Cus I was thinking of her, thinking wad she's doing, where is she. Sry man, though my being is wif u all, my heart is somewhere else. And wassit distressed? Lol, dono how I look but I felt realli down. And actually, ur insults didnt realli help me feel better. Dono isit u think it would make me luff or wad or u rly didnt know i was feeling down. New Year and I didnt spend it wif whom I realli wanna spend it wif. Anyways, saw Kaira Gong. Yux, her singing is mediocre and her looks are ugh... Nvm... Glenn wrote WP is a noob on the pavement wif a rock. Haha, amusing.

Does New Year bring me new friends? I dun think so. New enemies? More likely than new friends. I dun want any new friends, my current ones are good enough. With my luck, I should be thankful I dun make new enemies. This year will probably be worse than last year. Last year there's her, this year... THere's just me and my shadow. How will I survive? Same as I did last year, the year before, the year before that, Just walk through and ignore everything. Don't deviate frm the path and you wun get lost.

Wads my New Year Resolution? I resolve not to resolve to think so much and just walk through life and be done wif it. To me, you create the meaning of your life. But given my shitty luck, if I try to do anything it probably has an adverse effect. So I think I shall let nature take its course

Goku: When You fight for yourself, you will truly be strong
Sanzo: I dun need anyone who will stand in my way. If you dun fight you will die.
Bishop: Those who live are those who fight.
Naruto: When you protect someone, you will truly be strong

So... Naruto's values aren't true!! Beginning to respect Bishop. Used to hate him so much.

Sometimes it disgusts me when ppl say happy new year. What is so happy about the new year? Its the same damned thing happening again and again. I wanna break out of this damned vicious cycle. I HATE the same thing. Why cant things be different? Why cant I be happy/lucky for a change? I hate being a hypocrite. I hate hypocrites. I HATE MYSELF! Can I let go?

Optimist: Change yourself, and you can change the people around you, den u can change the community, den country, den the world!
Pessimist: I shall be the world and wait for someone to change himself and change the people around him and the community and his country.

I happen to be the latter. Ok, and I was gonna say nothing can change me, on second thought, YES, just follow that procedure :). I'm insane.. At least, going insane.. Ok, I shall retreat to my bed and blanket and dog. And sob out the new year. Screw myself..