"Who I am hates who I've been, but who I am is not much different from who I've been, so who I would be would hate who I am who hates who I've been..." - My twisted logic.

Did you understand the above statement? Of course you do, you are not that stupid, not like ME. Cus I do not get what I have just written and it's twisted. Why am I posting when I shud be studying SS? I dun know, you tell me.. Ok, together now, CUS I AM LAME!!!! haha.... wadeva..

NEways, just wanna post some Did you knows...

Did you know?
1) The old prime meridian was the rose line and its found in paris running through the Saint Sulpice Church? After 1966, the line was officially moved to Greenwich, England.
2) The pentagram is not the sign of the devil but is actually the sign of the sacred feminine. The lines divides themselves into the Divine proportion Phi.
3) Leonardo was once the Grandmaster of the Priory of Sion? It is a secret brotherhood that is said to guard the location of the Holy Grail.
4) Opus Dei is a Vatican prelature, a deeply devout Catholic sect. They practise Corporal mortification. Which is placing a brabed cilice belt around the waste. This cilice belt has sharp edges that dig into the skin causing pain to the wearer. When the wearer is sexually aroused, the muscles tense and the sharp edges dig deeper, causing pain that cancels the effects of lust.

ZzZ.. Nth else to post abt. Oh, felt v sad today cus my bio practical lose 7 marks already. All because of a stupid mistake. In a hurry, I drew the graph in the wrong direction and even though my points are correct, the general shape of the curve is wrong. Haiz.... Okay, I think nth else liao. Probably wun be posting until after exams..

I have decided I am not gonna post updates of my story. I will post the whole thing upon finishing. WP played a vital role in persuading me not to post haha. He wants to be the first to read it. Though I have no idea why. But heck, since he my best friend, I listen to him.

Today musical we did Waltzing again. Cool. Monday also waltzing. I LOVE waltzing, it's so FUN!!! Jordan got so many small actions tt make us laugh. I think Jordan dance so well loh.. Or isit cus the instructor dance v well? Nvm, Jordan like practise so hard, no wonder so good. Grace also dance well. Den today me n glenn decided to learn the female part also. So we took turns being guy and girl. I feel that this way, we know like wad difficulties our partners are having and we can play more of an active role to help out. Right now I got all the moves down, but the ending part the waltz one round one I dunno how to do. I keep thinking I do wrongly. Need someone to help me. N today, Grace n Eugene mus keep holding the waltz pose together, and mus call ppl to pei them. Den so funny cus they call tall girl wif short guy, so... Weird lar, like Nabil and Jia Xuan. HAHA!!! Ok, me ish so evilez, since me ish also short. I think I grew to 162? Donno. I hope to grow to 170. Seems like one far-fetched dream.

MYE is coming soon, I think everyone is bz studying for it. Hope I score well. I also began studying liaoz, but stress ah!! NEways, nid to slp soon, so I stop here bah.

Ok, I promised I would post a story, so here it is, UNCOMPLETED!!! This is merely chapter one and is already 950 words.. Haiz, it is progressing slower than I thought, I had wanted it to be short, but I fear 10,000 words would be a good estimate...

Lucifer had always been shy, and was never one to make himself the centre of attraction. His only circle of friends was limited to a few close ones. He only confided in them and not to anyone else, not even his family. He strode to school alone as usual, for loneliness was one of his closest friends and never seemed to leave him.

“ Hey Lucy! ” one of his friends shouted. Lucifer cringed at the usage of his nickname, his name had supposed to be something magnificent, for it meant Bringer of Light, but people seemed to find a way to put it down.

“ Hey Kahn! What a surprise to meet you here. ” Lucifer replied, happy to see a companion. It was rare for him to meet his friends and he was tired of loneliness accompanying him. The two then walked abreast, chatting up a storm, from choir, to Defence of the Ancients. Minutes passed like seconds and they were at the school gate.

“ Wow, it always seemed like hours before I reach here when I’ m alone, ” Lucifer wondered aloud. “It’s great to have you with me dude, glad you came when you did. Hey, wanna meet up same time same place for the rest of the year?” Lucifer asked.

“Sure, I rather like coming to school early anyway.” Kahn replied, and the twosome strode through the school gates. “It’s so ironical how the school gate is so brightly painted when it is actually the gates of Hell.” Kahn said cheekily. The two then parted ways and went to their respective classes.

Lessons were boring and Lucifer was already dozing off in his chair. It had always been a wonder to him how certain people can keep awake in class when the teacher was so monotonous and uninteresting, merely reading off the PowerPoint slide. Lucifer began wishing for the day to end so he could go for his CCA, which was choir, and is in his friends’ company. They were his only saving grace of coming to school. Otherwise, he would probably have quit school.

The bell of freedom finally rang shrilly, and everyone dashed out of the doors like a flood breaching flood breakers. Lucifer ran up the four flights of stairs to his friends’ class. Together, they trouped down to the canteen, where they had their lunch. Computer games were the common topic among them and they were happily talking about strategies they were going to use in the upcoming tournament. After eating, they packed their bags and made their way to the Music Room, for it is there the Choir practise sessions were held.

They were too early and there was no one there, so they sat down and chatted, taking advantage of the air-conditioning. Lucifer strode over to the piano, planted himself onto the seat, and began playing Canon in D. Kahn stood beside Lucifer and watched his fingers fly across the piano, hitting each key deliberately and correctly, producing a melodious tune. Kahn gave comments on the playing, and corrected some fingering positions. The door opened, and the sunlight poured in, and a girl stepped in. Lucifer never saw the girl enter and was still engrossed in his playing. She walked over to the piano and watched him play, appreciating the music. When he was done, he looked up and was shocked to see a girl staring down at him. He broke out in cold sweat for he was shy and was not used to being the attention of a girl, especially one as pretty as her. He had never seen her before, but he was simply struck by her beauty and wished he had met her earlier. It had been love at first sight and his heart was thumping wildly.

“ You play the piano well. Great song. ” She praised him, smiled, and walked away.

Lucifer flushed, his cheeks turning bright red. His friends began taking pot shots at him, making snide comments and laughing at the colour of his cheek. He rushed back to his seat and sat down.

“ Aww, love at first sight? " Kahn said cheekily.
“ Shut up! ” Lucifer retorted, embarrassed at his reaction to the compliment.
“ Fine, be that way. ” Kahn replied, pretending to be angry at the outburst.
“ Sorry, but it’s just that it’s so infuriating how you guys like to make fun of me. ” Lucifer apologized.

Soon, the Music Room began filling up as more and more people entered. Finally, the conductor was here and his entrance silenced everyone. Although he was a jolly person, when his mood was foul, no one dared to anger him further for fear of his wrath. Warm-up proceeded, and everyone began singing Oos and Las. Then, they got down to business and began practising the songs for performance. Before long, the room was filled with voices of different sections blending seamlessly producing an enchanting choir rendition of Sound of Silence. Time flew past quickly, and choir ended. Everyone got ready to leave, and Lucifer was eager to catch another glimpse of that girl who had so enchanted him. He still did not know her name and he wanted to find out. However, he did not manage to see her and disheartened, he followed his friends. The first day he saw her was gone, and it promised a series of unfortunate events and heartbreaks that was to befall him. However, Lucifer did not know of this, he thought this was good fortune and he was elated to have met her. He may have thought otherwise had he known what was to happen in the near future. For now, he was in a state of bliss of having met an angel.

Ok, under TY's pestering, actually, his comment, I shall... Post....

NEways, even if he did not pester me, I wld still have post, cus... I cannot let the blog be stagnant... NEways, there will be one SUPER long post soon... It's one of my works of cus... A story... But when I can finish it, I do not know. I estimate it to have a word count of 5000.

Hmm.. The idea for this story, came to me, at a weird time and place. It came to me while I was sleeping and on the bed, of course.. And no, there ain't no SEX. Pls lar... I'm not like this... I'm chaste ok! Of course, if this came out of the mouths of say.. Erhem erhem, den obv got PORN.. LOL!! But from me... nonono... XD, besides the point. I now thinking of how to shorten the story, cus I dun want it be longwinded. If not can be 10000 words.. Read until sian.. For the sake of making this post long, I shall add in a poem written by my sis.. For me... Haha, she is such a nice sis!! I wonder why I didn't see it there before...

Unrequited love

It’s so frustratin’
Everytime I see you
You turn away from me
As if I was the flu

It’s so frustratin’
Sitting out back
Only starin’
Afraid you’d fled

It’s so frustratin’
That I’m so close yet so far
Realize I too am a bein’
And I can’t just give you up

Do you see the end of the water
Where I wait so patiently
You are one of the rarer
That make me go so puny

Do you see the end of the water
Where my love waits
Like gold sulphur
Yet you never let it sate

Do you see the end of the water
Where I stand and declare
That you are my girl
And I’m trapped in your snare

Now I just hide in the dark
And wait for you to understand
That this is not a lark
That I’m truly in love

With you.

Well, I bet you all noticed the layout has changed.... And no... I did not do this layout. I just customized it, I did not do any real major change. I dun haf the time to start a layout from scratch, and I conveniently found this cute layout on Blogskin, so I dled it. Ok, tts all, I dun wanna post abt layouts.....

Today principal came to watch our performance up to where we learned, and I was like stressed out, cus I scared make mistake den sarbo ppl. NEways, I realli h8 leaping at Dex, everytime I leap at him I crash my knee on the floor, now got bruise and there got a bulge, cus it swollen. Luckily, this week is a short week, monday tuesday wednesday, den SPORTS day, and den GOOD FRIDAY!!! Haha, so short rite?? NEways, I tried one hand push-up, I did a grand total of......... 2 -.-ll. It's hard man!! Believe you me, its realli HARD!!

I realli want a betta role actually, although I am contented now. I am easily contented. I am wad you call a COWARD. I dun dare to fight for what I want, even if I realli want it. Like example wld be, if I tried to pursue Grace, and I have competition, I think I probably give up... But den again, I might not! I might even go to extremes, but I dun think so lar... Realli lor, everytime my mom say no to sth I dun ask anymore. I am sooooooo COWARDLY!! NEways, I practising everyone's role EXCEPT the female roles of course... Cus... Ok, dis is rather evil, but when we were at Mac today, we were like wondering wad will happen if one of the main cast fell sick on the day the performance is, wad will happen? But I dun believe so zun lar, I think at most is a few days before fall sick. I think, I wanna be... SUBSTITUTE!!! Haha, I probably can memorize their lines, I mean, how hard it is -.-... I can do a monologue from scene 1 all the way to be our guest for most of the characters. The one I know 100% is Belle, Gaston, and Maurice. Beast is like 80%.

It's killing me to know you without having a chance to hold you, and I wanna do is show you how I realli feel inside. You can run to me, or you can laugh at me, or you can walk right out that door... But we can't be just friends... Anymore..

You dun know wad its like, when nothing feels alright, you dun know wad its like to be like me, so stop envying me.... You dun know wad it feels to be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark. To be kicked, when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around. To be on the edge of breaking down, and no one's there to save you. No, you dunno wad it's like to be like me. "My shadow's the only one that walks beside me..." I do not even have a shadow... I feel so alone...

New theory patented in the US patent office: "None are born noob, Most achieve noobness, Few have noobness thrust upon them." What this theory meant, was that if you are a noob, its your own doing and no one can pull you out of this mess except yourself.

I am so sick and tired of ppl knowing my password even if I do not tell them, so I think I am going to ENCRYPT IT!! WAHAHHA!! NO MORE PPLE HACKING INTO MY ACCOUNT!! BTW, an example of encryption is: GCARENAWG. I think WP will know how to decode it. But if I set password, it will be sth like above. Seems like random letterings but if you can decode it means sth. In fact, I can even change it to numbers!! The above can be converted to: 731185141237. Or other combinations! HAHA, So... It is gonna be HARD to guess my pass now!! Not that you realli wanna hack my accounts, but I just feel like I shud do this in case some funny person wants to screw my accounts.

Okie, I dun thinx I got anything else to post, oh yeah, Clan LegO beat Clan S1nz last Friday. I felt the match was effortless and absolutely EZ to win. Ah well. Srrry for not posting for a long time XD... Felt too lazy to.

It has been almost a week since I posted, in fact, six days ago, so I decided to pop in one post.

I am currently recovering from an irritating flu. Hate it, so irritating, makes my nose blocked, so I cannot breathe properly, and my voice become veri "nasal". The sore throat phase was on Thursday and Friday, now is the Coughing phase. I dunno which I hate, but I rather not have both. Pon school on Friday, cus I too sick go school, and too sick to even talk. But now, much better, just having a bad case of blocked nose (Dreads Monday when I enter air-con classroom).

Saturday I went to Singapore Poly for a chemistry enrichment course. The most interesting part of it was perfume making. We got to synthesise our own perfume!! I remember I added alot of Cymbidium Blossom and almost nothing else. Afterall, Cymbidium Blossom sells for $2000 per KG. Our lecturer for that day was also the "judge" of the MOE for O levels and A levels test papers. He has to give the "OK" before the test papers can be used. He also sets the syllabus for O and A level. Cool man, and Singapore Poly is one BIG SPRAWLING CAMPUS!!! Their facilities are soooo COOL!! NEways, my class ppl made an interesting discovery. Perfume is the BEST insecticide. Wilson sprayed his perfume aptly dubbed "Pain" onto some ants climbing up this wall. Those in the immediate blast dehydrated and died, leaving their exoskeleton only. Insects are essentially just "armour" outside and fluid inside, and the alcohol in the perfume dehydrates them. Den those that survived, became drunk and fell off the wall. After that, no ants went near that area. Cool. Insecticide that actually smells nice!!

After that nth much, Sunday was boring, now onli left me and my mom at home. My sis stay over at her fren's place. My dad overseas. House soooo lonely... Ah, tmr musical cannot use scripts!! Anywaes, I think I memorized liao. AH! I FORGOT DANCE STEPS! Ah well, maybe I will magically recall.

Double post today.

Nowadays ppl falling sick. Nt sure why, but weirrd. Grace got sore throat today, so when in musical she was v soft. Hope she recovers fast! I also feel that I am getting a flu myself. The symptoms are settling in, blocked nose, sneezing, headache. I hope I dun fall ill. I cannot afford to pon musical training. I think even if I sick I will still turn up. Hope dun spread flu can liaoz.

Today in musical we got to do relaxation exercise. Frankly, the music was the one helping me to relax. It was a realli nice piece of music and I wanna get my hands on it. Lucky the director ask us to stretch our arms, lie down, etc. If not I surely fall asleep standing. Afterall, horses sleep standing! So, if you see me standing staring into empty space, chances are I have fallen asleep standing!! Haha, cool rite?

Today, saw Grace. And she cut her hair. Now her hair is short. From my class ppl, I heard they felt it was a bad move for her to cut her hair. To me, I still find her pretty. She still looks great, and there is nothing wrong with short hair. My sis also keeps short hair. I think after Grace cut the length same as my sis liaoz. But I like girls with pony tails, haha, but I guess... Nevermind. After all, I ain't in love with your hair. Direct quote: "They say time takes its toll on a body, makes your younger and brown hair turn grey. But honey I dun care, I ain't in love with your hair, and if it all fell out, I'd love you anyway."

I think I can guess why ppl falling sick nowadays. The humid weather coupled with the high temperature is lowering our body's immune system. THose who read this, I hope you all take care and dun fall ill. Esp now wif the bird flu thingy, it is better to stay healthy. NEways, who likes being sick? I think fall sick just to skip school is stupid. Stay at home and suffer. WOw, hardly wad I call relaxing. In fact, go school better, at least you catch up wif work, for those who skip school, they haf to rush their work to keep up wif the class. It is give and take.

Oh yeah, Glenn oso becoming a wolfie!! Wootez!!! Welcome to the club dude!! Oh yeah, Im gonna learn to sing "True" and "On the way Down". Nice songs, they are. Of course, I still like True Light. Today during break in musical I was singing "True Light" and "On the way Down". Walked one round, just nice finish both songs, so time taken abt 8 mins. The bad part of being wolfie is the mask. Small, smelly, suffocating, eyes the size of slits, barely even able to see. If they do not make the eye hole larger, on the stage itself Imma fall off the stairs and end up wif a concussion and Dexter wun be Maurice anymore cus I'd be a natural crazy loony guy. Oh yeah, Glenn today sub Eugene as Beast, den he was REALLY FUNNY!! I mean, Beast is supposed to be intimidating, but glenn is otherwise. Smiling, tone wif hints of laughter. Even his rawr is cute. He merely said the word :"Roar." Hardly intimidating. He might as well haf meowed, since he is Kitty!! Why kitty? Cus he likes cats, I think, and his account is LegO.Cat!! MEOW MEOW!! NEways, Me thinx Ive been fooling around in musical too much, me gonna get serious!! Den try to influence WP to stop being so joker also. However, we may need a livewire, as having one joker is kinda good too, helps everyone loosen up by laughing at his antics. And WP realli have alot of funny antics up his sleeves.

Ok, I just released one very loud sneeze, I think I'd better stop here, wash face, drink milk, go sleep liaoz.

---Sign off---

K, realli have nothing to post. But Here I am, sitting in front of my comp, with the sian diao look and my hands magically moving across my keyboard typing out whatever you are reading when my brain is totally blank. I realli have no idea why I even want to post. Guess I have xtra time be4 sleeping and just wanted to update my blog. But update about wad? My weekend is so boring. I almost MISSED school.

I just finished reading yet another of Dan Brown's novels, Deception Point. Like the rest, the plot is intriguing, fiction deftly woven with non-fiction. It kept me flipping the pages. In addition, the plot keeps twisting and turning, but this time, I guessed correctly who was the overall mastermind!

Today is my sister's birthday, so I would just like to say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NING NING!!! Went to BP Swenson to eat dinner, den eat bday cake! Ice cream cake!! Den went shopping for her present. I buying mine to her from Lot 1. Need 2 go shopping tmr after musical. Who wanna go wif me???? Hope someone goes wif me, guy or girl both can. Shopping myself v sian one. Girl cld be better, den can gif me hints on wad to buy. Actually, my sis narrowed down the search liao, anything to do wif BBall or Mangas.

Ok, nth else to post, and dun wanna crap anymore, so stop here..... Chao.....

Is it a sin to love you? Somehow I feel so, it's just that how can someone as imperfect as me love you? It's like I am trying to break into the upper caste.

Ytd Meet The Parents Session. My mom came to talk to Rozi, but that part nth much lar. Ytd my mom saw Grace for the first time. Lol. Den I didnt know she saw her, until dinner time when eating my mom suddenly say the girl I talk abt isit Grace Wong. Den I like huh? Wong? I dunno a Grace Wong, but my cousin is Bernice Wong. LOL!! Den I say nope, den I said is Grace Wang. Den my mom say she cldnt see tag clearly, just rmb seeing Grace W*ng. So she guessed Wong. Diao. But shud be correct lar, since she said Grace was wif 3 other girls. Which ytd when I saw was correct. The conversation was sth like that.

Mom: You know that girl you tell me abt?
Me: Ya?
Mom: I saw her today, her name is Grace Wong isit?
Me: err... No.
Mom: Maybe I saw wrong..
Me: Her name is Grace Wang
Mom: Oh, I saw Grace W*ng, cannot see clearly, but was she with 3 other girls?
Me: Should be, one was Rachel, the other I dunno, and the last one was RuYi.
Mom: I think she looks like those decent girls, but she isnt veri pretty.
Me: Oh........ (I dun realli get my mom's taste)
Dad: Are you interested in her???
Me: No...... (This is of course a blatant lie)
Mom: Why are you so eager to find out if ur son likes someone?
Dad: Oh no, my son dun like girls...
Me: Yeah, I like guys.

I feel that Grace is the prettiest girl I have ever saw, and the most talented one too.

Been feeling depressed these few days. I dunno for wad. Results? Maybe. I just dunno wad to do with my life anymore. Musical is very interesting, I felt I had alot of fun there. But, I wish I got a major role, like Maurice. I think, I am at a disadvantage cus I never had the courage or boldness to step forward and challenge for a role. Even if I had a high chance to win. I think I am too passive, I'd rather everyone got along and I dun wanna cause disputes. In fact, unless the director make me try out for the role, it is highly unlikely I wld volunteer for any role. Haiz, I think I am either a coward or indecisive. I kind of think I am a coward. I dare not do alot of things. Budden, when I went for tryouts, I wanted to try for Maurice the role, but the director never gave me a chance. After Glenn tried he immediately picked Glenn. Haiz.. Gaston's role I obviously cannot, I am neither tall, dark, nor handsome. Haiz. Beast? Nonono, I dun haf that height, nor the raspy voice. I dun even think I have the strength. Glenn lost the Maurice role to Dexter. And I feel that it is rather unfair for Glenn, he shud be given a chance to improve. In fact, today I can see that Glenn already putting in effort to improve. He even stop smiling! He also added feelings into his act. I feel v sorry for Glenn, prepare so much then lose the role. Haiz. Life is so unfair. I shud be more like Dexter, bold, daring, dare to ASK for sth. The problem wif me, even in other situations, is I dare not ask for things, even if I have the right to. Like, when I wanna swap items in the NTUC, I dun dare to walk to the cashier to demand an item switch because the one I got is "faulty". I dun dare to ask for refunds, ask for directions, ask for something, ask for ANYTHING! I dunno WHY??!! But I realli need 2 start being bolder, or else alot of opportunities gonna pass me by. Now, I already regretted when I first auditioned for the musical I wasn't aggressive enuff. I was so passive, I basically relied on the director putting me to roles. Haiz. I shud have fought for the roles.

The other time I posted abt a dream, ytd had the same dream again. Not exactly the same, just the "theme" is more or less the same. Hope it realli meant that the dream gonna come true. Dunno though.

Autumn arrives and the flower in my heart withers.....

Dunno why I posted the above line, just felt it was realli nice. I invented it :D. I think I gonna put it as my MSN nick sometime soon.

9 12-15-22-5 7-18-1-3-5

In my sEA of REd
ThERE liEs onli onE
OthERs cAn't suRvivE
SAvE my CrystAllinE DRaGon

Dragons
Green Dragon, Red Dragon, Azure Dragon, Crystal Dragon, Ebony Dragon
Reigning as the ultimatum in mythology
An aura of assurance emits from them
Channeling courage into people on its side
Erasing fear from their hearts
Inspirational
Lifting any doubts in people
Overcasting the skies of enemies
Volleying flames into their ranks
Effectively destroying thy foes

Dragons are indeed inspirational for me. My fav, numero uno, mythical beast. To me, the dragon is a symbol of undying power, unwavering courage, of not giving up for wad I stand for.

Last day of my holiday and I am here typing this... For some reason, the hols seemed to pass very fast. It felt like ytd that was the closing day of school. And now, suddenly, I am faced with the prospect of going back to school. I feel a mixed feeling of apprehension yet excitement. I feel like exciting things await me in the next term, and I wanna know what is it. Apprehension because I do not realli wanna jump back into curriculum with all the hectic schedule. Not that I had a relaxing holiday. Really, why do they call it holiday when the school still pile you with homework? That is not my idea of a holiday. Holiday shud be the abstinence of work. Let me recount what happened to me in the hols. Very brief.

Friday: Nth much, just sat at home and DotAed the whole day.
Saturday: Again nth much, same old thing, played comp.
Sunday: Still nth much, played comp.
Monday: GO back to school in morn, den go Glenn house. Afternoon came out again to go musical.
Tuesday: Realli cannot rmb wad happened today, veri hazy. BUt I dun think anything big happen. Oh, WP came my house to play.
Wednesday: Started on my homework today I think. Afternoon went Dex house lame around, den cycle to Glenn house, stay there for awhile den go home.
Thursday: Morning went Glenn house, den play there and afternoon cycled to school for musical.
Friday: Go Glenn house in morning again. Did A maths until afternoon den played.
Saturday: Today was ONE TIRING DAY. Tuition in afternoon, 2 hr break piano lesson1 hr, by now headache, den went out watch movie wif Glenn and his bro. Shaggy Dog. Got one scene in that movie remind me of the Beauty and the Beast play. Cus the villain in that story is running genetic tests on animals producing funny results, and this teacher saw it and burned down the whole lab, so he got persecuted. Then the teacher was describing the sights "A monkey that was barking! Mice that Bark! A snake wif a dog tail!" And the jury was laughing and laughing, like when Maurice ran into the bar shouting abt a Beast and everyone mocks him.
Sunday: Do the rest of my homework, otherwise, boring.

Haiz, see how fast my hols flew by? I do not even feel I had any rest. At least tmr wld be a short day for me, as after recess I going Science Centre dunno for wad. Mrs Joseph bring us there. Actually I had more to post, just that I forgot everything. Everytime I sit down want to type up a post den I forget everything. Haiz.. I think I go read Da Vinci Code now.

~~in no particular order.. list down
3 ppl you talk to online
4 ppl u see at school
2 teachers
3 ppl u love going out with
3 ppl in ur sms box

1) Grace
2) Wei Ning
3) Tay Yi
4) Glenn
5) Wen Pu
6) Dexter
7) Ting Jun
8) VLee
9) Chiam
10) Jordan
11) Hui Yang
12) Kenneth
13) Jin Zhe
14) Ming Xian
15) Wei jie

So what do you think abt no. 4? [Glenn]Funny!!

How nice is no. 6? [Dexter]Nice guy, just veri temperamental.

On a scale of 1-10, how good looking number is no.5 ?[Wen Pu]7..

Will you ever fall for no.11? [Hui Yang]No, she looks ok, but no.

Honestly, if no.8 met with an accident, what will you do?[VLee]Hehe, no more A maths, and I gonna be v sad cus I might then fail A maths. He is a goood teacher.

How much do you lyk no. 2?[Wei Ning]Alot, she is my only sister.

Will 7 & 13 make a gd couple ?[Ting Jun and Jin Zhe]No, unless they are gays.

Would 14 kill you one day?[Ming Xian]No

Who do you lyk most ? 3 or 10?[Tay Yi and Jordan]Tay Yi lar, I know him longer.

Get 3 ppl with blogs to do this thing?
1) Grace
2) Glenn
3) Dexter

Today was an eventful day. This morning went to Glenn house in the wee hours. Ok, not realli "wee", it was 9. Go there sit around, watch glenn play DotA. One REALLI long game, that bored me half to death. Den nothing better to do, I whisper to his opponents and spam them, distracting them. LOL!! After taht, played alot of CS, den a few games of DotA. Den Glenn mysteriously say, lets go eat lunch. And it was 12 48. But after eating it was 1 15, den when I told him, he said "CRAP!! I Thought it was 2...." LOL!! Den we decided go school early. We cycled to school together. Oh, I forgot, WP wif us also. Den we happily, slowly, cycle to school. Reach school saw Jordan, Kok Hong, Theresa, and Hui Yang. They were at Bball court playing, wad else, Bball. den they were staring at us like "WTH?" Then they laughed and Jordan say Idiot Idiot Idiot. LAME!! after that lamed around, den realised it was too early, so went to Lot 1 sweet talk to buy drinks. Drank, den cycled back to school. By that time, its 2 30. STill too early, but went into I studio practise my pushing of Glenn. Want to get the correct strength so Glenn got ez time falling. But also must not hurt him. Last mon I pushed him den he flew forward and all the others gasped. They thought Glenn was hurt and I became like a bad guy. Actually, I was shocked myself. I did not really put in much force, I think Glenn was preparing to fall off, maybe. Not sure. But the way ppl looked at me... I felt uncomfortable. Den I apologized to Glenn ,den Glenn say no need, cus not pain, and he asked me to use that amt of strength. Cus it helps him fall off ezier. But everytime I push glenn off and he flies, everyone gasp again. Make me feel like an evil freak. NO no no, glenn was the one who asked me to use more strength. After practising, G and the other director came and we were learning a new scene, Gaston's Proposal and Gaston's plan. Or sth like that. Cool, I got another role, as part of the ppl in the bar. LOL!!! Den it was fun, cus we got to sing, and I also get to drag Glenn out. COol!! Dunno la, but I pity glenn, keep getting pulled and pushed around. Let me name a few.

#1: Chased by wolves scene, gets pushed off the chair.
#2: Beast castle scene, falls down when gates are opened.
#3: Beast interrogating Maurice scene, gets dragged off-stage.
#4: Belle sacrifices herself to be captive scene, gets dragged off-stage again.
#5: Gaston's plan scene, gets dragged away again.
#6: D'Arque comes to claim Maurice scene, gets dragged away again.

LOL! See how mani times Glenn gets pushed and pulled around? Sad man. Today, for the first time, I wore the lycan mask. It feels... Odd. the eyes are slits, that might as well not be there, for I cldnt see a thing. I blindly walked. And wads more, it was suffocating me. I onli put it on for wad, 5 mins? And I was sweating like mad and suffocating too. I was practically breathing in CO2. I like Grace's voice. She sings veri well. Haiz.. I wish I volunteered for Maurice the role. Den again, if I got it, I doubt Glenn wld be gg musical. SO I guess wadeva happens its Fate and its for the best. Yeah, look to love and you will see. HAHS, nvm... Oh yeah, that dream on Friday, a short snippet of it came through today. Insignificant lar... But still... K, crap generator malfunctioning... Sign off here...

Last night had this weird but nice dream. It is NOT wet dream, pls dun think that it is.... NEways, I shall not say the details, but it felt veri realistic. And when I woke up, I actually thought it happened and I was elated. Budden I suddenly realised I was in my room and I had been dreaming. Why cant I just continue dreaming.... Oh yeah, disclaimer, this dream is NOTHING to do with sex or anything dirty. So DUN think dirty. AFter I woke up I was so disappointed. And I also got angry, I felt as though someone was playing a trick on me. But I consoled myself by thinking some of my dreams do come true. Cus I sometimes have "premonitions" in my dreams, and they are normally realistic feeling. And after that dream, a few wks or mths later, it happens, exactly as the dream depicted it. It has happened a number of times already. Oh, this dreams also come with audio. When the "characters" inside speak, I can actually hear them, that adds to the realism. Haha, I m speaking as though it is a game. It isnt. And I wish that that dream was true. Sad... Haiz... Been a long time since I dreamt. Is this a sign? That sth good gonna happen? Or is someone playing me again, giving me hope and then brings it crashing down.

I just read Kah Ho's blog, and it made me think alot. I felt rather ashamed at myself. I mean, Kah Ho has already started planning for his Hols, and he intends to study the whole hols! He is so concerned of his studies, me leh, slacker... I read his plans and I feel like he is rly hardworking. He onli allocated 10 hrs to relax out of the 9 x 24 hrs. Rly sth if he can follow through with his plan. Seeing this has inspired me to pull up my socks, but then again, I am veri lazy. LOL!!

Today supposed to help WP do CME project in Glenn house, but Glenn decided to go Dex house, so end up we cannot do at his house, then Dex also dun allow WP to do at his house. Wah, make me cycle to Glenn house for nth. Nvm, at least train muscles. Budden, the time clda been better spent sleeping, since Wednesday is supposed to be for me to slack out of the whole week. Why? Monday got musical, reach home almost 7 liao, no time rest. Tuesday got Bethany Home, reach home 6+, rest 1 hr onli. Thursday, musical again, reach home 7 also. Friday got Peng remedial, reach home abt 3+, but Friday considered weekend liao. Luckily this week last week of school. Since I cld not do CME at Glenn house, I decided to cycle to Dex house wif Glenn. Then Glenn was showing off that he can cycle without hands. Reach Dex house we parked our bikes go gym workout. I tried pull up and managed 3, did not actually continue. I have resolved to train my pull up in the holiday, I aim to do 7. I believe I can do it! Shinjiru! I still keep accidentally swearing, and I do not understand why. Maybe I am just too used to? But I realli realli wanna stop using curse words. But I believe, with determination, I can remove them from my dictionary. 2 days ago I was talking to my mom, then I asked her if I am rude. She said I am not, but from my voice, pple will think I am rude, cus I always speak in a monotone and like veri bored wif that person like that. I also wanna change that. However, this problem onli surface when I chat wif girls, so I think I shud stop being so act cool and speak PROPERLY. I think it is STUPID for me to speak until like that, or maybe cus I am shy?

Watched this Korean drama ytd. The main character said sth veri meaningful. However, it was used in the context of golf, but can be applied to real life. Bad players question the club, good players question their skills. In this sense, we shud be questioning what have we done wrong, and not blame others when sth goes wrong. This is esp evident in ROZI. But what the heck, life wld be better if I do not try to reform others. He also said sth else profound. Good players watch for the target, bad players watch for the hazards. This can be interpreted as successful people FOCUS on their targets and not waiver from it, whereas common people watch out for the DANGERS, and when DANGERS exist, they tend aim to NOT hit the danger and end up they do not hit the target too. I hope you get my drift. Or the guy's drift. Whatever.

I think, from this day onwards, in whatever I do, I shall give my all. That way I will not leave room for regrets, for thoughts like "ARRGH I SHUD HAVE STUDIED HARDER" or "ARRGH I SHUD HAVE VOLUNTEERED FOR THAT ROLE" or "ARRGH, I SHUD HAVE TAKEN THAT OPPORTUNITY.." Life is full of regrets, but we shud try and minimise them. When you do have a regret, no use crying over spilled milk, no amount of tears can turn back the hands of time. Instead, make sure u do NOT lose such opportunities and dun give this sneaky evil a chance to backstab you. Actually, I have no idea who reads my blog, except I am pretty sure MX reads it. Hmm, ppl who read can tag? Well, I treat my posting like EW. Helps me improve my writing skills. The more used I am to write, the faster I can write, although I can write fast enough. Mrs Hoe was talking to us abt this girl in the O's who wrote 1000 words in the essay and scored A1. So everyone in my class, naturally, was awed. What awed me, was not the fact that that girl wrote 1000 words, but the fact she scored A1. In fact, 1000 words.. I've been writing that amount for exams. This year diagnostic test I wrote 1000+. Last year End-of-Year I also wrote 1000+. So did I 2 years ago during Sec 2. I wrote an essay 1000+, but end up I scrapped it and wrote my essay in 15 mins to hand in. It was EOY. Haha, Glenn saw me rushing through it. So, speed and word count does not make me WOW over an essay. It is the grade.

Was reading this chinese essay, it was talking abt human right to know sth and the right not to know sth. How mani times have a movie been spoiled just because someone who watched it before starts to comment and tell you what is going to happen? I bet everyone will have such an experience. At least everyone who watches movies before. So what the author is trying to express is sometimes, it is better for us not to know things in advance. Then the author gave an example, what if someone knows his whole life from start to end. When he is going to die, his life story, the ups and downs. That person probably will not work hard for if he is doomed to die young, he surely do not see the point in working hard, whats more, the thought will plague him and he will constantly worry of his death. When the pandora's box opened, 7 evils emerged, I shall not name them, however, the last evil, premonition, did not escape. Luckily so, for when everyone knows the future, there will definitely be chaos. Life wld lose its meaning and excitement, the thrill you get when you do not know what is going to happen nxt, each step illuminates the nxt. Life is meant to be like this. Anywaes, I believe life is just a stepping stone to Heaven. We shud be more concerned of long-term happiness in Heaven. Of course, it does not pay to screw up life too. Life is precious, so treasure it. I have already wasted so many years of my life... Looking back, w8, I do not have regrets. I do not regret slacking in P6 and end up in this school. I do not regret not studying hard and go into ACSI. I do not regret joining choir. For if I had not came into this school, had I not joined choir, I wld definitely not have met Grace. Even if never meant to be, there is at least a known before. That I have met someone so talented. That our paths crossed. Even if it was once. Even if it only brought me misery subsequently. I do not regret doing what I have done. I guess when you do not regret, you would be much happier. Life is meant to be happy. Live it. Enjoy it.Treasure it. Do not wait until your death bed then you regret not treasuring your life, not living it to the fullest. Sure, work is impt, but play is what we are meant to do. After all, work was invented by humans. In the Garden of Eden, Adam and Eve did not work. My advice is enjoy this life that God has entrusted you with. Do things that you like. There are commitments too, but try to enjoy doing them. Example, if you realli do not want to study today, then Don't. It is not going to do you good if you keep trying to mug it. It just makes you miserable n is totally inefficient.

Oh no.. I am so.. talkative? Typative? Boring? Haiz, crap too much. I hope you have gain some insight in life, this are just my 1/2 a cent worth of opinion and views. Why half a cent? CUs it is not worth 2 cents. LOL!!! K lar, pls tag if you do read my blog, and do share your views, even if you do not agree with me. Remember, great minds discuss ideas!

Dotx, became an extra, but what the heck. I got a lycanthrope role. Lol..

Last week I was watching Campus Superstar, and actually, I find that Grace sings better than those contestants. Felt the quality was not there so I ended up going to do A maths, which speaks alot.. NEways, I think my toe has infection already. My nail grew inside the flesh and I cannot walk properly. Today was better than ytd. Ytd after I got home cannot move, if not v pain.

New resolution for me is dun use swear words. However, they unintentionally come out. Haiz, I need to work harder on it. Ytd waited for my mom in Lot 1 until 8. I went Popular and read a book on horoscope. Basically looked at mine lar, Horsey!! The drawing on the front was soooo cute. IT says I am impetuous, does things based on feeling and not logic. Which can also be seen as impulsive. I also looked at the snake one, it says does things based on logic not feeling. Lol.. Den my horoscope also says I shud be myself. Yeah, gonna be myself! But who am I? Haiz... After that went Mac to do my homework, since I dunno how long my mom gonna take, so dun waste time.

Peng gave us a chinese compo, mus use sth to represent sth else, like Willow trees to represent longlasting friendship. I was thinking abt it, I initially wanted to copy the story in the handbook, the one abt butterfly struggling to escape, is like success, struggle a little, den fly. However, figured that Peng wld probably recognize it, so I decided to compare butterfly to dreams. Dreams, like butterflies, are beautiful, but fragile. Many dreams are broken, you have to protect them carefully. Defend them from the wind. After all, dreams are easily erased by the wind, just as how a gust wld destroy a butterfly.

Okie, another post, and I am still pondering if I shud follow TY and Dex and rate the ppl in the clan.

Friday was career fair. I was looking forward to it actually, but for no reason. That day me n WP went to nearby coffeeshop to eat lunch since we dun wanna eat school food. Den while eating WP was preaching to me abt the Bible, the last chapter, Revelations. Until now I still spooked by it.. After that WP was like talking to me abt the difference between infatuation and love. I was confused so he gave me an analogy. You know how when you want sth you will go the the ends of the earth to get it, but when you get it you dun want it anymore? Same thing. Infatuation is if you dun want that thing (in this case a human) after you get it, but love is different, you will treasure it more when you get it. So he asked me if I am infatuated with Grace or realli love her. So using the analogy, I pondered over it. For me, when I haf to fight realli hard to get sth I want, I will treasure it, but when I gain sth easily, I tend to neglect it after I get it. So, I feel that myself, if I gain sth, I probably will neglect it, but this is with items, not humans. With humans, I cannot give a solid answer. So I spent some time thinking abt what WP asked, and my answer was I THINK I will treasure her more. But I do not know for sure, it is just like a hypothesis. I do not think I will neglect her if she agrees, not that I think she will. But we brushed it aside, cus it is too theoretical, no concrete evidence.

Career fair was funny to me. Cus I wasn't looking at the unis, save for NTU. My whole time was spent finding ppl. First, find WP. I found him pretty fast, Fate! The nxt person I saw was Grace, but at that time we were finding Glenn, cus I met Ben while on escalator, den he was like "why go everywhere meet you?" Fate lar... We thot Glenn went FIFA exhibition, so went dwnstairs, den kena scolding from Tiger, he thot we run home. LOL!!! After xplaining we went back into the career fair. Then, WE SAW GLENN!! And Glenn was wif Ben liao, den they were finding Grace. Cus Ben wanna c how Grace look like. Serfee and Joanna asked me who Ben was, den I told them his name, but I think tell name also no use. Haha, maybe they interested in him? After that walk for like 20 mins, den saw Michele Cheow, den Ben was dragging WP to her, and WP was fighting to get away. LOL!!! That day WP and Ben keep gaying together.. Weirddd... After that do more walking, den met Tiger!! Den Tiger was chatting wif Ben while we just watched... After that, suddenly, Grace and her grp of frens were walking towards our direction! Hmm, when not finding den find someone, haha... That is wad I learnt that day. When ur looking for someone, you will haf a hard time finding, when you do not have the intention of finding someone, you will end up meeting that person. Den WP suddenly run up to Grace den ask her turn arnd den say he got fren wanna meet her, den at that time Ben was trying to push me to her. If he actually used force I surely stumble over liao.. I hope she did not get a shock.. But I think she thought Ben was bad influence, since he looks punkish. After that didnt do much, cept me n WP went Bras Basah to look at guitars.

Saturday newspaper collection. No elaboration, except my class was like 30 mins collect papers and 1 hr play at playgrnd. LOL!! Oso, while walking back to school, Rozi did not notice that half the class was missing!! Wow, wad a good chaperone.. Nth much happened on Sat. Sunday was WORSE!! Sunday equate to A maths day.. I was chionging my A maths papers. VLee gave 4!! Do until sooooo sian... Now I can finally relax, lol...

OK, I just decided, I am going to rate clan members. If you find it offensive, den too bad, you chose to read it. But dun worri, I will not use swear words, since my new resolution is to stop using swear words.

Clan LegO:
WP: My best friend and best clan mate. Dunno wad to do without him. School would probably be VERY boring without him. Preaches to me too, so I am very thankful. I hope I can be a good friend to him too. I mean, I hope I am.

Glenn: Used to feel he is my good friend, but recently, I dun feel so. He is like growing distant and if he does not treasure me as a friend, no sense in me keeping him as one. Right now I just play DotA with him and talk to him in the musical. Other than that I dun interact with him anymore.

Dexter: Thought he was my friend, but always seem to ignore me or give cold replies when I talk to him. EVEN when I am not saying sth stupid or senseless. However, he is a very loyal friend.

TY: Dun rly like him, I think he has a lousy attitude. However, like Dexter, I respect his non-backstabbing attitude. He is smart but not using his intellect well, so also no use. Also thinks his badminton skill very good and music is easy to learn. His dreams will come crashing down when he starts taking up music again. LOL.

TJ: Overall a great guy except for his nonsense. Nth much to comment cus he is abit distant from us.

Jin Zhe: I respect this guy alot. I like his matured way of thinking, and his tolerance of jokes targetted at him. Came to realise he is REALLI FUNNY!! Glad to know him and haf him as a friend.

WZ: I absolutely DO NOT like this guy. He is like a WAY detestable version of TY. Ya, he does not backstab, but his attitude is alot WORSE than TY.

GX: No comments, I dunno him.

George: I feel he is better than Glenn, at least he treats me better. Not so cold towards me. Oh, George is Glenn's brother. Den again, when you keep seeing someone, you tend to neglect that person, while if you see that person less, maybe you will treat him better. He is also very funny.

Ben: Punkish guy that sports long hair dyed brown. Haha, that hair is going to go after he goes to the army!! Heard he is very rich, he treat us to mac on Friday. Very soloist when playing DotA. Also a very funny guy. His manner of carrying himself may make others who do not know him think he is a bad influence, but after you know him, he is not that bad.

Choon How: Saw him once onli, very quiet. So not much to comment.

Ok, thats the end. If you feel insulted, it is not meant to insult you. But it is just what I feel. At the end of the day, you can choose not to remember wad I just typed and you can think it is all nonsense. The choice is yours.

"Sick and tired of this world, there's no more air.."- Ryan Cabrera
"Going nowhere, waiting, suffocating, no direction.."- Ryan Cabrera
"You're all I wanted, you're all I needed.."- Ryan Cabrera
"Deep inside the corner of my mind, I'm attached to you.."
"I'm weak, it's true, cus I'm afraid to know the answer.."
"Cus my heart keeps falling faster.."- Ryan Cabrera
"I've waited all my life.."- Ryan Cabrera
"It's time to try anything to be with you.."- Ryan Cabrera
"All my life I've waited.."- Ryan Cabrera
"I'm scared to know the ending.."- Ryan Cabrera
"I know when I go, I'll be on my way to you, the way that is true.."- Ryan Cabrera
"Every little piece of the puzzle doesn't always fit.."- Sara Evans
"You may wonder how I can promise you now this love I feel for you always will be.."- Randy Travis
"You are not just time I am killing.."- Randy Travis
"As sure as I live, this love that I give, is gonna be yours until the day that I die.."- Randy Travis
"I'm gonna love you forever and ever, forever and ever amen.."- Randy Travis
"They say time takes its toll on a body, makes your younger and brown hair turn grey, but honey I dun care, I ain't in love with your hair.."- Randy Travis
"They say time plays tricks on memory, make pple forget things that they knew, its ez to see its happening to me, I've already forgotten every woman but you.."- Randy Travis
"It's hard to see the pain behind the mask.."- Martina Mcbride
"Bearing the burden of a violent storm.."- Martina Mcbride
"Through the wind, and the rain, she stands high as a stone.."- Martina Mcbride
"In a world that she can't rise above.."- Martina Mcbride
"But her dreams, give her wings, and she flies to a place where she's loved.."- Martina Mcbride
"Her name is written on a polished rock, a broken heart that the world forgot.."- Martina Mcbride
"I guess its not what you take when you leave this world behind you, its what you leave behind you when you go.."- Randy Travis
".. Taking off your makeup, wonder even why you even put it on.."- Rascal Flatts
"But baby you don't need it.."- Rascal Flatts
"Wish that you could see what I see when it's gone.."- Rascal Flatts
"But I can't help, falling in love with you.."- Elvis Presley
"Would it be a sin, if I can't help, falling in love with you.."- Elvis Presley
"Take my hand, take my whole life too, for I can't help, falling in love with you.."- Elvis Presley
"You know I'd walk a thousand miles if I can just see you tonight.."- Vanessa Carlton
"But I got lost a time two, wiped my brow kept pushing through, I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you.."- Rascal Flatts
"Every long lost dream led me to where you are.."- Rascal Flatts
"Others who broke my heart, they were like Northern stars.."- Rascal Flatts
"Pointing me on my way into your loving arms.."- Rascal Flatts
"God bless the broken road that led me straight to you.."- Rascal Flatts

Lolz, just some quotes from songs that I realli like. Most are pretty meaningful.. Can even use in compo! Or poems, or wadeva.. Or just for appreciating... These songs can be found on Windows Media Player Media Guide, just type in the title in the search box.

Recommended songs:
On The Way Down- Ryan Cabrera
True- Ryan Cabrera
Concrete Angel- Martina McBride
Just the Girl- The Click Five
Perfect- Sara Evans
Three Wooden Crosses- Randy Travis
Forever and Ever Amen- Randy Travis
Fast Cars and Freedom- Rascal Flatts
Bless the Broken Road- Rascal Flatts

Every time I look at you, it is your silhouette that I see. And that silhouette diminishes, and then vanishes from my sight, leaving me at a loss, with grief in my heart. Every time you walk into the room, I dare not look. It is always your back that I see....

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move
till you finally see
that you belong with me
you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
it's time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true
you don't know what you do
every time you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you meant me!
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

Shut myself from this world, be apart from it... I feel so tired... Today go Bethany Home again, to do CIP. Pushed the old folks to Lot 1 den walk walk shop shop. Nth much actually, but just some funny things happen. I didn't know Jin Zhe so gay!! Haha, Ong also!! Keep cracking jokes.. Den come home, sleeeeepy like mad. I feel like laying down to slp, but tmr got geog test, zzz... Actually, nth else to post, my life is boring...

What is not meant to be will never be. Fate playing games with me again. Gonna write a message in code.

19.20.15.16...2.18.5.1.11.9.14.7...13.25...8.5.1.18.20

If you really wanna know den have fun figuring it out. It's an IP add!!

Not that I did not expected it, but ya, was kinda disappointed, but there is nothing I can do, and I dun intend to fight for it. I can't. And I won't. Hope he have fun. No sarcasm. Then, my heart got hurt again today. Rly, stop destroying my soul. Was quite ok until WP had to tell me sth else. But, I guess knowledge is still better, not that I did not expect it.

Heartbroken
Like glass my heart broke
But you had to step on the pieces
Fragmenting it further
Now there is no repair
You are still treading on them
Ever compounding them
Once broken, things can never be whole
Just as how my heart is now.

This is just a reminder: I VOW NEVER TO LOVE ANOTHER GIRL, NOT UNTIL I DIE.

I cannot stand another heartbreak, like you know how when things are broken you have to be extra careful with it, further subjecting it to torture will ruin it further into eternity? Such is the case of my heart. I shall store it in a cold hard metallic box and seal it away. It will NEVER see the outside world again. It will NEVER be subjected to such torture again. It will remain safe and secure.

~Fuunin No Jutsu~

Destroyed
The expression on your face
Says a thousand words
Your actions and movements
Destroys me faster than Nuclear
You wrecked my soul
Torn it asunder
Spreading it to the great nether
So now its lost and cold
I will never again behold
The beauty of living
But instead I learn
The bane of living
Death seems better
Living is bitter
Existing is my state now
Like any inanimate object
I am merely existing