Well, A Levels are over and I'm not exactly happy. In fact, I was happier before it was over. Life was so much more meaningful then. Everyday I would wake up thinking, yes! more stuff to study! gogo meet my expectations! So pumped up... Now I wake up and I feel soo.. listless.. Would be apt to compare my life now to a zombie. Lifeless.. heh.. anyways, prom's just around the corner and i have not gotten any stuff. too lazy to get of my bum to go shop for clothes. today went wif glenn n dex n the 4P3 peeps. Shirts costs 200+ dollars.. daylight robbery... its just a piece of cloth -_-.. Okie, so i didnt get anything n im back to square 1.

However, im not that worried. Worst come to worst, AC shirt plus jeans and i'm good to go. Only worry is that its too informal and they dun let me in.. Anyway, these past 4 years were.. crazy.. emotionally.. i've had more ups and downs than the stock market and more depressions than a malaysian road. 2 months. and i was suicidal. now i'm faced with 2 years. quite possibly a lifetime. i don't know how i'll ever survive it. and army is quite possibly the worst place you could be in to go cuckoo. you know, firearms and all. i shalt need to draw plenty of strength from God. hope God can see me through what i foresee to be the toughest challenge in my life. make it past this 2 years, and my life would be smooth sailing. relatively at least. this would most definitely be the biggest hurdle. alrightey then, i shall muster every ounce of courage i have and forge on. pray for me ya :D.

i actually made a promise to myself, post happy stuffs! no more emo-elmo stuffs. but then, that wouldnt be wad i'm feeling would it? and the purpose of a blog is to record all your feelings so years from now you can read it!! actually, its a diary, but im too lazy to write.. think.. Geog essays and GP essays.. *shudders*..

Okay then, have yet to emo, which is a good sign, afterall, its almost 2 weeks!!! YES!!! That is like... 25% through!!! as in 25% of 2 months heheh.. But I believe i'll make it through this time.. i have to... or i'll end up 6 feet under. >.<||

Okie, read from books and from shows that start every day with a positive thought. Think of all the things you are thankful for, and thank God for it. Then start your day feeling good. When bad things happen, pay not a heed to it, think of wonderful things. pretty soon it would become a habit and you'll always have good days because of the Law of Attraction. Yep, practising that now. To start, i shall post a list of things i'm thankful for.

1) Having God in my life
2) Having a stable family with good income
3) A roof over my head, a solid education
4) Being able to meet the most wonderful person in my life
5) Totally fit and all senses intact.
6) Able to experience this wonderful world God has created
7) Quite simply, God

yep, focus on the positive. well then, hope everyone has a good life! i know glenn does lol.. and rmb that nothing can get you down, unless you allow it to! so don't go blamin everyone and everything but yourself. On the other hand, do not blame yourself too much, just know it was your fault, and DO something about it.