the worst thing about your friends having gfs and you don't is that you end up 80% of the time alone. I can't believe how they can ps you like you never happened. unbelievable... What's more ludicrous is that teenage romance can't be counted upon and you're likelier to have you friends with you until you're old than your current gf. Yet, you treat them like rubbish ready to be discarded. i can't understand how people's minds work. speaking from a practical point of view, it would make much more sense to be paying more attention to your friends than a fling that would not last. i shall see how long they're gonna last, and maybe laugh at them after it ends.

next time if i meet new people and they want to be friends with me, i'll make sure they are either gay or are currently not attached, otherwise i won't bother wif another friendship that is doomed to fail. seems like a big waste of time.

kind of defeats the age old saying that you can count on your friends. another saying that is utter rubbish is that it is honourable to die for your country. that is like blatant propaganda and i can't believe people actually feel like they need to defend their country, and that their death mean sth. yeah, it means another number for historians to record. we are born anarchists, everyone for themselves. it's evident everywhere in society! like anyone cares for each other without expecting a reward in any way. maybe not tangible rewards but definitely, people only help others if they see some gain in it. nobody is going to help others which puts themselves at a disadvantage. if you do you're Jesus Christ.

but that's sidetracking, i can't rly be bothered with what others want to do with their lives, i only care about what i am going to do. currently living feels like a chore, and i am looking forward to the end. cause at the end, i'll be in a better place. no wonder life is always compared with a road, because its not the road that's important, it's just a passage to get to where you want to be. the end is what's important.

"we're all guilty of the same things. we think the thoughts whether or not we see them through. and i know that i have been forgiven, and i just hope you can forgive me too."

the novelty of computer games is running out, i don't know how much longer i can keep myself distracted..