it's been really long since I last updated.. Months hahaha.. always feel too lazy to update, and my JC life isn't exactly very exciting.. well, A levels are approaching and I'm feeling the squeeze. I need my daily strength drawn from Him, and i am rly v sad that school is coming to an end..

A great deal of things have been happening around me lately, and I seem to be left out of all the festivities. Suffice to say I'm deeply saddened with the changes and I rly do feel so left out. Everyone is really moving on now and yet I still am living in yesteryears.. The reality of the A levels struck me it's true, but the reality of my friends moving on has just hit me way too hard.. Altho right now A levels is my number one concern.

Anyway lately i've been doing some manhunting. the background is that back in PAE, i left a deep regret. it was after this math lecture, and i was packing up my stuff to leave. den there was this girl who was same clan as me during orientation but we never spoke to each other. she and her friend came up to my row and stood on the side. i was sitting quite far back. i got up and went out by her direction, and as i neared her, she said "Hi". at that time i thot she was talking to someone behind me, so i did not reply at all. so i just ignored her and went down the stairs. but halfway down i decided to look back up, and there she was still standing there but she was looking straight at me. thats when i realised she was talking to me just now, but i was too embarrassed to go back up to reply, so i just went out of the LT. my regret is not that it could have been a BGR, but i feel that having the courage to come up to an absolute stranger to say Hi is very commendable, and I should not have dao-ed her.. it was just a really mean thing i did and i sure hope it did not have an adverse impact on her.. i think friendliness should be spread.

but enuff of that, i doubt i'll b able to find her again.. and then again, it would b damn awkward.. but rly, i think i'm becoming alot better as a person now. like wad was said in chapel, people grow through tribulations. i know that God would not give me a mountain too high that I cannot surmount. i just wanna fulfil the potential i have within me, whether my love life is gonna suck or not. it's the least i can do with the talents God has provided me with.