Todae is a very lame day, which traces all the way bak to ytd... haiz, ytd suppose to watch Howls moving castle but then ty read wrong time =.=".. in the end nv go, instead planned on goin todae.. todae abit rush.. showtimes include 1145 and 2... and at first decided the 1145 timeslot.. then me, ty and xy went there first to book tickets.. then suddenly glenn+dex sae dun come =.=".. and we bought tickets le.. lucky in the end they came.. phew.. but in the end, we watched the 2pm one.. wasted 4 hrs in LOT 1 which cld be better spent playin dota or doin A maths.. so stupid... the movie was quite ok.. animation was done well, jus that the director make twists and turns that are confusing.. and throughout the show i was like =.=" wtf is goin on.. who is gd who is bad?? maybe tis like fafner.. anywaes, i wanna make me blog theme be fafner, jus haven got down to do it yet.. n i thinx the director like slimey things cus in spirited away and dis movie both got slimey baddies.. and draw same way also... actually, the show was v funny, that is a plus pt.. and, me and glenn crap throughout the show, wahah.. sayin tis ty future.. lowdown: ty=howl and qp=sophie... wahahha... den also got turnip the scarecrow who is dexter.. my fav char in the show is the calcifer or somethin like that. he is the fire that pwrs the moving castle, weee..!! and hes v funni! ahahha... i remember tryin to hold my bladder until show end but i cannot hold so go toilet.. den when come bak cannot find me seat and was so dark i cld nt see where i goin.. lucky got lites on stairs den i tikam tikam go into one lane and jus nice is the lane me seat is.. haish, me sore throat so bad dat i dun feel like goin to sch 2morrow... haish.. movie finished le den is 4++ so me n ty went home, but ty and xy came me hse to do project.. den they come likez doin lame things, wasting time drawing stupid pics using paint... haish, den in the end hai me cannot do wad i want.. and den immediately put me in bad mood for dinner and no appetite to eat at all... haish, lucky come bak OK liao... jus finished a game of dota, owned the enemy totally.. my score was second.. eeee... jus becus first is bone clink who is a cheap hero... den i usin terrorblade, harder to use to kill...haish... at 1st plae quite badly but then progressed and den played better.. end game my items is nt bad.. mask, crystalys, eaglehorn, and a few stupid looking items.. haish, 2morrow gort sch.. ruin my mood somemore.. i dun thinx i can sing in choir 2morrow considering the condition of me throat now... haiz...

WOOTS, todae= Shangri-LAaaaaaa, wootz, wahahaha... todae, due to.. luck? met Grace Wang 3 times by chance, woah... wahahaha... todae sch so sianz, den accidentally wore PE attire, so dble layer, HOT sia, Practically boiling inside.. Assembly todae is abt dance, wahahaha, so funni... todae went to Mac with Glenn and co. and eat eat eat and crap abt I forgot wad liao.. den later Tay Yi came after finishin his Chi Common test.. wahaha, the rest left and i sat with him wait him eat.. LoLz.. den later saw my mom, den me and Ty went to Popular to find DVD disks and my mom will pae, but we go there look look first.. den look until sian went to Comix Connection.. But den on da way, saw Grace Wang, wahahaha... den later Ty sae Go toilet, cannort make ppl thinx dat we followin... if nt v =.=""".. so we went toilet and i look at tay yi "bathe".. den we went comix to look at Manga and to my surprise, saw Grace there too o.0! Wahaha, but I just said Hi and went in to look at the mangas.. den TY damn depressed becus got fafner poster but crumpled and he wanted a newer one but shop owner sae dun haf, den he depressed, wahahah.. Total used up some time in Comix and den went to Pop again, but Ty sae he go bathe again, so i stand outside and wait.. jus nice me mom came and den she went into library and me sis went to popular.. den after TY came out we went into Library and... saw Grace there again.. wahahaha, den Turtle dunno why run to me and sae dunno wad cus i nt payin attention and den TY sae walk bak walk dat wae again.. den i jus follow lor.. wahahaha.. den help me mom carry books and heard them laughin, dunno at wad... den later found out dat i left my A maths bk in Mac =.=".. den me and TY went to retrieve it.. halfwae down TY wanted to eat ice cream.. so I waited for like 3 mins.. and den Grace also came dwn and went home... aiya, the rest v borring liao.. Lookin forward to 2morrow to get Fafner from TY ^.^... Later go plae Badminton and den v funny, we took promotion video of TY playin badminton, wor... and I was his opp! YEAH! was tryin to force out Higuma so can take but TY die also dun wanna show... haiyo... onli gort his cool smashes, wahahah... and risings... me and WP thrash TY and Dex 15-4... lol.. but den we won Glenn+TY 15-11, wahahaha, cus I was playin stupidly... sabo wen pu.. and, dat dae no one hit wp but me.. I GAMED HIM!! wahaha! by accident.. his service so i hit shuttle to him den hit is ****.. lol, den we all broke down in laughter cus i was first to hit him.. haiya, todae Michael nv show his true pwr, so kena thrashin... nvm, OWNAGE.. Wp gort to whicked sick, waaha and dexter hit me once and glenn hit me once.. Sob sob.. but i nearly hit glenn once and dex once.. jus nt evil enuff... wahahahha... come bak also v borring, try to upload physics notes and blog+study bio, so sianz... Haiyo, gort trouble with tryin to upload my physics notes.. maybe upload on Yahoo.. wahahaha, jus need to learn how to link to it.. Angelfire so unreliable... nothin liao... hope 2morrow also a gd dae ^^

Wahahaha, I am evil, mwahahhahaha... I jus skipped badminton cus i discovered dat wen pu they all will haf no shuttles! wahahhaha, they made wasted trip, weeheehee... maybe they manage to get 1, dunno larh.. jus decided not to go.. now chattin with Grace and QP... Todaes A maths=EZ, dunno why every1 sae VLee gonna set difficult paper..

Todae dexter gave me a booklet abt christianity and he said Grace gave it to me.. later found out from her it was supposed to be 4 tay yi o.0... haiyo.. tot so gd, gif me somethin ^^... nvm, later pass it on to tay yi.. todae i gort big headache... i yearn for Shangri-La... btw, can some1 count how mani times i state Grace's name in this WHOLE blog? i realli want to know... and too lazy to count myself.. den todae read Ong's write-up on freak accidents.. and den gort one abt ppl head spontaneously exploded... wahaha, i read with great interest and found out i had 1 or 2 of the symptoms.. but if u haf 3, den u are in danger.. if u haf 7, risk is v high... overuse of brain leads to self-destruction.. nice way to commit suicide.. ppl most prone to this is chess players, so DUN PLAE CHESS!.. wahaha..

strangely, i dun feel happi dat common test over, in fact, i rather commont test.. doh, tomorrow got tuition.. thinkin of cancellin it leh.. i dun want tuition.. i hate tuition... for me, shangri-la=
1) some1 i like
2) soukyuu
3) school with no lessons
4) Heaven, duh..
5) Frens

probably that abt my definition of shangri-la... v weird i thinx the fafner OST, startin is Shangri-la and ending is seperation.. no connection... huh? confused? storyline i also dun get it.. more difficult to understand than A maths and Physics..

Wahaha, todae was doin A maths the WHOLE afternoon, cept between 2-330, where i was playin DOTA.. actually todae i thought cannort go church due to A maths.. then solve solve solve only manage to do abt 10/25.. then later plae dota and then tay yi + jin zhe + glenn keep askin me go church, so i went to ask my mom and viola, cld go ^^... todae was great, the speaker was soooo funny i doubled up in laughter, haha, and was amazed when he used "Shangri-La", reminds me of the song ^^.. then i dun understand somethin.. todae during the prayers tay yi told me he wanted to laugh o.0?? den he like half laugh half serious.. wen pu was crying though i do not know why.. mystery..

Come home nothin much, jus dat i studied lit until 10 den played a game of DOTA, which i played very badly.. i dun understand why.. whats wrong with me todae?? 2morrow my dad gonna help me with A maths.. hope tay yi can quickly give me sample of the test paper.. AND the supposedly last question of the common test.. hope i gonna survive the A maths test.. and at LEAST pass.. ahh, why are there so mani worries in life.. cant life be simple?? lamenting on all the things i haf to worry abt...

"Man wun treasure what they have until they have lost it..."

"I want to change the world, keep on holding on your desire.. You will get that shining love.. dat u cant wait to know.. if u go on to get your goal, its wonderland"

Wow, todae=GreAt daY, dat why title=Shangri-La, which means paradise.. todae physics so difficult, cannort finish in time.. must be becus chinese so easy, so they set physics more diff... haiz, wonder wad i will get.. nvm, worry bout A Maths now.. WHY must VLee set it?? why cannot Mr Ng?? aiyo, VLee is saddist, he sure gonna set v v v difficut one.. haha, todae recess my wallet too heavy, so spend some money to lighten it, if not i feel v irritated, too much coins liao.. a heavy purse make a heavy heart but a lot of notes make a happy heart.. haha..

Found out Glenn has no appreciation for quality music.. Talkin to him is like talkin to a cow.. aiyo, cannot understand the beauty of "Shangri-La"... lolx, normally so few ppl online, now ONE SHOT SO MANY!! aiyo, headache on who to chat with... normally the same old ppl online so siaaanz.. no offence :P.. I cannort believe dat i gettin bored of dota liao o.0.. haiz.. todae plae dota actually quite borring, since no challenge.. either sure lose or sure win, dun haf the competitive aura..

todae wanted to plae badminton but due to rain, did not go jelapang to plae.. den stay at home plae dota.. i thinx sat+sun i dun plae com liao, study for Lit+A maths.. formulas formulas... i jus got over s=ut+1/2 x at^2 now mus remember other theorems -.-.. why is our life governed by theorems?? eh, why is our lives full of waiting.. if we cld make waiting productive, we wld be much better off now... maybe 50 yrs ahead.. IF every1 HAD made waiting productive.. 2 laws we live our life by: Time+theorems.. how mani times do our left brain, the analytical one interfere with our everydae life.. theorems x 1000, so mani theorems and cants and cans... restricts our life like a seat belt..

I wunder wad i can do in my waiting time.. waiting to wake up.. waiting 4 acceptance, waiting for bus.. so much waiting.. but all i ever do in waiting is jus.. wait.. the conventional way.. no one does something productive.. in fact, no one actually wants to let go.. they just wanna wait for wad they want.. haiz... waiting is such a common word.. every1 will sae it at least once per day..hahaz.. if ea time some1 says "wait" and he has to pae me 1 cent, i wld be rich by now...

Wootz, common test endin liao!! jus 2 more daes, haha.. but then, jus found out VLee set the A maths paper =.="... wah, surely v difficult one.. haiz.. todae went 4 physics remedial although nt for my class, haha.. played a lil of badminton durin recess, but overall damn bored.. den lessons kinda passed quickly for the later half.. english Mrs Wong taught phonics, haha.. like nursery class.. den we like idiots repeating after her.. haha.. hmm, 2morrow got public speakin, gonna talk abt anime, mus thinx of wad to sae.. now i rly like soukyuu no fafner OST, so nice.. aiz, todae actually can seat and talk with Grace but then again i too shy.. haiz.. lost a chance sia.. the physics remedial made me skip nearly the whole of choir.. jus went there 4 attendance and then sang a little den end.. haha.. yesterdae found out how difficult it is to decide the OST of an anime.. Alot of factors involved.. den todae Jin Zhe told me Grace ask him why i go church.. haha.. Actually i go got 3 reasons:
1st is becus i wanna know more abt God
2nd is becus i have nothin to do at home
3rd is becus of Grace
haha, so there is my three reasons 4 goin to church.. jus finished Naruto 122, but no spoiler.. i jus found it lame and was it worth the wait? answer=NO! but nxt week nt bad.. gonna be nice i thinx.. I thinx now the animators abit lazy already.. some parts so laggy and I like huh, battles all so short and not focused and not exciting.. not like when Neiji v Kidoumaru.. dat is much nicer.. oh no, 2morrow got PE.. EEEE! i dun wanna go 4 PE.. den 2morrow after common test dae almost end liao.. jus 2 hr of lessons left plus 1 form class.. Found out nowadays I haf nothin to update.. my life so borring.. other ppl life more interesting, haha.. thinkin of nxt week A maths gonna be how difficult and worryin abt 2morrow physics and chinese.. haiz, i more afraid of physics.. so many numbers give me headache.. haiz, maybe go study liao...

Wah, todae Bio test OKOK but den SS... I STUDY FOR SEPERATION AND COME OUT MERGER??!! Haiz, unlucky sia... Although i still can do but then no confidence in it.. jus wrote alot of crap, so lamez.. todae=1 v borrring dae.. now i rly hate myself.. actually got chance to strike a conversation with Grace but then i hum and den dun say anything... haiz, why i am such an id10t?? such opportunities dun come by often.. lettin chances go 1 by 1 till i am left with nothin but could have beens... well, todae i stay bak in sch to crap with WY+GLenn+TY+WP, den we go to Mac eat eat and A maths abit.. after dat they came my hse sit sit 4 awhile.. hehehe, nv see me dog, cus it in me room.. den i change and take racket and went out.. we crap all the way to stadium.. den they sae Grace and WP had a bet abt wad rose thingy which i rly dunno wad the bet is and dey dun wanna tell me.. i hungering 4 the truth now.. i thinx tis abt me n Grace whether i will buy rose 4 her anot =.=".. haiz.... den they also tell me dat Grace like boys who are tall and dark, which i haf none of these qualities... opposite.. i thinx she made it the opposite of me, but fell in description with WZ.. haiz, i feelin saaad, although had a productive game of badminton just now.. i tried copying tay yi's numerous funny antics and i failed the dive and revive the shuttle one.. i jus fell with a hard thud and den pushed the shuttle up abit.. actually, i tried to show to WY and WP but den i was too close to the shuttle and when i jumped i was already at the shuttle, so i had to "compress" myself and try to hit the shuttle with a backhand from chest but failed and fell on my arm which hurts alot.. and then they ask me to do again =.="... aiya, now my arm still abit pain, although pain subsided alot liao, when first impact was v pain... but actually more of shock larh.. den 2dae v unlucky also.. nearly broke my record of nt falling down but then retribution arh, i fell down todae while multi taskin.. walkin up stairs, talkin to WZ, and looking at Grace from the back.. which sounds perverse but.. nt like pervert larh.. den the "flow" stopped and i stopped but i thought i was on the top flight but actually still had one more step.. den i nv see and when start movin, i kicked it and fell forward but i twist so fell on back.. den got grls saw and laugh and i damn embarrassed.. at least they dunno why i fell larh, if nt even funnier.. den i felt v stupid.. retribution.. haiyo, nearly abt 1 yr i nv fall down liao, forgot how it feels to fall.. at least is fall 4 Grace.. haha, consolin meself.. now sittin here typing this i stil find it amusing........ stop liao cus nothin else to write.. ^^...

Todae is another bad day for me where i made stupid careless mistakes in my common test =.=".. example is x^-3/2=27.. i solve to x^-3=3^6... den dunno wad to do.. wt.. actually shld be root both sides to becom x=1/3^2 or x=1/9... haiyo.. why i so blind dat i cannot see it.. and den got dis question dat phrasing v weird.. "...9km upstream and downstream.." huh, refer to 9km up and 9km down or 9km up+down?? stupid way of phrasing the question lor.. den todae chiam talk alot of crap during last period... haiz... i jus finished studying bio+SS, so now v tired and irritated due to all my brain juice being used up.. how i wish me in physical.. but cannot drop now i thinx and me parents wun allow me 2 drop =.="... ai, i regret putting triple as first choice, shld put physical lor... i jus changed my song to "Heaven's Not Enough", haha, cus i quite bored of the old one liao... todae=lame total def day, commemorate wad?? i dun even see the use of commemorating... i thinx arh, our army small until cannot do anythin lor, every1 wet pants when got enemy... haiz... but help us waste time so nt too bad either rite? hahax, i hope i haf gd luck in my common test as luck is v important... todae TY gave a Inuyasha VCD set to Qp but i thinx tis rejected.. sad.. den todae irritated TY quite alot by askin him 4 his autograph and like cheerin him on and makin sarcastic remarks on his higumas and otoshis.. wunder wad will come out 4 bio 2morrow.. hmm.. aiya, sign off here bah...

aiyo, i feelin lame, gonna post the lyrics to me song here, if u want to know wad they are sayin den read:
heaven's not enough
if when you get there..
just another blue
and heaven's not enough
you think you've found it
and it loses you
you've thought of all there is
but not enough
and it loses you
in a cloud
"there" most everything is nothin'that it seems
"where" you see the things you only wanna see
I'd fly away
to a higher place
to say words I resist
to float away
to sigh
to breathe.... forget
and heaven's not enough
if when I'm there I don't remember you
and heaven does enough
you think you know it
and it uses you
I saw so many things
but like a dream
always losing me
in a cloud
cause I couldn't cry
cause I turned away
couldn't see the score
didn't know the pain
of leaving yesterday really far behind
in another life
in another dream
by a different name
gave it all awayfor a memory
and a quiet lie
and I felt the face
of a cold tonight
still don't know the score
but I know the pain
of leaving everything really far behind
and if I could cry
and if I could live what truth I did then take me there
heaven goodbye

Warh, common test week now and it is so borrring.. Actually, todae common test nt difficult at all.. If i get mistakes probably due to carelessness.. slept through most of the test... den the chem i look at the paper and go wtf, i study so hard and all this is like crap questions.... haha, to me, hard=1 1/2 hr.. nt bad liao i thinx.. jus heard a v funny version of "Change the World" by V6.. Jap song.. Another person sing it in English.. HAHAHA, SOUNDS SUPER FUNNY! but it sounds nice 2... 2dae valentine dae and ppl were askin me like "got buy present for Grace?" and I'm like =.="""... huh, i dun even know wad to buy.. dis kind of thing need to "research" one.. and i happen nt to, haha, too lazy bah.. and den todae played with tay yi badminton.. he keep doin his hadokyuu dat does nt pass the net... haiz, and den glenn so lame, keep sayin i net... aiya, nvm larh, and then also got funny thing happen.. tay yi slap MX... HAHAHA den chase him into the fog when ppl was foggin.. den MX slap him, hahahahaha... den we all sae tay yi ran to save mx from the fire but mx dun wan to be saved and slap tay yi to ask him 2 go away.. haha, den we "console" tay yi sayin he did his best.. quite stupid rite? dat is how lame ppl can be when they are bored... haiz... 2dae choir turnout=1/2? warh, v few ppl lor... normally got alot... and i thinx they think too much of common test liao.. it is meant 4 common ppl and if u dun study also can pass one... den me n XY shared an MP3 player and listened to his songs and followed wei zhong.. but wz use henge and disappeared and we cld nt find him... wah, gonna ask him where he go.... todae nt such a bad day.. thnk God for givin me such a gd day where i was on Ecstasy throughout the whole day, so ppl who seen me abit out of ordinary is becus.. er.. i dunno larh, now cooldown liao... for some unknown reason felt high the whole day until i came home to some gruelling E maths... sigh, feelin v sad now, dat is the setback of ecstasy... and for those who thinx i rly take ecstasy u siao ar, i wun take drugs one.. i jus felt v happy, maybe for soukyuu no fafner.. tay yi keep draggin the burn date and i am waitin patiently 4 it.. it got nice OST that sds like it is from Heroes 3, v magical? dunno how 2 describe it but acc to tay yi tis v sad... dis fri got public speakin and me gonna talk abt anime, jus need 2 know how my speech gonna be like.. aiyo, why nt todae.. if todae me talk abt BGR.. which wld be a delight to me classmates i thinx, since every1 else avoid it as best they can.. hahaha.. eh.. dunno wad to write liao, jus gonna sleep soon so sign off here...

Todae is a very confusing dae where I had mixed feelings.. Sad+Happy+Bored+Crappy... I gonna write a poem bah, copy Tay Yi and Jinz...

Love
Left a deep gash in my heart..
Bleeding, bleeding..
Unending torment..

Confusion
Mixed feelings..
Of happiness,
and sadness...

Love
been bittersweet..
often more bitter..
than sweet..

Waiting
Always waiting
Always ignoring
never got around these things..

Waiting
taking damage every second
For ever, and ever
Doom, even till i die..

Silenced
I cannot speak..
No one to turn to..
God.. Help me...

Chasm
Deep, dark, forboding..
Waiting and waiting..
for your healing touch..

Void
of all feelings
numb
from all pain

Heaven
is it that difficult
to attain.. How high
must i climb, beyond..

For you
I will always be there..
waiting, and waiting
taking damage every second..

Darkness
I can't see anything..
Blinded, just walking
and waiting and waiting

Cold
Numb from pain
used to it
accustomed to it..

Meaninglessness
Everydae has no meaning
Like a zombie..
Raised from the dead..

Luck
Perchance my torment
Would vanish

But doom
Cannot be dispelled..
Not even by purge..

It is
The ultimate weapon
Girls have...

haiz, cannot think of more.. so end here.. Hope you like it although I thinx it is crappy..

Lolz, todae CNY... Actually, abit sianz todae.. Morning cld nt wake up and had to be woken up.. den go to my relatives hse with the sleepy look and jus collect money =.=".. Then for some reason, me relatives damn interested in whether i got gf... and i was like =.=""""""""".... and of course i sae no.. heheheheh... sianz, i went home den play few rounds of dota with glenn.. we totally owned with me usin omniknight.. den glenn used holy knight and nerubian assasin, wah total ownage.. den last game bad stroke of luck, i gort morph and glenn got tree and we lost.. and there dis irritatin SA, who thinx he damn pro and scoldin us noob... and all he had was a stygian desolator and Mask of madness =.="... haiz, den go me father side cousin hse... den crap alot abt school stuff and i was like eating and sian diao.. den go reservoir see ppl fishin.. den jus go home, played 3 games of dota with Tay YI, and den he ask me go his hse and do A maths with him and Jin Zhe... harhar, den i go lor and study 4 commontest and of course posting this cus i forgot to post at home... eh.. abit like nothin liao... all in all, todae is neutral again and has nothin special in it.. probably one of the worst chinese new yr i had in eons... haven open me red packet yet so dunno how much i got and i also wun tell :P//// haha! too bad... valentine day comin and commontest commin, so sian diao... wah, spoil me hols with common test and also learnin how to play guitar now.. i v lame hor?? ai, sign of here bah..

haha, yesterday after choir like 11 liao so too late 4 me to post message, need to grab shut eye.. Well, Chinese New Yr comin and I hope i am first to sae HCNY to grace... gonna sae it tomorrow... Hopefully... Den, later got tuition so damn sianz.. yesterdae choir was fun. We listened to other sch sing and me n glenn were doubled up in laughter due to some funny actions by certain members in the choir... den one of the choir sang Jap song and I was like WTF, WHY CANT WE SING JAP SONG??!! sianz.. den also got one latin song dat sounded like demo demo demo demo.. harharhar.... todae nothin much, jus dat lost a chance to walk with grace again.. ALL becus i helped rachel =.="... Den met Wen Ying in LOT 1 and also met Grace, but she with fren and I also meetin me mom so cannot.. If not i probably eat with them... wah, these days so boring, rly lookin forward to tomorrow soccer... Hope it works out.. gonna make score 0-0 against all teams.. which shld not be dat diff since got dex on our team... maybe our team focus def?? cus we got NO attackers, which is like sian.. den if i attack den cannot def... SIAN... ai, dunno wad to post liao so end here...

Haiz, thought todae also gonna be quite sian, but proved wrong... Haha, like halfway through the book abt makin frens... Sigh, todae cannot go church becus afternoon went new yr shoppin, walkin stupidly around IMM tryin to find tidbits and other stuff.... den also bought new DVD player and Anime.. Wasted alot of time there.. When come home chat a lil and play 1 game of DOTA be4 goin to play soccer with TY, XY, and Jin zhe.. By that time already 6:40++... sianzz... but the soccer was quite fun, only bad thing was that I was wearing a pair of sandals dat threatened to come off whenever I run.. Which lead me to kick it off, wear it.. and kept repeating.. Something funny happened though, I wanted to kick a far distance shot but shot my sandals instead... And then the ball jus rolled on slowly... And XY and TY thought my sandals was the ball and went for it but realised their mistake soon after... So funny... The score was 3-2 and me and Jin Zhe won... YEAH! scored all 3 goals.. the other 2 goals scored by TY.. First goal was becus TY blockin XY line of sight and i put it into the left corner... The second was becus Jin Zhe kicked the ball far out into the corner where I ran to get it.. Thinkin i wld take some time, Ty and Xy discussed strategy and I came from the corner and shot it in... haha, funny goal.. The last one was even more tyco.. I anyhow shoot cus Ty tacklin me liao den hit the goal post and fly over and go in... AND XY was stunned!! harhar, he like thought the ball was gonna stop but it flew over and went in.... yeah! Also, found out TY like to kick high ball. He kicked one so high and far dat it went over the fence and out! But got take back.. If not cannot play liao.. Haiz, run barefeet very pain..... and dunno wad i stepped on.. collected some data abt TY and XY, can use to counter them in tourney..... wah, i so evil.... and I hav a very evil move that so far no 1 countered yet and is best put to max in car parks due to slippery floor, but there also can..Am tryin to master another move..... My data quite accurate and already i haf come up with strats to counter TY.... BUT still nv see his brother play.. hope he nt as pro as wad TY make him to be.... maybe me gonna use me evil move in the tourney... need to see the circumstances to know whether can use or not. Also, tryin to do back flip so dat can run in front of the defender, but still doin it pretty badly with me losin control of the ball =.="... after dat got home and played DOTA.. Randomed and got MAGNUS, WOOT! wa, magnus=super evil... improve his att speed by treads and mask and u got a killer.. jus empower, mask and attack.... or ult also can... den get burize... slurp and taste the blood of the enemy...!! harharhar... hmm, maybe go read the makin frens book, go and chiong to the end.... very useful book 4 me, YES! GAMBATTE, I CAN FINISH IT!! signing off here, lookin forward to choir tomorrow and no com 2morrow.. =.=""

Sigh, got up early todae to post this.. Maybe goin back to sleep after this... be4 goin to dream world, read dis great book on making frens, by Andrew Matthews.. i read abit, not the whole thing yet.. Maybe go read the whole thing later.. Well, yesterday i abit sian after log off so went to grab a book and jus nice took dis book.. Den i anyhow flip open a page and, as luck wld hav it, I saw, in bold letters, dis meaningful saying, which propelled me to read dat book.. Simple saying, profound meaning..

"Nobody can make you miserable without ur permission...."

After reading dis one line, I was thinkin abt how Grace can make me so upset.. Is it I CHOOSE to be upset or can I control it at all?? Abit confused becus I cannot seem to control.. Den u can argue dat I choose NOT to control.. harhar.. Maybe one day I wun be sad anymore.. But I will still be open abt me feelings..

"There is no shame in finding some1 else to be attractive. EVEN if they dun like you. If you happen to be fond of ppl and they are not fond of u, it's OK. You don't have to wait 4 them to like you first, or tell u first."

Well, I thinx dis already give me confidence to continue liking Grace.. Becus she might not like me, But its still OK as long as I like her...

"Every1 is not gonna like u but u can like who u like...."

U wun be liked by every1, but u can like WHO u like and no 1 can stop u....

And the nxt section is 4 tay yi, cus for some reason, cld not find the last line for the top one... Haiz, cockeye liao...

"Why do some of us get treated well while others badly? 2 possibilities:
a) Luck
b) We cause what happens to us, and if we continue the same behavior, we will get same results"

Of this, the book said b) is more likely.. So, Maybe instead of blaming Glenn, Think abt ur actions first.. And also, in relation 2 the first line, he CANNOT irritate u, u CHOOSE to be irritated.. Wow, so deep ^^.... But still, all i can do is try to mend, so if u choose NOT to be Glenns fren, den no hope and leave it as it is and i tried my best.... Well, maybe I go read more of this book since I need help myself.. Sign off here.. Cheers....

YES! Finally a day dat does not haf sad things happening ^^... WOW! lol... 2dae=slack dae where we slack through the whole day, even PE... den form class rozi nv come, so gd.. nothin much cept i went to Mac to eat then run ALL the way home from LOT 1.. Quite a big distance.. whats more, i jaywalked ^^.. and nearly kana caught by police. Saw em opposite the street and immediately turned around and ran! lol, so funny.. den i walked further down and cross the street.. den i look so stupid standing there waitin 4 no car then cross road.. waited 4 so long.. AND, finally caught up with WZ and TY who left first.. So funny, they ask me isit run ALL the way to them.. HAHA.. Actually.. nothin much to write leh.. jus dat got tuition den DOTA all the way until now.. and den, of course, waitin 4 ppl to online to chat with.. now only chattin with QP.. Haiyo.. so borring.. make me feel like takin out a bk to read.. 2morrow cannot go church, so 2morrow gonna be quite boring too... wth, boring days ahead of me.. sunday not bad cus can go choir.. YEAH! lookin forward to it.. also owe some ppl money, jus cleared like half my debt todae.. haha.. why so sian when i can play com?? answer=MOTHER DUN ALLOW!!! LOL!! 2dae rly damn sianz.. also me quite fed up with glenn k-sing me in DOTA... obv me kill he go take... WTH.. haha, quite angry after that... haiz.. hope 2morrow better than 2dae..

Sigh, 2dae was another borring day... Why everyday the same one... Todae Grace tell me she does not like me for the second time and ask me stop wasting me time.. Well.. I'd rather be wasting me time than be void of feelings.. Who ask God to make me such dat my heart will only love one person... Sad.. So I am now tryin to decide if shld give up anot but, given my procrastinating self, probably will answer dat question quite late.. Finally a gd use for procrastination huh.. well, enuff of sad stuff. found dis song.. actually, knew abt it quite long ago, just cld not find it ^^... i just found it yesterday.. It is called "For Fruits Basket" and u guessed it rite, tis the opening for Fruits Basket.. It is such a nice song ^^.. Sigh.. Listening to it as I type this, can relief me of sadness and depression... At least i am not the only one depressed.. For some reason Dex todae also depressed.. Todae choir got new pianist ^^... He play so enthu.. like he absorbed inside the piece, and banging out a soulful tune, for the qing cun wu qu.... Really have nothing much except that Chinese New Yr comin soon and I can pocket some more money, which seems useless unless I can share it with some1.. Of course not gonna be jus any1... Sigh, hope I can get a dog soon... Love dogs so much ^^... Sigh, website for death note still down.. And the POT episodes not dled yet.. Rly haf nothin much for me to do... Maybe go do some A maths later.. lol, hw can relieve sadness too.. Well, 50% chance, the other percentage is make u more depressed.. example like u cannot solve the question dat time.. ARGH.. Inuyasha OST irritatin me... Gonna remove it later... I mus listen to peaceful song now.. Not the banging of Inuyasha or POT or any songs I have in me playlist, except Heaven's not enough and For Fruits basket.. Gonna listen to em whole nite long.. Sigh, thinkin of it makes me relax liao... Well, signing off here...

Yet another boring day in BP... Operation "boycott" failed... Knew it would never have worked, seeing dat glenn has an aura dat prevents ppl from boycotting him... Nothing much in school 'cept irritated Wei Zhong again by following him when he is dating WY.. Harhar, den left them alone and went to Mac to eat lunch.. FIRST BIG MISTAKE.. If i had continued following them, I wld haf met grace.. den can go walk walk together... Sigh... Anywae, den later go home and listen few songs and read up on geog.. yes, imposed on us by Rozi... den we go play badminton.. God play games with me again.. When i went there, it rained quite heavily, den decided turn back home.. den WTF, rain stopped.. So i turned around and went back... WE played a pretty wild game which saw wen pu missing all his Chances... den the rain was like on and off... after that we pissed Wen Pu off by spamming higuma otoshis... LOL, Tay Yi's trademark finisher.... normally finish himself with it ^^.. However, we did it to a whole new lvl, it became one of the most evil drop shots and glenn managed a true one, with his back turned... We were like OMG... GLENN DID A REAL HIGUMA OTOSHI, WOOT! after that, was a tirade against some1... Which under request shall not be named... After that, it was kinda downhill with some SMSes to QP.. And den, of course, DAIDEE! WHICH I LOST WHEN I HAD 3 TWOS??!!! OMG... What a noob... Haiz, i can only remember the badminton being exciting, but cannot remember the whole thing..... well, lookin forward to choir tomorrow and dis sunday ^^... And yes, i can sing.... And i know now u want a solo album?? J/k ^^.. I so thick skinned ^^.... Like nothing to say liao, so sign off here...

Haiz... Just found out from an unreliable source I kana blocked by Grace... Now i rly have nothing to live for... I jus feel like a zombie now.. Gonna run on a stupid programme.. Maybe zombie also not bad, at least feel no pain... Gonna scour a gd place to jump down from in Singapore.. Got suggestion?? Actually, chance of that source bein true is abt 30%... but still, 30% is alot... I think now i know why so many ppl commit suicide... Or.. I can be gay? I also dunno wad I am gonna do now... Take every step as i go by, maybe the nxt step is the last... But i dun rly mind, since i haf been hurt in this mth umpteen times, so i now does not really matter.. Got immunity to pain.... harhar, jus found out that she might not have blocked me as some of my frens have said dat she is not online!! but then, still have dat 30% chance cus she might block most of my frens.... God love playing games with me... I dun have any more will to live.. Rly need to find something to cling on to, be4 i lose myself to darkness.... Everything worth living for has disappeared all in a day... At least wz has it goin well for him.. Maybe now i wanna migrate to the US.. Hope can find medicine there... In its wilderness where animals are.. Animals bring me comfort.. Shall turn to my dog for moral boost..

Wow... Todae busy day... Nv get to eat my lunch and have to go for the AMC liao... Now arh I soo damn hungry.. The test was darn difficult and I had to guess through most of the questions.. Den afterwards went to 3P3 to loiter there.. Chiam was fixing up the cuckoo clock... And then we were playing with the vacuum ^^... Haiz, Grace and Turtle left be4 us... shld haf followed them.. totally forgot turtle live opposite the street, sianz... if not either get to walk with grace alone or take bus together... sigh.. rare opportunity jus went by.. but then, me and XY followed WY and WZ... hehehe, they were trying to shake us off while we were trying to tail them.. We followed them to LOT 1 and then they went to Popular... Stay there for soooo long and dunno for what.... After that they like loiter around LOT 1 doing nothing and WZ accompany WY home while I, with my aching back, wait for the bus to go home.... 2dae sure is a boring day.. jus dat it cld haf been MUCH better if i walked with grace...