nuh eh gyut eu roh

Do you already know about me?
I keep remembering your white smile
And i start laughing like a fool

Perhaps my eyes are faster than me,
Looking for you as they miss you
And i keep seeing you

I wasn't familiar with it
I never loved anyone before
Though i try to erase you who is becoming larger

Is it okay to for me to love you?
Is it okay for us to start?
My heart with its many wounds
It may cause you to cry

I didn't know how to love with words
Or how it would hold on to you
The only thing i can give you is my heart
But without the courage to protect you
Will you still love me?

I've become familiar
Your white smile awakening me in the morning
Has become my meaning of life

I was expecting it
That even for a day i would be here for you
That has become my wish

Every now and then
When i see someone else in your eyes
A despair awakens me as if it's the end of the cliff

Is it okay for me to love you?
Is it okay for us to start?
My heart with its many wounds
It may cause you to cry

I didn't know how to love with words
Or how it would hold on to you
The only thing i can give you is my heart
But without the courage to protect you
Will you still love me?

I never believed in love before
Nor was i ever in love
I was living with a heart completely empty
Which is now filling and spreading
With your love

DISCLAIMER: This poem is not written by me, it's written by my sis. She's the greatest sister in the whole wide world! I realli love her, so so much, and I feel so touched. Why? Cus she understands me and this poem, she wrote for me de! Sniff sniff, thks Ning!

It's so frustratin'
Everytime I see you
You turn away from me
As if I was the flu

It's so frustratin'
Sitting out back
Only starin'
Afraid you’d fled

It's so frustratin'
That I’m so close yet so far
Realize I too am a bein'
And I can’t just give you up

Do you see the end of the water
Where I wait so patiently
You are one of the rarer
That make me go so puny

Do you see the end of the water
Where my love waits
Like gold sulphur
Yet you never let it sate

Do you see the end of the water
Where I stand and declare
That you are my girl
And I’m trapped in your snare

Now I just hide in the dark
And wait for you to understand
That this is not a lark
That I’m truly in love

With you.

If this is the best ending, why isit I can't seem to forget you? Time have changed us and we waved goodbye to innocence. If getting together again won't be able to make it last, then losing it would be forever. Punish my seriousness, all along i was being naive.

Do I have to live the rest of my life like this? My kiss fated not to be able to kiss the one I love. For you I waited from the start, hoping all the way to present, yet it was not to be. Can love be transferred to another? But fate make me unable to keep the one I love. I cannot, how can I admit you are who I should not love?

If meeting again is just to leave again, then losing it would be forever. With giving up as my only memory, why isit I want it to be reborn again?

Do I have to live my life like this? My kiss not fated to kiss the one I love, I've been waiting from the start, wishing to the present. Can love be transferred to another? Why isit then that fate cannot keep the one I love? I cannot admit that you are one I should not love.

What can be evidence? Never thought loving someone would have to be so cruel to prove how much I love her.

Do I have to live my life like this? My kiss not fated to kiss the one I love. I've been waiting from the start, hoping to the present, yet it was still not to be. Can love be transferred to another? But I am not fated to keep the one I love? I cannot, how can I admit that you are the person I loved wrong?

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到, 我比谁都更明白你的重要.这么久了我就决定了, 决定了你的手我握了不会放掉.

你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀

因为我要的我自己知道 只要你的肩膀愿让我靠.

Yeah, you are very important to me. I dunno how am I supposed to live my life without you. Everything would be pointless without you. So what if I'm rich? So what if I'm happy? I shall have no one to share them with. What is the point...

You may not know, but one smile from you can light up my entire day. No matter how downcast I am, as long as you come around, and talk to me, smile at me, you will brighten up my day.

I know I'm passive, but I just dunno how to start, and when I ask you out, you turn me down. Not that I actually had any hope you will agree, it was a fool's dream from the start.

This is why, I believe, Yesterday's dream is today's uncertainty and tomorrow's heartbreak. I shan't dare to dream anymore, my heart has been broken too many times. You said goodbye, too many times before.

My kiss is saved for you, my heart is saved for you. I will always wait, for you are my one and only. I will cherish those times spent with you, though not exactly with. You are the only person who can make me so sad, hurt me so bad.

Just saw Dexter’s blog, about prospective brides and man. Well, I dun really care who my best man is, but my prospective bride, will only be Grace. She’s my only one and I cannot accept another girl.

It’s been 2 years, yet my love for you is still so fresh, the wounds so raw. Everytime I see you I fall in love with you all over again. Everytime I don’t see you I feel myself being sundered. Every hurtful thing you said made me cry, deepened those scars, made me lose hope. I never much believed in hope, it was just absent in all my 16 years. I have to agree not entirely so for I saw hope when I met you. But that hope was quickly shut out. I wanna do so much for you, I wanna get to know you, I wanna talk to you, I wanna be the only one in your life, but I guess I’m not good enough for you. Perhaps, some lucky guy out there will win your heart, and I shall feel happy for you two. Who cares about what I feel anyway? I dun even care what I feel. As long as you are happy, I guess I will be happy for you. I dun have to be with you, just looking at you will make me happy, seeing you smile would be heavenly. Perhaps holding you is out of my league. I feel so hopeless, you dun even wanna talk to me.

Watched the 9 o clock show yesterday, and there was this guy who admitted his love for the girl. Then what the girl felt was fear for a relationship that might not work. Could she be feeling this way? It would definitely be better than not feeling anything at all, yet if I think she’s feeling that way, then I would be deluding myself. Afterall, a show’s a show. It cannot be true. Fairy tales aren’t true. There is not going to be a happily ever after for me. But I guess I will still work hard, just in case I have a chance. And if I don’t and she gets married to someone else, I guess I shall just give up everything and maybe what I worked so hard for would be useless, but I dun care. All I care is I will work hard for her. Then at least if I can get with her, I can make her happy, I can give her a comfortable life.

Haha, Ok, I'm inspired to post more bout the musical. I shall copy wad Grace did and post my feelings bout particular ppl in the musical. They are in no particular order. Here goes:

Grace Wang: Ah! The one and only girl I will ever love with all my heart. No matter when or whatever circumstance, I will always accept her. She provided me with the drive to attend musical everyday, she gave me something to look forward to. "Crucify my love if my love is blind." She helped me persevere in all the practices, no matter how tiring or fustrating it is. Evidence is though both WP and Glenn were physically and mentally drained, I was still ok. And she's indeed, Belle. Even before the auditions I knew she would get that role. Overall the one who affected me greatest in the musical.

Grace Yeoh: Ok.. The FIRST dancer friend I made. Haha, thks for listening to me and giving me encouragement. Also thks for intro-ing me to the other dancers, yeah, I feel quite bonded to you people. Y'all are such fun to be with, always so hyper and full of energy!! Oh, and also thks for helping me in overcoming some of my shyness in dealing with people from opposite sex. Good luck wif *! Lol.. And I somehow always see you when you come to my class to look for penelope and when I wait for Glenn outside his class.

Wen Pu: MY ONE AND ONLY GAY PARTNER!!! Haha, he's SOO FUNNY!! Also my best friend, and thks for putting up with some of my mood swings, and never failing to make me laugh wif your YES I SHALL SAY IT, ANTICS!!! Haha. Thks for ur guitar too! Though I doubt this musical actually bonded me n u that much, cus we are already quite close. Nia, it was fun acting together with you, HEADBUTT!!! Haha, glad the audience enjoyed that scene.

Glenn: My second good friend! This musical went MILES in bonding me and him together. I used to be veri irritated with him, cus although I treat him like a gd friend, he always ignore me. I hope he dun revert back to that way again, cus then what the musical did for us will be in vain. I enjoy being in his company with his undying smile. It always brightens me up somehow and makes me smile along with him. I still look up to him as a leader, but I think I somehow start to look up to him less and less, which I dun think is a bad thing, at least for me, cus it means I'm starting to take control of my own actions!

Dexter: VERI GOOD ACTOR!! My fave line of his is "And I shall sell this too!" So impromptu!! But can be veri hot-tempered at times, and always prefers females. Which can be veri hard for me to bond with him.

Siew Ling: Ah, my waltz partner. It is my honour to dance with you, you are like such a talented dancer. BTW, can send me that photo we took together? I think I want it for memory sake. ALWAYS hyper and full of energy! Haha, you do make me laugh alot too. And.... Your hands are COLD!! XD XD... I doubt she reads my blog actually, XD..

Sandy: Glenn's partner, and a kai(1) xin(1) guo(3). She's always sooo happy and always sooo helpful! Thanks for helping me carry stuffs XD, and for offering your help even though I turned it down. Haha, and ur comment about you being a squirrel is sooooo funny... And thanks for talking to me during the musical!

Jordan: Mwaha, fellow T2-ian. Sitting beside you can be so crazy man. Always entice me to sleep also. Haha. And you are sooo tall, give me some of your growth hormones leh, I need it XD. Brightens up the atmosphere during musical because of all the funny things he say. I will still see you alot during school haha, I think this musical helped bond me with him more too, I talk to him more during school already, but now we got one less common topic. Haiz..

Eugene: I dono why I devoted a section to him, I barely talk to him save for the final 3 days. But he's a fellow choir member and used to be fellow tenor. His singing is soooo good, though he keeps using falsetto. His acting of the beast during rehearsals are so comical! And thanks for the encouragement during that fateful day. You acted veri well as the beast! I think now when I think of beast I will think of you (Not insult, as in you immortalize that character).

Syahir, Melvyn: I dun realli talk much to syahir, but I respect him for being so serious. And Melvyn, thanks for all the help you offered during musical. You also made me laugh at your actions. They made alot of contributions to the show and their perseverance in the end is admirable.

Frederika: Ah, not much to say actually, onli started talking to her after the outing. But she's realli light-hearted and funny. Guess all the dancers are. Haha.

Daishi, Hui Yang, Serfee: Aha, I also barely talk to you all, save during Be Our Guest scene. Thanks for your compliments and I treasure them.

Rafiq, Moritza, Amirul, Nicholas: Aha, you people are such fun people to talk to! Thanks for your encouragement too! And you people have made this musical veri memorable to me. Nicholas, you are soooo cute!! Haha, do science team proud! Moritza.. I know you longest, haha. But somehow, after P5 I dun see you downstairs anymore. Your sis is Samantha rite? Aha, hope she's doing fine. Rafiq, I onli just knew him this year, initially veri shy, but he became more bold. Ya, realli enjoyed talking to him. And Amirul, waha, choir junior! I know him for some time too.

G&Yan: Our directors! Yeah man, we owe the success to them. I realli respect them and I'm glad I met them. G is also realli funny with his criticisms! I can understand when you reprimand us, though you were veri fierce. But it helped with our character development. Also thanks for believing in us and for supporting us all the way, even though at times we were very uncoorperative.

Gina: Whee! Our super hyper dance teacher! She's realli fun to be with and I must thank her for teaching us the waltz and for making it so magical. I can realli talk to her too cus the age difference isn't that big. Somehow she feels more like a friend as compared to a teacher, but I still respect her as one.

Stage Crew: Lol, I donno you guys the names, but you guys are AWESOME. The musical's success is also largely your part. You guys learn the ropes fast and also thanks for all the help and encouragement. You guys are also always so energetic and funny! Glad to have met you all and it was a magical moment to work together to make this musical a success.

Current mood: Depressed; Lost

19/7/06, a memorable day for me. I shall never forget this day and it shall have a special place in my heart for the rest of my life. Why? Why did it have to end? I know good things never last, but, it seemed like yesterday when I first auditioned for this musical. Now, I just feel emptiness in my heart and on Mondays and Thursdays, which used to be occupied by musical practices. What of the people I met? I will miss you people, you have made this experience one worthy of a fairy tale in itself.

Never in my life will I be able to waltz again. I guess last night is the last night I will get to waltz. However, last night was the best performance ever. I enjoyed myself totally and I believe the audience did too. I had alot to blog about, but somehow, when I sat down to start penning down my thoughts, they vanished into thin air, all I'm left with is loneliness and something missing, something I can't quite place. I hope I will not take too long to adjust back, though I will always feel a part of me missing. I cannot take any more seperations like this, it's so painful. She has already removed a large part of my heart and now this... I just feel like crying, I dun want it to end, and I know I sound like some spoilt kid. Now I'm starting to wish I brought my camera ytd so I could take some photoes to remember that special time. Will our paths cross again? I do not know, but I sure hope so.

I shuda known, from the moment I signed up that this thing was destined to end. At least it was fun while it lasted. There were moments of joy, moments of disappointment, moments of fustration. But we pulled through, and the reward is sweet. Though the reward is sweet, the seperation is bitter. I feel like making a music slideshow of photoes taken during musical, set to the tune of Graduation by Vitamin C. But... I do not have the photoes, and I'm new at this and I'm afraid it does not turn out nice.

Today did not go to school, cus woke up I felt terrible, sore throat, flu, and headache. Now onli left sore throat and flu. If you get there before I do, don't give up on me. Currently listening to B&B theme song, and I can feel tears welling up already. This song brings back so much memories. We should have an outing together, like watch movie or sth.

I realli donno wad else to type, dun feel like blogging out the entire day. I guess there isnt much to blog about cus I onli have one feeling, which is emptiness. I think everyone probably feels the same way. Ok, I dun realli have much else to say, unless I am realli going to blog the whole sequence of events yesterday.

The rules:]
Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then pick 5 people to do it too

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor evrywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk(swear) in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
am an adrenaline junkie.

1) Grace Wang
2) Wen Pu
3) Ting Jun
4) Tay Yi
5) Dexter

Current mood: Depressed, irritated.

Is there nothing else that can go wrong? Today mood feel so low, want my air-con to cool me down, and it decided to quit on me, so now I have to survive wif the sweltering heat. Now not so bad, later at nite sure hot until cannot slp.

Donno y, but today I feel veri lethargic and lack of energy to do anything. I hate it when ppl dun treat me seriously, I feel like every1 just treats me as a joker, which is REALLI IRRITATING. Sometimes, it's ok, but not everytime. I am so lethargic that I dun even feel like typing out all the things weighing on my mind and heart. I wanna fly, yet I feel so tied down to this earth.

When you look back, will you remember me? I doubt so, but I will always remember you. I may have little impact in your life, but you are like a meteor that spun my life out of balance. Every minute spent without you is every minute spent without a life and motivation. I'm starting to feel tired of smiling even though my inner self is heartbroken, even though my inner self is angry, even though my inner self is irritated. I wish there is someone who can realli understand me, who can realli empathise with me, who can realli offer me support in whatever I do.

I think I shud just be contented with whatever I have now. Which is nothing. I remember ytd there was a speaker who came to speak to us abt dreams and how impt they are in our life. TO me, dreamers are a bunch of fools who hold onto fantasies. And yes, I am one such fool. I can onli dream, but dreams are dreams, not reality. I can't believe I was foolish enough to believe in fairy tales, there is no such thing as happy ending. We are born to die. And the process of dying is torturous.

Hold me hold me hold me senorita, I feel myself falling into the abyss... Sleep Sleep Sleep senorita, on my chest forever. I didn't know much of love But it came too soon And there was me and you And then we got real blue.

Graduation by Vitamin C is a sad song, yet with some hope. I think it's nice. I think I gonna change my blog song to it.

Ok, I realli had nth to do so I wrote a poem entitled, ah, you can guess... And my novel progress has halted!! NO!! Haiz, I'm just too lazy nowadays to do anything, and my AMV also halted, just 1 min more!! Oh, and thks Grace for listening to me too and No problem, if you ever wanna talk to me just well.. talk.. I'm willing to listen. :D, yeah, and we shud hold an outing soon..

Return, Oh days of innocence.
Where are you now?
Where is the angelic laughter?
All I hear now are deceit.

Return, Oh days of innocence.
Come back to me this instant.
I feel myself breaking
In these days of corruption.

Return, Oh days of innocence.
Don’t be swept away by the river of growth.
I want you, I need you.
I don’t want to mature.

Return, Oh days of innocence.
My defence is breached.
I feel myself maturing.
And deceit and lies falling in.

Return, Oh days of innocence.
When I never knew her.
When I was never backstabbed by love.
When I wasn’t silenced and bewitched.

Return, Oh days of innocence.
I feel so cold and alone.
I am stained with adulthood.
Wash me and cleanse me.

Much as I want you to return
Days of innocence.
But I know time cannot be turned back.
I shall miss you in these days of mental destruction.

My teacher once said that I can excel if I start putting effort into my work.
Never in my life have I danced until Beauty and the Beast.
The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always make me smile is Grace.
I like lines because... w8!! I never said i like lines!!
When I'm nervous, i get stomach ache.
The last time I laughed was when I had B&B practise.
My hair is slightly brown.
My feet are tired.
Last Christmas I ate turkey.
When I turn my head left, I see the window.
When I turn my head right, I see the door.
When i look down, i see the keyboard.
The craziest recent event was the outing I had with the dancers.
By this time next year I will be in a good JC, I hope...
I have a hard time understanding why I love you so much.
One time at a family gathering I chatted wif my cousins?
You know i like-like you when I stop talking when you are near.
If I won an award, the first person I'd thank is her.
Triangles are stupid bcos they do not have brains.
My ideal breakfast is to eat with Grace, I dun care the location or the food.
If you make me really happy I'll be good to you.
Where do you plan to visit anytime soon the toilet.
Boys are straightforward.
I'd stop my wedding if i had feelings for another.
The world could do without money.
I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than eat the cockroach.
Most recent thing you've bought yourself was Apple juice.
Most recent thing someone else bought you was food.
My least favorite time of day is when I have to wake up in the morning.
And by the way, please hold on to me cus I am slipping into the darkness..
The last time I was high was not was, is, now, cus I am on the 18th storey.
The person whom I last talked to is my mom.
I shouldn't have eaten too little.
Last night I wept.
There's this girl I know who can make me stop breathing and can captivate me everytime I see her. She makes me fall in love with her everytime I see her. She can make me stop liking any other girls.
There is this guy I know who makes me happy just by looking at him, and lightens up the atmosphere when I am around him.
I'll tell the next person who makes me really happy thank you, and you can be a comedian.
I'm listening to Precious One by KATTUN.
I last ate dinner.
My bedsheet is blue.
I smell nothing.
On my table, there is alot of things.
My full name is Law Wei Rong.
This quiz is useful in helping me spend time.

Saw this quiz on Grace's blog and since I have nth to do, I shall do it. THe first one did not interest me.

Favourites
Favourite Colours: Green
Favourite Food: Sushi!!
Favourite Song: Andalucia ni Akogarete (Cus it is a veri sad and touching song bout love)
Favourite Movie: Lord of the Rings Return of the King
Favourite Sport: Soccer
Favourite Day of the Week: Any day with musical. (Cus of *ahem* sry sore throat, n neways, its a new experience)
Favourite Season: Winter (Cus I am a veri cold person)
Favourite Ice Cream: Mint with chocolate chips

Currents
Current Mood: TIRED!!! Sad.... Depressed..
Current Taste: Orange
Current Clothes: Home clothes, veri old ones.
Current Desktop: Wood. For comp.. Is a photo.
Current Toenail Colour: pink?
Curent Time: 8:36pm
Current Surroundings: Cool air-con room and silence.
Current Annoyances: Tmr have bio and phy test plus O level MT oral
Current Thoughts: How am I going to survive tmr and How can I improve on my acting and singing and How hopeless my life is.

First
First Best Friends
Kindergarden: Don't remember
Primary school: Wei Xiang
Secondary school: Wen Pu, Glenn
Poly: nope. still in sec school & i don't plan on gg to a poly.
Outside school: None, like I said, I am a veri cold person.
First Crush: Grace Wang
First Movie: Don't remember
First Lie: I told my mom I never played computer when I did.
First Music: No idea

Lasts
Last Cigarette: I don't smoke and never will.
Last Drink: Orange juice
Last Car Ride: Dad's car.
Last Crush: No last, cus it is current, and may not be crush.
Last Movie: Superman Returns
Last Phone Call: My mom.
Last CD played: Best of KAT-TUN

Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: No
Have you ever broken the law: No
Have you ever been arrested: No
Have you ever skinny-dipped: No
Have you ever been on TV: No

5 things you are wearing: Spectacles, shirt, shorts, underwear, skin
4 things you done today: Waltz, Fenced, Injure myself, Cried.
1 thing you do when you are bored: Sit around and stare at nothing while thinking about her.

This love has taken its toll on me, she said good bye too many times before...

I promise you...
I believe your promise but, there is no promise forever...
Afureru ai ga sora ni habataite mawaru owari no nai hibi ga.
Shinjiru kimi ga tsuita uso nara sotto kokoro ni shimau yo.

This post shuda been posted ytd, but when I got home, all I wanted to do was flop on my bed and sleep, so this post was post-poned. Ytd went wif the dancers for an outing to East Coast Park. Ah, had to wake up early in the morning. Somemore in the morning I had a nightmare, I dreamt I was a World War 2 pilot, and I was like on a mission to bomb places. Funny thing was, as soon as I got into the cockpit, my vision turned black and I cannot c anything, yet strangely I was able to fly the plane. Weirrrd.. Somemore at this time of the year.. Hmm? Den woke up and went to bathe to prepare myself for a long day.. Met Glenn and Dex at the LRT station at 9 20, den we went to Jurong East to ice-skate first. Ok, here comes one of the highlights of the day. We met... MR RICHARD!!! Haha, you may be wondering who he is. Lemme tell you... I have no idea who he is either. He was some highly zealous christian who was trying to evangelize us without our permission. Which, is illegal. At first he came up to us and I thought he was some CID officer, look so secretive, and some more like say "Eh boys, how old are you?" Den I was like.. er.. wad did we do?? Den later he asked "Do you believe in God?" Den I was like Ohhh... THis guy wanna try to get us to be christians. So Glenn answered No.. Den he asked me and I answered yes den he asked dexter and dexter answered yes. Den he asked if I'm a christian and I just nodded my head. First lie!!! Ah well, the onli reason I'm not is cus my mom dun allow. So he started blabbering abt "I am here to spread the good news." Den as he was saying, the lights flickered and Glenn's handphone beeped and a skater fell down. So he was like "Satan is watching, he doesn't want us to know about God, see how many distractions he send?" At that point I was about to laugh out loud already but I just kept to myself. This guy is like LOONY!! Den he went on talking about hell and that its a lake of fire. Den he say "Actually, scientists have discovered hell, let me show you" Den he proceeded to take out his bible wif clippings. I was like Diao, wow, wads he gonna show us?...... MOUNT MERAPI!!! HE TOOK OUT A NEWSPAPER CLIPPING OF MOUNT MERAPI!!! OMG!!! Den he was like "you know where's this place? This is the entry to hell. Ever wondered why its spewing hot gases and rocks and lava?" I was thinking "Cus its a volcano?" NEways, I was too lazy to explain the earth's processes so I just smiled at him. Den he started raving about hell and angels and God and den Jesus. Meanwhile, Glenn kept receiving SMSes and he suddenly lashed out, "STOP PLAYING WITH YOUR HANDPHONE!" Den Glenn, apparently, was quite angry, but he was a polite nice boy and didn't say anything. Den he later said "You non-believer lar, you donno lar, you are ignorant." Wow, 3 insults hurled in a string. I can't believe Glenn didn't snap! Den he started insulting the other religions, saying that those people who worship them are worshipping stones. Man-made stones. Den he said some of the "gods" looked like demons. He seemed loony man, den WP came!!! Haha, and he also got roped in to listen to his ravings. Alot of things he was talking about I already know, but just sit there and listen lor... Den he went on and say "Satan is not interested in you, not your casing, he is interested in wads inside you. You know wads inside?" Den I was like.. Am I supposed to say JEsus? Den we like give shrugs and he answered "It's your soul!" Den I DIAO!!! I nv say out lar, but in my head was like Diao.... At this point, Dexter said "Can we go now? Faster pray den go." So he said okok, let me pray for you all. Then, the security guard came and shouted "MR RICHARD!" Den waved him over. So Mr Richard said bye to us and walked over. That was how I know wad was his name. Den later WP said he was a madman, how can lidat come and anyhow evangelize ppl. Apparently, he did this more than once, so that is how the security guard knew his name.

Wow, I devoted such a long paragraph to the encounter wif Mr Richard! Den later we just ice-skate. I was abit bored lar, cus I have always preferred skiing. What's more, its realli irritating when other people show off. It's also annoying when the whole place becomes flooded. Den later the dancers came to meet us, and we left at 12 15. Went to KFC to eat, and the dancers eat so little, onli a shrooms set. In order to fill me, I think I need 3 of those sets at least. Ya, I am a veri good glutton. After that, we waited for Gina to come and meet us, den persuade her to come wif us to East Coast. In the end, she agreed and we took a long train ride to City Hall. From there, we took bus 197 to East COast park. The bus is a double decker!! WOW!! I so long never take double-decked bus liao. We had a rather nice bus ride. We just spent the whole time talking. And den reached east coast, we had to walk to the rental shop. Then Dexter suggested we rent double bikes, like two person on one bike, one guy one girl. Actually, I was quite ok wif it at the start, but towards the end I was quite reluctant, but went on wif the plan anyways. So we rented the bikes and started cycling. Doubles bike got its advantages, such as when both guy and girl cycle same pace, the effort put in by each party is lesser for the same speed on a single bike. However, when one person slacks, the going gets tough and you have to put in more energy for the same speed. Then my partner for that day was Anita and we damn sui, the bike chain kept coming off. End up I have to get my hands REALLI dirty to fix it. My hands became like totally black.. TOtal chain fixes for that day was 5. 3 times from mine, 2 times I helped Dex. However, cycle halfway I wanted to swap for awhile. Then I swapped wif WP who was cycling single. Then in the end, I soloed all the way. Everytime w8 for WP catch up I was waiting for him to ask his single bike back, but he never did! So I just cycle solo all the way. Then WP after that said he felt realli slack cycling on dual, cus Anita wanted to go slow. Den towards the end, I caused an accident. I overtook Glenn, den turned and slow down to talk to him, when all of a sudden, Gina like speeded out of nowhere and the unfeeling look on her face looked murderous and scary. Somemore she no slowing down! She was like heading straight towards me, so I swerved to my left.... And hit Dexter. Donno who got injured but I think Sabrina fell off. Lucky no one got hurt. But I guess its like my fault lar.. I shudnt have stopped. I was letting them know WP was not behind. SO we waited, and WP appeared, but Rica was missing. Den later me n Glenn started discussing abt how Gina cycles, and we all agreed on one thing, she got an unfeeling look on her face. Veri scary.. After that, we walked to a busstop and took a direct bus back to Jurong East interchange. The bus ride sooooooooooo long.. It was like 1 hr 30 mins long? We spent all that time...... Chatting, and getting to know each other better. So I guess that time wasn't wasted. After the whole trip, I felt wasted and absolutely drained of energy. So me glenn n wp ate our dinner in Jurong East and den went home... Den my mom brought me to have a haircut and she told the hairdresser to cut until can meet school standard, yet leave it as long as possible. SO the hairdresser cut lor, to me, she cut alot. But today Glenn said cut veri little. Lol, he never leave long hair be4 so donno how it feels like when you cut it. IT realli feels like it's cut alot. I think, my whole long holiday, Monday was the most well-spent. All the other days I was like waiting for time to pass..

Somewhere out there is your only one.. I don't wanna be all alone.. It's painful.. Believe in me, believe in you, believe in our love...... Shinjiru..... Someday you will meet someone you love...

Posting becus I am dying of boredom. Well, the "impossible" happened and France won Brazil. In my opinion, its not impossible. France have always, I feel, been better than Brazil. Ah well, gonna suan glenn come monday.

Rozi just issued death sentence on me last Friday. SHE ASKED ME CUT HAIR!!! DIe Die Die... I dun want.. Dun want.. Dun want.... Why does she have to come at me from behind??!! Come from front at least dun look as long... There goes my "Dun cut hair until end of year and hope teachers dun notice" plan. At least, if I cut now, I wun cut until after Os. Not fair, girls can keep long hair and guys cannot.. What is this man... No gender equality at all.. Haiz, taking one last look at my hair liao.... Soon.. Will be short again... Haiz... It was fun while it lasted... At least i dun need to avoid teachers anymore... Ok, I sound freaking gay and vain. But I just like the feeling of long hair and the lack of need of styling it. I mean, just leave it there oso can, dun need to do anything to it. I onli push front to side so it dun block my vision. Haha, I think I go find the super long strands that unearthed one night while I was sleeping. Den say bye bye. It's somewhere in the fringe, it reach my cheek lorr.. I was so shock got so long one. I think I push it in too much, but somehow that night I sleep the position loosened it and it fell down my face.. Den I go toilet see I was like "Cool..." Darn, I wished my hair was a tad bit more brown. Its slightly brown, but onli visible when got sun / light shine on it. Brown hair looks sooooo nice...... Crimson oso not bad.. At least it looks good on Junno!

Nowadays been sleeping realli lightly and badly. Keep waking up at like 7+ even though I sleep at 12+. Cannot lar, make me feel so tired and listless. Mus somehow find a way to let me sleep 10+ hours. Den can fully recharge my batts. I think tonite mus slp early liao, or else tmr no energy. THe principle of conservation of energy states that : If you have nothing to do, sleep and conserve the energy! Haha, ok its my twisted theory.

Someone please go tell my girl
She's probably waiting there at the platform
Tell her that, although I will be late
I'll surely get there so please wait for me

I'm yearning for Andalucia
Dancing with a rose in my mouth
With Carmen from the underground bar
Tonight, at the metro, a rendezvous

In my fading conciousness
I danced with Carmen
Under the blue skies of Andalucia
I heard the songs of Granada.....

What a touching song. Its in a jumbled order. But its a story of a guy who is in the mafia, and on the day he has a date with this girl, his boss called him to settle something. Den he went there, it was supposedly a like talk session, but it was a trap and he was shot. Den in his fading consciousness he onli thought of his girlfriend waiting on the platform for him.

Dareka Kanojo ni tsutaetekureyo
Hoomu no hajitematteru hazu sa
Chotto okureru kamoshirenai keredo
Kanarazu yuku kara soko de matteroyo

Hmm. Wondering who actually reads my blog. Does Glenn read it? I know he reads blogs occasionally, but wondering if he reads mine... Ah haf a sneaky suspicion *ahem* likes *cough*. HAha, dun wanna state names, to protect privacy. Actually its not exactly a suspicion already, it feels veri confirmed and not onli I think of it. Ah well, who cares, anyone can have the right to like anyone! But of course, where the other person likes you is a different story altogether. Strongly suggest people listen to Kat-Tun songs. Its realli nice, though not all of it, most are nice. For starters, find "Precious One" "Kizuna" and "Andalucia ni akogarete". Summary also not bad, but unfortunately its a two group song wif NewS. I dun like NewS, onli Yamapi is good. And actually, the onli song I ever heard Yamapi sing is Daite Senorita. Ahh, I suddenly like Spanish named songs!! Haha... I heard this Spanish song while I was in the states and I liked it alot, but cannot find it.. Its called "Bachata Rosa". I love the states!! I will not give up my dream of migrating there except for someone. Only that someone can make me give up this dream, otherwise I'm working my way there. Skiing every weekend in December, haiz, the thought just overwhealms me. I LOVE skiing. If you like ice skating, w8 till you start skiing. ITs MUCH more exhilirating. Not to mention the breath-taking scenery when you get to the top of the mountain. Wad's more, you can attain speeds of over 100kmph. Wow, how cool is that!! Of cus its a tad bit scary, but with skill, you will be able to manage it. Somemore last time I ski so much until quite pro already. I can do stunts also.. Now I think I forget everything liao. I think I too lazy to post anymore, so stop here..