Woots, everyone came back today! Nt sure what I will be doing tmr. perhaps we would be gg LAN. Who knows.

Spoke to her today. Ok. Not spoke. MSNed. She got into AJC. Ahh, congratulations. My mom asked me to appeal to AJC. I was reluctant at first, cus (in order of importance):

#1: She's there and I dun want her to misunderstand I appealed to get into the same school as her.

#2: AJC does not offer Computer Programming.

#3: I dun wanna go out.

In the end my mom said sth that made me decide to appeal.

"Why are you always so indecisive. What's yours you dun want to fight for it. Prelim also like that, never go and claim marks, then never get 11 points without minus."

Ahh, I was rly surprised, den I thought about it. Ya, I should not let opportunities slide by. I should take it. So be it if she thinks I appealed to be in the same school as her. Well, it shows I'm despo. (Oh wait, that isnt good isit?) Yeah, I shall go appeal. I think Tuesday or sth. But I think must call them up first.

I think I analyse too much. Sometimes, before I say things, I would think 3 lines ahead. What the person will reply, what I should reply, what that person in turn will reply. I make sure that it's satisfactory before I speak. Omg, I'm turning into Kira. Actually, this is only when I chat wif her. haha. I'm proud (or ashamed) to say that my predictions are almost always correct. Or at least close to the reply. And then I applied it to other ppl also. And now... Sigh... Though this doesn't happen wif every sentence. Just some.. sensitive.. ones. But there's nth wrong in thinking before you say something right? I just overdo it.

Yeah, I was trying to be someone else. I was trying to be someone everyone likes. I dun care what I like, I just try to please everyone. Jeez, you know that sux? You know its realli terrible to not have things go your way? Its terrible to keep following. Ya, some ppl think I dun have my own opinion. You just nv thought that I DO have my own opinion, I just dun want to make you all angry. I just want to be some one everyone likes. And in the end, I hate myself.

I wish I can be like Glenn. Inconsiderate yet considerate. He knows how to satisfy himself yet make himself likeable. Ya, I am attracted to him. Seriously. I think he can be a girl magnet if he wants to. I mean, he really treats me badly. Most of the time. BUt somehow I keep believing in him, keep supporting him. THere are times where I thought, "SCREW GLENN", but somehow, I never quit being his friend. I think it has to do with his personality? So.. Girls, if you dun wanna get attracted by him, dun bother knowing him. Once you know him, you might find him irresistable. OM, what am I saying, I make him sound like some evil rapist. Ah well. He's just charming in my opinion.

Jeez. I rly like my current friends, though there are frictions. Alot. But somehow, we managed to glue together. Glenn, WP, Dex, TY. TY's the worst one. We fell out 2-3 times, yet got together in the end. These 4 are my good friends, my inner circle. Glenn and WP are my best friends. And I guess, they will stay that way. Yeah. I excluded George cus he's not our age haha, but I treat him as an older brother I never had. He's rly nice too.

As my post title suggested, these are my true feelings. I think, you can probably tell. I'm not holding anything back. Actually, I'm onli sure TY reads my blog. And Grace Yeoh. I dun think anyone else reads. Lol. So I guess, this is almost a personal diary.

Sincerely praying after O levels results release I can get into NJC. Of course, I pray that Glenn will get in too. And Grace too :). I really doubt WP and TY can get into NJ, and TY wants to go Poly anyways. WP also considering going Poly. I'm not sure about Dex, but judging by how confident he was during the Os, he should be able to enter NJ too. But confidence is a double-edged sword. Rly, I think onli my EL will sarbo. Crap. I shouldn't have anyhow wrote my composition. Sigh. I must have been insane. I think my dual maths get A1 alr. My MT shud be able to push to A1 also. Bio and Physics should be A1 too. Geography should also be A1.

Lord, please grant me the grades that I desire. Nothing has ever went my way before. So please grant this wish. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

I think the MOE should stop giving priority to HMT ppl. It's unfair enough they get a 2 point advantage. Still want to give them advantage. THat is seriously CRAP. They should do sth like ppl who Prelim get A1 for English can minus 2 points off their Os. That would be more fair to ppl who MT sux but EL good. Ah well, MOE sux, enough said. They are still miles behind the education system in America. I rly dun see the emphasis on MT. I mean, taking MT ok, nth wrong wif that. BUt giving priority to ppl wif HMT is just insane. It shows poor planning and also ministers and officials who hasn't went through this kind of education system. Which actually sux. This is my main gripe now of the examination system. Another thing MOE can do is introduce GP in secondary school. Den if u take GP no need take English. Score a pass in GP can minus 2 pts. So GP becomes like the english version of HMT. so all's fair. See. It's not so hard to make things fair. Poor planning, that's what I say. Never actually thought through the policy properly. Never realised it's so one-sided.

Ok, Nth else to post. Another long post. Haha. Rarely have long post alr..

This post can dun read. Hate post.

SCREW HMT

Today Glenn, Dex, and TY went for church camp, hope they have fun there. Actually, I was supposed to go too, but I decided I dun wanna go and spend more time wif my sis. And besides, I dun wanna meet new people. Not yet at least. Yes, I am VERY anti-social. I dun like meeting new people. I dun like making new friends. I just want my current frieds.

Dreamt of her again today. Dreamt of her yesterday too. Sigh, what's wrong wif me nowadays... I can't realli rmb wad was the yesterday's dream, it had to be good, for I dun rmb panicking or waking up with a start. But today's dream, I can still see it, hear it, touch it. I woke up feeling really happy (Not wet dream), felt that I have been born again, and then I realised it was a dream... Sigh, as usual I was disappointed. Then I thought about it, somehow the dream didn't seem like a big deal, so why did I feel so happy? So I started reflecting about it, and I came to a conclusion. THe conclusion is:__________________________________________. Lol, I dun wanna say. If this was a personal diary, I may write that out.

"I try to forget you, but I dunno how.."

WP came over today. Not much cept we watched Getbackers, den we DotAed and played a few lame games. Den he watched me play Fly For Fun. SO, we just talk cock until 6 den he went home. How can I forget, we neopets a little too. Ok, a little is an understatement lol.

These few days I feel very heavy, like sth is chaining my legs and holding me down. I dunno wads causing it, nor do I have the morale to find out what is it. Ever since she left for China, I felt something missing from my heart. What puzzled me was even when she was here, I did not talk to her much. So logically speaking, when she goes overseas, the change to my life should not be that great, right? WRONG! I dunno why, but I feel I lose my purpose in life and I keep feeling like giving up. Exactly the same feeling I had last year this time of the year. And then the age old saying "Man does not treasure what he has until he has lost it" Yet, she was never mine, so how could I have lost her? Theoretically wrong. I cannot lose something I never had.

"I love you, from the bottom of my heart. You are, will always be, my only one. My heart is only big enough for you, no one can take the number one place in my heart, nor can anyone have a place in my heart while you are still here. Even when I close my eyes, I see your face. In times of loneliness, I wish only for your company. Whenever I feel like giving up, I think of you, and I find the courage to turn the next bend. Sometimes, I wish I was someone else. I wish I was someone you would love. I cannot be satisfied with myself. I want so much to be the only one in your life, but am I not good enough? THen, why can't I be someone worthy? Someone worthy of your touch, your kiss, your loving gaze? Why then, do I have to be me?"

When can I win your heart? Sadly, this isn't a carnival, where if you have enough money, and enough patience and determination, you can win the top prize. This, is life. This is the game of love. This is where many people suffer. This is reality, not dreams. What dreams do I have? My only dream is to be with you. To protect you.

At this juncture, I think of Ginji and his promise to protect the people of unlimited city. And that is so totally irrelavant.

"Looking back on the things I've done, I was trying to be someone. I played my part, I kept you in the dark. Now let me show you the shape of my heart."

When life throws you a fastball, You catch it. But when life throws me a fastball, I let it hit me in the face, so I can wake up. Or perhaps knock me out. Either way, it would be good.

I shall just let life takes it course and see what unfolds. Perchance I shall win her heart? Perchance I end up in the same JC as her? Either way, it's all up to Fate now. Ok Fate, everything is in your hands, I can only... Believe.... Shinjitteru...

Wow, I am finally getting down to making a blog entry. Can just remember I was here a few days ago rdy to write when I suddenly decided to play games, so I did not. Sigh, I am such a procrastinator. Anyways, I promise this will be a long post.... I hope... As long as I do not forget what I wanted to write.

Before embarking on the story of my (Suxy) life, just one announcement, TY's coming back today (tonite?)!!! Lets welcome him and (laughs) tell him we have completed our partying.

I can't remember how many events has it been since choir ROD, but the most important one is prom. For the first time in my life, I actually went shopping for my own clothes!! WOW!!! o.0, normally I just wear wad my mom buys! Went over the whole of Taka and yet I could not find what I wanted, so I went back empty handed (Yeah, Im damn choosy). Nxt day went to IMM, also cannot find what I want, then went to Isetan, where I finally (thankfully) found something I want. And this happened the day before prom! Haha, if I cannot find what I wanted, I'll simply wear T-shirt and Jeans, cool rite? I thought so too! Den me n glenn would somehow be similar haha.

Anyways, my end suit was a white shirt (Yay, i nv button the top button to show off my pendant), A pendant which is actually a ring, jeans, and (drum rolls) TRACK SHOES (Laughs). Anyways, I didn't know to turn up casual or formal, so I chose the inbetween. Many people turned up like businessmen and I found it rather odd. Definitely not to my taste (Who cares? I'm not gay). WP and dex wore ALMOST IDENTICAL SUITS! So they became Glenn (president) bodyguard. LOL! I was supposed to be personal assistant but I did not want to participate in their charade. Some ppl made me rly wanna laugh, first one was Alvin. WHen I saw him, I thot he was an insurance agent, and I was wonderin what was an insurance agent doing here. And den, I realised it was him. LOL!!! Then, more ppl streamed in, all looking like businessmen on impt businesses. Den the girls started coming. Saw Jinzhe and I was like WOAH, JZ know how to dress well!! Future Hu Jin Tao mah! Den WP keep running off to flirt wif some girls. Some girls actually cosplayed -.-.. I only rmb a cinderella and an angel? Wow, (laughs). Well then, we started getting impatient and wanted to get into the Dunearn Ballroom ASAP, so we camped by the doors. As soon as it was opened we CHIONG IN!!! Haha, got table 8, cus WP wanted it, and sui man, it was beside the teacher's one. AHH!! Our table had me, glenn, dex, wp, gx, and mx at first. Den no one wanted to join us. Michele walked pass and WP said I wish she would sit here. My evil plan was WP scram and she just MIGHT sit there. LOL!!! Den later WP can come back and say sth like sry, went toilet so long, thks dex for reserving my seat. Haha, den she wanna change place also too late. But anyways, later Rachel Low and her fren came to join us. Den Chiam was walking about and I can't rmb who invited him to sit wif us. Lol, then our table lidat lor, got 9 ppl. The emcee for the nite was rly funny! And that, to me, was the whole highlight. His humour and jokes left me rolling on the floor laughing (Not literally). Buttt FOOD FIRST!!! And to tell the truth, the food tasted... bland.. Definitely not good quality food, I've eaten better in hawker centres. THe salmon? I've tasted better salmons in Sakae Sushi. The food definitely wasn't great. But the programmes were. I liked the song game, where ur supposed to guess wad song it was. Actually I knew quite a number, but too shy to go forth.

Oh no, the problem I feared is back, I forgot what I wanted to post....

Crap, I can't even rmb what happened nxt. THe nxt thing seemed to be the Prom King and QUeen segment, I dun rly wish to elaborate cus it wasn't an impt event for me. Jimson became King and Joan became Queen (2 Js lol..) Gx qualified as a finalist but too bad the whole 5A banded behind Jimson. In my heart, the only queen is Grace.

EDIT: The start of the event was a slideshow of pictures, and (drum rolls) the PULITZER PRIZE WINNING PHOTO TAKEN BY ME WAS SHOWN!!! Oh man, that photo should have won a Nobel Prize award too! I mean, everyone who saw it will laugh together and den realise that they are all humans so all fighting will stop! NOBEL PEACE PRIZE! DEN I WOULD ACHIEVE WORLD PEACE THROUGH AN INCREDIBLE FOOTAGE OF WP LOOKING RETARDED! Mwahaha, so you guys who dunno where the heck that photo came frm and which genius took it, the answer is ME!! Actually, i dono who gave the photo, but I TOOK IT MWAHAHA!! Outside 204 classroom 2 years ago. Anyways, the person who gave the photo, I'm gonna sue that person, its copyrighted by law (no pun) and no permission was granted for that photo to be shown. ANyway, for those interested to know how I took it, it happened so lamely. I was supposed to take a picture of marcus, glenn, dexter, and ting jun i think, den WP was standing out of the frame laughing at them. So I quickly turned towards him and hit the shutter, thats when that Nobel prize winning photo of WP's retarded look was born.

Fastforward, nowadays I've been playing badminton wif Glenn and WP at Jelapang. Life seems to get so repetitive, we rly need more big events. Anyways, ytd went ice sk8ing wif them becus I had nth to do at home. My sis came along. So at first I thot was 4 ppl. When I reached there, I was shocked that WP has invited Rachel Low too. And den, I got a second shock when wp told me he tried to get Sandy to come. LMAO! I wanted to, but I played DotA and forgot to SMS her LOL!! Haiz, so Glenn got nooo partner T.T.. Haha... Practically the whole session I was wif my sis, so nth much to say, her first time ice sk8ing. Den we went KFC to eat. Er, not much to say. Wow, I just realised yesterday was sooo like the day before. Haha, lifeless.. At night went to play badminton (again). Den played DotA (Again). WOw, monotonous.. I rly dono wad else to post, but if I rmb, I will edit this post.

Wow, its been aeons since my blog posts have titles!! Wowowow....

Why does my blog entries somehow sound so lame?

Cause... The blogger is a lamer...

Now don't all of you agree?

Haha. that is so beside the point.

This style of writing. So unlike me.

Just somehow felt like writing like that.

Currently listening to Never Gone by Backstreet Boys which is found in the disc the choir committee gave me.

Maybe that is why Im writin like that.

Im gonna treasure that disc. It holds nice memories (Though Dun have a photo of me inside save 1, but I dun care!)

Today's ROD was fun, must rly thank the committee for organizing such a great ROD. The first thing we did was the amazing race where we were supposed to find places and take photo of them. Places wif committee members, we must do a challenge. Well, the girls in my group were AMAZING. THey seem to know Sentosa like the back of their hands, so they pretty much lead the way. But... THey were rly slooooow..... Haha.. Esp at the end, they refuse to budge at all!! so i thot we lost alr, lost to glenn and dexter group. Den we just strolled back, den me and wp were strolling on siloso beach when we saw one group crossin the bridge to the meeting pt. Then I was saying Wah, now the first team den arrive, sian, if we run just now sure first alr.. So we continued strolling. Then as we got closer, I saw them piling sand on their feet, which was the challenge, that was when I realised they haven't won, so we shouted to our members and we CHIONG!!!! AND WE GOT FIRST!!! WOOHOO!!!! Of course, I stayed and w8ed for glenn and luffed at him. He said he wld be first, true to a certain extent.. He was first... From the back.. Lol..

Then it was a lunch break. NExt was some rubberband game which you must use toothpicks to transfer the rubberband to ur group members. Me n WP sat that one out for we were late. Our group won again.. Haha... Den it was a balloon game, coordination one. Basically, must put a blown balloon between 2 ppl, whole group must participate, so 6 ppl group must have 5 balloons. THe balloons cannot drop and cannot burst, if not must restart. My group won AGAIN!! LOL!!!

After that we got to select our own group. So, the sec 4s split into 2 groups. Me WP GLenn Dexter Sue yi and Pearlyn one group. The game goes like this: We have to be sth like a snake, person in front in charge of attacking, person at back must avoid the front person of another snake. The back person has 2 balloons tied to the feet and the front person must burst the balloons of the back person of another group. Grace's group did a very evil strategy. She's the tail of the snake so they coiled around her, like how millipedes and centipedes react when under attack. It's like impenetratable!! But somehow someone managed to burst one balloon. And their group plus mine plus another was left, so they got kicked out becus my group and the other group got 2 balloons left (full life). We swapped leader for Dexter was too aggressive. Den Pearlyn veri passive, move to the left and right so slowly. THe other group lost becus they swerved and their chain broke, so got disqualified. AND MY GROUP WON AGAIN!! LOL!! Den we versus the committee members. At first was abit even, no win no lose. Den suddenly, we got pummelled realli bad and we just cant be on the offence. Then they can't win cus me and WP are 2 walls preventing them from reaching glenn. And glenn got this amazing reflex that keeps preventing ppl from stepping on his balloons. Den we saw why we were getting pummelled. THeir snake broke into 2. One side defending the other concentrate on attack. AND THEY DIDNT REALISE!! HAHAHA!!! So they got disqualified and we won again. Den they decided to pop glenn's balloons by stepping, and surprise surprise, it wouldn't pop, it just compressed and we were like luffing our heads off.

The next activity was a variation of catching. Basically, form groups of 4, den stand around, apart from each other. One runner and one catcher is selected. The runner must run to another group, to form a group of 5. This action causes the other end member of the group of 5 to knock off that member, so the group remains 4. That member becomes the nxt runner and the cycle repeats.In essence, if the runner runs to this group of 4 from the left, the rightmost member must run off and find another group of 4. Then Glenn, Wen Pu, Me, and Marcus form one group. The group of elite runners ok! but... no one came to us.... What the, den we just sat on the floor. In the end we cldnt take it so we started calling to ppl to come to us. First to get knocked off was Marcus. No one cld catch him lol. Den we w8ed awhile be4 WP got knocked off. Again, no one caught him. Then finally finally, I got to run!!! Lol, and becus my slipper spoiled, one foot was bare the other was wearing a slipper. When i started running, I tore my muscle on the back of my leg. Wah, very pain, and I had to hobble. Yet the person couldnt catch me. I quickly find a place to stand and knock another person out. Then later that person, Melvyn, said to me I run veri fast. Lol, I so zhuai, I said like that you call fast? I tore my muscle leh, lidat if I didn't you can forget abt touching me alr.. Den later I got knocked off again and I crab ran, ran sideways, cus it doesnt stretch my tendon. After awhile it healed and I could run properly again. But I think, I v evil. If is ppl whom I know cannot catch me, I would just slack and stand behind one group, and like feign left feign right. Or I would just walk and w8 for that person to catch up before running off again. And I just keep running arnd like that until I decided I wanted to knock someone off. Lol, only when ppl like glenn or wen pu den i more serious cus if i let them get too close they may catch me. And den later they make 2 catchers 2 runners and it was damn messy, so they changed to 2 catchers 1 runner. More challenging for the runner. Den I volunteered to be the runner and let glenn catch me, but glenn not happy, he dun wanna catch me. So I knocked Amirul out and he got caught by Glenn. After awhile, I got knocked off again and I just repeated wad I normally do and den knock someone else off. Den WP was the catcher and he cldnt catch anyone. Cus ppl just run to the nxt group. So I offered my hand out to WP when someone knocked me off. Funny funny, HE SHOOK MY HAND!!! HE said good friend good friend and kept shaking my hand. Den I said ya good friend and I touched him back and ran off. Lol. In the end he still got someone. After that I didn't rly run anymore. Eh, I just realised the first time i was catcher i wasnt caught. I was runner den they said swap, runner be catcher catcher be runner. So the runner knocked dexter off and I was directly beside him. But he my friend, I dun wanna so evil, when he dono wad going on den catch him. So I just stand beside him and w8 for him to run. And.. I almost got him, but he just nice ran to soemone else and I had to change target. That person ran to Grace's group and knocked her off. Den Theresa they all like Woahhhhh. Lol, I hope she wun be insulted, but I didn't wanna catch her. SO I just jogged after her (If I rly want I probably can). I think Theresa they all think I will chiong after her. Den she knocked Melvyn off and I chionged for him. He ran like 1-2 seconds only I caught him liao. Then run lor, I ran to beside Marcus. And stayed there for some time. Grace became catcher somehow, and Marcus was signalling ppl to stand on the opposite end of me. Then I told him if she wants to catch me I will let her. ANd he said Ya I know. XY in the end knocked me off and I extended my hand to let her catch. But I dunno why she hesitated. I think she thought I would do to her what I did to Wen Pu. The whole choir WOAHHH!!! CUs she's the only one I so nice to :).. I see her run so long alr.. But later, Glenn told me it wasn't long. Compared to others not long lar, but I see her run all over the place my heart feel pain. Den I just stand there after she catch me and catch the person she knocked off. After that I didn't run alr. I hope she isn't insulted, I just haven't the heart to catch her. And I scared she catcher and I runner I will play around again. Which is somehow my instinct.. Like a horse... Den she will not be happy wif me or even dislike me... THat would be more insulting.. SO better dun take the risk.. Come to think of it, its the only time I can get her to chase me.. Sigh.. THe ironies...

Ytd dyed my hair and like alot of ppl in choir noticed it. Yet, my dad didn't!! And my mom and sis were sooo amused and was luffin durin dinner. My frens told me the colour v nice, thks man! Got girls tell me nice also! And the funniest qn I got was:"Dyed one or natural colour" Lol, we in choir so long liao also nv notice my hair original is black. Abit brown lar. Den I still managed to trick ppl its natural colour. Haha. I think Im an attention seeker.. EEEE YUX! I got injuries lor.. My legs muscle are overstretched, there's a torn blister beneath my feet becus I ran barefoot on rough terrain. But these will become happy memories, for I will always remember this day, when for once, I could get Grace to chase me, although I just stood there and let her catch. Now I wonder if she reads my blog... Now I resolve not to wonder so much...

Overall, today was a great day. Once again, many thanks to the choir committee for making this unforgettable. Sigh. 4 years passed in a flash. On the way back from Sentosa, I heard some chinese song on the bus. I cant rmb wad song it was but quite old song and i heard it be4. The lyrics somehow tugged at me. AND I CANT RMB THE LYRICS!!! Shud go and ask someone abt it.. Lol, the girls in the bus were singing that song soooo loudly.

Lastly, I still love Grace, and will stay the same, always. My heart is too small to allow room for another girl. I hope I will get into the same school as her for the first 3 months, and if she decides to go JC after 3 mths, hope to see her in NJ. Also, I hope to be in the same school as glenn, which is NJC. GLenn almost confirmed get in alr.. NJC has been my dream college anyway...

1. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR LAST EX IF YOU COULD?
- Who said I have an ex? Dotx, self-assuming quiz...

2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
- Eh, shirt lar...

3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
- Yes, dun say who.

4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP FRIENDS LIST?
- Yes, dun say who.

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
- 100/100

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
- Never thought about it, when I get married then I'll think about it.. At least 1.

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
- Sometimes...

9. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?
- Maybe.

10. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST B-DAY?
- Stayed at home and played wif Glenn who also pon school.

12. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
- 6 45. Got EL paper in school.

13. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT THREE NIGHTS AGO?
- Sleeping.

14. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
- Of course not... Who enjoys pain other than masochists.

15. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
- Play Neverwinter Nights 2

16. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
- Few seconds ago, she came to ask me to study.

17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
- Wah, I wanna change everything.. Ok, my height..


18. IF YOU HAD 250,000 DOLLARS... WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH IT?
- Save it.


19. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
- I don't have a job..... Why so self-assuming....

20. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
- WHO THE HECK IS TOM?!!!

21. DESCRIBE WHAT UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING?
- It's made of cloth...

22. LAST THING YOU ATE?
- Starfruit, yumm..

23. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
- October.

24. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
- February

25. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE??
- Can't remember..

26. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
- Dunno..

27. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
- NEOPETS!!!

28. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
- Eh, dun remember...

29. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
- Grace Wang.

30. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
- Yep, if he has a revolver I wld help him take the bullet. (Get it? Take the ammunition and give it to him?)

31. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
- Water.

32. HAVE YOU BEEN TO AUSTRALIA?
- Yeah, this year i think..

35. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
- I wouldn't know in the first place.





1.Do you envy somebody this very moment?
. YES! I ENVY TAGUCHI JUNNOSUKE!!

2.Can you tell whether a person is lying or not?
. Nope.. Sometimes only...

3. Who's tattoo is appearing on your mind?
. .......................................

4.Ever had chicken pox?
. Yes

5.What was the last movie you watched that made you cry?
. Eh, movie I dunno, anime is FRUITS BASKET!!! And I just finished watchin it today.

6.Do you have a friend who's a bigmouth?
. Of course, almost all my friends..

7.Do you have a lot of bestfriends?
. Nope.

8.Do you cry when you get low grades?
. Eh, no, just get depressed.

9.What is your favorite song ?
. Let It All Out by Relient K

11.Who freaks you out the most?
. Hmm, never thought about it...

12.Who is your brother?
. WHY SO SELF-ASSUMING? I DUN HAVE A BROTHER!

13.What kind of cellphone do you own?
. I have no idea...

14.are you in love right now?
. Yeah..

15.is he/she in love with you too?
. CONFIRM no..

16.if you could rewind time, at what moment would you go back to?
. Year 2006 January. Though I rather be moving forward.

17.who is your biggest enemy?
. I dun have an enemy...

18. is there somebody that hates you?
. I dunno, if there is he/she is hiding it well.

19.have you experienced having a fight with the person you have feelings for?
. Nope, we barely talk... Sigh...

20.what song can you relate to?
. Let It All Out, Less is More, Tonight I wanna cry, For Fruits Basket, My Will, Crucify My Love, and many many more...

21.do you torture other people?
. Nah....

22.what do you like better coke or pepsi?
. Pepsi, and I dono why, they taste the same to me.

22.Are you in favor of Romeo and Juliet's relationship?
. Yes, though I rather Oreo and Julie orange juice. Ok, that was lame..

23.What is the best love story you've ever known?
. Lovers in Prague.

24.what are you looking forward to?
. Many things.. ROD party, prom night..

25.do you think that time stops when you finally see the love of your life?
. Nah, of course not, time keeps moving on..



THE WHO'S**

Who is in the room with you?
. I'm all alone...

Who was the last person to text you?
. Lazy to check my handphone.

Who are you thinking about now?
. Grace Wang.

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
. My mom.

Whose house did you last go to?
. Glenn.

Who was the last person you told you love them?
. Eh, I dunno, my sis I think.

**THE WHAT'S**

What was the last thing you ate?
. Starfruit

What was the last thing you drank?
. Soup.

What is the closest item near you that is blue?
. Razer Copperhead.

What are you wearing on your feet?
. Another self-assuming qn.. I HAVE NOTHING ON MY FEET!

What instant messaging service do you use?
. MSN Messenger.

What is your favorite website?
. Weird.. Blogger?

What do you wear more, jeans or skirts?
. Skirts!!! Yeah right.. Jeans..

What is the last movie u watched?
. DEATHNOTE!!!! WOOTS!!

What do you currently hear?
. This Everyday Love by Rascal Flatts

**THE WHEN'S**

When did you meet your best friend(s)?
. Today.

When is your birthday?
. 10th October.

When did you last take a shower?
. 4 o clock?

**THE WHERE'S**

Where is your phone?
. Eh, I dunno, LOL!!

Where is your mom?
. In her room.

Where do you sleep?
. In the air, I levitate. Lol, j/k, of course my bed lar..

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
. I didn't get it, my mom did.

Where in your room are you?
. In front of my comp lar, if not how I do this quiz....

Just changed my blogsong to "For Fruits Basket". Rly love the soothing tune and it's more compatible wif my blog bg (Think Fairytale). Anyways, I still rmb 2 years ago when I first started watching Fruits Basket, it was during Dec hols and because of this, I was often late for choir practise. And I can still rmb they use to make fun of me cus I watch that show (Title sounds weird). But.. It's a realli great show (anime actually), mainly comedy but the storyline and characters are nicely developed. Towards the ending, it grew really sad, and I admit I cried while watching it. Esp the final episode when they overcame their inner struggle. Oh, this show has almost no violence, its about a family that is cursed wif the 12 animals of the zodiac. When they are hugged by a person from the opposite sex, they will transform to their corresponding animal. The main characters are Yuki and Kyou, mouse and cat. Though cat isn't an animal of the zodiac, but there was a myth that it was the mouse who deceived the cat and end up the cat did not go to the party. And in that show, the 2 of them keep fighting and bickering, but in the last episode, they finally became friends. But it isn't abrupt, throughout the show there were improvements. I finished watching 16 discs in one day haha, 4 more discs to go! It's a really great anime and I reccommend everyone to watch it and not be put off by the lame title (Actually, up to now, I have no idea why they call it Fruits Basket)

So nostalgic, the year I watched this video, the month I watched this video, is the same year and month I met her. Haiz, and I can still rmb when WP told me that they were discussing why I was late for choir and the moment I came in Mr Yong asked isit I watch Fruits Basket again. Haha..... I'm truly touched by that show, it teaches alot of values and if you like crying, that show can help u cry too, but mostly it will make you laugh.

NEways, I hope, if you are reading this, crank up your speakers and just listen to the song, it's realli nice. The lyrics also have alot of meaning to me. K, since it's in jap, I shall post the translation here:

Totemo ureshikatta yo kimi ga warai kaketeta
Subete wo tokasu hohoemi de

I was so happy as you laughed
With that smile that melts everything

Haru wa mada tookute tsumetai tsuchi no naka de
Mebuku toki wo matteta n da

Far away within the cold earth, Spring was still waiting
For the moment the first sprout appeared

Tatoeba kurushii kyou dato shite mo
Kinou no kizu wo nokoshite ite mo
Shinjitai kokoro hodoite yukeru to

Although today is painful
And yesterdays's scars still remain
I want to believe I'll be able to free my heart

Umare kawaru koto wa dekinai yo
Dakedo kawatte wa ikeru kara
Let's stay together itsumo

I can't be reborn
But I can change, so
Let's stay together always

Boku dake ni waratte sono yubi de nee sawatte
Nozomi bakari ga hateshinaku

Laugh only for me, please touch me with those fingers
Only wishes are free from bounds

Yasashiku shitai yo mou kuyamanu you ni
Nageki no umi mo koete ikou

I want to be kind
Let's finally cross this sea of sadness and regret

Tatoe kurushii kyou dato shite mo
Itsuka atataka na omoide ni naru
Kokoro-goto subete nagedaseta nara

Even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you free your heart

Koko ni ikiteru imi ga wakaru yo
Umare ochita yorokobi wo shiru
Let's stay together itsumo

Here I'll understand the meaning of living
And know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always

Tatoeba kurushii kyou dato shite mo
Itsuka atataka na omoide ni naru
Kokoro-goto subete nagedaseta nara

Even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you free your heart

Koko ni ikiteru imi ga wakaru yo
Umare ochita yorokobi wo shiru
Let's stay together itsumo

Here I'll understand the meaning of living
And know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always

Type ur reactions when somebody say these phrases to u..

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?
*Silence*

I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU?
I have no idea wad I would do, when it happens I'll know (Someone I like)
Oh..Ok.. (Someone neutral)
*Walks away* (Someone I dun like)

LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY. YOULL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME
Go and die.

COME ON. SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO THAT
*Stares blankly*

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO
OK (Friend)
*Silence* (Not Friend)

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU.
*Blush*

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
Because it does not come after Tuesday.

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?
Ok (Someone I like)
No (Others)

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
*Blush*

I THINK IM FALLING FOR YOU.
I fell for you already (Someone I like)
Don't hurt yourself too badly (Neutral)
*Walks away* (Someone I don like)

I CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU
Then be wif me (Someone I like)
I'm not a toothpaste (Neutral)
And I can't smile wif you (Someone I don like)

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUSTARENT HIM/HER
It's ok, I'll always be there for you.

NOTHING
ok..

WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
999

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE?
Ok (Someone I like)
Er.. No thanks (Neutral)
Yes, by yourself. (Someone I don like)

MAY I ESCORT YOU?
As long as you are not a police escorting me to a police station I'm fine with it.

DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM/HER TILL NOW
Yes and till forever so you can forget about persuading me to give up.

YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED
*Blush*

WHEN WILL I GET YOUR SWEET EYES
You have a pair of eyes already, why would you want mine?

1. Where do you hang your towel to dry after showering?
I hang it in my room.

2. What kind of mouse pad do you have?
Some cheapo free mousepad I got.

3. Do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush?
Comb.

4. From your opinion, who do you think is the hottest celeberity?
Any celebrity in the Sahara Desert.

5. You got a project due tomorrow, do you use tape or glue?
None, I don do it.

6. Chicken or pork?
Chicken

7. By the time you get to school/work, is the sky still dark?
No.

8. If you had a choice to see a unicorn or mermaid which would it be?
I'd rather a dragon, but since its not in the choices, I wld say unicorn.

9. What was in your bag the last time you went out?
Assortment of worksheets, pencil box, and calculator.

10. What time does the sun usually set?
7 30?

11. What do you think of last before you go to sleep?
Her, in fact, I just dreamt of her last night.

12. AC or fan?
Why no natural wind? Fan...

13. Do you wear braces?
No, but my bottom row teeth is abit out of alignment.

14. Can you hand stand?
No, but I can leg stand.

15. If you were the opposite sex, how would you style your hair?
Dunno...

16. What level math are you in?
Additional.

17. Jessica Simpson or Alba?
No preference.

18. Which subject is worst, English or Math?
Math!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

19. What's one thing you really want to do this very moment?
Play DotA wif my friends.

20. After buying something, do you automatically throw it away?
No, but I manually keep it.

21. CD player or iPod?
Wads this? Advertisement for Apple? I rather my own mp3 player.

22. Would you rather spin upside down goin 30 miles or drop 400 ft. into water? I'd rather spin upside down going 30 miles and drop 400 ft. into water. This way, I can win the Olympic diving champion.

24. What you got planned for the weekend?
Study, er... Study, and er... Study... Oh, and sleep too!

25. Have you ever gone ice skating?
Yes, but I prefer skiing more.. ALOT more..

26. If you were put in a room with nothing except for a pencil and paper what would you do?
Open the door and walk out. The door ain't locked LOL!!

27. Is it always easy finding your remote everytime you want to watch TV?
Yes.

28. How was your day?
Boring, just studying...

29. Do you grow your nails, bite or cut them?
Why isnt there an option called lick? Haha, of course I cut them..

30. Describe your handwritting:
Untidy but legible.

31. Do you consider yourself a stalker?
Maybe.. But I dun follow someone of the opposite sex on purpose.. Sometimes in my brainless wandering I end up walking the same path..

32. Do you bruise easily?
Dunno.. I guess?

33. There's nothing on TV except Barney and Japanese news what do you do?
I rarely even watch TV...

34. Do you know more than 3 friendster codes?
What's a friendster? Sounds like prankster.

35. You got an essay due, you either can type or write in pen, which will it be?
None, I wld be too lazy to do it.

36. Do you wear jeans to relax at home?
Dotx, of course not!!! I wear a tux!! j/k j/k..

37. Describe yourself using one word:
Sucky..

38. Do you think bestfriends make the best lovers?
Yes.

39. Do you like ice in your drink?
Yes.

40. Do you have abs?
Not sure..

What is the best nickname that u ever had?
LegO.Horse

Do you think suicide is the best way?
Depends..

Rate your social life from scale 1 to 10?
4.

Are you in love with someone at the moment?
Yessssssssssssssssssssssss....

Are you missing someone at the moment?
Yessssssssssssssssssssssss....

Would you die for the one you love?
Yessssssssssssssssssssssss....

Do you think love hurts?
Yes, but I think its the sweetest feeling too.

Whats the best thing about love?
It gives u the greatest happiness on Earth and an aim in life.

Whats the worst thing about love?
Rejection...

Will you wait for someone you love?
Am now, and definitely will be...

What song that best describes your love life at the moment?
Let It All Out by Relient K.

Do you wanna get married?
Its not the qn about I wanna or not, its wif whom..

Have you talked to the person you love in the last 24 hours?
Sadly no...

Do you keep memories or try to forget them?
Keep.. I'm very sentimental..

Is love always on your side or the opposite way?
Opposite way..

Do you have a gay/lesbian/bisexual friend?
Pretend gay friend yes...

Are you sick of love?
Nope, definitely not..

Are you sick of questions on love?
Nope, but new kinds of questions on love would help..

What are you going to do today/tomorrow? Study and study.. STUDY!!! Perhaps go Glenn house and.. STUDY!!

What do u want so badly right now?
My $3600 computer!! If include whom den her :):)

Do you think money is everything?
No, but without money you are nothing.

Whats the song that u last downloaded?
Can't rmb... So long ago alr...

How much do you love music?
Alot, I listen to them everyday.. BUt I can live without them lol..

Do you play an instrument?
Yep, the piano..

Have you writen your own song?
Nope, lyrics only..

What movie did you last watch?
Deathnote.

Do you believe in love forever?
Yes..

What is in your mind rite now?
What to study later?

What song is in your mind rite now?
Let It All Out

This quiz was taken from Grace Yeoh's blog.

Recently, I have been watching a Korean drama, called Lovers in Prague (NOT Lovers in Paris!! Different!!). It's a very touching drama yet it has alot of humour. It got more serious towards the end (Like most dramas.). At the start, the relationships were really funny, cus the main characters were very comical together. I spent 3 days to watch 18 episodes, actually, 14 only. I started watching from disc 4. Woke up one morning and saw my mom watching it, so I decided to watch abit to see what it was about. Then, I saw the second lead actress, who looked ALOT, and I mean ALOT like Grace Wang. I could just picture her there... Then that got me interested so I decided to watch further. After a few more episodes, I realised the story was very intriguing and the acting was good, so I decided to just finish watching it. So, I holed up myself in my mom's room and watched it for every hour I was at home (Which wasn't alot, hence it took me 3 days). In that show, I learnt something very deep.

When the person you love turns his/her back to you, don't turn your back to them. For if you look at their back, the shortest distance between you and him/her is the distance between your feet and his/her back. But if you turn your back to him/her, the shortest distance between the two of you is one round around the Earth.

I really like the second male lead, though towards the middle, he got really evil, but in the end, it was all for his plan to irritate his rich dad. His rich dad, btw, was very evil and prevented him from going out with the lead actress. Wah, towards the middle I was actually quite pissed at the second lead actor for being so evil, but at the end when his plan was revealed, I was reduced to tears. He was so admirable, he sacrificed himself for the benefit of the main lead actor + actress. At the cost of his own suffering, he had to give up the woman he loved so much, and whom he waited for for 5 years. Somemore, even while he was trying to win the female lead back, he kept letting her go to the male lead. He kept sacrificing himself and did not come between them. Then the female lead also like keep hurting him, I realli felt like crying everytime they show him alone by himself. I can sort of empathise with him, though I dun think I can be as noble as him...

She doesn't like me... Yeah, actually I kinda know it.. But found from my friend that its true, another friend say he can see that she dun like me.. Then my friend said thats why he ask me give up, but.. If you give up, you will never get what you want. I mean, then might as well I give up on my whole life now. My whole FUCKING FUCKED UP life. I realli h8 my life. It sux. Totally. But you don see me doing it. Cus I still believe I can turn it around. Make it worth living. I guess this is the reason why I like computer games so much, that I can go hours without food and water and rest. It's cus I HATE my life. Comp games are the only way I can escape from it. Maybe when I start liking it I will stop playing games. If I were to commit suicide, I would do it like those Koreans, play comp games until I die, at least I die in an imaginary world rather than as suxy me. This seems inappropriate a thought considering my birthday just passed. We celebrate birthdays because we welcome the future. For me, what future is there? Study for what? I'm studying cus I wanna know what JC life is like, what University life is like, what army life is like, what owning things feel like. After that, I can die and I don care. But before I die, I will burn all my money. Either that or give it to someone worthy of it. Actually, to my friends who maybe think I'm extravagant wif the way I spent my money (Ya, on the mouse), its simply I have no use for money at all. I mean, a dead person has no use for money right? Yeah, and I'm dead, or half dead. Only my physical being is left, the spiritual me is dead. It only exists in computer games now.... I can't wait for NWN 2, then I can escape into a fantasy world, and perhaps never come back. I'd sooner face dragons and trolls than face my fucked up life.

I changed my blogsong, but the lyrics totally doesnt describe what I feel. I didnt receive any "sweet love" at all... And I have no one to lean on... But I just like this song, for the tune.. Maybe a better song that describes my feelings is "Tonight I wanna cry" by the same singer as the one who sang my blogsong.

I hate putting up a facade. But if I just be who I am, I will soon have no more friends. She and I are just like worlds apart. I can't even think of a similarity between us. Other than we are both in the same school and are of the same age.

Now I'm getting the thought, why can't I be born someone else? Why do I have to be me? It's not fair, some people just have the life, yet I'm like shit. Some people get what they want, why isit I can't? Some people have looks, why isit I don't? Some people have the IQ, why isit I'm so stupid? Some people have an amazing character, why am I so sucky? Some people have talents, why isit I'm just average in everything? Why can't God just make me someone else, like Junno. Why does He have to make me me. I wouldn't mind being as myself now if only I have a mutant power like super fast healing, super strength, Lightning speed, control nature...

I rmb she said my world is dark because I can't see the light of my life or something like that. I absolutely agree with that, my world is so dark that I am walking blindly through it. It's so dark that I can't see the end of the tunnel, the end of the dark ages. So my life will probably be dark all the way, so I'll just be walking blindly through it for the rest of my days. Aimless.

Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to meeee
Happy birthday to me!

Ok, I am seriously lame. Overall, today feels like any normal day, much to my disappointment. Well, at least 5 ppl said Happy Birthday to me :). I was hoping she would say that, but I guess I'm asking too much. The more I ask for the greater my disappointment. Okay, I shall list the 5 ppl who wished me happy bday in order.

1) Dexter (Came as a surprise)
2) Glenn (Well, it was in a neomail...)
3) Grace Yeoh (It was on MSN, but I still appreciate it very much)
4) Jaye (Told me in person :):))
5) Siew Ling (Told me on MSN, and she want gif me bday card :D:D, man, I feel so touched.

I didnt receive any bday present. Yet. My sis giving me a ring :):).. My parents buying a $3600 comp for me :):).. Yep, tahts abt it. OH WAIT, HOW CAN I FORGET, GLENN GOT ME SOMETHING!! A Happy Birthday Negg :):), I shall proudly display it in my neopia shop :):). Oh yeah, I got myself a bday present too, a Razer Copperhead!! WOOTS!! After Os I will have the ULTIMATE gaming PC :):).

Some things I wanna get after Os. Oblivion and NWN 2. Plus must go shopping for Prom nite, and deciding if I shud dye my hair. Ah well, all these things after Os still got time to think. Mwahaha, Ok, I shall gambatte from here on!!!!!

I was studying my chem, whilst listening to Relient K's songs, and without warning, my tears started to flow. I dono why, but the songs remind me of Grace, and when I think of her, my tears just gushed out. What's more, the songs had a sad tune. Mainly two of Relient K's songs made me cry. One is Less Is More, the other is Let It All Out (nice name, I WAS letting it all out). Ok, the first one is a worship song while the other is as the title suggests. Both tune is v sad. I think I shall post the lyrics here, they are just so beautiful.. I just changed my blogsong to Let It All Out.

Less Is More

Jesus, I pray
Take all my mistakes
Throw them away
Destroy them for my sake
Jesus, I call out 'cause I'm sorry
Because I fall so short of your glory
To the best of my ability
I'm practicing humility
And I lay myself before
'Cause less is more

All that I have
I lay before
With my pride on the floor
Cause to you less is more
All that I have
I lay before
With my pride on the floor
Cause to you less is more
I pour out myself
All that I am
You love me so much
That you fill me again
And may these words on my heart, on my lips
Somehow mean so much more than this
Jesus, I pray
Know what I'm trying to say

All that I haveI lay before
With my pride on the floor
'Cause to you less is more
All that I have
I lay before
With my pride on the floor
Cause to you less is more
I pour out myself, before you oh Lord
I hold nothing back, 'cause to you less is more
And may these words on my heart on my lips,
Somehow mean so much more than this
Jesus, I pray
Just know what I'm tryin' to say

Jesus, I plead
Please purify me
Make my heart clean
Drench me with your mercy
Jesus, I pray
I love you, I need you
For the rest of my days
I swear I will seek you
To the best of my ability
I'm practicing humility
And I lay myself before
'Cause less is more.

Let It All Out

Let it all out (get it all out)
Rip it out, remove it
Don't be alarmed, when the wound begins to bleed

'Cause we're so scared to find out (what this life's all about)
So scared we're gonna lose it
And knowing all along
That's exactly what we need

And today I'll trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
Oh inconsistent me, crying out for consistency

And you said "I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart, then things will just get worse.
If the burden seems too much to bear,
remember, the end will justify the pain it took to get us there."

And I'll let it be known (at times I have shown)
Signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me, there is strength

And you promised me (that you believe)
in time I will defeat this
'Cause somewhere in me, there is strength

And today I'll trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
And I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me

And you said "I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart, then things will just get worse.
If the burden seems too much to bear,
remember, the end will justify the pain it took to get us there."

And you said "I know that this will hurt (I know this will hurt)
but if I don't break your heart, then things will just get worse. (things will get much worse)
When the burden seems too much to bear, (seems too much to bear)
remember, the end will justify the pain it took to get us there."

Reach out to me
Make my heart brand new
Every beat will be for you, for you

And I know you know
You touched my life
When you touched my heavy heart
and made it light

Well, I let it all out.... And I'll let it be known that I still love her, and forever will. Haiz, two realli beautiful song, if any of you want just MSN me.

Finally can get down to posting an update. And for some reason everytime I defeat my laziness to post my mom always threatens to off my modem.. Must be I always wait until v late then post. Lol, then must always ask her to delay for like half hour.

So what shall I post about? Prelims? Feelings? Wishes? Daily happenings? I rly have no idea what to write much less where to start. Right now I feel myself slacking away, I just cannot convince myself to sit down and spend one afternoon studying. Today, I wun say its totally wasted, due to tuition, I could clear some doubts about chemistry and finish up my correction for chem and A maths. So some of you (I doubt, since those who read my blog would have known my L1R5) might want to know my L1R5. Suffice to say its damn crappy. And its one number I dun like. But, the only consolation I got is that there are lots more who got a higher L1R5. Now, my main problem is I tend to overlook the obvious and therefore make silly careless mistakes. This "trait" has been with me since I started schooling. About time I got rid of it. Glenn suggested I take my time while doing the paper, but more often than not, especially in the A maths and E maths paper, I find myself running out of time. So, what I can do now is simply to do more timed practices and make sure I can finish the paper within the stipulated time.

Current study plan: Read up the ENTIRE chemistry book and ENSURE I can memorize EVERY fact inside. Estimated time: 1 day. Seriously, if I can just sit down and solidly memorize the book, I can do it in 1 day.

Do one A maths paper every other day (As suggested by VLee, I intend to follow his garunteed A1 advice). Also, not just do, CHECK!!! Make sure I DUN MAKE the same mistakes! Consult teacher if I have any doubts and clear it before it gets too deepy imprinted. Currently I do not have any problems. I have learnt alot from my mistakes and from asking my classmates and my tuition teacher. Get my Five Year Series soon.

For E maths, I intend to slack. Probably do some drawing questions and reread my sec 3 stuffs. Towards the exam start doing exercises. In the meantime, do the exercises Chiam give.

For Bio, WOw, I'm feeling damn prepared to take the O level for Bio, but cannot be overconfident. Towards the exam, I shall reread the entire book and memorize it. Estimated time: 2 days. Bio has alot more things to memorize than chemistry.

For SS, I shall go for consultation and find out my weaknesses. Plus learn how to write an L6 answer. Its wad preventing me from my A1 in SS now. I'm still A2 standard. Plus, I intend to study most of the chapters in the book. Estimated time: 3 days.

For Physics, I'm quite prepared to take the Os already. Now just need to brush up on my concepts and reinforce them by doing physics papers. Aim to get at least 38/40 for MCQ and 35/50 for Section A and 23/30 for Section B. For practical, go through already done practicals and consult my teacher where I went wrong, and avoid making the same mistake.

For Lit, I'm quite surprised by the B4 I got. Hence, I shall clarify this with my lit teacher. I wanna know why she gave me so low. Then reread the entire book and make study notes, mainly character study plus quotes and page reference. Characters: Headmaster, Krishna, Krishna-Susila + Headmaster-Headmaster wife. These are the areas I intend to explore.

For English, Ok, this is one subject I'm quite confident of an A1. But first, go for consultation wif Mrs Hoe den c first. From wad I heard, my oral like above 35. This is another classic case of I may not be the best but there are lots more worse than me. But, I cannot slack, gonna do some comprehension exercises just to reinforce my hold on comprehension skills. I also intend to read up on text types so I wun get PAWNED by stupid summary in a different text type a la prelim.

For MT, I already have an A2. Though I'm not satisfied, I just dun have the push. Probably gonna smoke through the exam and hopefully scrape out an A1. Of course, I gonna put in some effort in preparing.

Last but not least, Geog.. This is the KILLER. Ok, I need to put in 200% effort to get my A1 in this. Start by REMEMORIZING SEC 3 WORK. Den, for the first time, read my sec 4 Marianne Cheong. Estimated time: 1 week. Yes, I intend to give myself alot of time, also to practise doing the qns. TYS shud suffice here.

Yep, so this is my study plan. I know its v brief, and I dun intend to post anymore until after Os end. I will keep revisiting my blog, to make sure I dun lose focus. Its the last lap, I shall give my all, and make sure it pays off.

I got inspired by WP to write a poem on the musical. Actually, it can be used for graduation. Hope you people like it :).

If you had one wish
Just one wish
That would come true
What would you wish for?

If I had one wish
Just one wish
That would come true
I know just what to wish for.

For the times long past
For the joy now lost
For the magical moments
That now seems so distant.

We were but strangers
Walking our own paths
When by fate or chance
We were brought together to dance.

Though unfamiliar at first
We soon grew fonder
The bond we now share
Not mere ionic or covalent.

That night of our life came
We knew things would not be the same
The lights turned down and we were on
The last dance, the last waltz.

The inevitable is now imminent
Our roads would soon be different
Though we will become memories
That is not satisfactory.

Where are we now?
What are we now?
These I silently sigh
That soon reaches the grey sky.

It's like the day we met
Absolute strangers to our fate
Uncertain of our future
In short, nothing sure.

With that one chapter comes to a close
That part now sealed with a rose
Locked deep within our memories
For nothing can bring back history

At least the times were sweet while it lasted.....

Special Thanks to : Grace Wang, Wen Pu, Glenn Toh, Grace Yeoh, SiewLing, Sandy

For once, im not posting about a quiz. Yeah, this shall be an update of my suxy life. So if you don't wanna read about a suxy life, you can stop reading here. In the first place, why are you here.

I'm in the middle of a suxy prelim in a suxy mood and suxy state. Why? Becus I have a suxy life. Got pawned by E maths. Omg. Its harder than A maths. WHo wld expect ELEMENTARY maths to be harder than ADDITIONAL maths. Dotx. Physics was ez, but I did SOOOO mani careless mistakes. Haish, O levels I must be more careful. Man, I feel so feverish now, headache, body feel hot, flu, stomach flu.. What the... Stupid suxy state, and this dampened my mood.. GREATLY..

Ok, I dun rly wanna post about prelims, its so disheartening, so I post sth of hope, of joy, of celebration. The coming month of october will bring about great things. Everyone fasten your seat belts as you are in for one wild ride. So, since when have I became a seer? Since.... NOW! Mwahahaha!! Ok, first and foremost, is the release of Neverwinter Nights 2. THe year's most awaited game and sequel to the acclaimed Neverwinter Nights which sparked interest in the RPG genre. It is slated to be released on 17th October and boy am I excited. I wanna get my hands on it!!! Darn the STUPID O levels, delay my entry into the Forgotten Realms by one month. Secondly, my birthday is COMING!! Ok, since its a birthday of a suxy life, so why isit great you may ask. Well, because it is SOO GREAT that such a SUXY person can even EXIST! THat's why its so significant!! Ok ppl, I want you all gif me a birthday bash. And when is my bday? Hmm, let me tell you, its ??/??/1990. That's my bday. Thirdly, is the start of our all-important future deciding O levels. I do not wish to dampen others mood too, so i dun say exactly when. Other dates which some of you all may be interested in is 26/10/1990, which is the birthday of my dear friend Dexter. Also, 25 or 27 is the birthday of another friend Ting Jun.

Just found out from Jordan that our group won the Chinese Creative Writing Competition!! Wahaha! PRIZE MONEY HERE I COME!!! But I guess Jordan gonna represent our group in receiving prize + give trophy. Ok lar, he talked the most, all I did was come out wif the idea that the teachers all praised as very creative and provide location, props. Nia.. I did all the compiling editing blah blah blah. At least I contributed alot to the group :D.. We already decided how to split money. 30% to Jordan, 25% to me and chin keat, and 20% to kenneth. My God, I can't believe Kenneth can get 20% lor.. Seriously, I rather Glenn on the team. I mean, Glenn wld have contributed more and caused less problems. If I knew can include other ppl, I wld definitely suggest Glenn. Yeah Glenn, sry that you can't get a share of the prize money. Even though you made a cameo appearance. But then again, you ate my house the food, total up u still gained like $20 from coming my house. ANd me leh, I lost the most. Since I provided food evrything. Damn. Ok, let me wellow in self-pity for awhile. Ok Im fine now.

One step at a time, we wun lose it. I want you to know, that when I love, I love wholeheartedly, and I do love you wholeheartedly, and will alwayz wait for you. You are my AC generator and DC motor which drives me through the rigours of life even though I feel like giving up. You are the sun in my sky that envelops me in warmth and provide the light, without which I would be lost in this cold barren tundra. But, how can one as flawed as me, wish for you, who is flawless and pure. But I can't help it, even though its a faraway dream, its wad keeps me going, continuing to delude myself. Without this dillusionment, I have not the courage to live, nor a goal in life. I feel like an animated zombie... But I just wanna make it clear, that should you need my strength, I will give you all of it, help you every way I can, go through fire and ice to help you, for without you, there wun be a me. So I give you my life, my soul, and my everything.

Feel abit better now, I just need to confess sometimes, unleash my torrent of feelings. Everytime I see her, I just feel like running away, I dono how to face her. I come up wif many many things to say, but whenever I see her, they seem to leak away in a millisecond and I'm speechless.

Ok, I owe Siew Ling purple flowers for her nxt birthday. And Happy 14th Birthday Siew Ling! Older by one year matured by one year.

TEN EMOTIONS.
1. are you missing someone right now: Mmhmm..
2. are you happy: No, sick more like it..
3. are you talking to anyone right now: Obv not to be typing this..
4. are you bored: Strangely no.
5. are you german: no.
6. are you brazilian: no.
7. are you french: no.
8. are you Italian: no.
9. are your parents still married: YES!
10. do you like someone right now: I have ppl I like and someone I love.

TEN FAVORITES.
1. televison show: Dun watch TV..
2. flower: Huh, no preference.
3. color: GREEN!
4. sport: SOCCER!
5. mall: No difference as long as close to my home.
6. music: Country music!
7. food: SUSHI!
8. drink: Milk, lmao..
9. animal: Dogs
10. country: USA, for sure.

TEN FACTS.
1. hometown: NTU
2. hair color: Slightly brownish.
4. hair length: Er, no idea.
5. eye color: Black.
6. shoe size: 8-9
7. mood: Sick.. Sleepy..
8. orientation: Huh?
9. available?: Nope..
10. lefty/righty: Righty matey!

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love: *nods head slowly*
2. do you believe in love: *shakes head vehemently*
3. have you ever been heartbroken: *nods like a nodding donkey*
4. have you ever broken someone's heart?: *shakes head, thinks, continues*
5. have you ever fallen for your best friend?: Of course got lar, literally fall. LMAO!
6. have you ever liked someone but never told them: Of course got lar, my frens tell one.
7. are you afraid of commitment: *Ponders, shakes head*
10. have you ever had a secret admirer: You tell me ;)

TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT.
1. love or lust: Of course love lar..
2. hard liquor or beer: Beeeeeer
3. night or day: day.
4. one night stands or relationships: Is this a trick qn? Relationships of course.
5. television or internet: Internet, I dun watch TV.
6. pepsi or coke: Do I get any benefits for answering either one? Ok, Pepsi.
7. wild night out or romantic night: Depends..
8. colored pictures or black and white: Coloured lar, wad kind of age are we in now..
9. phone or in person: In person.
10. aim or myspace: What the...?

TEN HAVE YOU EVER.
1. ever been caught sneaking out: Nv snuck out be4.
2. ever skinny dipped: Nope.
3. done something you regret: Ya duh.
4. ever bungee jumped: no.
5. ever been on a boat: yes.
6. ever finished an entire jaw breaker: Yessss..
7. ever wanted someone so badly it hurt: Yes!
8. ever been caught by your parents with a lovebite?: Huh?
9. ever danced in the rain?: Yep.. And got sick after that.
10.ever loved your ex while you were in a new relationship?: Dun have an EX..



ONE.
Spell your name without vowels:
Lw W Rng (Sounds like some degree).

TWO.
are you single?
Of course, no clones.

THREE.
what sort of music are you into?
Country music!!

FOUR.
What color do you wear most?
White, cus I'm PAP! LMAO, j/k j/k.

FIVE.
Least favorite colours?
Ehh... Donno.. Never thought abt it.

SIX
Last song you heard?
Accidentally in Love by Counting Crows.

SEVEN.
Where do you wish you were?
Dono, never thought about it.

EIGHT.
Are you happy with your life right now?
No. On the contrary, I hate my life. My life sux. And ur reading abt a suxy life.

NINE.
Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity?
NOOO, thank goodness...

TEN.
What is your favorite time in school?
Tiger time. J/k! Recess?

ELEVEN
do u shop at ambercrombie & fitch, AE?
Huh? What the?

TWELVE.
How do you go to sch?
Car, Oh no, I sound like some poor guy who can't afford helicopter rides. DAMN.

THIRTEEN.
Last person you talked on the phone with?
Dad. Father. Papa. Daddy.

FOURTEEN.
When do/did you start sch holidays?
Just ended and coming up is after Os.

FIFTEEN.
Are you missing someone right now?
If I'm missing someone how wld I know? Ok, but seriously, yes.

SIXTEEN.
One word to describe you:
Suxy.

SEVENTEEN.
Favorite pair of slippers.
Er, any that doesn't hurt my feet.

EIGHTEEN.
Do you own big sunglasses?
NoPe..

NINETEEN.
What would you rather be doing right now?
Dating with her. Hanging out with my friends.

TWENTY.
What should you be doing right now?
Studying of course.

- Last movie you watched? Don't remember, haven't been watching any lately.
- Last words saw before this? The question above
- Last place you went? The wonderful world of Geography.
- Last song you heard? Epilogue by GOLF-MIKE. That song ROCKS!
- Who is your new friend? I wld say the person whom I got this quiz from.
- Anyone famous in your blood? Er, donno, but I know SOMETHING famous in my blood and its called Red Blood Cells.
- The sweetest thing you heard last 3days? Nothing, no one said anything nice to me in the last 3 days. If I have to pick one I would choose "Hi".
- How did you go to work/school today? Through a book called "Aspects of Physical Geography"
- Last thing ate? Can't remember.
- Do you gain weight fast? Nope, Cool rite? I can BINGE! hahaha!
- Last thing someone wrote on your property? Donno...
- What school rules have you broken? Hmmz, onli long hair bah.. Nth else..
- Name the things that your class/classmates do that prove that your class is bad. Who said my class is bad?
-Last you said was hot. Can't rmb, but I guess is my instant noodles.

Today's such a rotten day. Went JE library to study wif Glenn, Grace Yeoh, and Wen Pu. Me Glenn and WP cycled there. Den not long before we started, there was a heavy downpour which left us totally drenched. We stopped at every bus stop for the rain to soften, cus it was like Heavy, light, heavy, light. Wth man.. Den end up, we decided that since we were wet, might as well mad chiong all the way, so we just cycled as fast as possible to the library. Visibility was so damn poor, the rain was like splashing into our eyes. After we arrived, we cldnt even concentrate, cus we were so freaking wet and cold..... OMG, i think im gonna fall sick soon....

Haix, I like yet hate my friends.. THey are just such fun to be with and I realli dun wanna spend more time to form another clique. And my class ppl are just different from me. We can be friends, but we definitely cannot form a clique. For one thing, we dun even like the same kind of games. However, they also do alot of things that make me irritated wif them. And they are just so insensitive to others. They also do not stand up for their friends..

So this thurs the outing still on? Cannot cycle, since West Coast Park dun have rental shops. SO I Guess if its on, we'll end up walking and doing some stuffs there. There is like an activity park there. So We can walk walk talk talk den go do some kiddy stuffs. Haha..

Gonna start my revision for Bio and Geog soon. Its the onli subj i haven't prepared. Haiz.. In fact, im feeling so damn tired now... I just feel like flopping down on the bed and slp...

Last nite went to Ben's 21st birthday party and I had a blast. For details, see TY's blog, I dun wanna post details, just reflections. THe food there was GREAT!! It's like WORLD-CLASS man. Somemore, he book GRAND BALLROOM!! I thot it looked like a wedding -.-.. NEways, evryone there all like 5 yrs older than us, so we were termed kiddies... Haha, I dun rly care, gd food, entertainment, and watch Ben get embarrased. Get called Kiddy den kiddy lor, at least we will live longer :D..

I thot you would have improved, but I guess I was wrong. THe you from last time is still the same as the you from now. I'm not going to care anymore.

I seriously have a HUGE problem. My problem is I am WAY too kind to people and I CANNOT stay angry for longer than an hour. I CANNOT hate someone either, if that person just apologize to me I will no longer hate him/her. WTH man... I need a HUGE attitude adjustment. I shud start being mean. I shud start HATING ppl, and HATING them forever. And I shud learn to STAY ANGRY LONGER AND NOT FORGIVE EASILY. Becus of this my "friends" keep taking advantage of me.... Im realli v tired of it liao... I shud go and find some self-help book called "Dummies guide to being mean".

I'm going to "greet" you wif cold indifference, and I will criticize u IN YOUR FACE. Yeah, u just got into my bad books. And IM going to write it in PERMENENT INK. At least u shud feel honoured Ur gonna be the first person I'm GOING TO HATE.

1) starting time->4:43
2) full name->Law Wei Rong
3) best friend->Wong Wen Pu
4) sexiest friend->No comments.....
5) funniest friend->Glenn
6) smartest friend->Glenn
7) dumbest person->Myself
8) shyest friend->Myself
9) most boring pple-> Dunno...
10) Who do you get advice from->Nobody
11) height->164cm
12) date of birth->??/??/1990
13) Righty/Left-> Right.
14) Shoe size-> 9
15) Shoe brand->Dun care.
16) Do you crack any body parts? -> No.
17) Siblings->1 sister.
18) Boyfriend/girlfriend-> None
19) Crush-> None
20) Liked a teacher->No
21) Ate a tub of icecream-> Yes
22) Ran into a glass door-> No
23) gone skinny dipping->No
24) Nearly hit by a car->Yes
25) Ran into a parked car-> No

`` For Girls To Fill Out About Guys ``

26. Boxers or Briefs ->
27. Tall or Short ->
28. Does size matter ->
29. Six-pack or Muscular Arms ->
30. Body or Personality ->
31. Ear Pierced or Not ->
32. Sporty or Outdoorsy ->
33. Good or Bad guy ->

`` For Guys To Fill Out About Girls ``

34. G or hipster undies ::Dun care.
35. Tall or Short ::Or (Between tall and short)
36. Long Hair or Short ::Long
37. Dark or Light Eyes ::Dun care.
38. Light/Dark Hair ::Dun care.
39. Body or Personality :: personality
40. Ears Pierced or Not :: No difference
41. Good Girl/Bad Girl :: good
42. Hair Up or Down :: down
43. Sporty or Classy :: Or (Use same logic as 35)
44. Chicken or Not Afraid :: Or (Use same logic as 43)

`` Which one is better? ``

45. Coke of pepsi->PEPSI
46. KFC or Mac->Mac
47. dogs or cats->Dogs
48. coffee or tea->Coffee
49. eastside or westside->Dun care.
50. vanila or choco-> Vanilla
51. cake or cookies->Cake
52. purple striped lime socks or white socks->Dun care.
53. sunset or sunrise-> Sunset
54. day or night-> Day
55. lights on or off-> off..
56. Summer or winter-> Winter

`` Your fav``

57. food-> Sushi
58. holiday destination->USA
59. radio station->None
60. place->Anywhere wif Her.

`` in the future ``

61. Will you believe in god? -> I do now.
62. What do you want to be when you grow up? -> Anyone as long as I'm wif Her.

`` Random Questions``

63. Define love-> Too long to be written here.
64. fav day of the week -> Saturday.
65. bedtime->Random.
66.Satan god or atheist? -> God.

`` More Questions ``

67. Do you love someone right now-> Yes.
68. Do you care about someone? -> Yes.
69. Do you think of someone everyday? -> Yes.
70. Do you think someone is special in anyway? -> Yes.
71. Five people to tag-> Whoever wanna do den do.
72. Finishing time->4:55
73. DATE->26/8/06

Just finished watching B&B the movie again. And then, as I was watching, I was like imagining the rehearsals. Omg, a wave of nostalgia swept over me and I cldn't help but start longing for time to be turned back. I realli liked the rehearsals on Mon and Thurs. I did not feel so lifeless then, and every week had at least 2 days which I look forward to, and life was not so monotonous. Now, everything feels like a routine and I am just programmed to go through it. Ya, I also received the "Slow Dance" poem, and I think its realli meaningful. My life wld be sth like a tango, I am just rushing through it and not taking time to notice the things around me.

To me, life just not hold any meaning anymore. U know it does not hold meaning when you ask yourself what if you were well-to-do nxt time? And if you can only shrug your shoulders and think "gd lor", den you probably think that life has no more meaning. If you start feeling life is a burden, den life too does not hold any meaning. If you live life without looking forward to the next day, den life has no meaning. This is exactly what I am feeling now. I don't feel joy in my heart. I laugh, yes, but its all temporary and I do not truely feel happiness. I do not feel bliss, the kind of warm feeling you get when you embrace someone.

4 years have passed so fast, and I can still rmb I regretted not studying hard and not entering ACSI. Now, I do not regret it at all, not one bit. I'm glad I'm a SUPER slacker during my pri sch. In just a few months I wld be leaving this school, and leaving behind a vortex of memories that beckon me to stay. But, we all know, life moves on, time does not stop for anyone. I don't want to be alone anymore, I've been alone for too long... You were never there, when I needed you. You were never there, wherever I may be. Yet, I want to be there for you, when you need me. Yet, I want to be there for you, to be someone whose shoulder you can cry on, even if I may not be your only one, at least, I know I am making a contribution to you. And if you should ever like another guy, I will only wish you all the best, and pray for you. For I only want happiness for you. I do not reserve any for me, I do not need it. I've lived 16 years of my life without it. I do not reserve any energy for me, I do not need it. I've lived 16 years of my life thinking life's a chore. I do not reserve any of myself for me, I do not need it. I've lived 16 years of my life without love from people around me (Save this incredible sister I have, I do love her so, without her, I will commit suicide straightaway).

I guess, its like trying to run before learning to walk. But, in love, there is nothing known as a "walk". That's why we are so succeptible in relationships, that's why we keep falling down, and breaking our hearts, which like glass, shatters into million pieces. What I really want now, is someone who can understand me, who can cry with me, who can be a mountain I can lean on. I'm so tired.. I dun wanna go on anymore.. You took my heart, dropped it onto the floor, smashed it, and trod over the broken pieces. They are now stuck to your shoe, and my heart will never be whole, I can't love someone else whole-heartedly. You will always be someone in my heart, and will always be a raw wound that refuses to heal.

Seperation has lent its hand in dismantling my heart. After I painstakingly try to piece my heart back together, seperation has torn it asunder. I realli wanna give up now. I dun wanna continue, I just wanna live a day as a day and not care about anything else.

Im here posting this cus I didnt get to play DotA wif Glenn. And Why? Cus suddenly got 1 xtra person showed up. And all of Glenn bro frens dun wanna sit out on playing, so only me lor.. Haix, I m just too kind for my own good. somemore i told glenn i wld be playing while in grp study today.. ZzZ.. At least got Sandy to chat wif to save me from xtreme boredom which will result in me going to slp at 8 30... So thks Sandy!

Today grp study did phy. Found out my phy standard onli enuff get B.. Cannot.. Must pia my phy.. But more importantly, I must pia my SS liao. Prelim is nxt WEEK!! AHH!! After that played soccer wif a borrowed ball. Yux, I broke my toenail, damn pain.. Haix, i thinx tmr will be bad...

"... why ppl keep misunderstanding me? no one knows me..."

I feel so freaking lifeless nowadays... Haix, no more empty canteen liao... Why Why?! Nande?

The song kuai le sounds quite nice, thks to sandy for telling me. I just wish I can be happy.. At least, as happy as I appear to be..

Trying to find Epilogue the song link now, so can put as my blog song. So nice!!! I wish there is a site that allows direct linking to hosted music... Haix, makes my life so much easier... Hmmz, suddenly i feel like changing my blog song to le ciel.. Gonna do it soon...

Haix, donno wad to update liao...

1) How old do you wish you were? i like my age now perfectly fine :)
2) Where were you when 9.11 happened? i was at home.
3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money? Shrug my shoulders and insert more coins.
4) Do you consider yourself kind? Yes, to the extent of TOO kind.
5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be? On paper.
6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? Japanese
7) Do you know your neighbors? No.
8) What do you consider a vacation? Any day spent wif her.
9) Do you follow your horoscope? No.
10) Would you move for the person you loved? Yes, definitely.
11) Are you touchy feely? hahah, i guess so!
12) Do you believe that opposites attract? of course. it's happened before.
13) Dream job? Computer game artist.
14) Favorite channel(s)? Nope, dun watch TV.
15) Favorite place to go on weekends? Glenn house study.
16) Showers or Baths? Baths
17) Do you paint your nails? NO!
18) Do you trust people easily? YES
19) What are your phobias? Too many to list. Rejection is the top.
20) Do you want kids? Never thought about it.
21) Do you keep a handwritten journal? Used to, now I type online.
22) Where would you rather be right now? Anywhere wif her.
23) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy? Her.
24) Heavy or light sleeper? depends.
25) Are you paranoid? Yes, quite often.
26) Are you impatient? Sometimes.
27) Who can you relate to? My sis, Grace Yeoh, and Wen Pu.
28) How do you feel about interracial couples? Dun rly care.
29) Have you been burned by love? More like crucified..
30) What's your favorite pick-up line? Hi.
31) What's your main ring tone on your mobile? Some song that I donno the name.
32) What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping.
33) What did the last text on your cellphone say? Lol. no seriously, i swear he's sooo funny. in a good way! :) like sometimes after recess on the way back to class i'll talk to dexter and glenn. then gotta control myself not to laugh too much. haha.
34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night? mine. -.-
35) What color shirt are you wearing? White orange and blue.
36) Most recent movie you watched? Pride and Prejudice.
37) Name three things you have on you at all times? Spectacles, wallet, clothes.
38) What color are your bed sheets? Yellow.
39) How much cash do you have on you right now? 0.
40) What is your favorite part of the chicken? Drumstick.
41) What's your favorite town/city? Saucon Valley, PA, USA.
42) I can't wait till..? She accepts me.
43) What did you have for dinner last night? Bak kut teh.
44) How tall are you barefoot? 164.
45) Do you own a gun? No.
46) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? anything cept milk.
47) Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs? Singapore
48) Last thing you ate? Spinach
49) What songs do you sing in the shower? KATTUN!!!!
50) Last thing that made you laugh? Can't remember.
51) Worst injury you've ever had? a sundered soul.
52) Does someone have a crush on you? Nope, but I can think of a few who wants to crush me LOL!! Ok lame, that was a joke.. a cold joke..
53) What's your favorite candy? Mints.
54) What song do you want played at your funeral? Joy to the World... J/K J/K.. I donno lar, just not those weird funeral songs you normally hear.

Got this new song which I heard and found it rather nice. Shall post my translation of the lyrics here. Oh, this song has abit of rap which I didnt bother translating :D.

NEVER AGAIN - KATTUN

I never understand, I'm just too young
Love is not just about sweet-nothings
Easy come easy go, real love
Cannot be easily explained.

Never forget everything you said to me
Never forget evertyhing you done to me
Hesitating in this maze, we are lost

From tomorrow onwards
I will hold my past dear, definitely not letting you leave.
No matter how difficult the situation is I must protect my love
You're never gonna get my love again
It was supposed to be a love that's given up...
Let me kiss your swollen eyes from your crying baby
Fate is? No fake.

Everything once more accept each other's flaws
I believe now we still have the time to create memories.

I never understand, I'm just too young.
Love is not just about sweet-nothings
You are my everything
It was supposed to be a love that's given up...
Now I can say that I love you
Fate is? No Fake

I want to hold my past dear, never letting you leave.
No matter how difficult the situation is I must protect my love.
You're never gonna get my love again
It was supposed to be a love that's given up...
Fate is?

As long as the next time we meet we don't speak
This way things cannot end.
Because the tears from emotions is real love.
You're never gonna get my love again
It was supposed to be a love that's given up...
Fate is? No fake.

Ok, I donno how accurate my translation is, some parts are probably wrong... And I think sometimes the song dun make sense? Oh ya, if any of you want this song just MSN me.

My fave is still Andalucia Ni Akogarete!!

For ppl interested in KAT-TUN songs, can MSN me and if I have their song I will send :D.

I think their best songs, in rank, is:
1) Andalucia ni Akogarete (Yearning for Andalucia)
2) Kizuna (Bond)
3) Le Ciel
4) Special Happiness
5) Haruka na ya Kusoku (Faraway Date)
6) Precious One
7) Wilds of my Heart
8) Never Again
9) Real Face
10) Gold

The sec 3s have gone for OBS and the canteen is realli empty now. Actually, I kinda like this empty feeling. Sec 3 and Sec 4 recess together is seriously too crowded. There isnt even enough place and ppl have to clutter the sides. Now, there is even extra spaces! THe whole canteen looks more suitable for this volume of ppl. Maybe our sch should start having 4 recesses.

Asked her and she rejected. Not that I didn't expect it, but some ppl ask me why did I even try if I expected it. I only have this to say, each time I ask, there is still a minute chance she accepts. If I do not ask, there is ZERO chance of acceptance. And I definitely do not wanna have regrets that I did not ask last time. I already let slip many opportunities, and I regret I did not take this opportunities, so I rather not have opportunities slip by me again.

Prom night is coming.... After Os... SO Os is even nearer.... What shall I wear for Prom? Shall I dye my hair? I rly want to, but I doubt they will allow me entrance if I did. And anyways, now the most impt thing is Os. I MUST get my 9A1s. Now rly gonna start putting effort into my studies, time to start the engines!! It's the last lap!

I'll never stop dreaming, for if this dream comes true, I need nothing else in this world.

All worldly possesions are useless without you

You make life worth living

You will always be

My Only One