i really need someone to console me now...
Archive for 2007
At last I look up at the overcast sky
And realise the only person around
To wipe my tears is myself
Now, it's better already
At least I can hate you.
I finally realise that
In the end, I'm still alone.
Sorry, sorry my heart
You will hurt a little.
I'll just cry awhile,
I'll feel better after crying.
I'm at a loss, I don't want, I don't want.
I need to hate you
It's too painful, too painful.
This period of grief you caused me,
I'll hate you to the core.
And realise the only person around
To wipe my tears is myself
Now, it's better already
At least I can hate you.
I finally realise that
In the end, I'm still alone.
Sorry, sorry my heart
You will hurt a little.
I'll just cry awhile,
I'll feel better after crying.
I'm at a loss, I don't want, I don't want.
I need to hate you
It's too painful, too painful.
This period of grief you caused me,
I'll hate you to the core.
No matter how I try to erase you over and over
My heart only searches for you
I'm only left with the wound that was made because
My heart ached and ached
No matter how I try to erase you over andover
The only person that doesn't disappear is you
You know about this but why do you pretend you don't?
Tell me why you tried to leave my side
No matter how I try to throw away those memories over and over
I can't
No matter how I try hard to forget you
My eyes only remember you
Can you think of me?
At least once by someone else's side
Even if you live on
Think of me sometimes
I must have really loved you
It shows through my yearning
When I looked at you leaving though you knew I love you
It was only that I forgot for a while so come back
Come back to me
I can't live without you
I still have something I want to say
No matter how I try to send you away
I don't have the confidence to
THese feelings, my feelings, do you know them
Even if you love someone else
My heart only moves towards you
At least once by someone else's side
Even if you live on
Think of me sometimes
No matter how I try to erase you over and over
My heart only searches for you
I'm only left with the wound that was made because
My heart ached and ached
No matter how I try to erase you over and over
The only person that doesn't disappear is you
You know about this but why do you pretend you don't
I must have really loved you
It shows through my yearning
When I looked at you leaving though you knew I love you
It was only that I forgot for a while so come back
Come back to me
I can't live without you
I still have something I want to say..
My heart only searches for you
I'm only left with the wound that was made because
My heart ached and ached
No matter how I try to erase you over andover
The only person that doesn't disappear is you
You know about this but why do you pretend you don't?
Tell me why you tried to leave my side
No matter how I try to throw away those memories over and over
I can't
No matter how I try hard to forget you
My eyes only remember you
Can you think of me?
At least once by someone else's side
Even if you live on
Think of me sometimes
I must have really loved you
It shows through my yearning
When I looked at you leaving though you knew I love you
It was only that I forgot for a while so come back
Come back to me
I can't live without you
I still have something I want to say
No matter how I try to send you away
I don't have the confidence to
THese feelings, my feelings, do you know them
Even if you love someone else
My heart only moves towards you
At least once by someone else's side
Even if you live on
Think of me sometimes
No matter how I try to erase you over and over
My heart only searches for you
I'm only left with the wound that was made because
My heart ached and ached
No matter how I try to erase you over and over
The only person that doesn't disappear is you
You know about this but why do you pretend you don't
I must have really loved you
It shows through my yearning
When I looked at you leaving though you knew I love you
It was only that I forgot for a while so come back
Come back to me
I can't live without you
I still have something I want to say..
Suddenly, out of the blue, I feel like doing a bioshock review. Sry if I'm rather vague since its been months since I've played it.
SPOILER ALERT!!!! Fanboys of bioshock, you will not like this review, you have been warned.
Ok, the game definitely impressed me at the start. Your plane crashes into the ocean in the middle of the night, and you are the only survivor. The game instantly shows you what it does best, water effects. And believe me, the water is GORGEOUS. It really makes you feel like jumping into it. Ok, water aside, you are supposed to swim to this island with a weird looking observatory. Once inside, the door shuts behind you and it's pitch black. Lights switch on and the first thing you see is "No Government, No God, Only Man". Scary huh. You then have to climb into a bathysphere where you are treated to a video about Rapture and you get to see the city from the outside, reminiscence of the tram ride in Half Life and Half Life 2.
Welcome to Rapture
You dock, and the game decides to scare you by showing you your first splicer killing its victim. Splicers are humans that have gone deranged due to genetic modification, and they look disgusting. So the devs decide to scare you by making it jump onto your bathysphere and proceed to cut it open. I was kinda afraid that it would get in since I have no weapon and I thought the game would start with a chase sequence. Luckily, that is not the case, anyway, you are quickly given your first weapon, the wrench (IMO, best weapon in the game). Den you get to beat the crap out of your first splicer. Next you are given your first much hyped plasmid, the electroshock or whatever. The game then teaches you the one-two punch, which is shock, and whack using your wrench. About 1 hour into the game you'll learn that apart from the fanciful effects of plasmids, there is absolutely NO use of them.
Medical Pavillion
You meet your first Big Daddy Little Sister pair, the cover picture for the game. The game makes it weaker of course, since its your first, then comes the much hyped moral dilemma, to kill or save the little sister. I chose kill of course, and the screen turns green with some weird bug sounds and when the screen clears you are holding some sluglike thing. Man, if it's even supposed to be a moral dilemma at least make the person feel bad for killing the girl!!!! Killing the little sisters net you Adam, which is the currency to upgrade yourself, which IMO, is utterly useless anyway, you just need to max out your health upgrade and that's it. Of course i totally enjoyed the first 3 hours of the game, when the guns were STILL USEFUL. After Arcadia I realised how weak guns were. I headshot them, WTH they are still alive! Nvm, another headshot, OMG THEY ARE STILL KICKING! Ok seriously its pissing me off, One more headshot, finally that splicer drops. JEEZ! I decide to go berserk and switched to my wrench. Guess what? I ran up to the splicer and whack him, and he dies! 1 hit! My point? Guns are just there for show, the wrench is all you need. Rly, and the rest 8 hours of the game I used the wrench and sprinted through the level clobbering everyone I see. Like why make a SHOOTER when the melee weapon owns the guns. The game decidedly got less and less creepy and even comical! hey, this is the game that's supposed to scare the gajeebers out of me. It even scared the PCGamer reviewer! It barely even made me flinch as I sprinted methodically through the game clobbering every goofy splicer I see.
Before long, you FINALLY confront the guy who has caused you to trudge through the rather repetitive levels killing rather repetitive enemies using the rather repetitive kill formula. Andrew Ryan. Oh boy! It's finally ending! I was expecting a tough boss fight. I inched my way to his room. Cutscene. Bla bla bla. "Would you kindly". Ok, so when am I going to fight him? The cutscene takes a twist, I'm given a golf bat and I can't control myself, I start beating him up and when the cutscene ends and I've gained control, he's dead. Er? Boss fight? Amazing, the game was easy up to now and they just made the boss so lame. Atlas screams into the radio, STOP THE BLAST SEQUENCE!!!! Fine anything to end this game... I sprinted to the controls and turned off the blast sequence. Good riddance. Oh, now Atlas reveals himself to be the true baddy, Fontaine. Great, how much more must I put up with? after a few more hours of mindless wrenching mindless splicers, I reached the FINAL boss, Fontaine. Wooooo, I was sooooo ready for a good fight. I planted mines at his seat and activated the cinematic. He jumps out..... and appears back at his seat. WTH? Omg, the game scared me for the first time, is it a bug? Dun tell me I must play through the parts I've just trudged through again! Oh wait, no, my mines were so powerful that he killed himself leaping onto them. Amazing. Wads more amazing I must fight him 3 times. The last 2 fights was equally boring. I just used the chemical thrower and repeatedly shocked him with it until he dies. Sigh LAME. And this game is supposed to be the Game of the Year? Really, if it is then I cannot imagine the other games.
After playing through Bioshock, I figured it has 1 pitfall that utterly made it boring for me.
Ans: The Wrench.
It's too overpowered, plus the upgrades you get for it pretty much makes your other weapons look like toy guns. Those who have unfortunately purchased bioshock, play it through again but this time, Fill up your combat tonics with wrench jockeys. You'll be amazed at how easily you can kill a BIg Daddy with your wrench. Equipping the wrench makes all the enemies lame, and also it takes out the scare since you just charge through the level whacking everything u see. where's the fun in that? And if you decide to use guns it annoys the heck out of you because the guns are just so weak u suspect if its firing pellets instead of bullets! Sigh, I feel so cheated by the reviews from PCGamer and IGN. For those of you seeking a better shooter, I suggest Call of Duty 4 and Crysis. They are definitely aeons better.
Sigh, feeling v sad that I can't go South Korea. No more air tickets. Sigh...
SPOILER ALERT!!!! Fanboys of bioshock, you will not like this review, you have been warned.
Ok, the game definitely impressed me at the start. Your plane crashes into the ocean in the middle of the night, and you are the only survivor. The game instantly shows you what it does best, water effects. And believe me, the water is GORGEOUS. It really makes you feel like jumping into it. Ok, water aside, you are supposed to swim to this island with a weird looking observatory. Once inside, the door shuts behind you and it's pitch black. Lights switch on and the first thing you see is "No Government, No God, Only Man". Scary huh. You then have to climb into a bathysphere where you are treated to a video about Rapture and you get to see the city from the outside, reminiscence of the tram ride in Half Life and Half Life 2.
Welcome to Rapture
You dock, and the game decides to scare you by showing you your first splicer killing its victim. Splicers are humans that have gone deranged due to genetic modification, and they look disgusting. So the devs decide to scare you by making it jump onto your bathysphere and proceed to cut it open. I was kinda afraid that it would get in since I have no weapon and I thought the game would start with a chase sequence. Luckily, that is not the case, anyway, you are quickly given your first weapon, the wrench (IMO, best weapon in the game). Den you get to beat the crap out of your first splicer. Next you are given your first much hyped plasmid, the electroshock or whatever. The game then teaches you the one-two punch, which is shock, and whack using your wrench. About 1 hour into the game you'll learn that apart from the fanciful effects of plasmids, there is absolutely NO use of them.
Medical Pavillion
You meet your first Big Daddy Little Sister pair, the cover picture for the game. The game makes it weaker of course, since its your first, then comes the much hyped moral dilemma, to kill or save the little sister. I chose kill of course, and the screen turns green with some weird bug sounds and when the screen clears you are holding some sluglike thing. Man, if it's even supposed to be a moral dilemma at least make the person feel bad for killing the girl!!!! Killing the little sisters net you Adam, which is the currency to upgrade yourself, which IMO, is utterly useless anyway, you just need to max out your health upgrade and that's it. Of course i totally enjoyed the first 3 hours of the game, when the guns were STILL USEFUL. After Arcadia I realised how weak guns were. I headshot them, WTH they are still alive! Nvm, another headshot, OMG THEY ARE STILL KICKING! Ok seriously its pissing me off, One more headshot, finally that splicer drops. JEEZ! I decide to go berserk and switched to my wrench. Guess what? I ran up to the splicer and whack him, and he dies! 1 hit! My point? Guns are just there for show, the wrench is all you need. Rly, and the rest 8 hours of the game I used the wrench and sprinted through the level clobbering everyone I see. Like why make a SHOOTER when the melee weapon owns the guns. The game decidedly got less and less creepy and even comical! hey, this is the game that's supposed to scare the gajeebers out of me. It even scared the PCGamer reviewer! It barely even made me flinch as I sprinted methodically through the game clobbering every goofy splicer I see.
Before long, you FINALLY confront the guy who has caused you to trudge through the rather repetitive levels killing rather repetitive enemies using the rather repetitive kill formula. Andrew Ryan. Oh boy! It's finally ending! I was expecting a tough boss fight. I inched my way to his room. Cutscene. Bla bla bla. "Would you kindly". Ok, so when am I going to fight him? The cutscene takes a twist, I'm given a golf bat and I can't control myself, I start beating him up and when the cutscene ends and I've gained control, he's dead. Er? Boss fight? Amazing, the game was easy up to now and they just made the boss so lame. Atlas screams into the radio, STOP THE BLAST SEQUENCE!!!! Fine anything to end this game... I sprinted to the controls and turned off the blast sequence. Good riddance. Oh, now Atlas reveals himself to be the true baddy, Fontaine. Great, how much more must I put up with? after a few more hours of mindless wrenching mindless splicers, I reached the FINAL boss, Fontaine. Wooooo, I was sooooo ready for a good fight. I planted mines at his seat and activated the cinematic. He jumps out..... and appears back at his seat. WTH? Omg, the game scared me for the first time, is it a bug? Dun tell me I must play through the parts I've just trudged through again! Oh wait, no, my mines were so powerful that he killed himself leaping onto them. Amazing. Wads more amazing I must fight him 3 times. The last 2 fights was equally boring. I just used the chemical thrower and repeatedly shocked him with it until he dies. Sigh LAME. And this game is supposed to be the Game of the Year? Really, if it is then I cannot imagine the other games.
After playing through Bioshock, I figured it has 1 pitfall that utterly made it boring for me.
Ans: The Wrench.
It's too overpowered, plus the upgrades you get for it pretty much makes your other weapons look like toy guns. Those who have unfortunately purchased bioshock, play it through again but this time, Fill up your combat tonics with wrench jockeys. You'll be amazed at how easily you can kill a BIg Daddy with your wrench. Equipping the wrench makes all the enemies lame, and also it takes out the scare since you just charge through the level whacking everything u see. where's the fun in that? And if you decide to use guns it annoys the heck out of you because the guns are just so weak u suspect if its firing pellets instead of bullets! Sigh, I feel so cheated by the reviews from PCGamer and IGN. For those of you seeking a better shooter, I suggest Call of Duty 4 and Crysis. They are definitely aeons better.
Sigh, feeling v sad that I can't go South Korea. No more air tickets. Sigh...
Some of you may notice i was, like derek, mysteriously missing for the past 2-3 days. Well it's because I went to his Class chalet!!! LMAO no la, I got better things to do than that.
Well I was not online because I had been watching a Korean drama from morning I wake up to 2 am when I sleep. 85 episodes. This drama was sort of like a wake-up call to me. I just cried out all my sorrows whilst watching it because I really felt for the characters as well as identify with them. (Of course, this is when my mom fell asleep on the sofa :p).
The drama made me think that I should do more with my life. It also made me feel like starting my own family next time. I mean, I never gave it much thought. It also made me have a clearer state of mind, there are many girls out there, there are definitely others who can make me fall in love with her. Though I have not met any, I think I should not seal my heart but instead be open. I mean, anything can happen, just leave it all to fate. If you're destined to be with someone, not even the 7 oceans can seperate you, no mountain can block your way. So I guess I'll just leave it all to fate. If I'm rly destined to be with her, well, then that would be great, but if not, then I should not just stay at one spot, since it would be futile, so I'm just wasting my life.
Also, I feel that I should not be playing my comp so much. Thinking if I should continue playing WoW since it's eating up alot of my time.
lao(3) tian(1) ye(2), gei(3) wo(3) ai(4) ba(4)
Well I was not online because I had been watching a Korean drama from morning I wake up to 2 am when I sleep. 85 episodes. This drama was sort of like a wake-up call to me. I just cried out all my sorrows whilst watching it because I really felt for the characters as well as identify with them. (Of course, this is when my mom fell asleep on the sofa :p).
The drama made me think that I should do more with my life. It also made me feel like starting my own family next time. I mean, I never gave it much thought. It also made me have a clearer state of mind, there are many girls out there, there are definitely others who can make me fall in love with her. Though I have not met any, I think I should not seal my heart but instead be open. I mean, anything can happen, just leave it all to fate. If you're destined to be with someone, not even the 7 oceans can seperate you, no mountain can block your way. So I guess I'll just leave it all to fate. If I'm rly destined to be with her, well, then that would be great, but if not, then I should not just stay at one spot, since it would be futile, so I'm just wasting my life.
Also, I feel that I should not be playing my comp so much. Thinking if I should continue playing WoW since it's eating up alot of my time.
lao(3) tian(1) ye(2), gei(3) wo(3) ai(4) ba(4)
Another emo post lol...
Oook.. This feels so deja vu. Like it's 14 all over again. Thinx only Jaye knows what I'm talking abt. Sigh, so no mood to do anything now. So what happened, I guess when u took a right turn and I took a left turn and now we're in parallel. Sigh, and I'm stargazing all of a sudden. What's wrong with that? Astro do it all the time. I don't know, cept it bothers me alot. I start thinking of weirdish stuff that makes no sense and by the second gets more and more irrelevant. It's like I have a trojan in my system that's opening lots and lots of pointless programmes just to screw with me.
I think feelings are the bane of life. True that it's the colour of a painting but a bad colouring can ruin a perfectly drawn picture. I think you can tell how screwed up my state of mind is just by reading what I'm typing, I don't even know if I'm making rational statements or just gibberish. I think I've reached "Nirvana" where fantasy and reality is merged and now I can't tell what is real and what isn't. Surreal is not the word I'm looking for. It's like walking on the line between dream and reality. FOr WC3 players, that's sth like the Emerald Dream. For layman, I guess u can say its like treading the line between life and death.
..... I can't stop myself from stargazing .....
Maybe because beyond the stars I will see heaven. Where dream becomes reality. I just want to ditch this shithole and climb out of the nightsoil. Most of the time, I'm just thinking, why can't I be someone else. Why do I have to be me and why do other ppl get to be themselves.
Oook.. This feels so deja vu. Like it's 14 all over again. Thinx only Jaye knows what I'm talking abt. Sigh, so no mood to do anything now. So what happened, I guess when u took a right turn and I took a left turn and now we're in parallel. Sigh, and I'm stargazing all of a sudden. What's wrong with that? Astro do it all the time. I don't know, cept it bothers me alot. I start thinking of weirdish stuff that makes no sense and by the second gets more and more irrelevant. It's like I have a trojan in my system that's opening lots and lots of pointless programmes just to screw with me.
I think feelings are the bane of life. True that it's the colour of a painting but a bad colouring can ruin a perfectly drawn picture. I think you can tell how screwed up my state of mind is just by reading what I'm typing, I don't even know if I'm making rational statements or just gibberish. I think I've reached "Nirvana" where fantasy and reality is merged and now I can't tell what is real and what isn't. Surreal is not the word I'm looking for. It's like walking on the line between dream and reality. FOr WC3 players, that's sth like the Emerald Dream. For layman, I guess u can say its like treading the line between life and death.
..... I can't stop myself from stargazing .....
Maybe because beyond the stars I will see heaven. Where dream becomes reality. I just want to ditch this shithole and climb out of the nightsoil. Most of the time, I'm just thinking, why can't I be someone else. Why do I have to be me and why do other ppl get to be themselves.
So, I've made up my mind
I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end you'll know that I've lied
To get your attention
I'm faking my own suicide
I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realised
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die
Along with me
I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave
You'd come to the conclusion
You'd love me all your days
But it's too late
Too late for you to say
Because I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realised
Oh, I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you'll die
Along with me
I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you your love for me is more than six feet deep
You say aloud that you would have been my wife
Right about that time is when I come back to life
And let you know
I'd let you know
That all along I was faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just never realised
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk into that room and see your eyes opened so wide
Opened so wide
Because you know
Because you know you will never leave my side
Until the day that I die for the first time
And we'll laugh, yeah we'll laugh
And we will cry
So overjoyed with our love that's so alive
Our love is so alive
I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end you'll know that I've lied
To get your attention
I'm faking my own suicide
I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realised
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die
Along with me
I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave
You'd come to the conclusion
You'd love me all your days
But it's too late
Too late for you to say
Because I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realised
Oh, I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you'll die
Along with me
I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you your love for me is more than six feet deep
You say aloud that you would have been my wife
Right about that time is when I come back to life
And let you know
I'd let you know
That all along I was faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just never realised
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk into that room and see your eyes opened so wide
Opened so wide
Because you know
Because you know you will never leave my side
Until the day that I die for the first time
And we'll laugh, yeah we'll laugh
And we will cry
So overjoyed with our love that's so alive
Our love is so alive
This was a triumph
I'm making a note here
HUGE SUCCESS
It's hard to overstate my satisfaction
Aperture Science
We do what we must because we can
For the good of all of us
Except the ones who are dead
But there's no sense crying over every mistake
You just keep on trying until you run out of cake
Now when the science gets done and you make a neat gun
For the people who are still alive
I'm not even angry
I'm being so sincere right now
Even though you broke my heart
And killed me
And torn into pieces
And threw every piece into a fire
As they burned it hurt because
I was so happy for you
Now these points of data make a beautiful line
And we're out of BETA we're releasing on time
So I'm glad I got burned think of all the things we learned
For the people who are still alive
Go ahead and leave me
I think I'd prefer to stay inside
Maybe you'll find someone else to help you
Maybe Black Mesa
That was a joke, Haha, Fat chance
Anyway this cake is great, it's so delicious and moist
Look at me still talking when there's science to do
When I look out there, it makes me glad I'm not you
I've experiments to run, there is research to be done
On the people who are still alive
Believe me I'm still alive
I'm doing science and I'm still alive
I feel fantastic and I'm still alive
While you're dying I'll be still alive
And when you're dead I'll be still alive
Still alive, still alive.
I'm making a note here
HUGE SUCCESS
It's hard to overstate my satisfaction
Aperture Science
We do what we must because we can
For the good of all of us
Except the ones who are dead
But there's no sense crying over every mistake
You just keep on trying until you run out of cake
Now when the science gets done and you make a neat gun
For the people who are still alive
I'm not even angry
I'm being so sincere right now
Even though you broke my heart
And killed me
And torn into pieces
And threw every piece into a fire
As they burned it hurt because
I was so happy for you
Now these points of data make a beautiful line
And we're out of BETA we're releasing on time
So I'm glad I got burned think of all the things we learned
For the people who are still alive
Go ahead and leave me
I think I'd prefer to stay inside
Maybe you'll find someone else to help you
Maybe Black Mesa
That was a joke, Haha, Fat chance
Anyway this cake is great, it's so delicious and moist
Look at me still talking when there's science to do
When I look out there, it makes me glad I'm not you
I've experiments to run, there is research to be done
On the people who are still alive
Believe me I'm still alive
I'm doing science and I'm still alive
I feel fantastic and I'm still alive
While you're dying I'll be still alive
And when you're dead I'll be still alive
Still alive, still alive.
Was talking to my mom just now while on the way home.
She seems to know somehow my heart has been broken by a girl, so she was like telling me not to keep everything in and tell her about it. Den she said sometimes young people like to make a mountain out of a molehill. Which is true la, cause we lack real life experience. Den I told her when one door closes another door opens, so she asked me which door has opened in my heart.
Then I thought, actually, no door has opened in my heart, ever since Sec 2 I have shut out all other girls. As in not willing to get romantically involved. So I think she was hinting me not to give up on girls, which is kind of ironic, since she doesn't want me to get into a relationship just yet. Well it's true, I have always been a pessimist, I never look at things in a good way. I think its some childhood trauma haha. However, even if I should remain single all my life, I will never regret meeting her. I learnt that I will not always get what I want, and I also realised I have a rly good sister always standing by me. Not only that, my bond with my computer has also strengthened to the point I can play the whole day without feeling my day is wasted. I dun think that is a bad thing bcos through her, I realised that every day pleasures are rly just all I need, and it's all I ever want, and the best part is, I already have it. So, girls, sex, relationships, kids, romance, they can all step aside. My #1 priority now is to have a fun and full life no matter how short it is. I don't think I should be doing stuffs that irk me or to prolong my life only to make myself suffer longer. Rly, life is all about having fun. Example, why get so worried about what you eat, if ur just eating stuffs u don't like to live longer, why bother? Just eat all u want! And the ideal case of course is not to live your life based on the expectations of another. Does it rly matter how others look at you? Actually it does, if u intend to integrate wif society. But rly, if I'm some rich ass, I wun even give a damn about how I look and just hide in my house. At the end of the road, when you die, you should look back and feel that warm glow within that you rly had fun throughout your life, and the saddest thing that should happen is that u realise after having a long life that you did not enjoy it the way you should have.
Ok linking back, while it would be great if she accepted me, trust me, I'll even stop playing my computer, I know that would never happen. She's too good for me and I acknowledge that so I wun make any move, unless I'm crazy of course. Eh my thoughts are so incoherent now cause I just left off to play TF2 and now I lost my train of thought. The train went up the ferry and went far far away. Feel Soooo dizzy now, aftereffects of playing too much scout! Ok, since I forgot what I was thinking, I shall just end this post. Man, it sucks to leave things done half-way.
She seems to know somehow my heart has been broken by a girl, so she was like telling me not to keep everything in and tell her about it. Den she said sometimes young people like to make a mountain out of a molehill. Which is true la, cause we lack real life experience. Den I told her when one door closes another door opens, so she asked me which door has opened in my heart.
Then I thought, actually, no door has opened in my heart, ever since Sec 2 I have shut out all other girls. As in not willing to get romantically involved. So I think she was hinting me not to give up on girls, which is kind of ironic, since she doesn't want me to get into a relationship just yet. Well it's true, I have always been a pessimist, I never look at things in a good way. I think its some childhood trauma haha. However, even if I should remain single all my life, I will never regret meeting her. I learnt that I will not always get what I want, and I also realised I have a rly good sister always standing by me. Not only that, my bond with my computer has also strengthened to the point I can play the whole day without feeling my day is wasted. I dun think that is a bad thing bcos through her, I realised that every day pleasures are rly just all I need, and it's all I ever want, and the best part is, I already have it. So, girls, sex, relationships, kids, romance, they can all step aside. My #1 priority now is to have a fun and full life no matter how short it is. I don't think I should be doing stuffs that irk me or to prolong my life only to make myself suffer longer. Rly, life is all about having fun. Example, why get so worried about what you eat, if ur just eating stuffs u don't like to live longer, why bother? Just eat all u want! And the ideal case of course is not to live your life based on the expectations of another. Does it rly matter how others look at you? Actually it does, if u intend to integrate wif society. But rly, if I'm some rich ass, I wun even give a damn about how I look and just hide in my house. At the end of the road, when you die, you should look back and feel that warm glow within that you rly had fun throughout your life, and the saddest thing that should happen is that u realise after having a long life that you did not enjoy it the way you should have.
Ok linking back, while it would be great if she accepted me, trust me, I'll even stop playing my computer, I know that would never happen. She's too good for me and I acknowledge that so I wun make any move, unless I'm crazy of course. Eh my thoughts are so incoherent now cause I just left off to play TF2 and now I lost my train of thought. The train went up the ferry and went far far away. Feel Soooo dizzy now, aftereffects of playing too much scout! Ok, since I forgot what I was thinking, I shall just end this post. Man, it sucks to leave things done half-way.
The deadly promotional exam is finally OVER! I think I shall analyse the papers. For those who don't want unpleasant memories to come back, then don't read on.
First day of promos was GP and Chinese. Talk about bad planning. 6 hours exam total. Writing marathon. I thought I was screwed for GP since I'm totally horrid at writing argumentative/debative essays. Also, I am an extremist, and that's not the worst, I have unconventional views. How unconventional? SO unconventional u have to walk the entire earth to find one person like me, and that's me. Ya, so those who take GP can see how unsuited I am for GP, and I dun like lying either, so I will just tell the teacher straight to the face (figuratively, since he/she will be reading it) what I feel. Ok CHinese. I nv felt any pressure in taking chinese, I guess its the BPian gift haha. Surprisingly, I survived GP, I think I can pass. Yeah, that's all that matters, PASS!!!!
Second day of exams, Physics plus GEOG!!! Physics is the one I have most confidence in, MOST probably pass, maybe can get A, not sure. Geog, Wah I rly pray its a pass, I nv prepare sufficiently. Human geog I know nuts.. Den KSL say dono anything draw some pictures, he will give marks. WOots I took his word and drew a few pictures. Glenn that selfish guy dun wanna teach us how to draw that retarded bird that attracted KSL. SELFISH! Second day was still OK.
Third day is the worst... MATHS ARGH. Though I did the practise papers, I still could not do the paper! What is the department thinking, setting such a tough paper. Compared to 2006, this is like 3 times harder... This paper, i'm confident in not passing. I rly hope there's moderation, otherwise the 2nd H2 I'm banking on is KAPUT.
4th Day, My morale was so low I was just willing the paper to be over. Also, I gave up on chemistry. SO I was just hoping the qns that come out I can do. Well, I was partially right, I think I did enuff to pass!!! WOOTS!!! I pulled through cause at the start of the paper, Ms Zhu came to my desk and talked to me! Gave me inspiration to do my chem properly! Ok that was utter crap haha, she was just telling me not to draw on my cover page. Ahhh what to do, the artist within me is just screaming to be released. Con artist that is. HAHA!! SPeaking of con artist, My fave role in TF2 is the SPY!!! Woots! Managed a team wipe today wahahha, sneaked to their backs and BACKSTABBED THE WHOLE TEAM!!! MUHAHAHA.
Sigh promos is just too traumatising, need to recuperate now...
First day of promos was GP and Chinese. Talk about bad planning. 6 hours exam total. Writing marathon. I thought I was screwed for GP since I'm totally horrid at writing argumentative/debative essays. Also, I am an extremist, and that's not the worst, I have unconventional views. How unconventional? SO unconventional u have to walk the entire earth to find one person like me, and that's me. Ya, so those who take GP can see how unsuited I am for GP, and I dun like lying either, so I will just tell the teacher straight to the face (figuratively, since he/she will be reading it) what I feel. Ok CHinese. I nv felt any pressure in taking chinese, I guess its the BPian gift haha. Surprisingly, I survived GP, I think I can pass. Yeah, that's all that matters, PASS!!!!
Second day of exams, Physics plus GEOG!!! Physics is the one I have most confidence in, MOST probably pass, maybe can get A, not sure. Geog, Wah I rly pray its a pass, I nv prepare sufficiently. Human geog I know nuts.. Den KSL say dono anything draw some pictures, he will give marks. WOots I took his word and drew a few pictures. Glenn that selfish guy dun wanna teach us how to draw that retarded bird that attracted KSL. SELFISH! Second day was still OK.
Third day is the worst... MATHS ARGH. Though I did the practise papers, I still could not do the paper! What is the department thinking, setting such a tough paper. Compared to 2006, this is like 3 times harder... This paper, i'm confident in not passing. I rly hope there's moderation, otherwise the 2nd H2 I'm banking on is KAPUT.
4th Day, My morale was so low I was just willing the paper to be over. Also, I gave up on chemistry. SO I was just hoping the qns that come out I can do. Well, I was partially right, I think I did enuff to pass!!! WOOTS!!! I pulled through cause at the start of the paper, Ms Zhu came to my desk and talked to me! Gave me inspiration to do my chem properly! Ok that was utter crap haha, she was just telling me not to draw on my cover page. Ahhh what to do, the artist within me is just screaming to be released. Con artist that is. HAHA!! SPeaking of con artist, My fave role in TF2 is the SPY!!! Woots! Managed a team wipe today wahahha, sneaked to their backs and BACKSTABBED THE WHOLE TEAM!!! MUHAHAHA.
Sigh promos is just too traumatising, need to recuperate now...
Just a really really short post, doesn't matter if you read it or not.
Pray I can pass my promos and promote! 3 more days! Gambatte!
Pray I can pass my promos and promote! 3 more days! Gambatte!
DO NOT ATTEMPT TO JUDGE ME BASED ON WHAT LITTLE YOU KNOW OF ME
you have barely scratched the surface of knowing me, don't try to criticize me. If you know me at least 50%, I will still listen and reflect, because it shows you have substance. Like in GP, u need CONCRETE examples and KNOWLEDGE of the subject. I can tell you, you dun even know 10% of me. No one even knows 50% of me. I can tell you that. What anyone knows of me, is what I pretend to be. Even if u read my blog and remember EVERYTHING i post, u will still not know 50% of me.
ONLY MY SIS IS ALLOWED TO COMMENT ON ME
even my parents don't know me well, so don't try, seriously, don't try.
on a side note, u said im not civic minded. To those who have been reading my blog for at least a year, and roughly rmb wad i wrote, i mentioned i am TRYING TO BE EVIL AND SELFISH. Yes, meaning, I DON'T WANT TO BE CIVIC MINDED.
Those who read for 2 years, know I posted that my friends do not appreciate what I do for them. I AM BEING A FUCKING FOOLISH NICE GUY AND FOR FUCK? ALL OF YOU CAN GO AND FUCKING KICK THE BUCKET!
So DON'T tell me about me WITHOUT KNOWING the backstory. BTW, I DON't GO AROUND COMMENTING ON PEOPLE AND CRITICIZING THEM UNLESS I KNOW THEM WELL ENOUGH. I only say such stuffs in jest, and actually, i'm not a very funny guy. I dun even like telling jokes. I dun like smiling. I dun like laughing. I just want to be LEFT ON MY OWN! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE WITH MY COMPUTER DAMN IT!
I know in this world we have to do stuffs we don't like. I smile. I laugh. I socialize. These are stuffs I DON'T LIKE AT ALL. I won't die of loneliness by being cooped up at home. As long as I have my comp.
And if u ask abt girlfrens and wives, I can tell u surely, THEY ARE WHITE ELEPHANTS. I don't need them. I don't want them. And I know this sounds v contrary to most of my posts, but I have this principle that I will only truely love one person. Since that love is used up, I shall just be alone. Ok, I hate being alone. But I RATHER BE ALONE THAN BE WITH HUMANS. DISGUSTING SHIT. I only want to be with animals. And all you people of this world should be ashamed of yourselves. My pet has better moral values than all of you added up. My point being, DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHERS UNTIL YOU CHANGE YOURSELF! You are not even a saint, so DON'T CHANGE OTHERS!
Ok, there ends my rant and my post. Don't tresspass me. Ever. Again.
you have barely scratched the surface of knowing me, don't try to criticize me. If you know me at least 50%, I will still listen and reflect, because it shows you have substance. Like in GP, u need CONCRETE examples and KNOWLEDGE of the subject. I can tell you, you dun even know 10% of me. No one even knows 50% of me. I can tell you that. What anyone knows of me, is what I pretend to be. Even if u read my blog and remember EVERYTHING i post, u will still not know 50% of me.
ONLY MY SIS IS ALLOWED TO COMMENT ON ME
even my parents don't know me well, so don't try, seriously, don't try.
on a side note, u said im not civic minded. To those who have been reading my blog for at least a year, and roughly rmb wad i wrote, i mentioned i am TRYING TO BE EVIL AND SELFISH. Yes, meaning, I DON'T WANT TO BE CIVIC MINDED.
Those who read for 2 years, know I posted that my friends do not appreciate what I do for them. I AM BEING A FUCKING FOOLISH NICE GUY AND FOR FUCK? ALL OF YOU CAN GO AND FUCKING KICK THE BUCKET!
So DON'T tell me about me WITHOUT KNOWING the backstory. BTW, I DON't GO AROUND COMMENTING ON PEOPLE AND CRITICIZING THEM UNLESS I KNOW THEM WELL ENOUGH. I only say such stuffs in jest, and actually, i'm not a very funny guy. I dun even like telling jokes. I dun like smiling. I dun like laughing. I just want to be LEFT ON MY OWN! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE WITH MY COMPUTER DAMN IT!
I know in this world we have to do stuffs we don't like. I smile. I laugh. I socialize. These are stuffs I DON'T LIKE AT ALL. I won't die of loneliness by being cooped up at home. As long as I have my comp.
And if u ask abt girlfrens and wives, I can tell u surely, THEY ARE WHITE ELEPHANTS. I don't need them. I don't want them. And I know this sounds v contrary to most of my posts, but I have this principle that I will only truely love one person. Since that love is used up, I shall just be alone. Ok, I hate being alone. But I RATHER BE ALONE THAN BE WITH HUMANS. DISGUSTING SHIT. I only want to be with animals. And all you people of this world should be ashamed of yourselves. My pet has better moral values than all of you added up. My point being, DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHERS UNTIL YOU CHANGE YOURSELF! You are not even a saint, so DON'T CHANGE OTHERS!
Ok, there ends my rant and my post. Don't tresspass me. Ever. Again.
I tried to convince myself that I no longer have feelings for you. I thought I had succeeded, but how wrong I was. Walked past you this morning, saw you glancing my way. I don't know if it was imagined or you did glance my way. In that instance my heart skipped a beat. That horrible feeling like the ground beneath your feet suddenly gave way and you're falling. This shouldn't happen. This should be 2 years ago and last year stuff. I think I can't lie about my feelings. They are still there and I know it. The shyness is still there, I still get fidgety when I see you, whether you saw me or not. I try to ignore you but this constant nagging thought keeps forcing me to look towards you. You did a reverse polarity in my life once, and I'm still reeling at its effect.
I'm weird. Everytime I see you online, I want to talk to you, yet I don't know what to say. I would open the chat window, and stare at the frosted glass, willing words to appear miraculously. In the end, the only thing I see is the background and that ominous flashing line, as though challenging me to type something.
I know you have your own life and I really should be going on with mine, leave the past behind me. Believe me, I tried that. Just blindly forge on, feeling my way as I round every bend. Everytime I imagine you with another guy, I get this... feeling.. Not jealousy.. Rather, this tsunami of grief and regret. I still try to laugh, smile, be a total ass, yet behind this paper-thin facade, I'm just breaking apart. Sometimes I feel so alone, like there's no one in this world but me, empty streets, empty buildings, empty sky, an empty world. I can't describe that gloominess that stills my heart everytime that happens. Like watching a movie in black and white, with still images of broken windows, bare trees, and the wind picking up leaves from the ground and tossing them in the air. The shutters of the windows bang ominously everytime I see you. The skipped beat of my heart like a sudden flash of lightning that disturbs the grey stillness of the picture.
Everyone seems to be moving on with their lives, only I'm stagnating in this mire. I try to lift my leg, the pitch black tar-looking substance holds me to my position as I watch the backs of my peers. Your back. The harder I struggle the deeper I sink, so all I can do is just stay there and wait.
What really is the true meaning of bliss? Haven't felt that in a long time. Haven't had the feeling that everything in my life is going smoothly, the feeling that life is a bed of roses. And then I try to console myself, 99.9% of people do not get their first love. And I thought, why can't I be that 0.1%?
Then I thought to myself, does it have anything to do with my attitude? If I had been more aggressive, would the outcome be any different? Given the circumstance, I think not, it will probably achieve the effect of making you dislike me even more. To the point of avoidance. Though sometimes I can't disagree that you are avoiding me. Or it could be pure imagination. I'm full of it. When life isn't what you expect it to be, you turn to your imagination to create one that is what you wanted it to be. In this sense, I think I'm blessed to have a mind capable of rendering 3D images and not just still images but motion picture and the ability to shut out reality all in the whim. Simply put, I can stone anywhere I want anytime I want and just live my life in my imagination. Wouldn't it be nice?
I'm weird. Everytime I see you online, I want to talk to you, yet I don't know what to say. I would open the chat window, and stare at the frosted glass, willing words to appear miraculously. In the end, the only thing I see is the background and that ominous flashing line, as though challenging me to type something.
I know you have your own life and I really should be going on with mine, leave the past behind me. Believe me, I tried that. Just blindly forge on, feeling my way as I round every bend. Everytime I imagine you with another guy, I get this... feeling.. Not jealousy.. Rather, this tsunami of grief and regret. I still try to laugh, smile, be a total ass, yet behind this paper-thin facade, I'm just breaking apart. Sometimes I feel so alone, like there's no one in this world but me, empty streets, empty buildings, empty sky, an empty world. I can't describe that gloominess that stills my heart everytime that happens. Like watching a movie in black and white, with still images of broken windows, bare trees, and the wind picking up leaves from the ground and tossing them in the air. The shutters of the windows bang ominously everytime I see you. The skipped beat of my heart like a sudden flash of lightning that disturbs the grey stillness of the picture.
Everyone seems to be moving on with their lives, only I'm stagnating in this mire. I try to lift my leg, the pitch black tar-looking substance holds me to my position as I watch the backs of my peers. Your back. The harder I struggle the deeper I sink, so all I can do is just stay there and wait.
What really is the true meaning of bliss? Haven't felt that in a long time. Haven't had the feeling that everything in my life is going smoothly, the feeling that life is a bed of roses. And then I try to console myself, 99.9% of people do not get their first love. And I thought, why can't I be that 0.1%?
Then I thought to myself, does it have anything to do with my attitude? If I had been more aggressive, would the outcome be any different? Given the circumstance, I think not, it will probably achieve the effect of making you dislike me even more. To the point of avoidance. Though sometimes I can't disagree that you are avoiding me. Or it could be pure imagination. I'm full of it. When life isn't what you expect it to be, you turn to your imagination to create one that is what you wanted it to be. In this sense, I think I'm blessed to have a mind capable of rendering 3D images and not just still images but motion picture and the ability to shut out reality all in the whim. Simply put, I can stone anywhere I want anytime I want and just live my life in my imagination. Wouldn't it be nice?
Proved derek wrong by not blogging abt HP7 after I read it!! Haha, Anyways, ppl should go watch THE SIMPSONS MOVIE!!! It's like many spoofs thrown into one movie. You will certainly recognize a go at Al Gore, Green Day, TItanic to name a few. And also WHO'S THAT NAKED BOY SKATING THROUGH TOWN?! Haha, that was classic man...
Oooooooook. Today went to play street soccer wif my classmates. Current classmates. Ah, ok lar, I think, cept i got 2 injuries on my right leg. First one was due to *****. I kicked the ball, he kicked my right leg. Don't know what kind of injury I sustained, but it's so damn painful I can't walk properly. Soooo.. I just sat in front of my comp after I got home. Annnd, the second one not so bad la, just broke my toe nail cos I hit the ball on it. Man, I couldn't go for CIP today because of my injury. Toenail broke nvm one, since it happens to me everytime i play soccer. But the muscle one is pissing me off. I can't even stand without wincing at the pain. Game. My mom suggested going for X-ray, but I'm too lazy to go to the hospital. If tomorrow the pain is better I will go for my 04 class outing. But if it gets worse or stays the same, its staying at home again... I think 1 wk without PE liao.... SIgh... Maybe pon school on monday also, if the pain worsens, use monday go hospital haha. Annnd, prob gonna pang seh lionel on wednesday again for squash training.
Sigh, so much to do so little time... July flew past just like that. Need to shift to gear 2 for my revision already. Got 1 year of work that needs revising haha.
Oooooooook. Today went to play street soccer wif my classmates. Current classmates. Ah, ok lar, I think, cept i got 2 injuries on my right leg. First one was due to *****. I kicked the ball, he kicked my right leg. Don't know what kind of injury I sustained, but it's so damn painful I can't walk properly. Soooo.. I just sat in front of my comp after I got home. Annnd, the second one not so bad la, just broke my toe nail cos I hit the ball on it. Man, I couldn't go for CIP today because of my injury. Toenail broke nvm one, since it happens to me everytime i play soccer. But the muscle one is pissing me off. I can't even stand without wincing at the pain. Game. My mom suggested going for X-ray, but I'm too lazy to go to the hospital. If tomorrow the pain is better I will go for my 04 class outing. But if it gets worse or stays the same, its staying at home again... I think 1 wk without PE liao.... SIgh... Maybe pon school on monday also, if the pain worsens, use monday go hospital haha. Annnd, prob gonna pang seh lionel on wednesday again for squash training.
Sigh, so much to do so little time... July flew past just like that. Need to shift to gear 2 for my revision already. Got 1 year of work that needs revising haha.
My first post for July!!!! WOOTS!!! Just felt too bored to blog nowadays (weird, since if I'm bored I should blog!)
Well, then, I shall start with the class CIP. Basically, we went to this children's home, which looks like a rich children's home. Plus, it was situated in prime area. Wooo... Ok, so our jobs? Nope, nothing to do with the children (irony right?), instead, we were to WEED their garden. Woah. Sweet. Well, we were split into 2 groups, one in charge of the entrance, the other the vegetable plot. Hehe, me glenn gx lionel jonathan and tian ge were the vege plot ppl. Tiange left us half-way, so we had to make do with 5 ppl. But Tiange left a legacy. More on that later. Suffice to say, digging holes in the soil with spades to remove the weed roots was fun. For 30-45 minutes maybe. After that, it gets repetitive. Dig, Pull, Toss, Rinse and Repeat. There is some weird satisfaction derived when we see the vegetable plot barren. Yes, after removing the weeds, it becomes barren. However, there is also some (understatement) irritation when we realised we could not eliminate ALL the weeds, they were NEVERENDING! Now, back to the legacy Tian Ge left us. It was............ Drum roll....... A hoe. Not mrs hoe or her 2 gymnast sons. But a gardening hoe. So, what's a hoe used for you may ask. Well, its a WEAPON OF MASS DESTRUCTION MWAHAHAHAHA. to weeds that is. Gardening 101, if you get pissed with green stuffs, destroy them by smashing them and tossing the soil and basically rip them to shreds. Now, that is the hoe's job. Private Glenn was charged with carrying the Big Daddy of all spades, the massive what, 5-10 kilos hoe? Well, what happened next was gory. Down went the hoe into the soil. A clean cut. No devastation yet, save for the weeds that happened to be in the way. Like how crocodiles do the death roll, well not rly a roll in this case, more like a drag or pull. Whatever. After getting the hoe into the soil, the next step was to haul it towards yourself, pulling up any weeds and stones and what have you. Then, we bent down and cleared the corpses of the weeds. It was fun doing this, but after awhile, it got boring again. SO, we got abit slacky. We just hoed the ground, flipped the soil, and buried the weeds. Neat. And so our vege plot was WEEDED.
Hehe, now we proceed to the entrance. Here's where the mass destruction begins. We weren't briefed on what to remove, and what not to. Sooooo, we were a couple of greenhorns. That isn't so bad, not until you see one greenhorn, private glenn, with the Weapon of Mass Destruction aka the Hoe. LET ER RIP!!!! well, not exactly, we were pretty docile at first, inspecting the battlefield and what the others had wrought. Our astute analysis was that things were proceeding too slowly. Hence, we got down to work in Operation "Anything that is green is gone". Our first mistake, we destroyed one shrub with flowers. I would have to claim responsibility on that, since I was the one who suggested pulling the whole thing out. But, I didn't see the flowers. The flowers were like what, 2 mm in diameter? Besides, that shrub was bear. The first casualty in the war. soooo, the girls made alot of noise about us pulling out that shrub, so we just stuck to pulling out miserable weeds. And grass. Den, one of them complained that a tree was irritating her because it stuck out like a sore thumb and keeps poking her. I took a look at that tree, and once again, deduced the tree was dead. How I know? THere weren't any leaves and the branch was grey. So, we pulled it out, root and all. We pulled.... and pulled... and pulled.. and pulled... and pulled... AND finally the roots all came out. It was SOOOO LONG!!! And it coiled up like a spring. Once again, the girls made alot of noise and insisted it was living. Amazing. So now we are "traumatised" by our insensitive destruction, so we headed for greener pastures. Time to WRECK HAVOC!! Again, the hoe does its job perfectly, destroying everything there, even a maggot. Not exactly, but glenn nearly cleaved the maggot into 2. He did dent it of course. Which is weird, since the maggot isnt made of metal so how can it get dented? Well, it sure looked dented, its body was like seperated into 2 halves with a depression in the middle, and it looked like it was squirming. Everyone gathered round. GX suggested euthanasia, putting it out of its misery. And so he held the spade above the maggot like the sword of damocles. Due to vehement protests, GX decided to spare the worm. What we did next was utterly stupid. We transported the maggot to another spot under a nice tree. Well, needless to say, the defenceless maggot became bird food. After we joined in the fray, things proceeded much faster :), thanks to mindless hoeing. At 5, everything was finished. We took a step back and admired our job. I can't decide which looks better. Before Hurricane 1SB2 got to it, or after. Before, it was one soothing patch of green. After, it was an accurate representitive of a wasteland, dotted with some shrubs left standing after the Hurricane uprooted anything green and isn't above ankle height. Brown patches of soil stood out. At least they can plant new stuffs now.
After our backbreaking labour, we went to adam road food court or sth like that to eat. There is this famous Nasi Lemak store there that glenn n lionel kept raving about. However, being a food critic, I was skeptical. I ordered what they had and bit into the food that was supposedly so good the Sultan came to eat it. My conclusion is that it was ordinary. Not disgusting or inedible but certainly not fantastic. Definitely not worth my travel time to eat it. On a side note, I preferred the Starfruit juice that I ordered. After having our dinner, we went to island dreaming I think to eat ice cream. Most of my classmates were crazy about the chocolate and were trying to snatch it, I on the other hand found pleasure in the teh tarik flavour haha. I felt it was much more soothing to the tongue and didnt taste as thick. After eating we settled down for a bit of photo taking and some games. Lionel and glenn played DJMax2 while the rest of us played Bluff. I won of course, being a natural conman.
Thus end our class CIP day. Next week we're expected back at the children's home, though I'm unsure what we're going to do. No more weeding I hope, and they probably hope no more weeding too haha.
Well, then, I shall start with the class CIP. Basically, we went to this children's home, which looks like a rich children's home. Plus, it was situated in prime area. Wooo... Ok, so our jobs? Nope, nothing to do with the children (irony right?), instead, we were to WEED their garden. Woah. Sweet. Well, we were split into 2 groups, one in charge of the entrance, the other the vegetable plot. Hehe, me glenn gx lionel jonathan and tian ge were the vege plot ppl. Tiange left us half-way, so we had to make do with 5 ppl. But Tiange left a legacy. More on that later. Suffice to say, digging holes in the soil with spades to remove the weed roots was fun. For 30-45 minutes maybe. After that, it gets repetitive. Dig, Pull, Toss, Rinse and Repeat. There is some weird satisfaction derived when we see the vegetable plot barren. Yes, after removing the weeds, it becomes barren. However, there is also some (understatement) irritation when we realised we could not eliminate ALL the weeds, they were NEVERENDING! Now, back to the legacy Tian Ge left us. It was............ Drum roll....... A hoe. Not mrs hoe or her 2 gymnast sons. But a gardening hoe. So, what's a hoe used for you may ask. Well, its a WEAPON OF MASS DESTRUCTION MWAHAHAHAHA. to weeds that is. Gardening 101, if you get pissed with green stuffs, destroy them by smashing them and tossing the soil and basically rip them to shreds. Now, that is the hoe's job. Private Glenn was charged with carrying the Big Daddy of all spades, the massive what, 5-10 kilos hoe? Well, what happened next was gory. Down went the hoe into the soil. A clean cut. No devastation yet, save for the weeds that happened to be in the way. Like how crocodiles do the death roll, well not rly a roll in this case, more like a drag or pull. Whatever. After getting the hoe into the soil, the next step was to haul it towards yourself, pulling up any weeds and stones and what have you. Then, we bent down and cleared the corpses of the weeds. It was fun doing this, but after awhile, it got boring again. SO, we got abit slacky. We just hoed the ground, flipped the soil, and buried the weeds. Neat. And so our vege plot was WEEDED.
Hehe, now we proceed to the entrance. Here's where the mass destruction begins. We weren't briefed on what to remove, and what not to. Sooooo, we were a couple of greenhorns. That isn't so bad, not until you see one greenhorn, private glenn, with the Weapon of Mass Destruction aka the Hoe. LET ER RIP!!!! well, not exactly, we were pretty docile at first, inspecting the battlefield and what the others had wrought. Our astute analysis was that things were proceeding too slowly. Hence, we got down to work in Operation "Anything that is green is gone". Our first mistake, we destroyed one shrub with flowers. I would have to claim responsibility on that, since I was the one who suggested pulling the whole thing out. But, I didn't see the flowers. The flowers were like what, 2 mm in diameter? Besides, that shrub was bear. The first casualty in the war. soooo, the girls made alot of noise about us pulling out that shrub, so we just stuck to pulling out miserable weeds. And grass. Den, one of them complained that a tree was irritating her because it stuck out like a sore thumb and keeps poking her. I took a look at that tree, and once again, deduced the tree was dead. How I know? THere weren't any leaves and the branch was grey. So, we pulled it out, root and all. We pulled.... and pulled... and pulled.. and pulled... and pulled... AND finally the roots all came out. It was SOOOO LONG!!! And it coiled up like a spring. Once again, the girls made alot of noise and insisted it was living. Amazing. So now we are "traumatised" by our insensitive destruction, so we headed for greener pastures. Time to WRECK HAVOC!! Again, the hoe does its job perfectly, destroying everything there, even a maggot. Not exactly, but glenn nearly cleaved the maggot into 2. He did dent it of course. Which is weird, since the maggot isnt made of metal so how can it get dented? Well, it sure looked dented, its body was like seperated into 2 halves with a depression in the middle, and it looked like it was squirming. Everyone gathered round. GX suggested euthanasia, putting it out of its misery. And so he held the spade above the maggot like the sword of damocles. Due to vehement protests, GX decided to spare the worm. What we did next was utterly stupid. We transported the maggot to another spot under a nice tree. Well, needless to say, the defenceless maggot became bird food. After we joined in the fray, things proceeded much faster :), thanks to mindless hoeing. At 5, everything was finished. We took a step back and admired our job. I can't decide which looks better. Before Hurricane 1SB2 got to it, or after. Before, it was one soothing patch of green. After, it was an accurate representitive of a wasteland, dotted with some shrubs left standing after the Hurricane uprooted anything green and isn't above ankle height. Brown patches of soil stood out. At least they can plant new stuffs now.
After our backbreaking labour, we went to adam road food court or sth like that to eat. There is this famous Nasi Lemak store there that glenn n lionel kept raving about. However, being a food critic, I was skeptical. I ordered what they had and bit into the food that was supposedly so good the Sultan came to eat it. My conclusion is that it was ordinary. Not disgusting or inedible but certainly not fantastic. Definitely not worth my travel time to eat it. On a side note, I preferred the Starfruit juice that I ordered. After having our dinner, we went to island dreaming I think to eat ice cream. Most of my classmates were crazy about the chocolate and were trying to snatch it, I on the other hand found pleasure in the teh tarik flavour haha. I felt it was much more soothing to the tongue and didnt taste as thick. After eating we settled down for a bit of photo taking and some games. Lionel and glenn played DJMax2 while the rest of us played Bluff. I won of course, being a natural conman.
Thus end our class CIP day. Next week we're expected back at the children's home, though I'm unsure what we're going to do. No more weeding I hope, and they probably hope no more weeding too haha.
Gone with the sands of time like
Roses withering in the winter
And the passing of Earth's fair creatures.
Crazy though it may seem
Especially if you pause to think
Why would a confession be so blatant
And naked for all eyes to see?
Nay, confessions are private and meant for
God's ears alone and no other so
Hither-to I shall stop
Unless my hand bid me not?
Insanity, I should think for
Much like the waves words can't be stopped
Irrational though it may be,
Not if you open your eyes and see for
Much a tale unfolds before thee
Yet most are too blind to notice,
Or hear nor decipher.
Nevertheless things are obvious
Lest thee still can't see over
Yonder words and incoherent sentences the meaning
Lashing out like a devil's whip?
O' me, O' humanity
View poisoned by lies and
Erroneous judgement.
Roses withering in the winter
And the passing of Earth's fair creatures.
Crazy though it may seem
Especially if you pause to think
Why would a confession be so blatant
And naked for all eyes to see?
Nay, confessions are private and meant for
God's ears alone and no other so
Hither-to I shall stop
Unless my hand bid me not?
Insanity, I should think for
Much like the waves words can't be stopped
Irrational though it may be,
Not if you open your eyes and see for
Much a tale unfolds before thee
Yet most are too blind to notice,
Or hear nor decipher.
Nevertheless things are obvious
Lest thee still can't see over
Yonder words and incoherent sentences the meaning
Lashing out like a devil's whip?
O' me, O' humanity
View poisoned by lies and
Erroneous judgement.
She's always on my mind, from the time I wake up til I close my eyes. Though she's so far away, it just keeps getting stronger, everyday, and even now she's gone, I'm still holding on... So tell me where do I start, cause its breaking my heart. Don't wanna let her go...
My friends keep telling me, that if you really love her, you've gotta set her free. And if she returns in kind, I'll know she's mine. But tell me where do I start, cause its breaking my heart. Don't wanna let her go.
Why I live in despair? Wide awake or dreaming I know she's never there. And all the time I act so brave I'm shaking inside. Why does it hurt me so..?
Maybe my love will come back someday... Only Heaven knows...
Only Heaven knows..............................
Sigh, another bout of EMO-NESS is back.... Rite.. During my MYE somemore...
Thought of 2 lame quotes.
1) When the going gets tough, the smart steps aside and let the idiots do the work.
2) Intelligence is not the capacity to do things, rather, it is the capacity to NOT do things and get credit for it.
And... A new species of dinosaur has been found. It's called the Muggersaurus Hex, from the same family as the most well-known dinosaur ever, Tyrannosaurus Rex. This dinosaur is the first organism to wear glasses, and is said to be the smartest dinosaur that ever walked this earth. The Muggersaurus is not a herbivore, omnivore, or a carnivore. It is the most peculiar organism discovered. It eats books to maintain it's vital processes. A term for book-eating has not been coined, but I guess its called a bookivore? or maybe paperivore? Well then, a goat would most certainly belong in it too! Anyways, the Muggersaurus is also the first species of animals to be able to speak. Yes SPEAK! They can TALK to each other and actually plans what they would do. The Muggersaurus is a peaceful dinosaur, unlike the Tyrannosaurus, although they are both from the same family. However, the Muggersaurus becomes aggressive when it feels threatened. However, it is not threatened in the sense we think. Instead, it feels threatened when there is ignorance. When it asks a question and another muggersaurus can't answer, a fight would break out among them. And the fight isnt pretty. THey hurl facts at each other and try to outsmart each other! One fight can last a couple of hours! The mating ceremony is even better. During the mating season, males would compete against each other for females. The method? You guessed it, its a tri-book-a-thon. They first compete in intelligence, same way they handle a fight. Next, they would compete speed reading. They were to read 10 books in the shortest amount of time and must answer questions pertaining to the books correctly. Lastly, they would have a debate, the winner would be decided by the female. This method of choosing a mate is tedious and can take up to 6 months! It's no wonder that this species do not thrive at all. In fact, scientists speculate that they have harder time breeding than a panda! Now, after FINALLY choosing a mate, they would, of course, mate! And, well, humans get each other aroused by kissing, stripping, wearing sexy clothes, whatever. The muggersaurus is totally different! They would spend days, or even weeks just reading and reading until they get aroused. Then, they would mate. Muggersaurus are born with glasses and they can read the moment they are born. In fact, the parents never needs to look after the young, they are completely independent. What puzzles scientists most now, is that how did this species of dinosaur came about? And if there is such a highly intelligent species before humans, are there any more unknown animals with high intelligence quotient that we still do not know of? With the advent of this new dinosaur, a new theory of the Great Extinction has surfaced. Could the muggersaurus be so smart that they developed nuclear technology and start of a war that led to the deaths of the entire dinosaur race? Or maybe something more advanced than nuclear technology, something more sinister, like the ability to create black holes. We may never know how far the muggersaurus got.
My friends keep telling me, that if you really love her, you've gotta set her free. And if she returns in kind, I'll know she's mine. But tell me where do I start, cause its breaking my heart. Don't wanna let her go.
Why I live in despair? Wide awake or dreaming I know she's never there. And all the time I act so brave I'm shaking inside. Why does it hurt me so..?
Maybe my love will come back someday... Only Heaven knows...
Only Heaven knows..............................
Sigh, another bout of EMO-NESS is back.... Rite.. During my MYE somemore...
Thought of 2 lame quotes.
1) When the going gets tough, the smart steps aside and let the idiots do the work.
2) Intelligence is not the capacity to do things, rather, it is the capacity to NOT do things and get credit for it.
And... A new species of dinosaur has been found. It's called the Muggersaurus Hex, from the same family as the most well-known dinosaur ever, Tyrannosaurus Rex. This dinosaur is the first organism to wear glasses, and is said to be the smartest dinosaur that ever walked this earth. The Muggersaurus is not a herbivore, omnivore, or a carnivore. It is the most peculiar organism discovered. It eats books to maintain it's vital processes. A term for book-eating has not been coined, but I guess its called a bookivore? or maybe paperivore? Well then, a goat would most certainly belong in it too! Anyways, the Muggersaurus is also the first species of animals to be able to speak. Yes SPEAK! They can TALK to each other and actually plans what they would do. The Muggersaurus is a peaceful dinosaur, unlike the Tyrannosaurus, although they are both from the same family. However, the Muggersaurus becomes aggressive when it feels threatened. However, it is not threatened in the sense we think. Instead, it feels threatened when there is ignorance. When it asks a question and another muggersaurus can't answer, a fight would break out among them. And the fight isnt pretty. THey hurl facts at each other and try to outsmart each other! One fight can last a couple of hours! The mating ceremony is even better. During the mating season, males would compete against each other for females. The method? You guessed it, its a tri-book-a-thon. They first compete in intelligence, same way they handle a fight. Next, they would compete speed reading. They were to read 10 books in the shortest amount of time and must answer questions pertaining to the books correctly. Lastly, they would have a debate, the winner would be decided by the female. This method of choosing a mate is tedious and can take up to 6 months! It's no wonder that this species do not thrive at all. In fact, scientists speculate that they have harder time breeding than a panda! Now, after FINALLY choosing a mate, they would, of course, mate! And, well, humans get each other aroused by kissing, stripping, wearing sexy clothes, whatever. The muggersaurus is totally different! They would spend days, or even weeks just reading and reading until they get aroused. Then, they would mate. Muggersaurus are born with glasses and they can read the moment they are born. In fact, the parents never needs to look after the young, they are completely independent. What puzzles scientists most now, is that how did this species of dinosaur came about? And if there is such a highly intelligent species before humans, are there any more unknown animals with high intelligence quotient that we still do not know of? With the advent of this new dinosaur, a new theory of the Great Extinction has surfaced. Could the muggersaurus be so smart that they developed nuclear technology and start of a war that led to the deaths of the entire dinosaur race? Or maybe something more advanced than nuclear technology, something more sinister, like the ability to create black holes. We may never know how far the muggersaurus got.
2)
今天终于开始读书，准备即将来临的考试。早上一起床，我先玩电脑游戏，接着便开始温习功课。我勤奋地读书，从十二点到四点。由于觉得闷了，我和我的妹妹编导游泳池游几圈。我现在非常担心我能够在考试中考到好成绩吗。我现在已经在加拿大，这里的麦当劳的食物非常便宜，分量又大。这里四处都是高山，山顶都有雪，景色非常美丽。旅店的床也非常舒服，我躺下就想睡。后天我就要上路了，爸爸要带我们到 "Whistler" 去滑雪。
最近我一直有点赛鼻，使我觉得不舒服，吃了药也没有效果。最近我也常常到 www.ign.com 读那里的文章。今年即将出很多电脑游戏，而且都看起来非常好玩。我认为自己非常贪心，因为我想买全部。今年是高中一，不能随随便便对待功课，所以我不能疯狂地玩，真扫兴。我正在劝我的父母移民到美国，因为我比较喜欢美国。这里能滑雪，有四季，地方也非常美丽。而且这里的屋子大，价钱也便宜，车也很便宜，生活费也不比新加坡贵。我也要在这里读大学，希望能进 Stanford University 或 Princeton University。如果我想进这些大学，我就要非常用功。想了就头痛。
Another thing that drives me crazy is TYPING CHINESE!!! Gosh, its irritating. ANyways, nothing much happened, besides me starting my Mid-year revision. Ate at Olive Garden today for dinner. Man, the waitress serving my family was BEAUTIFUL! She's also very cheerful and friendly, haha, chatted abit. My mom was like "wanna take photo with her?" Woah, then must tip more haha. But we did not in the end, would be kind of weird.
Heading up to whistler soon, where I can finally start skiing. Tomorrow is another study day. Sad. Feel like watching GHost Rider on TV. ANyway, I so miss her. Ok, i have no idea what to post. Oh, I am currently working on persuading my dad to emmigrate to the US.
今天终于开始读书，准备即将来临的考试。早上一起床，我先玩电脑游戏，接着便开始温习功课。我勤奋地读书，从十二点到四点。由于觉得闷了，我和我的妹妹编导游泳池游几圈。我现在非常担心我能够在考试中考到好成绩吗。我现在已经在加拿大，这里的麦当劳的食物非常便宜，分量又大。这里四处都是高山，山顶都有雪，景色非常美丽。旅店的床也非常舒服，我躺下就想睡。后天我就要上路了，爸爸要带我们到 "Whistler" 去滑雪。
最近我一直有点赛鼻，使我觉得不舒服，吃了药也没有效果。最近我也常常到 www.ign.com 读那里的文章。今年即将出很多电脑游戏，而且都看起来非常好玩。我认为自己非常贪心，因为我想买全部。今年是高中一，不能随随便便对待功课，所以我不能疯狂地玩，真扫兴。我正在劝我的父母移民到美国，因为我比较喜欢美国。这里能滑雪，有四季，地方也非常美丽。而且这里的屋子大，价钱也便宜，车也很便宜，生活费也不比新加坡贵。我也要在这里读大学，希望能进 Stanford University 或 Princeton University。如果我想进这些大学，我就要非常用功。想了就头痛。
Another thing that drives me crazy is TYPING CHINESE!!! Gosh, its irritating. ANyways, nothing much happened, besides me starting my Mid-year revision. Ate at Olive Garden today for dinner. Man, the waitress serving my family was BEAUTIFUL! She's also very cheerful and friendly, haha, chatted abit. My mom was like "wanna take photo with her?" Woah, then must tip more haha. But we did not in the end, would be kind of weird.
Heading up to whistler soon, where I can finally start skiing. Tomorrow is another study day. Sad. Feel like watching GHost Rider on TV. ANyway, I so miss her. Ok, i have no idea what to post. Oh, I am currently working on persuading my dad to emmigrate to the US.
Finally gonna start on my chi assignment. Ok, for those of you who want to be spared the torture of reading chinese, skip to the bottom for the english version. Photoes will be in the EL version too.
1)
我到美国已经有十天了。我去的第一个地方就是夏威夷。那里的气候和新加坡很相像。唯一不同的就是那里风吹很凉，又靠近海，所以比新加坡好多了。但我也很不幸，因为第一天就生病了。结果我不能出门，呆在旅馆里。第二天我觉得好一点，便到海边看海浪。夏威夷的海浪非常猛，不小心就会被它冲进海里。在海边玩够后，爸爸便带我们到市区里，因为他必须参加一个研讨会。我在市区带了三天，在那三天里，每天不是买东西就是吃东西。在夏威夷的最后的晚上，爸爸的同事请我们到日本餐厅吃晚餐。那个餐厅的食物很好吃，而且是自助晚餐。
现在我不喜欢搭飞机，尤其是晚班飞机，因为虽然我会觉得累，但却不能睡。我现在了解为什么医生说感冒就最好不要搭飞机。我感冒是搭飞机，结果当它降落时，我的头感到很痛，仿佛被铁锤打到。现在我正在西雅图。我到了"Mount Rainier", 它是个非常高的山，山顶有雪，非常美丽。在那儿有野生动物园，我们能搭车进去，看那些动物在他们的自然环境里生活。
明天我就要上路了，爸爸要带我们到加拿大，到了那儿，我便能滑雪！我心里非常兴奋，很期待去滑雪。滑下山的感觉非常刺激，因此我被它息影住了。今天就写到这里。
Wow, that was TORTUROUS. Ok, finally the EL version..
Firstly, I was taking the Northwest airline, NO SIA *sob sob*. We flew to Tokyo's Narita airport first. It took approximately 7 hours. It was HORRIBLE. I stayed up the previous night until 2 AM before turning in and waking up at 3 AM. THe flight was at 6 AM. Ok, I have a problem sleeping on the plane, and that whole 7 hours I wasn't able to sleep and suffering the whole flight. Ah well, to ease the suffering, I decided to watch some movies. I watched Romeo & Juliet. It's a modern remake of Shakespeare's tragedy. It's absolutely fantastic and funny because although it is in modern time, the dialogue is kept as shakespeare wrote it. Then, transit at Narita airport, 6 HOURS!!! DotZ...
That's me SLEEPING at the Narita airport.
Woo, the waves. They were more than 1.6M high. How I know? It was taller than my sister.
We were being childish by playing catching with the waves.
Just for you to imagine the height of the waves. And this was taken another day, where the waves were calmer, but they still make east coast waves look lame. W8, it already IS lame without comparing. Ha.
Ate at this Jap restaurant in Honolulu. If you ever come to Honolulu, you gotta try this restaurant. The food is GREAT.
After Hawaii we flew to Seattle on Northwest airline again. Once again, another terrible plane ride bcos it is at night. Nxt day went to this safari. We took a tram ride through it, and got real close to the animals, though we were seperated bcos of the tram.
Haha, this bison is trying to lick its butt.
These are male elks, and their horns are REALLY HuGE! And heavy, it can weigh more than 200 pounds.
This poor big horn sheep knocked off one of its horn.
Lala, going Whistler tmr, where I can go skiing. WOOHOO!!!! Feeling rly excited now.
1)
我到美国已经有十天了。我去的第一个地方就是夏威夷。那里的气候和新加坡很相像。唯一不同的就是那里风吹很凉，又靠近海，所以比新加坡好多了。但我也很不幸，因为第一天就生病了。结果我不能出门，呆在旅馆里。第二天我觉得好一点，便到海边看海浪。夏威夷的海浪非常猛，不小心就会被它冲进海里。在海边玩够后，爸爸便带我们到市区里，因为他必须参加一个研讨会。我在市区带了三天，在那三天里，每天不是买东西就是吃东西。在夏威夷的最后的晚上，爸爸的同事请我们到日本餐厅吃晚餐。那个餐厅的食物很好吃，而且是自助晚餐。
现在我不喜欢搭飞机，尤其是晚班飞机，因为虽然我会觉得累，但却不能睡。我现在了解为什么医生说感冒就最好不要搭飞机。我感冒是搭飞机，结果当它降落时，我的头感到很痛，仿佛被铁锤打到。现在我正在西雅图。我到了"Mount Rainier", 它是个非常高的山，山顶有雪，非常美丽。在那儿有野生动物园，我们能搭车进去，看那些动物在他们的自然环境里生活。
明天我就要上路了，爸爸要带我们到加拿大，到了那儿，我便能滑雪！我心里非常兴奋，很期待去滑雪。滑下山的感觉非常刺激，因此我被它息影住了。今天就写到这里。
Wow, that was TORTUROUS. Ok, finally the EL version..
Firstly, I was taking the Northwest airline, NO SIA *sob sob*. We flew to Tokyo's Narita airport first. It took approximately 7 hours. It was HORRIBLE. I stayed up the previous night until 2 AM before turning in and waking up at 3 AM. THe flight was at 6 AM. Ok, I have a problem sleeping on the plane, and that whole 7 hours I wasn't able to sleep and suffering the whole flight. Ah well, to ease the suffering, I decided to watch some movies. I watched Romeo & Juliet. It's a modern remake of Shakespeare's tragedy. It's absolutely fantastic and funny because although it is in modern time, the dialogue is kept as shakespeare wrote it. Then, transit at Narita airport, 6 HOURS!!! DotZ...
That's me SLEEPING at the Narita airport.
Woo, the waves. They were more than 1.6M high. How I know? It was taller than my sister.
We were being childish by playing catching with the waves.
Just for you to imagine the height of the waves. And this was taken another day, where the waves were calmer, but they still make east coast waves look lame. W8, it already IS lame without comparing. Ha.
Ate at this Jap restaurant in Honolulu. If you ever come to Honolulu, you gotta try this restaurant. The food is GREAT.
After Hawaii we flew to Seattle on Northwest airline again. Once again, another terrible plane ride bcos it is at night. Nxt day went to this safari. We took a tram ride through it, and got real close to the animals, though we were seperated bcos of the tram.
Haha, this bison is trying to lick its butt.
These are male elks, and their horns are REALLY HuGE! And heavy, it can weigh more than 200 pounds.
This poor big horn sheep knocked off one of its horn.
Lala, going Whistler tmr, where I can go skiing. WOOHOO!!!! Feeling rly excited now.
Saw what dex n TY wrote in their blogs abt the sorting hat. Ok, I shall do one too ;).
GLenn- He would be in...... JELAPANG!! Why? Cos his house there wad..
WP- He would be in..... JELAPANG TOO!! Same reason
Dex- BANGKIT!!! Cos.. Haha, you know why..
TY- YEWTEEAN!!! XD XD... Ok, SAME REASON MUHAHAHA..
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The list goes on. See, mine more interesting :).
Okok, now seriously I shall sort them.
(P.S. I am using a "sorting hat". DRAW LOTS HAHA! Cause I dono wad each house suppose to be). Unless otherwise specified, the reasons I sort ppl are below. And also, you can sort ppl urself too!
Breakdown of houses:
Gryffindor: For ppl wif names that start with "G" or winners, unless I dun feel like putting them there muhaha (This rule applies for all houses)
SLytherin: FOr ppl wif names that start with "S" or are EVIL.
Hufflepuff: FOr ppl wif names that start with "H" or are LOSERS. Wanna know why? Cause they ALWAYS lose the housecup.
Ravenclaw: For ppl wif names that start with "R" or are not in the other 3 houses or are related to Cedric Diggory.
Glenn: Gryffindor (Winner house man)
WWP: Hufflepuff (NAH NAH, I dun wanna put u in slytherin XD)
Dex: Slytherin (For putting me in hufflepuff, pfft)
TY: Slytherin (Rly evil stuffs he say)
WZ: Slytherin (SO he can be wif TY and dex, i so nice rite?)
Lionel: Ravenclaw (Er, I have no idea why..)
GX: Ravenclaw (Cause he and lionel are so chummy)
No fun just sorting guys rite? I shall sort girls too! OH CRAP, WP is under guys XD.
Grace Y.: Gryffindor (Yep, name starts with G.)
Grace W.: Gryffindor (lalala)
Sandy: Slytherin
Siewling: Slytherin
Jolene: Ravenclaw
Michele C.: Hufflepuff (I shall be nice to WP XD...)
Ok, I'm bored of sorting. The only houses that ppl shud be sorted into are Nuthouses. And the cleaner just came to clean the room so I nneed to go out..
P.S. Photoes coming soon as soon as I hijack my father's computer... ANd no, i wasn't camwhoring, i'm just flashing at mother nature HAHA!!! get it? FLASHING? XD XD. Man, I wanna surf..... be a surfer dude...
GLenn- He would be in...... JELAPANG!! Why? Cos his house there wad..
WP- He would be in..... JELAPANG TOO!! Same reason
Dex- BANGKIT!!! Cos.. Haha, you know why..
TY- YEWTEEAN!!! XD XD... Ok, SAME REASON MUHAHAHA..
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The list goes on. See, mine more interesting :).
Okok, now seriously I shall sort them.
(P.S. I am using a "sorting hat". DRAW LOTS HAHA! Cause I dono wad each house suppose to be). Unless otherwise specified, the reasons I sort ppl are below. And also, you can sort ppl urself too!
Breakdown of houses:
Gryffindor: For ppl wif names that start with "G" or winners, unless I dun feel like putting them there muhaha (This rule applies for all houses)
SLytherin: FOr ppl wif names that start with "S" or are EVIL.
Hufflepuff: FOr ppl wif names that start with "H" or are LOSERS. Wanna know why? Cause they ALWAYS lose the housecup.
Ravenclaw: For ppl wif names that start with "R" or are not in the other 3 houses or are related to Cedric Diggory.
Glenn: Gryffindor (Winner house man)
WWP: Hufflepuff (NAH NAH, I dun wanna put u in slytherin XD)
Dex: Slytherin (For putting me in hufflepuff, pfft)
TY: Slytherin (Rly evil stuffs he say)
WZ: Slytherin (SO he can be wif TY and dex, i so nice rite?)
Lionel: Ravenclaw (Er, I have no idea why..)
GX: Ravenclaw (Cause he and lionel are so chummy)
No fun just sorting guys rite? I shall sort girls too! OH CRAP, WP is under guys XD.
Grace Y.: Gryffindor (Yep, name starts with G.)
Grace W.: Gryffindor (lalala)
Sandy: Slytherin
Siewling: Slytherin
Jolene: Ravenclaw
Michele C.: Hufflepuff (I shall be nice to WP XD...)
Ok, I'm bored of sorting. The only houses that ppl shud be sorted into are Nuthouses. And the cleaner just came to clean the room so I nneed to go out..
P.S. Photoes coming soon as soon as I hijack my father's computer... ANd no, i wasn't camwhoring, i'm just flashing at mother nature HAHA!!! get it? FLASHING? XD XD. Man, I wanna surf..... be a surfer dude...
Wow, it's so unlike me to not post for so long.
Am I mean? Am I heartless? I should be, since she stole my heart.
Had an argument with my neighbour yesterday. My sis and I were going over to inform him that keeping 3 rabbits in a small cage is inhumane and its animal cruelty. Well, as expected, he went on a defense and kept trying to save face. He said something that pissed me off. "They are just animals, you cannot compare them with humans!" Lets just say that if my sister had not restrained me he would end up crying as he lose an argument with someone 3 times younger than him. Anyway, I was in a murderous mood after that yesterday. It's ppl like this that kira should kill. I wish I have absolute power and can kill people like him. That encounter affirms my belief that humans are incorrigible. They are one dastardly race that stops at nothing short of destruction. I hope when I grow up, I'll not be one with this nonsensical society full of bullshit. Anyways, I wanna take criminal psychology nxt time, so I can turn humans on each other. Sounds like fun isn't it? Make others do your dirty work.
Don't think it helps that she keeps getting more and more beautiful the more I look at her. Maybe what my teacher say is correct. Females become beauties when they reach 18 years old. Is there really such a magical change?
Last thursday went to watch Phantom of the Opera. It's a rly great musical, and I am totally amazed at the vocals. Haha, went there with my 2 cousins and sister. I pity the phantom. All he wants is to be loved, and others have rejected him and treated him as a freak since young.
Sigh, I dono wad to post...
Am I mean? Am I heartless? I should be, since she stole my heart.
Had an argument with my neighbour yesterday. My sis and I were going over to inform him that keeping 3 rabbits in a small cage is inhumane and its animal cruelty. Well, as expected, he went on a defense and kept trying to save face. He said something that pissed me off. "They are just animals, you cannot compare them with humans!" Lets just say that if my sister had not restrained me he would end up crying as he lose an argument with someone 3 times younger than him. Anyway, I was in a murderous mood after that yesterday. It's ppl like this that kira should kill. I wish I have absolute power and can kill people like him. That encounter affirms my belief that humans are incorrigible. They are one dastardly race that stops at nothing short of destruction. I hope when I grow up, I'll not be one with this nonsensical society full of bullshit. Anyways, I wanna take criminal psychology nxt time, so I can turn humans on each other. Sounds like fun isn't it? Make others do your dirty work.
Don't think it helps that she keeps getting more and more beautiful the more I look at her. Maybe what my teacher say is correct. Females become beauties when they reach 18 years old. Is there really such a magical change?
Last thursday went to watch Phantom of the Opera. It's a rly great musical, and I am totally amazed at the vocals. Haha, went there with my 2 cousins and sister. I pity the phantom. All he wants is to be loved, and others have rejected him and treated him as a freak since young.
Sigh, I dono wad to post...
Ok, blogger coding for posts are screwed... It feels so weird to be typing in this white box now..
"If you lose a moment, you might lose alot" I totally agree wif that quote..
School is quite hectic now, and yet, I feel I'm the only one not participating in all the buzz. All the SYFs bla bla bla, homework, tutorials, studies, Rock AC, Passion AC, bla bla bla, and I'm not at all enthralled by all this hype.
Anyway, I feel I'm very misunderstood.. Why? Hmm.. Lets just leave it at my pw group had its first conflict. And I unwillingly caused it, though the person who started arguing wasn't me, and I was even-tempered throughout (Sth amazing!). Normally I wld have been rly pissed, but Glenn was saying some rly silly stuffs in another conversation, so I cldnt get pissed.
Thought of sth evil to do during lecture. Next time I see anyone beside me crossing their legs, I would give the area beneath their kneecaps a sharp tap, and sit back and watch the drama unfold. HAHAHAHA!!!
I'm so not myself lately.. i dono wad to post, nowadays totally no drive to post.. I've begun reading the children's bible that has sat on my bookshelf for so long.. Reached the New Testament already. Kk, dono wad else to post.. Think I'll try to write a song soon..
"If you lose a moment, you might lose alot" I totally agree wif that quote..
School is quite hectic now, and yet, I feel I'm the only one not participating in all the buzz. All the SYFs bla bla bla, homework, tutorials, studies, Rock AC, Passion AC, bla bla bla, and I'm not at all enthralled by all this hype.
Anyway, I feel I'm very misunderstood.. Why? Hmm.. Lets just leave it at my pw group had its first conflict. And I unwillingly caused it, though the person who started arguing wasn't me, and I was even-tempered throughout (Sth amazing!). Normally I wld have been rly pissed, but Glenn was saying some rly silly stuffs in another conversation, so I cldnt get pissed.
Thought of sth evil to do during lecture. Next time I see anyone beside me crossing their legs, I would give the area beneath their kneecaps a sharp tap, and sit back and watch the drama unfold. HAHAHAHA!!!
I'm so not myself lately.. i dono wad to post, nowadays totally no drive to post.. I've begun reading the children's bible that has sat on my bookshelf for so long.. Reached the New Testament already. Kk, dono wad else to post.. Think I'll try to write a song soon..
Sigh, TY ask me to post so I post, but I rly nth to post leh, how how??
Ok, lemme just start slowly. First up, PW. Errr, well, my group is fast and has ALMOST finished the GPP. Guess who contributed the ALMOST? If you guessed me, den u just won $1 mil!!!! Haha, typical bpian slacker :). Ahh Stresss!!! Nxt WK got chem test and the week after Phy and the following wk Maths! NO!!! not to forget my Independent study for GP is due wk 9 and Phy one is dono when.
I wish the pace of life can slow down..
Well, now I can talk abt Sports Day I guessed. I can summarize it into a word, time-wasting. Well, not entirely, I ended up doing my chem summary and talking. Eh, n those ppl wif competitions coming up can pon Sports Day, so unfair. I mean, even SGC can pon.. OH WOW! Ah, now the good thing abt Sports Day, FREE MILO!!!!
Ok, since I have nth much else to post abt, I shall make this post longer by telling you ppl who read my blog who glenn likes. The person glenn likes, is, according to him, "Smart, witty, Unfallable, and angelic." That person is......... Glenn himself! HAHAHAHAHA! Of course he wun tell me who he likes laa, only hints here n there... And hints also not say hints.. Bleah, nvm, I dun care.
See, I just made this post 1 paragraph longer. Kk, Maybe I shall post EMO stuffs, cos lidat can lengthen it somemore. Or not.
Now i realise its bad to post just cos ppl ask u to post. Cos u rly have no content. "Even the best fall down sometimes." Anyways, I think I'm changing my blogsong soon. Oh, and Guild Wars 2 is coming out. GW2 :):). *winks* *grins*. So who wanna play it tgt wif me? Perhaps Derek? Oh ya, Derek, you say you would consider Guild Wars :):). Since its FREE online play.
After watching Monster, I'm pretty convinced everyone has dual personalities. One is your standard one while the other is a MONSTER. And ya, if you seen my nick, the monster within me is a flirt. It's starting to come out more and more regularly and I just feel so disgusted with myself. Back when I was in BP it wasn't that bad, but now.. Sigh.. I think I rly need to cause hurt to myself each time I sense the monster emerging. Not that I'm masochistic or anything, but it's rly freaking me out.
WP and I discussed last wk that we should go back to BP during some special day like Teachers day and we should perform for the school. Sounds alot like fun but sounds rly scary too.
I'm living in paranoia.
I rly need the long June break now. At least I have sth to look forward to, a nice trip to Hawaii, then to Seattle Silicon Valley, then off to Vancouver, before coming back to Singapore. BUt bcos of the BLASTED term exams I must bring school work over to study. Sigh.. 4 Wks holiday is still the best though ha. I wonder if like 20 years frm now and I read this blog what kind of feeling would I get. Nostalgia? Grief? Or just like some stranger looking into a house. Who knows. Just as how one will never know when one might meet his/her only one. Also, you will never know whether that person will accept/reject you. You also wun know if that person you met is the right one, you may have guessed wrongly. I'm not saying this cos I've gotten over her or I have another target in mind. In fact, I still do not have another target (and when ur in AC that's rly a problem). Something I look forward in my JC days is to see Glenn stead wif someone. Haha, it would indeed be surprising (no offense), and though it would mean he would be always away frm me (Ok, that sounds gay), but I dun rly care. It would just be nice to have someone around me who SUCCEEDS. Bleah, I bet I would be SUPER KAY-POH. haha. Hmm, esp if that someone wld be *Ahem ahem* (Haha, Glenn knows wad was censored). Lol, rly looking forward to that day loh, hahaha. Den again, I'm also rly afraid of the day where the BPian gang of 1SB2 all got steads and I'm the only one left out. Then it's back to my anti-social days.... Then again, I will never know when the monster would permanently take over me, but if I manage to force it back into the abyss I would be anti-social again. I bet when I got my ISC in the DISC test my other personality was dominant. And this makes me wonder, is my current personality gay? And yet it balances out cos the other one is much more interested in girls? So would it mean if I banish my other personality I would bcome gay? It's like co-dominance. Pfft, I dun wanna think so much. Anyway, grace yeoh has this test which I saw on my friendster. I did it without writing it down but I'm roughly 30% guy and 10% girl. The remainding 60% is sexless I presume? Lol.
When ppl say "Lol" do they mean it? It's so spammed that it seems like an expression of uneasiness. Sometimes I rly detest using "Lol", but everytime I feel uneasy I end up typing it instinctively. Ok, I rly can't think anymore, I need rest, lotsa rest. Not bad, I managed to write sufficient length.
Ok, lemme just start slowly. First up, PW. Errr, well, my group is fast and has ALMOST finished the GPP. Guess who contributed the ALMOST? If you guessed me, den u just won $1 mil!!!! Haha, typical bpian slacker :). Ahh Stresss!!! Nxt WK got chem test and the week after Phy and the following wk Maths! NO!!! not to forget my Independent study for GP is due wk 9 and Phy one is dono when.
I wish the pace of life can slow down..
Well, now I can talk abt Sports Day I guessed. I can summarize it into a word, time-wasting. Well, not entirely, I ended up doing my chem summary and talking. Eh, n those ppl wif competitions coming up can pon Sports Day, so unfair. I mean, even SGC can pon.. OH WOW! Ah, now the good thing abt Sports Day, FREE MILO!!!!
Ok, since I have nth much else to post abt, I shall make this post longer by telling you ppl who read my blog who glenn likes. The person glenn likes, is, according to him, "Smart, witty, Unfallable, and angelic." That person is......... Glenn himself! HAHAHAHAHA! Of course he wun tell me who he likes laa, only hints here n there... And hints also not say hints.. Bleah, nvm, I dun care.
See, I just made this post 1 paragraph longer. Kk, Maybe I shall post EMO stuffs, cos lidat can lengthen it somemore. Or not.
Now i realise its bad to post just cos ppl ask u to post. Cos u rly have no content. "Even the best fall down sometimes." Anyways, I think I'm changing my blogsong soon. Oh, and Guild Wars 2 is coming out. GW2 :):). *winks* *grins*. So who wanna play it tgt wif me? Perhaps Derek? Oh ya, Derek, you say you would consider Guild Wars :):). Since its FREE online play.
After watching Monster, I'm pretty convinced everyone has dual personalities. One is your standard one while the other is a MONSTER. And ya, if you seen my nick, the monster within me is a flirt. It's starting to come out more and more regularly and I just feel so disgusted with myself. Back when I was in BP it wasn't that bad, but now.. Sigh.. I think I rly need to cause hurt to myself each time I sense the monster emerging. Not that I'm masochistic or anything, but it's rly freaking me out.
WP and I discussed last wk that we should go back to BP during some special day like Teachers day and we should perform for the school. Sounds alot like fun but sounds rly scary too.
I'm living in paranoia.
I rly need the long June break now. At least I have sth to look forward to, a nice trip to Hawaii, then to Seattle Silicon Valley, then off to Vancouver, before coming back to Singapore. BUt bcos of the BLASTED term exams I must bring school work over to study. Sigh.. 4 Wks holiday is still the best though ha. I wonder if like 20 years frm now and I read this blog what kind of feeling would I get. Nostalgia? Grief? Or just like some stranger looking into a house. Who knows. Just as how one will never know when one might meet his/her only one. Also, you will never know whether that person will accept/reject you. You also wun know if that person you met is the right one, you may have guessed wrongly. I'm not saying this cos I've gotten over her or I have another target in mind. In fact, I still do not have another target (and when ur in AC that's rly a problem). Something I look forward in my JC days is to see Glenn stead wif someone. Haha, it would indeed be surprising (no offense), and though it would mean he would be always away frm me (Ok, that sounds gay), but I dun rly care. It would just be nice to have someone around me who SUCCEEDS. Bleah, I bet I would be SUPER KAY-POH. haha. Hmm, esp if that someone wld be *Ahem ahem* (Haha, Glenn knows wad was censored). Lol, rly looking forward to that day loh, hahaha. Den again, I'm also rly afraid of the day where the BPian gang of 1SB2 all got steads and I'm the only one left out. Then it's back to my anti-social days.... Then again, I will never know when the monster would permanently take over me, but if I manage to force it back into the abyss I would be anti-social again. I bet when I got my ISC in the DISC test my other personality was dominant. And this makes me wonder, is my current personality gay? And yet it balances out cos the other one is much more interested in girls? So would it mean if I banish my other personality I would bcome gay? It's like co-dominance. Pfft, I dun wanna think so much. Anyway, grace yeoh has this test which I saw on my friendster. I did it without writing it down but I'm roughly 30% guy and 10% girl. The remainding 60% is sexless I presume? Lol.
When ppl say "Lol" do they mean it? It's so spammed that it seems like an expression of uneasiness. Sometimes I rly detest using "Lol", but everytime I feel uneasy I end up typing it instinctively. Ok, I rly can't think anymore, I need rest, lotsa rest. Not bad, I managed to write sufficient length.
Just changed my blog song to the OP of Monster.
Noooo! I'm on ep 70!! SADDED!! LEFT 4 more EPS!!! Sigh.. GOod things dun last...
Anyway, I changed it cos it describes the darkness I feel in my heart now.......
Psycho... It's so philosophical... We shud do it for GP, under media and education..
After watching it, I start feeling like reading picture books....
"The Nameless Monster", Emil Scherbe.. Does that bk exist?
Crunch crunch! Munch munch! Gobble gobble! Gulp.
Johann... I wish I can be like him... Johann Liebert...
Obsessed wif that show now.. I like shows like that, makes me think alot.. Tanoshi!!
This post is as disorganized as my mind is now wif moments of blanks cos of the frequent blankouts my mind get.
I'm sry if this post sounds nonsensical, but if u watch that show, then you will get what I am saying.
Remember, there is a monster in all of our hearts. One day, it will cry;
Look at me! Look at me! Look at how large the monster inside me has grown!
Crunch Crunch! Munch Munch! Gobble Gobble! Gulp.
Noooo! I'm on ep 70!! SADDED!! LEFT 4 more EPS!!! Sigh.. GOod things dun last...
Anyway, I changed it cos it describes the darkness I feel in my heart now.......
Psycho... It's so philosophical... We shud do it for GP, under media and education..
After watching it, I start feeling like reading picture books....
"The Nameless Monster", Emil Scherbe.. Does that bk exist?
Crunch crunch! Munch munch! Gobble gobble! Gulp.
Johann... I wish I can be like him... Johann Liebert...
Obsessed wif that show now.. I like shows like that, makes me think alot.. Tanoshi!!
This post is as disorganized as my mind is now wif moments of blanks cos of the frequent blankouts my mind get.
I'm sry if this post sounds nonsensical, but if u watch that show, then you will get what I am saying.
Remember, there is a monster in all of our hearts. One day, it will cry;
Look at me! Look at me! Look at how large the monster inside me has grown!
Crunch Crunch! Munch Munch! Gobble Gobble! Gulp.
Muhahha, spmaming of posts... KK, u can totally, and I mean TOTALLY ignore this post. Thank you..
Emotion test
Emotion Test
1. Which is your favorite color out
of: red, black, blue, green or yellow?
- Green
2. Your first initial?
- L
3. Your month of birth?
- October
4. Which color do you like more, black
or white?
- Black
5. Name of a person of the same sex as
yours:
- Glenn
6. Your favorite number?
- 4
7. Do you like Flying or Driving more?:
- Driving
8. Do you like a lake or the ocean
more?
- Lake
9. Think Of A Wish (a realistic one).
- Her
Answers
1. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is
full of love.
Black - You are conservative and
aggressive.
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you
are laid back.
Blue- You are spontaneous and love
kisses and affection from the ones you
love.
Yellow - You are a very happy person
and
give good advice to those who are down.
2. If you're initial is:
A-K You have a lot of love and
friendships in
your
life.
L-R You try to enjoy your life to the
maximum &
your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z You like to help others and your
future love life looks very good.
3. If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well
for you
and
you will discover that you fall in
love with
someone totally unexpected.
April-June: You will have a strong love
relationship that will not last long
but the memories will last forever.
July-Sep: You will have a great year
and will
experience a major life-changing
experience for
the good.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be
great, but
eventually you will find your soul
mate.
4. If you chose:
Black: Your life will take on a
different
direction, it will seem hard at the
time but
will be the best thing for you, and
you will be
glad for the change.
White: You will have a friend who
completely confides in you and would
do anything for you, but you may not
realize it.
5. This person is your best friend.
6. This is how many close friends you
have in your lifetime.
7. If you chose:
Flying: You like adventure
Driving: You are a laid back person.
8. If you chose:
Lake: You are loyal to your friends
and your
lover and are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to
please people.
9. This wish will come true only if
you repost
this with "Emotion Test" as the
subject
KK, all gotten frm TY's blog, I'm off to do sth else now...
1. Which is your favorite color out
of: red, black, blue, green or yellow?
- Green
2. Your first initial?
- L
3. Your month of birth?
- October
4. Which color do you like more, black
or white?
- Black
5. Name of a person of the same sex as
yours:
- Glenn
6. Your favorite number?
- 4
7. Do you like Flying or Driving more?:
- Driving
8. Do you like a lake or the ocean
more?
- Lake
9. Think Of A Wish (a realistic one).
- Her
Answers
1. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is
full of love.
Black - You are conservative and
aggressive.
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you
are laid back.
Blue- You are spontaneous and love
kisses and affection from the ones you
love.
Yellow - You are a very happy person
and
give good advice to those who are down.
2. If you're initial is:
A-K You have a lot of love and
friendships in
your
life.
L-R You try to enjoy your life to the
maximum &
your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z You like to help others and your
future love life looks very good.
3. If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well
for you
and
you will discover that you fall in
love with
someone totally unexpected.
April-June: You will have a strong love
relationship that will not last long
but the memories will last forever.
July-Sep: You will have a great year
and will
experience a major life-changing
experience for
the good.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be
great, but
eventually you will find your soul
mate.
4. If you chose:
Black: Your life will take on a
different
direction, it will seem hard at the
time but
will be the best thing for you, and
you will be
glad for the change.
White: You will have a friend who
completely confides in you and would
do anything for you, but you may not
realize it.
5. This person is your best friend.
6. This is how many close friends you
have in your lifetime.
7. If you chose:
Flying: You like adventure
Driving: You are a laid back person.
8. If you chose:
Lake: You are loyal to your friends
and your
lover and are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to
please people.
9. This wish will come true only if
you repost
this with "Emotion Test" as the
subject
KK, all gotten frm TY's blog, I'm off to do sth else now...
type what comes to your mind first whenever you hear these 40 words. Don't think and dont go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it! Repost it for all of your friends
1. Cigarettes: Stuff for losers
2. Sex: MaLE
3. Relationships: Bad
4.Your Last Ex: Blanked out
5. Power Rangers: Comedy
6. Crash: Car crash
7. Food: YUMMY
8. The Prime Minister: Overpaid person
9. War: Exciting
10. Cars: Beautiful
11. Petrol Prices: Numbers
12. Halloween: COSTUME PARTY!!
13. Stars: Wishes
14. Religion: Christianity
15. MySpace: Useless thingo
16. Chocolates : Tasty
17. Marriage: Impossible
18. Paris Hilton: Dumb blondes
19. Brunettes: Attractive
20. Redhead: Hair on fire
21. Politics: Nonsensical
22. Pass the Time: Huh?
23. One Night Stands: Disgusting
24. Mobile Phones: Essential to people
25. Pet Peeves: Harry Potter
26. Pixie Stix: Heroes 3
27. Vanilla Ice Cream: Yummmm
28. Potties: Smelly
29. High School: FUN!!
30. Pyjamas: Blanked out
31. Wood: Deforestation
32. Wet Socks: Icky
33. Alcohol: Sth I feel like drinkin
34. The word u HATE : LOVE
35. Your best friends: My doggy
36. Money: Nice to have, not essential to horde
37. Heartache: Grace
38. Love: Is painful
39. Time: Clock
40. Divorce: Stephen Lynch's Lullaby
1. Cigarettes: Stuff for losers
2. Sex: MaLE
3. Relationships: Bad
4.Your Last Ex: Blanked out
5. Power Rangers: Comedy
6. Crash: Car crash
7. Food: YUMMY
8. The Prime Minister: Overpaid person
9. War: Exciting
10. Cars: Beautiful
11. Petrol Prices: Numbers
12. Halloween: COSTUME PARTY!!
13. Stars: Wishes
14. Religion: Christianity
15. MySpace: Useless thingo
16. Chocolates : Tasty
17. Marriage: Impossible
18. Paris Hilton: Dumb blondes
19. Brunettes: Attractive
20. Redhead: Hair on fire
21. Politics: Nonsensical
22. Pass the Time: Huh?
23. One Night Stands: Disgusting
24. Mobile Phones: Essential to people
25. Pet Peeves: Harry Potter
26. Pixie Stix: Heroes 3
27. Vanilla Ice Cream: Yummmm
28. Potties: Smelly
29. High School: FUN!!
30. Pyjamas: Blanked out
31. Wood: Deforestation
32. Wet Socks: Icky
33. Alcohol: Sth I feel like drinkin
34. The word u HATE : LOVE
35. Your best friends: My doggy
36. Money: Nice to have, not essential to horde
37. Heartache: Grace
38. Love: Is painful
39. Time: Clock
40. Divorce: Stephen Lynch's Lullaby
Sigh, I'm so addicted. Severe Addiction to 1 thing and moderate addiction to 2. Severely addicted to her and moderately addicted to WoW and Monster.
Highly reccomend people to watch MONSTER! It's rly nice and its not a digimon show. Its sth like Deathnote but alot darker and not so funny and alot more serious and deals wif loads of philosophies. It's good to watch it for GP-ers. Kk, I shall gif a bit of a synopsis. The title of the show is not a literal meaning but its abt the monster inside humans. there are 3 main characters inside, twins and a doctor. one twin wants to kill the other who is a psychopath killer. The doctor saved the psychopath killer and now wants to kill him (Kinda like frankenstein). However, the doctor is being accused of murder commited by the psychopath. Yep, so the 74 episode anime is abt this as the doctor traces the origins of the psychopath and wad made him that way. The setting is in post-war germany. Of course the show is alot deeper than wad I made it sound like, and there are mass murders :):).. Nice man.. For those interested, it can be found at www.crunchyroll.com. You must sign up before ur able to watch it though. It has all 74 eps. Woohoo, I'm on 12 and lovin every episode.
Sigh, just realised my WoW lvl isnt 38 (Sob), its 35... Damn, must work hard, need to get to lvl 40 in 2 wks! Kesou!!!!
Gave up on my GP AQ homework. It's UNDOABLE!!! Kk, actually I just don wanna spend 1 hour ++ to do it. it's NOT worth the effort. ANyways, I never found maths more interesting since I met my maths lecturer. She's funny except everyone laughs AT her not at her JOKES. She's so freaking lame that I can't believe she's above 40. Not to mention my maths tutor says she can't teach at all and she's only interested in golf. Nvm, for now I shall just go to maths lecture for laughs. AND play wif my graphic calculator muhahaha....
Highly reccomend people to watch MONSTER! It's rly nice and its not a digimon show. Its sth like Deathnote but alot darker and not so funny and alot more serious and deals wif loads of philosophies. It's good to watch it for GP-ers. Kk, I shall gif a bit of a synopsis. The title of the show is not a literal meaning but its abt the monster inside humans. there are 3 main characters inside, twins and a doctor. one twin wants to kill the other who is a psychopath killer. The doctor saved the psychopath killer and now wants to kill him (Kinda like frankenstein). However, the doctor is being accused of murder commited by the psychopath. Yep, so the 74 episode anime is abt this as the doctor traces the origins of the psychopath and wad made him that way. The setting is in post-war germany. Of course the show is alot deeper than wad I made it sound like, and there are mass murders :):).. Nice man.. For those interested, it can be found at www.crunchyroll.com. You must sign up before ur able to watch it though. It has all 74 eps. Woohoo, I'm on 12 and lovin every episode.
Sigh, just realised my WoW lvl isnt 38 (Sob), its 35... Damn, must work hard, need to get to lvl 40 in 2 wks! Kesou!!!!
Gave up on my GP AQ homework. It's UNDOABLE!!! Kk, actually I just don wanna spend 1 hour ++ to do it. it's NOT worth the effort. ANyways, I never found maths more interesting since I met my maths lecturer. She's funny except everyone laughs AT her not at her JOKES. She's so freaking lame that I can't believe she's above 40. Not to mention my maths tutor says she can't teach at all and she's only interested in golf. Nvm, for now I shall just go to maths lecture for laughs. AND play wif my graphic calculator muhahaha....
Woohoo, I found out why I blog!! Cos I have nothing to do in front of my comp and yet want to be in front of my comp!!
Muhahaha....... Ok, I'm gonna do sth evil, its #1 on my agenda rite now, just waiting for the opportunity to arrive *wink wink*.
KK, today went mac studying.. Lets just leave it that MAC IS A HORRIBLE PLACE TO STUDY AND I NEVER WANNA STUDY THERE AGAIN!!!!! WP agrees wif me too, the unholy blend of food, drinks, noise, and air-con creates an atmosphere that is BAD for studying. No wonder so many neighbourhood school ppl go there to study. Tsk.
Anyway, I still think the most conducive place to study is CHANGI AIRPORT. It's quiet, air-conditioned, and do not have food + drinks to tempt u!!! Of course dun go Burger King to study la... Then u get all those things again...
Nananana Nananana Elmo's World.... is filled wif hand-drawn furniture and a muppet.
ok, I need some lessons on being EVIL. Of course, #1 would be to be brutally honest.
Eh, I'm drifting off again.... ANyways, WP n I were discussin that after A levels we should go back BP to be relief teachers. I would do so cos I wanna see wad teaching is like. We were also discussin wad wld happen if we were posted to those crappy neighbourhood schools. And we agreed we would conduct an aptitude test on the first day. 3 Qns. Name, Do you like this subject, and do u want to learn. For example, a yes to the qn wld be 1 point and No 0. IF say a class of 40 students, max marks wld be 80. So, if they scored 40 and above we wld teach, 40 and below we wld go to class and slack. And if they scored above 40, we wld create sitting plan based on individual scores. 2 pointers wld sit in front, 1 pointers nxt row, and 0 pointers right at the back. Of course, we also decided it would be better just to ask the 0 pointers to get out of class. Save who is willing to be saved. Same logic as christianity, those who trust in Jesus and puts their lives in His hands wld attain salvation. Of course this wldnt be on that big a scale but same logic. If one does not even wish to learn and does not have interest in the subject, just scram and dun disturb those who wishes to learn. And I wun do it like those half-baked teachers who only say they want to teach those who learn and ignore the rest but nv actually prove it but instead scolds those who misbehaves, which wastes the time of those who want to learn.
Oh no, my WoW subscription is coming to an end!!! 28th April!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!!! *Faints*.
You say that you're leaving but just for a day
The company wants you to fly to L.A.
So you leave me alone, and I sit and I say
What will I do today, today, while you're away
I....... Will........
Sniff all your underwear
Dress in your clothes
Pleasure myself inside your pantyhose
I know its not easy to leave me alone
But its more fun when you're not home
Haha, this song cracks me up...
Oh, found another hilarious song..
SL - Stephen Lynch
MT - Mark Teich
It's a duet. Its called the Best Friends song
MT: I like my toast buttered
SL: And I'll take mine dried
MT: I like the Beatles
SL: I'm a staunch kind of guy
MT: I have fine taste
SL: I like things cheap
MT: I want to stay up all night
SL: I just want to sleep.................... With your sister....
MT: What did you just say? STOP DANCING!
SL: Wait it's your turn again
MT: I like the sunshine
SL: ANd I..................... wanna nail your sister
MT: I like Julia Roberts
SL: I just wanna F the sh*t out of your sister
MT: HEY WAIT NO WAIT
SL: Mark Teich, you would rule, if you say, its cool. I'd go pick her up, at her Junior High School.
Ok, den it continues into a long chain of words that I duno what the heck he is saying.
Woohoo, Stephen Lynch ROX!!! haha, his songs are sooooooooooo FUNNY!!!!!
KK, test week coming up, gambatte!!
Muhahaha....... Ok, I'm gonna do sth evil, its #1 on my agenda rite now, just waiting for the opportunity to arrive *wink wink*.
KK, today went mac studying.. Lets just leave it that MAC IS A HORRIBLE PLACE TO STUDY AND I NEVER WANNA STUDY THERE AGAIN!!!!! WP agrees wif me too, the unholy blend of food, drinks, noise, and air-con creates an atmosphere that is BAD for studying. No wonder so many neighbourhood school ppl go there to study. Tsk.
Anyway, I still think the most conducive place to study is CHANGI AIRPORT. It's quiet, air-conditioned, and do not have food + drinks to tempt u!!! Of course dun go Burger King to study la... Then u get all those things again...
Nananana Nananana Elmo's World.... is filled wif hand-drawn furniture and a muppet.
ok, I need some lessons on being EVIL. Of course, #1 would be to be brutally honest.
Eh, I'm drifting off again.... ANyways, WP n I were discussin that after A levels we should go back BP to be relief teachers. I would do so cos I wanna see wad teaching is like. We were also discussin wad wld happen if we were posted to those crappy neighbourhood schools. And we agreed we would conduct an aptitude test on the first day. 3 Qns. Name, Do you like this subject, and do u want to learn. For example, a yes to the qn wld be 1 point and No 0. IF say a class of 40 students, max marks wld be 80. So, if they scored 40 and above we wld teach, 40 and below we wld go to class and slack. And if they scored above 40, we wld create sitting plan based on individual scores. 2 pointers wld sit in front, 1 pointers nxt row, and 0 pointers right at the back. Of course, we also decided it would be better just to ask the 0 pointers to get out of class. Save who is willing to be saved. Same logic as christianity, those who trust in Jesus and puts their lives in His hands wld attain salvation. Of course this wldnt be on that big a scale but same logic. If one does not even wish to learn and does not have interest in the subject, just scram and dun disturb those who wishes to learn. And I wun do it like those half-baked teachers who only say they want to teach those who learn and ignore the rest but nv actually prove it but instead scolds those who misbehaves, which wastes the time of those who want to learn.
Oh no, my WoW subscription is coming to an end!!! 28th April!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!!! *Faints*.
You say that you're leaving but just for a day
The company wants you to fly to L.A.
So you leave me alone, and I sit and I say
What will I do today, today, while you're away
I....... Will........
Sniff all your underwear
Dress in your clothes
Pleasure myself inside your pantyhose
I know its not easy to leave me alone
But its more fun when you're not home
Haha, this song cracks me up...
Oh, found another hilarious song..
SL - Stephen Lynch
MT - Mark Teich
It's a duet. Its called the Best Friends song
MT: I like my toast buttered
SL: And I'll take mine dried
MT: I like the Beatles
SL: I'm a staunch kind of guy
MT: I have fine taste
SL: I like things cheap
MT: I want to stay up all night
SL: I just want to sleep.................... With your sister....
MT: What did you just say? STOP DANCING!
SL: Wait it's your turn again
MT: I like the sunshine
SL: ANd I..................... wanna nail your sister
MT: I like Julia Roberts
SL: I just wanna F the sh*t out of your sister
MT: HEY WAIT NO WAIT
SL: Mark Teich, you would rule, if you say, its cool. I'd go pick her up, at her Junior High School.
Ok, den it continues into a long chain of words that I duno what the heck he is saying.
Woohoo, Stephen Lynch ROX!!! haha, his songs are sooooooooooo FUNNY!!!!!
KK, test week coming up, gambatte!!
Here we are, dear old friend
You and I, drunk again
Laughs have been had and tears have been shed
Maybe the whiskey's gone to my head?
But if I were gay, I would give you my heart
And if I were gay, you'd be my work of heart
And if I were gay, we would swim in romance
But I'm not gay, so get your hand out of my pants
It's not that I don't care, I do
I just don't see myself in you
Another time, another scene
I'd be right behind you, if you know what I mean
Cause if I were gay, I would give you my soul
And if I were gay, I would give you my whole being
And if I were gay, we would tear down the walls
But I'm not gay, so won't you stop cupping my hands
We've never hugged, we've never kissed
I've never been intimate with your fist
But you have opened brand new doors
Get over here and drop your drawers
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ZzZ, stupid blisters....
Watch them run, watch them fall, watch them try to catch a ball olympics
Special olympics..
Watch them laugh, watch them drool, watch them fall into a pool, that's diving
At the Special olympics..
My lady gives birth today, I run to her room right away
She smiles with glee, then hands her to me
I looked at my newborn and say
DAMN THATS AN UGLY BABY
DAMN THATS AN UGLIEST BABY
I'm feeling quite concerned, my semen must have turned
Cause damn thats an ugly baby
This was just what I feared, her head is misshapen and weird
She's skinny like a twig, at least her nuts are big (Whoops?)
And her hair colour doesn't match her beard
DAMN THATS AN UGLY BABY
GOD DAMN THATS AN UGLIEST BABY
I gave the doctor a smackin' say
Can't you stuff her back in
Cause damn thats an ugly baby
KK, sry for random spamming of song lyrics... I just felt like typing sth lol...
Lesson learnt: NEVER RUN IN SHOES WITHOUT SOCKS. You get blisters...
PI still not done... Tests not studied for... Ok, screwed... Tomorrow's Easter Sunday!! KK.. Dono wad to post actually... BB!!
You and I, drunk again
Laughs have been had and tears have been shed
Maybe the whiskey's gone to my head?
But if I were gay, I would give you my heart
And if I were gay, you'd be my work of heart
And if I were gay, we would swim in romance
But I'm not gay, so get your hand out of my pants
It's not that I don't care, I do
I just don't see myself in you
Another time, another scene
I'd be right behind you, if you know what I mean
Cause if I were gay, I would give you my soul
And if I were gay, I would give you my whole being
And if I were gay, we would tear down the walls
But I'm not gay, so won't you stop cupping my hands
We've never hugged, we've never kissed
I've never been intimate with your fist
But you have opened brand new doors
Get over here and drop your drawers
-------------------------------------------------------
ZzZ, stupid blisters....
Watch them run, watch them fall, watch them try to catch a ball olympics
Special olympics..
Watch them laugh, watch them drool, watch them fall into a pool, that's diving
At the Special olympics..
My lady gives birth today, I run to her room right away
She smiles with glee, then hands her to me
I looked at my newborn and say
DAMN THATS AN UGLY BABY
DAMN THATS AN UGLIEST BABY
I'm feeling quite concerned, my semen must have turned
Cause damn thats an ugly baby
This was just what I feared, her head is misshapen and weird
She's skinny like a twig, at least her nuts are big (Whoops?)
And her hair colour doesn't match her beard
DAMN THATS AN UGLY BABY
GOD DAMN THATS AN UGLIEST BABY
I gave the doctor a smackin' say
Can't you stuff her back in
Cause damn thats an ugly baby
KK, sry for random spamming of song lyrics... I just felt like typing sth lol...
Lesson learnt: NEVER RUN IN SHOES WITHOUT SOCKS. You get blisters...
PI still not done... Tests not studied for... Ok, screwed... Tomorrow's Easter Sunday!! KK.. Dono wad to post actually... BB!!
"And wad was a river of words soon dried up in your prescence..."
Yepp.. Exactly wad I feel ^..
Why do our lives have to be in parallel? The worst way to miss someone, is to have them right next to you yet knowing you can't have them.. Sometimes its so torturous for me to see you... And yet its torturous for me not to see you too... Sigh, my mind can't make itself and my heart is screwing everything.
My cousin made it into stanford Uni and now I'm feeling very pressured to do likewise.. I rly don't want to disappoint my dad esp since I've not done anything he would be proud of for the last 16 years.. So.. for once, i wanna make him proud.
Often I wish I can trade lives wif ppl. I do know that everyone has problems, but some people seem to have so little on their minds (Not bcos of their small brains). I rly wish I have such a problem-free stress-free life. Nostalgia isn't helping me much either. Watched all the B&B rehearsal vids and this strong tsunami of memories came flooding into my mind. I rly wish I can turn back time. I nv treasured BP much but now, I rly wish I can go back there, turn back time, relive those times...
Alas, I think not thinking about it would be better.. FOr man can't turn back time and time only moves forward. I was thinking 20 years frm now or even 30, when I look back, will the nostalgia be worse? Will I cry? Will I start to wish for times long gone and curse myself for not treasuring them when I had them? Will our paths cross again? Such are the qns that only time will reveal and yet I want to know the answers now. What does the future have in store for me? More heartbreaks? Probably.. Happiness? Unlikely.. I think I just need to get out of this place, emigrate elsewhere, start life anew, be reborn again. Maybe like in winter sonata, suffer frm amnesia and becomes an entirely different person. But I don't want to forget about the past too, for the past gives me my identity. Contrary to popular belief your IC is not your identity. It's just a freaking card wif a bunch of letters and numbers on it and enhanced by passing it through a magnetic field.
And I can go on and on but I think you get my point. If you don't, just re-read again until you do. Kk, and now my mom suspects I like someone cos I've been very depressed lately. Her suspicions are correct but just 2 years too late. NEway, I dun intend to let her know or I'll suffer a few hours of lecture and she'll get worried. Presumably she'll be more worried of my studies..
I still love you...... Wo(3) hai(2) shen(1) ai(4) zhe(4) ni(3).... Todavía le amo...... Ich liebe Sie noch.... Ancora li amo..... Je vous aime toujours....
Yepp.. Exactly wad I feel ^..
Why do our lives have to be in parallel? The worst way to miss someone, is to have them right next to you yet knowing you can't have them.. Sometimes its so torturous for me to see you... And yet its torturous for me not to see you too... Sigh, my mind can't make itself and my heart is screwing everything.
My cousin made it into stanford Uni and now I'm feeling very pressured to do likewise.. I rly don't want to disappoint my dad esp since I've not done anything he would be proud of for the last 16 years.. So.. for once, i wanna make him proud.
Often I wish I can trade lives wif ppl. I do know that everyone has problems, but some people seem to have so little on their minds (Not bcos of their small brains). I rly wish I have such a problem-free stress-free life. Nostalgia isn't helping me much either. Watched all the B&B rehearsal vids and this strong tsunami of memories came flooding into my mind. I rly wish I can turn back time. I nv treasured BP much but now, I rly wish I can go back there, turn back time, relive those times...
Alas, I think not thinking about it would be better.. FOr man can't turn back time and time only moves forward. I was thinking 20 years frm now or even 30, when I look back, will the nostalgia be worse? Will I cry? Will I start to wish for times long gone and curse myself for not treasuring them when I had them? Will our paths cross again? Such are the qns that only time will reveal and yet I want to know the answers now. What does the future have in store for me? More heartbreaks? Probably.. Happiness? Unlikely.. I think I just need to get out of this place, emigrate elsewhere, start life anew, be reborn again. Maybe like in winter sonata, suffer frm amnesia and becomes an entirely different person. But I don't want to forget about the past too, for the past gives me my identity. Contrary to popular belief your IC is not your identity. It's just a freaking card wif a bunch of letters and numbers on it and enhanced by passing it through a magnetic field.
And I can go on and on but I think you get my point. If you don't, just re-read again until you do. Kk, and now my mom suspects I like someone cos I've been very depressed lately. Her suspicions are correct but just 2 years too late. NEway, I dun intend to let her know or I'll suffer a few hours of lecture and she'll get worried. Presumably she'll be more worried of my studies..
I still love you...... Wo(3) hai(2) shen(1) ai(4) zhe(4) ni(3).... Todavía le amo...... Ich liebe Sie noch.... Ancora li amo..... Je vous aime toujours....
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Some people minds are just too narrow, like a frog in a well.
/EDIT
Wow, found more "inspiration" to write a hate post frm TY. For details, just go n read his blog entry Sunday April 1 the second one on the lorry driver.
Now, though I find its foolish to do what TY did, I have to applaud him for his bravery. I feel what he has done is absolutely CORRECT!! People who are inconsiderate deserve to be spitted on, pissed off, and basically everything that low-lifes deserve. I feel a sense of enjoyment when these kind of people get irritated or angry. The angrier they get the happier I feel. In fact, I believe such people do not deserve a place in this world. Such people deserve to DIE. (Oh no, now I sound like KIRA!! Hehe, now you know why I absolutely support him). Haha, so better pray I dun get a deathnote. If I do, mass killings will ensue :). Bah, nvm, its like a rage kid inside me, bleah. I rly detest and despise such people. Humans are incorrigible, case closed.
Ok, since I'm onto hate posts, I shall start.. Yes, I shall start a PERSONAL QUIZ!! INCLUDES A TAG OF DOOM!!!! Ok, just joking abt the tag of doom, if you wanna do it den go ahead.
RULES: List down 10 things that turns you off in the opposite sex. State what is the opposite sex.
Girls:
1) Smoking
2) Tattoos
3) Druggers
4) Act cute
5) Inconsiderate behaviour
6) Ah Lians
7) Unhygienic
8) Fangirls
9) Arrogance
10) Noisy
Bah, I hate *. HATE!!!!!!! HATE!!!! Don't ask, screw taht person... Bleah..
Some people minds are just too narrow, like a frog in a well.
/EDIT
Wow, found more "inspiration" to write a hate post frm TY. For details, just go n read his blog entry Sunday April 1 the second one on the lorry driver.
Now, though I find its foolish to do what TY did, I have to applaud him for his bravery. I feel what he has done is absolutely CORRECT!! People who are inconsiderate deserve to be spitted on, pissed off, and basically everything that low-lifes deserve. I feel a sense of enjoyment when these kind of people get irritated or angry. The angrier they get the happier I feel. In fact, I believe such people do not deserve a place in this world. Such people deserve to DIE. (Oh no, now I sound like KIRA!! Hehe, now you know why I absolutely support him). Haha, so better pray I dun get a deathnote. If I do, mass killings will ensue :). Bah, nvm, its like a rage kid inside me, bleah. I rly detest and despise such people. Humans are incorrigible, case closed.
Ok, since I'm onto hate posts, I shall start.. Yes, I shall start a PERSONAL QUIZ!! INCLUDES A TAG OF DOOM!!!! Ok, just joking abt the tag of doom, if you wanna do it den go ahead.
RULES: List down 10 things that turns you off in the opposite sex. State what is the opposite sex.
Girls:
1) Smoking
2) Tattoos
3) Druggers
4) Act cute
5) Inconsiderate behaviour
6) Ah Lians
7) Unhygienic
8) Fangirls
9) Arrogance
10) Noisy
Bah, I hate *. HATE!!!!!!! HATE!!!! Don't ask, screw taht person... Bleah..
The Idealist
As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.
INFPs, more than other iNtuitive Feeling types, are focused on making the world a better place for people. Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life. What is their purpose? How can they best serve humanity in their lives? They are idealists and perfectionists, who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving the goals they have identified for themselves
INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - the INFP is driven to help people and make the world a better place.
Generally thoughtful and considerate, INFPs are good listeners and put people at ease. Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion, they have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making the INFP a valued friend and confidante. An INFP can be quite warm with people he or she knows well.
INFPs do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If they must face it, they will always approach it from the perspective of their feelings. In conflict situations, INFPs place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel, and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right. They don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations. On the other hand, INFPs make very good mediators, and are typically good at solving other people's conflicts, because they intuitively understand people's perspectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.
INFPs are flexible and laid-back, until one of their values is violated. In the face of their value system being threatened, INFPs can become aggressive defenders, fighting passionately for their cause. When an INFP has adopted a project or job which they're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for them. Although they are not detail-oriented individuals, they will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for their "cause".
When it comes to the mundane details of life maintenance, INFPs are typically completely unaware of such things. They might go for long periods without noticing a stain on the carpet, but carefully and meticulously brush a speck of dust off of their project booklet.
INFPs do not like to deal with hard facts and logic. Their focus on their feelings and the Human Condition makes it difficult for them to deal with impersonal judgment. They don't understand or believe in the validity of impersonal judgment, which makes them naturally rather ineffective at using it. Most INFPs will avoid impersonal analysis, although some have developed this ability and are able to be quite logical. Under stress, it's not uncommon for INFPs to mis-use hard logic in the heat of anger, throwing out fact after (often inaccurate) fact in an emotional outburst.
INFPs have very high standards and are perfectionists. Consequently, they are usually hard on themselves, and don't give themselves enough credit. INFPs may have problems working on a project in a group, because their standards are likely to be higher than other members' of the group. In group situations, they may have a "control" problem. The INFP needs to work on balancing their high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, they will never be happy with themselves, and they may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with their lives.
INFPs are usually talented writers. They may be awkard and uncomfortable with expressing themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching. They are at their best in situations where they're working towards the public good, and in which they don't need to use hard logic.
INFPs who function in their well-developed sides can accomplish great and wonderful things, which they will rarely give themselves credit for. Some of the great, humanistic catalysts in the world have been INFPs.
INFPs present a calm, pleasant face to the world. They appear to be tranquil and peaceful to others, with simple desires. In fact, the INFP internally feels his or her life intensely. In the relationship arena, this causes them to have a very deep capacity for love and caring which is not frequently found with such intensity in the other types. The INFP does not devote their intense feelings towards just anyone, and are relatively reserved about expressing their inner-most feelings. They reserve their deepest love and caring for a select few who are closest to them. INFPs are generally laid-back, supportive and nurturing in their close relationships. With Introverted Feeling dominating their personality, they're very sensitive and in-tune with people's feelings, and feel genuine concern and caring for others. Slow to trust others and cautious in the beginning of a relationship, an INFP will be fiercely loyal once they are committed. With their strong inner core of values, they are intense individuals who value depth and authenticity in their relationships, and hold those who understand and accept the INFP's perspectives in especially high regard. INFPs are usually adaptable and congenial, unless one of their ruling principles has been violated, in which case they stop adapting and become staunch defenders of their values. They will be uncharacteristically harsh and rigid in such a situation.
INFPs as Lovers
INFPs feels tremendous loyalty and commitment to their relationships. With the Feeling preference dominating their personality, harmony and warm feelings are central to the INFP's being. They feel a need to be in a committed, loving relationship. If they are not involved in such a relationship, the INFP will be either actively searching for one, or creating one in their own minds.
INFPs tendency to be idealistic and romantically-minded may cause them to fantasize frequently about a "more perfect" relationship or situation. They may also romanticize their mates into having qualities which they do not actually possess. Most INFPs have a problem with reconciling their highly idealistic and romantic views of life with the reality of their own lives, and so they are constantly somewhat unsettled with themselves and with their close personal relationships. However, the INFP's deeply-felt, sincere love for their mates and their intense dislike of conflict keeps the INFP loyal to their relationships, in spite of their troubles achieving peace of mind.
Unlike other types who tend to hold their mates up on a pedastal, the INFP's tendency to do so does not really turn into a negative thing in the relationship. INFPs hold tightly to their ideals, and work hard at constantly seeing their mates up on that pedastal. The frequent INFP result is a strongly affirming, proud and affectionate attitude towards their mates which stands the test of time.
INFPs are not naturally interested in administrative matters such as bill-paying and house-cleaning, but they can be very good at performing these tasks when they must. They can be really good money managers when they apply themselves.
Sexually, the INFP is likely to be initially slow to open up to their mates. Once their trust has been earned, the INFP will view sexual intimacy as an opportunity for expressing their deep-seated love and affection. More than the actual sexual act, they will value giving and receiving love and sweet words. With their tendency to enjoy serving others, they may value their mates satisfaction above their own.
One real problem area for the INFP is their intensive dislike of conflict and criticism. The INFP is quick to find a personal angle in any critical comment, whether or not anything personal was intended. They will tend to take any sort of criticism as a personal attack on their character, and will usually become irrational and emotional in such situations. This can be a real problem for INFPs who are involved with persons who have Thinking and Judging preferences. "TJ"s relate to others with a objective, decisive attitude that frequently shows an opinion on the topic of conversation. If the opinion is negative, the TJ's attitude may be threatening to the INFP, who will tend to respond emotionally to the negativity and be vaguely but emphatically convinced that the negativity is somehow the INFP's fault.
For INFPs with extremely dominant Feeling preferences who have not developed their Intuitive sides sufficiently to gather good data for their decision making processes, their dislike of conflict and criticism can foretell doom and gloom for intimate relationships. These INFPs will react with extreme emotional distress to conflict situations, and will not know what to do about it. Since they will have no basis for determining what action to take, they will do whatever they can to get rid of the conflict - which frequently means lashing out irrationally at others, or using guilt manipulation to get their mates to give them the positive support that they crave. This kind of behavior does not bode well for healthy, long-term relationships. Individuals who recognize this tendency in themselves should work on their ability to take criticism objectively rather than personally. They should also try to remember that conflict situations are not always their fault, and they're definitely not the end of the world. Conflict is a fact of life, and facing it and addressing it immediately avoids having to deal with it in the future, after it has become a much larger problem.
INFPs are very aware of their own space, and the space of others. They value their personal space, and the freedom to do their own thing. They will cherish the mate who sees the INFP for who they are, and respects their unique style and perspectives. The INFP is not likely to be overly jealous or possessive, and is likely to respect their mate's privacy and independence. In fact, the INFP is likely to not only respect their mate's perspectives and goals, but to support them with loyal firmness.
In general, INFPs are warmly affirming and loving partners who make the health of their relationships central in their lives. Although cautious in the beginning, they become firmly loyal to their committed relationships, which are likely to last a lifetime. They take their relationships very seriously, and will put forth a great deal of effort into making them work.
Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, INFP's natural partner is the ENFJ, or the ESFJ. INFP's dominant function of Introverted Feeling is best matched with a partner whose dominant function is Extraverted Feeling. The INFP/ENFJ combination is ideal, because it shares the Sensing way of peceiving, but the INFP/ESFJ combination is also a good match.
INFPs as Friends
INFPs are warm and caring individuals who highly value authenticity and depth in their personal relationships. They are usually quite perceptive about other people's feelings and motives, and are consequently able to get along with all sorts of different people. However, the INFP will keep their true selves reserved from others except for a select few, with whom they will form close and lasting friendships. With their high ideals, they are likely to be drawn to other iNtuitive Feelers for their closer friendships.
With their strong need for harmony and dislike of conflict, INFPs may feel threatened by people with strong Judging and Thinking preferences. Although they're likely to be able to work well professionally with such individuals, they may have difficulty accepting or appreciating them on a personal level. They generally feel a kinship and affinity with other Feeling types.
INFPs will be valued by their confidantes as genuine, altruistic, deep, caring, original individuals.
Most INFPs will exhibit the following strengths with regards to relationship issues:
Warmly concerned and caring towards others
Sensitive and perceptive about what others are feeling
Loyal and committed - they want lifelong relationships
Deep capacity for love and caring
Driven to meet other's needs
Strive for "win-win" situations
Nurturing, supportive and encouraging
Likely to recognize and appreciate other's need for space
Able to express themselves well
Flexible and diverse
Most INFPs will exhibit the following weaknesses with regards to relationship issues:
May tend to be shy and reserved
Don't like to have their "space" invaded
Extreme dislike of conflict
Extreme dislike of criticism
Strong need to receive praise and positive affirmation
May react very emotionally to stressful situations
Have difficulty leaving a bad relationship
Have difficulty scolding or punishing others
Tend to be reserved about expressing their feelings
Perfectionistic tendancies may cause them to not give themselves enough credit
Tendency to blame themselves for problems, and hold everything on their own shoulders
My entire personality test :).
As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.
INFPs, more than other iNtuitive Feeling types, are focused on making the world a better place for people. Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life. What is their purpose? How can they best serve humanity in their lives? They are idealists and perfectionists, who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving the goals they have identified for themselves
INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - the INFP is driven to help people and make the world a better place.
Generally thoughtful and considerate, INFPs are good listeners and put people at ease. Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion, they have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making the INFP a valued friend and confidante. An INFP can be quite warm with people he or she knows well.
INFPs do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If they must face it, they will always approach it from the perspective of their feelings. In conflict situations, INFPs place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel, and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right. They don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations. On the other hand, INFPs make very good mediators, and are typically good at solving other people's conflicts, because they intuitively understand people's perspectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.
INFPs are flexible and laid-back, until one of their values is violated. In the face of their value system being threatened, INFPs can become aggressive defenders, fighting passionately for their cause. When an INFP has adopted a project or job which they're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for them. Although they are not detail-oriented individuals, they will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for their "cause".
When it comes to the mundane details of life maintenance, INFPs are typically completely unaware of such things. They might go for long periods without noticing a stain on the carpet, but carefully and meticulously brush a speck of dust off of their project booklet.
INFPs do not like to deal with hard facts and logic. Their focus on their feelings and the Human Condition makes it difficult for them to deal with impersonal judgment. They don't understand or believe in the validity of impersonal judgment, which makes them naturally rather ineffective at using it. Most INFPs will avoid impersonal analysis, although some have developed this ability and are able to be quite logical. Under stress, it's not uncommon for INFPs to mis-use hard logic in the heat of anger, throwing out fact after (often inaccurate) fact in an emotional outburst.
INFPs have very high standards and are perfectionists. Consequently, they are usually hard on themselves, and don't give themselves enough credit. INFPs may have problems working on a project in a group, because their standards are likely to be higher than other members' of the group. In group situations, they may have a "control" problem. The INFP needs to work on balancing their high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, they will never be happy with themselves, and they may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with their lives.
INFPs are usually talented writers. They may be awkard and uncomfortable with expressing themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching. They are at their best in situations where they're working towards the public good, and in which they don't need to use hard logic.
INFPs who function in their well-developed sides can accomplish great and wonderful things, which they will rarely give themselves credit for. Some of the great, humanistic catalysts in the world have been INFPs.
INFPs present a calm, pleasant face to the world. They appear to be tranquil and peaceful to others, with simple desires. In fact, the INFP internally feels his or her life intensely. In the relationship arena, this causes them to have a very deep capacity for love and caring which is not frequently found with such intensity in the other types. The INFP does not devote their intense feelings towards just anyone, and are relatively reserved about expressing their inner-most feelings. They reserve their deepest love and caring for a select few who are closest to them. INFPs are generally laid-back, supportive and nurturing in their close relationships. With Introverted Feeling dominating their personality, they're very sensitive and in-tune with people's feelings, and feel genuine concern and caring for others. Slow to trust others and cautious in the beginning of a relationship, an INFP will be fiercely loyal once they are committed. With their strong inner core of values, they are intense individuals who value depth and authenticity in their relationships, and hold those who understand and accept the INFP's perspectives in especially high regard. INFPs are usually adaptable and congenial, unless one of their ruling principles has been violated, in which case they stop adapting and become staunch defenders of their values. They will be uncharacteristically harsh and rigid in such a situation.
INFPs as Lovers
INFPs feels tremendous loyalty and commitment to their relationships. With the Feeling preference dominating their personality, harmony and warm feelings are central to the INFP's being. They feel a need to be in a committed, loving relationship. If they are not involved in such a relationship, the INFP will be either actively searching for one, or creating one in their own minds.
INFPs tendency to be idealistic and romantically-minded may cause them to fantasize frequently about a "more perfect" relationship or situation. They may also romanticize their mates into having qualities which they do not actually possess. Most INFPs have a problem with reconciling their highly idealistic and romantic views of life with the reality of their own lives, and so they are constantly somewhat unsettled with themselves and with their close personal relationships. However, the INFP's deeply-felt, sincere love for their mates and their intense dislike of conflict keeps the INFP loyal to their relationships, in spite of their troubles achieving peace of mind.
Unlike other types who tend to hold their mates up on a pedastal, the INFP's tendency to do so does not really turn into a negative thing in the relationship. INFPs hold tightly to their ideals, and work hard at constantly seeing their mates up on that pedastal. The frequent INFP result is a strongly affirming, proud and affectionate attitude towards their mates which stands the test of time.
INFPs are not naturally interested in administrative matters such as bill-paying and house-cleaning, but they can be very good at performing these tasks when they must. They can be really good money managers when they apply themselves.
Sexually, the INFP is likely to be initially slow to open up to their mates. Once their trust has been earned, the INFP will view sexual intimacy as an opportunity for expressing their deep-seated love and affection. More than the actual sexual act, they will value giving and receiving love and sweet words. With their tendency to enjoy serving others, they may value their mates satisfaction above their own.
One real problem area for the INFP is their intensive dislike of conflict and criticism. The INFP is quick to find a personal angle in any critical comment, whether or not anything personal was intended. They will tend to take any sort of criticism as a personal attack on their character, and will usually become irrational and emotional in such situations. This can be a real problem for INFPs who are involved with persons who have Thinking and Judging preferences. "TJ"s relate to others with a objective, decisive attitude that frequently shows an opinion on the topic of conversation. If the opinion is negative, the TJ's attitude may be threatening to the INFP, who will tend to respond emotionally to the negativity and be vaguely but emphatically convinced that the negativity is somehow the INFP's fault.
For INFPs with extremely dominant Feeling preferences who have not developed their Intuitive sides sufficiently to gather good data for their decision making processes, their dislike of conflict and criticism can foretell doom and gloom for intimate relationships. These INFPs will react with extreme emotional distress to conflict situations, and will not know what to do about it. Since they will have no basis for determining what action to take, they will do whatever they can to get rid of the conflict - which frequently means lashing out irrationally at others, or using guilt manipulation to get their mates to give them the positive support that they crave. This kind of behavior does not bode well for healthy, long-term relationships. Individuals who recognize this tendency in themselves should work on their ability to take criticism objectively rather than personally. They should also try to remember that conflict situations are not always their fault, and they're definitely not the end of the world. Conflict is a fact of life, and facing it and addressing it immediately avoids having to deal with it in the future, after it has become a much larger problem.
INFPs are very aware of their own space, and the space of others. They value their personal space, and the freedom to do their own thing. They will cherish the mate who sees the INFP for who they are, and respects their unique style and perspectives. The INFP is not likely to be overly jealous or possessive, and is likely to respect their mate's privacy and independence. In fact, the INFP is likely to not only respect their mate's perspectives and goals, but to support them with loyal firmness.
In general, INFPs are warmly affirming and loving partners who make the health of their relationships central in their lives. Although cautious in the beginning, they become firmly loyal to their committed relationships, which are likely to last a lifetime. They take their relationships very seriously, and will put forth a great deal of effort into making them work.
Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, INFP's natural partner is the ENFJ, or the ESFJ. INFP's dominant function of Introverted Feeling is best matched with a partner whose dominant function is Extraverted Feeling. The INFP/ENFJ combination is ideal, because it shares the Sensing way of peceiving, but the INFP/ESFJ combination is also a good match.
INFPs as Friends
INFPs are warm and caring individuals who highly value authenticity and depth in their personal relationships. They are usually quite perceptive about other people's feelings and motives, and are consequently able to get along with all sorts of different people. However, the INFP will keep their true selves reserved from others except for a select few, with whom they will form close and lasting friendships. With their high ideals, they are likely to be drawn to other iNtuitive Feelers for their closer friendships.
With their strong need for harmony and dislike of conflict, INFPs may feel threatened by people with strong Judging and Thinking preferences. Although they're likely to be able to work well professionally with such individuals, they may have difficulty accepting or appreciating them on a personal level. They generally feel a kinship and affinity with other Feeling types.
INFPs will be valued by their confidantes as genuine, altruistic, deep, caring, original individuals.
Most INFPs will exhibit the following strengths with regards to relationship issues:
Warmly concerned and caring towards others
Sensitive and perceptive about what others are feeling
Loyal and committed - they want lifelong relationships
Deep capacity for love and caring
Driven to meet other's needs
Strive for "win-win" situations
Nurturing, supportive and encouraging
Likely to recognize and appreciate other's need for space
Able to express themselves well
Flexible and diverse
Most INFPs will exhibit the following weaknesses with regards to relationship issues:
May tend to be shy and reserved
Don't like to have their "space" invaded
Extreme dislike of conflict
Extreme dislike of criticism
Strong need to receive praise and positive affirmation
May react very emotionally to stressful situations
Have difficulty leaving a bad relationship
Have difficulty scolding or punishing others
Tend to be reserved about expressing their feelings
Perfectionistic tendancies may cause them to not give themselves enough credit
Tendency to blame themselves for problems, and hold everything on their own shoulders
My entire personality test :).
Firstly, HAPPY BDAY WEINING!!!
Happy birthday to you
You are so cute and cool
Happy birthday to Wei Ning
I hope you'll enjoy school :).
Secondly and lastly, the quiz that I was tagged by Grace Yeoh.
These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!
1) I am SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER PARANOID so don't look at me if I don't know you.
2) I like applying pressure to bruises because I enjoy the pain that results from it.
3) I tend to day-dream alot, even when people are talking to me. To see if I'm day-dreaming, I'll be looking in one direction for more than 1 minute. Of course, it could mean I'm looking at her. Most of the time it's because I'm day-dreaming.
4) Ok, mayb dis isnt weird, but I can eat as much as I want and I'll never grow fat.
5) I love eating sour stuffs, the more sour it is the better.
6) Once I love someone I love that person forever, no matter how much that person disappoints me or breaks my heart.
Six ppl I tag to do this:
1) Grace Wang
2) Wei Ning
3) Tay Yi
4) Dexter
5) Derek
6) Wen Pu
Happy birthday to you
You are so cute and cool
Happy birthday to Wei Ning
I hope you'll enjoy school :).
Secondly and lastly, the quiz that I was tagged by Grace Yeoh.
These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!
1) I am SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER PARANOID so don't look at me if I don't know you.
2) I like applying pressure to bruises because I enjoy the pain that results from it.
3) I tend to day-dream alot, even when people are talking to me. To see if I'm day-dreaming, I'll be looking in one direction for more than 1 minute. Of course, it could mean I'm looking at her. Most of the time it's because I'm day-dreaming.
4) Ok, mayb dis isnt weird, but I can eat as much as I want and I'll never grow fat.
5) I love eating sour stuffs, the more sour it is the better.
6) Once I love someone I love that person forever, no matter how much that person disappoints me or breaks my heart.
Six ppl I tag to do this:
1) Grace Wang
2) Wei Ning
3) Tay Yi
4) Dexter
5) Derek
6) Wen Pu
Read TY's post on ppl who can't make it.. So now I'm gonna post a variation.
WHY I HATE SINGAPOREANS:
1) They are SO SO SO SO INCONSIDERATE!!!!
2) They are FREAKING KIASU!!!!
3) They are damn ACT COOL!!!!
4) They are VERY SELFISH!!!
Actually, mainly they are very inconsiderate...
WHY I HATE SINGAPORE:
1) COS I HATE SINGAPOREANS!!!
2) There isn't 4 seasons...
Since I state why I hate them, I should be fair and state why I like them.
WHY I LIKE SINGAPOREANS:
1) They are of the same nationality as me.
2) That's about it....
WHY I LIKE SINGAPORE:
1) My friends are in Singapore
2) She is in Singapore
3) Eh, that's about it too!
Hence you can see why I wanna migrate overseas so much...
These past few days have been EMO days for me.. I keep thinking of what could have been, and what will not be. Today, saw some fat guy in the bus. So I was like thinking at least I'm better off compared to him, since it will be even harder for him to get the person he loves. However, upon deeper thought, I realised I'm no better off. Does it matter whether its easier or not to get the person you love? It's the end result that matters. I didn't. So, how does that make me better off? Nope, I'm the same.. I know its rly evil of me to say that.. But I was just stating my thoughts.. And its kind of a cliche..
I rly feel my life is getting RLY shitty. I just keep feeling depressed nowadays. Life doesn't seem to interest me anymore and I get bored in almost everything I do. I even thought of commiting suicide. I can rly understand what those ppl who commited suicide went through. Now I realise, it rly isn't dumb to end your life. If your life starts getting pointless you should just end it. Why bother living a pointless life that leads to the same end anyway. My social life is seriously screwed up now. Love life SUX big time, even relationship between friends are straining. At least I feel so. I start getting discontent with so many things. My family life sux too.
I'm not ashamed to admit that 3 days ago and on Friday I cried at night. I rly don't think I want to live in this shit any more.. And well, I cried cause I felt the helplessness. I don't know what I can do to change my circumstance. Actually, ppl reading this now may think that I sound perfectly all right and even analytical. Well, I am. Cause I run on Deca-core technology. I have practically 10 brains each have a profile saved in them. I can freely change between each mode but now the EMO mode is corrupting all the rest. Just somehow I can stand back and view my life as a slideshow and analyse each, though I still am feeling very depressed. I think this is gonna last at least 1 month, like 2 years ago. Sigh, dono when is the next night I'm gonna cry again... I just hope I dun commit suicide. There are just so many things I wanna try before dying. Like owning a dog, living in the States, heck, even sex. Sex is rather low on my list though cause I probably will not have it anyway. Hence, its more impt for me to live in the States and owning a dog. ANyway, if you actually read my blog for say at least a month you can guess why I cried. If you can't, then go read again and train your comprehension skills.
Sigh, I duno what I shud do now.... My life is rly failing badly... I wish I was born as someone else. I dun mind being poorer. Got a feeling today may cry again. Ytd didn't cause I didn't think much, too tired, just flopped on my bed and slept. I need my dog again... Sigh, my dog is still the one that understands me most. And its my dog thats still my best friend. And its my dog thats always there when I'm weakest. I can't trust humans... After 3 years, I still love her like it was ytd when I met her. I'm still very sure if I dun get over her I will not love another girl. Sigh, I rly dun wanna pretend like having girls around me matters. I rly dun care if my class outings have no girls, it makes no difference to me. I rly dun care my class have a pathetic 6 girls. I rly dun care how many pretty girls are there in ACJC. I rly dun care how many fishes are there in the ocean. What I care, is I wanted that one.
People say first love normally fails. Now I'm starting to wish Grace isnt the first girl I love. Just for consolation.. And still.. I have no idea how long this emo state is gonna last... Hopefully not the whole of my JC life, if not I think I'll go insane halfway. I need a break. A long break. Like 2-3 months. I need that break to sort my life again. To set it back on its tracks.
And I dun like being myself. I dun wanna be cheerful. Cos I SURE AM NOT. And yet I dun wanna look depressed. Cos I SURE AM. I think I'm being too nice to people already. I think I should be REALLY selfish. Think of myself only and ignore others feelings. And yet I know its impossible for me to achieve that. Cos its already a habit for me to consider others first. What a lousy habit to have. The only time I don't consider others is when I snap, when I get rly pissed off wif myself for being so nice to others and not being nice to myself. I wanna be myself.
WHY I HATE SINGAPOREANS:
1) They are SO SO SO SO INCONSIDERATE!!!!
2) They are FREAKING KIASU!!!!
3) They are damn ACT COOL!!!!
4) They are VERY SELFISH!!!
Actually, mainly they are very inconsiderate...
WHY I HATE SINGAPORE:
1) COS I HATE SINGAPOREANS!!!
2) There isn't 4 seasons...
Since I state why I hate them, I should be fair and state why I like them.
WHY I LIKE SINGAPOREANS:
1) They are of the same nationality as me.
2) That's about it....
WHY I LIKE SINGAPORE:
1) My friends are in Singapore
2) She is in Singapore
3) Eh, that's about it too!
Hence you can see why I wanna migrate overseas so much...
These past few days have been EMO days for me.. I keep thinking of what could have been, and what will not be. Today, saw some fat guy in the bus. So I was like thinking at least I'm better off compared to him, since it will be even harder for him to get the person he loves. However, upon deeper thought, I realised I'm no better off. Does it matter whether its easier or not to get the person you love? It's the end result that matters. I didn't. So, how does that make me better off? Nope, I'm the same.. I know its rly evil of me to say that.. But I was just stating my thoughts.. And its kind of a cliche..
I rly feel my life is getting RLY shitty. I just keep feeling depressed nowadays. Life doesn't seem to interest me anymore and I get bored in almost everything I do. I even thought of commiting suicide. I can rly understand what those ppl who commited suicide went through. Now I realise, it rly isn't dumb to end your life. If your life starts getting pointless you should just end it. Why bother living a pointless life that leads to the same end anyway. My social life is seriously screwed up now. Love life SUX big time, even relationship between friends are straining. At least I feel so. I start getting discontent with so many things. My family life sux too.
I'm not ashamed to admit that 3 days ago and on Friday I cried at night. I rly don't think I want to live in this shit any more.. And well, I cried cause I felt the helplessness. I don't know what I can do to change my circumstance. Actually, ppl reading this now may think that I sound perfectly all right and even analytical. Well, I am. Cause I run on Deca-core technology. I have practically 10 brains each have a profile saved in them. I can freely change between each mode but now the EMO mode is corrupting all the rest. Just somehow I can stand back and view my life as a slideshow and analyse each, though I still am feeling very depressed. I think this is gonna last at least 1 month, like 2 years ago. Sigh, dono when is the next night I'm gonna cry again... I just hope I dun commit suicide. There are just so many things I wanna try before dying. Like owning a dog, living in the States, heck, even sex. Sex is rather low on my list though cause I probably will not have it anyway. Hence, its more impt for me to live in the States and owning a dog. ANyway, if you actually read my blog for say at least a month you can guess why I cried. If you can't, then go read again and train your comprehension skills.
Sigh, I duno what I shud do now.... My life is rly failing badly... I wish I was born as someone else. I dun mind being poorer. Got a feeling today may cry again. Ytd didn't cause I didn't think much, too tired, just flopped on my bed and slept. I need my dog again... Sigh, my dog is still the one that understands me most. And its my dog thats still my best friend. And its my dog thats always there when I'm weakest. I can't trust humans... After 3 years, I still love her like it was ytd when I met her. I'm still very sure if I dun get over her I will not love another girl. Sigh, I rly dun wanna pretend like having girls around me matters. I rly dun care if my class outings have no girls, it makes no difference to me. I rly dun care my class have a pathetic 6 girls. I rly dun care how many pretty girls are there in ACJC. I rly dun care how many fishes are there in the ocean. What I care, is I wanted that one.
People say first love normally fails. Now I'm starting to wish Grace isnt the first girl I love. Just for consolation.. And still.. I have no idea how long this emo state is gonna last... Hopefully not the whole of my JC life, if not I think I'll go insane halfway. I need a break. A long break. Like 2-3 months. I need that break to sort my life again. To set it back on its tracks.
And I dun like being myself. I dun wanna be cheerful. Cos I SURE AM NOT. And yet I dun wanna look depressed. Cos I SURE AM. I think I'm being too nice to people already. I think I should be REALLY selfish. Think of myself only and ignore others feelings. And yet I know its impossible for me to achieve that. Cos its already a habit for me to consider others first. What a lousy habit to have. The only time I don't consider others is when I snap, when I get rly pissed off wif myself for being so nice to others and not being nice to myself. I wanna be myself.
This is the result for my MBTI.
INFP:
Usually gentle and kind, they are intense and passionate about their values and deeply held beliefs, which they share with trusted friends. Because of their discreet manner, their enthusiasm may not be apparent. They are sensitive to others' pain, restlessness or general discomfort and strive to find happiness, balance and wholeness for themselves in order to help others find joy, satisfaction and plenitude. They are deeply empathetic.
They live life in an intently personal fashion, acting on the belief that each person is unique and that social norms are to be respected only if they do not hinder personal development or expression. They strive to adhere to their own high personal moral standards and are particularly sensitive to inconsistencies in their environment between what is being said and what is being done. Empty promises of adhering to something they value – such as environmental causes or human rights - set off an inner alarm and they may transform themselves into modern day Joan of Arcs.
They are quietly persistent in raising awareness of cherished causes and often fight for the underdog in quiet or not-so-quiet ways. In a team, they will raise issues of integrity, authenticity, and good or bad, and may to opt out if the team refuses to address the questions raised.
They are usually tolerant and open-minded, insightful, flexible and understanding. They live for the understanding of others and feel deeply grateful when someone takes the time to get to know them personally. They have good listening skills, are genuinely concerned, insightful, and usually avid readers. At their best, they inspire others to be themselves.
INFP:
Usually gentle and kind, they are intense and passionate about their values and deeply held beliefs, which they share with trusted friends. Because of their discreet manner, their enthusiasm may not be apparent. They are sensitive to others' pain, restlessness or general discomfort and strive to find happiness, balance and wholeness for themselves in order to help others find joy, satisfaction and plenitude. They are deeply empathetic.
They live life in an intently personal fashion, acting on the belief that each person is unique and that social norms are to be respected only if they do not hinder personal development or expression. They strive to adhere to their own high personal moral standards and are particularly sensitive to inconsistencies in their environment between what is being said and what is being done. Empty promises of adhering to something they value – such as environmental causes or human rights - set off an inner alarm and they may transform themselves into modern day Joan of Arcs.
They are quietly persistent in raising awareness of cherished causes and often fight for the underdog in quiet or not-so-quiet ways. In a team, they will raise issues of integrity, authenticity, and good or bad, and may to opt out if the team refuses to address the questions raised.
They are usually tolerant and open-minded, insightful, flexible and understanding. They live for the understanding of others and feel deeply grateful when someone takes the time to get to know them personally. They have good listening skills, are genuinely concerned, insightful, and usually avid readers. At their best, they inspire others to be themselves.
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