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Archive for 2009

Retrospect : Posting

These few days events seem like a blur and it feels so unreal.. And yet, I can feel God's hand in this. It seems all my worries got dispelled almost instantly. However, now more worries have settled in, but nvm, spare the details.

I'm really grateful to Him, His promise is real, He will lead you out of whatever trouble you land yourself in. I should trust more in Him. In time, I believe He will provide me with everything I need.

Anyway, I got posted to PLAB, same place as dex. NUS and NTU have both accepted me already. Now I'm just waiting for Melb uni. I need to make full use of this, God has been ever so gracious. Going to church this sunday. I hope God, through His words, can help me through these trying times.

Ytd, before book-out, was listening to radio in the office. For once I hear a relient K song on 987 fm! They were playing Be My Escape. Then suddenly tears welled up in my eyes, I dono la, Relient K songs always touch my heart. That song rly tells how God is always there for you, no matter how deep a mess you got yourself in, He is the key to solve all your problems, so we need to trust in Him. Lucky no one in camp saw hehe..

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Retrospect : EMO 1

This week past by quite un-eventfully. I miss school. I want to be studying again. Saturday went out wif TJ Dex and XY to watch movie at cineleisure. We wanted to watch knowing but in the end watched Fast and Furious because the there were no seats left. Sigh, nxt week then can watch Knowing. Fast and Furious was kind of... Ho-hum to me.. I think I'm just not into racing... And if i wanted to watch a show about wreckage and mayhem, transformers would be better.

Before the movie started, we went to play pool, TJ and I, XY and Dex. Quite fun la, playing wif friends haha, I think pool is just a game to socialise with buddies. I rmb last time I went with my class I was bored to tears. Not a nice thing to say but it's just what I feel.. ANyways, I sarbo TJ lose 2 games, sad.. First one we were winning by a large margin, den I accidentally hit the black ball in. ZZZ.. Last game cause we were rushing for time, movie starting soon. So I keep giving them free ball, end up lose. But, tis ok, friendly game anyway.

Sat was definitely the highlight of the week. Today I went to BPP on a mission. After that I went to Glenn's house to ka jiao him and jolene. but in the end I played on his comp for awhile den chatted wif him about army stuff. nth much, stayed there about 1 hr 30 mins. After that met my family for dinner.

Sigh, I've been feeling very tired these days. Both physically and emotionally. Mainly cause my soul is so tired that my body becomes lethargic. Sigh, I just want to lay down and rest already... 18 yet I feel like 80, waiting for death's embrace. I think my depression is setting in again... Funny how the psychiatrist can't see that I'm actually feeling depressed. I'm not supposed to feel this way, I've already talked myself into believing that time can solve problems, but I guess I'm too impatient. I keep telling myself to wait, endure this time, good things come to those who wait, yet i see around me, good things come all the time to people, why is it I can't seem to be happy...

I'm thinking of going back to church, hopefully God can help me. But I'm actually quite fustrated with Him. Sigh, oh me of little faith... Now I'm just praying He would take my life. I feel myself at a dead end again, with the walls closing in around me, sigh, I wish time would just stop. Anyway, life is so meaningless now...

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Retrospect : BACK FRM PERTH

I hate uploading photoes, period. Why isit so troublesome! Upload still need to link, sigh, not worth the effort considering I can't remember on which day I did what on my trip to perth.

This past 2 weeks I went out with my friends. Go to Funan to repair Dex's comp. First week people who went was WP TJ n dex. WP also needed to repair his computer, altho he did not manage to, they said they will contact him after they contact the manufacturer. TJ left us during the evening when we were walking down orchard road to meet Glenn. After which, b/c WP was rushing off to meet yvonne, we ended up eating KFC so that we can save time.

Yesterday went to Funan again to repair dexter's comp, only to find out that his motherboard has a power leakage and the only way is to replace it. So it was a wasted trip. We wanted to watch Knowing but timing sucks, and glenn was coming from east coast. sigh, change to nxt weekend watch. yesterday went to check out Astons b/c wp says the food there very nice. I think i agree, well, i didnt actually get to eat there, but judging by the throng of people waiting to enter, the food must be good. So we went kopitiam at plaza sing to eat. Following which we went to some hobby store tht sells swords. The swords are VERY COOL!!!! but they cost 300++ each. Anyways, saving up to buy frostmourne ($1244)!!! hahaha. Too bad it doesnt have the bluish glow it's supposed to have. So yesterday was an eventful day, and DARN tmr must go back to camp.

Sidenote: I TOTALLY FORGOT, saw a $1050 guitar with GREAT sound quality and very nice to play too. Darn, I considerng buying it now... ZzZ, why so EX :(

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Retrospect : POP

Finally PoPed.. Sigh, recently have been doing stupid stuffs and I have no idea why. My mood has also been going down, not good. I feel myself slipping into depression again..

I have no idea wad to do wif my life anymore, it just feels like nothings working. I really feel as though the world's against me and i'm rly tired of trying, i just wanna give up.

I really hate the regimentation in the army....

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Retrospect : I myself am confused O.o

Today's my blog creation day AND Grace's birthday! So.. Happy birthday Grace!

Okies, today damn shag (strange since i'm not in camp!). Slept at 2 am but woke up at 6 30 am. Dono why I woke up so early, damn stupid la. I slacked around at home until 10 then I headed for BPP to meet siewling. SUppose to meet her at 11 but I decided to go earlier cause... guys shouldn't make girls wait. THen when I left my house le she Smsed me say she'll be late cause she just woke up soo.. when I reached BPP I went for a walk around the area. After that when she reached we headed for Swensen for icecream. She needed to go to her friend's place so couldn't stay too long, supposed to send her there but my sis arrived early at Lot 1 so I bid farewell to her and went for lunch with my sis. Did some shopping afterwards before going home for a nap.

Woke up in the evening cause relatives came over. Father's side this time, and we ate. Got to chat with my cousin about army, learn a few stuffs, but I still don't want to go OCS/SISPEC. After that nth much else happened today. Tmr's book-in at 1745.

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Retrospect : First Bookout

I'm not supposed to blog about army! I don't know does it mean i cannot blog about what i feel. Craps....

Anyways, bookout feels really good, civi life is the life for me!

ANyways, i guess since i can't blog about army, there's rly nothing much to blog about, just that I LOVE SLACKING AROUND!!!! WOOOHOOO!!!!!

ok and HAPPY CNY PEEPS!

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Heading off to my new life soon. Meh.

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New year, new disappointments. Stop with it already..

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