Just came back frm Dex's party.. Had a blast there :D.. Thks for the great time man.. lol, today was abit dumb in the morning.. I went out wif my sis to eat at mac, den walked to Yew Tee and found out I forgot to bring money out.. Had to run home to get money.. Lol, and i was like gonna be late for dex's party.. Den eat eat, eat too much, den bloated.. Haha, go home go toilet immediately.. den bathe and bla bla bla, prepare go dex's party.. My parents went out look at car, so had to take public transport.. Took bus to Lot1 den changed to LRT to Bangkit.. First reach there that time played abit of badminton.. Den Jon thought of sth fun to do, smashing cups, c who can hit the most.. I hit none T_T.. well, actually hit a cap den it fell.. Haha.. Jon hit a cup and WP also hit a cup.. The rest also hit none.. Haha.. Nt ez wor.. Den Dex desperately trying to get pple to coorperate wif him to play grp games, but pple dun wan coorperate.. Later we went up to play tennis.. GX Alex pair won Jon JH pair.. And me wz pair won glenn ty pair.. Haha, tyco won.. Kip serving fault.. So lame.. Den I went dwn play table tennis wif jin zhe.. Didnt play a match.. But played one wif teck liang.. Haha, i collect data.. I hit to his backhand den he cant hit back.. but he still countered in the end.. And i won him 11-4, but he using left hand cus he broke/sprained his right hand, so abit unfair.. DEn i played wif dex's cousin, his serve very evil.. So fast!! At first i cannot counter him.. But still did in the end.. And i also found his weakness.. Hit to his backhand and hit close to his body.. service dun serve slant, serve straight.. In the end i service ace him alot of times.. won him 11-6.. Hehe, felt so happi after that.. IN the end dex managed to get most of the pple to coorperate wif him to play grp games, cept for glenn n wz, who were playing tennis.. the rest played taboo.. LegO clan got seperated, wif me, TY, GX on one side wif jin zhe and jon and a few others like eugene.. den other side had dex wp zs jh teckliang alex and dex sis.. we owned :D.. Score at end was 11-5.. We 11.. so they had to do forfeit which was cat walk!! Haha.. So funnie, esp tay yi's description of the word meteor.. Onli i got it.. the rest were errr.. i dunno wad u talking abt.. TY said priestess of the moon ult, so i say starfall, den he say wad drops and i say meteor!! Haha, got it rite... me pro!! Den i had to describe jet ski.. so ez.. esp wif smart teamates like jin zhe.. i say another word for military plane and he guessed jet.. den i say winter sport and obv onli haf ski/snowboard.. so put it together = jet ski.. haha, took onli 30 secs.. im gd.. haha..den another one was a challenge, both team send representative, then c which grp can guess firs.. me n wp, and word was video.. lol, my team guessed firs cus wp abit slow... hahaha... cat walk was funnie, cus everyone coorperated, cept for wp.. that lamer... ZzZ... den later play bear bear.. i wanted to be bear, but teck liang nv choose me.. T_T... den later play murderer, by that time glenn came dwn so he joined in.. Second game had a forfeit and unfortunately, glenn cldnt save 7 pple in time.. so he had to do forfeit.. we asked him sing a song, and picked shinjiru, but he anyhow sing it and alot were nt happy wif it, so we asked him to welcome to my life.. in the end me n wp sang it for him.. lol.. but nt bad lar, was fun.. and sry for nt paragraphing but my fingers are just moving on auto... den later sang bday song and ate cake, den play go home game.. we w8 to go home lol...

finally a paragraph.. Dis is for past events, tt i was too lazy to post.. actually, its quite short.. Rozi called my parents like a few days ago.. For results, cus I failed 2.. I expected to fail physics since i nv shade my OAS.. So.. true to my expectation, i failed it.. And teachers had to call students parents if they fail 2 or more subj.. But rozi tt lamer called my parents and tell results den started saying i was snobbish O.o... Erm.. Huh?? ME?? If she said egoistic/ arrogant I will agree wif her.. But SNOBBISH??!! -.-.. She say i refuse to talk to my classmates cus their parents are taxi drivers -.-.. Erm.. I dun care abt social standing when i talk to pple... Its just tt I am anti social.. And the onli rich fren i haf is tay yi.. tts all.. So, in the end, my father i think got bad impression of her.. WHee!!! I nv liked her, hhahaha... And i told my classmates the nxt day and they were like ROFL!! and i also told glenn they all lar.. who probably know me best.. and they were -.-.. Sho funniez... HAiz.. But I am sooo egoistic.. mus curb it!! I cant stand losing to anyone.. I might nt show it, but actually i feel v bu shuang inside.. Hehe, now glenn gonna know tt i v bu shuang when i lose to him in DotA.. HAHAHA... but nvm... i dun care.. oh yar, glenn dun read blogs!! hahahahah.. lame... ok, end... thks for reading up to here wif my poor paragraphing..

I feel like I am gonna die.. Haiz.. Nothing to do at home, my results sucked, my parents dun wanna buy new game for me.. Haiz.. Hopefully they will still allow, since I am persuading them to now.. There are just so many things weighing my mind down now, and i dunno when to begin solving them.. Everything I do seems so screwed.. Like DotA.. Used to be able to own even if playing alone.. Just now played a game wif DK and I think i played until like average bnet player.. That is not enuff.. I MUST go WAY beyond that if I even wan to make a difference to the team. Rite now, it seems like Glenn is the gamemaker..

My heart and mind seems soooo divided.. I tried getting over you, but I just can't. And its making me soo tired I just want to lay down to rest.. What to do. I feel so lost.. I never felt this much despair since January.. Haiz.. Rite now I play games wif the sian sian attitude.. May be partly the reason I playing so crappily now.. At least WP coming back tmr.. Can FINALLY talk to him again.. OK, I am NOT gay and I am certainly NOT addicted to him. Its just that I can sort of confide in him. Not my other frens. I cld share it wif a girl, but I think.. Nah, I too shy.. Although Most of my problems are already stated here.. I need 2 heal my spirit but there is no moonwell or Fountain of Health in my house.. Even sports does not interest me anymore.. Usually I wld eagerly join my clan in playing badminton but now I always get the strong urge to say no when they ask me..

Could all this be an illusion? Or isit because I am PURPOSELY feeling this.. Or my results are so CRAP that I start to lose faith in myself. I know some pple will advice me to place my faith in Him, but how.. When u are truly in despair, u just wanna end your life. But I still feel there is much more to life than what it is now. School helps me abit, since I can get away from my computer that seems to be draining the life out of me and I get to socialize wif my frens.. And I still feel I am anti-social. Outside of my fren circle I never talk to anyone else unless they talk to me.. Rite now, I onli talk to my clan members by choice.. Or when I am SO bored that I anyhow strike a conversation wif my classmates.. Even so, I still feel empty. I am an empty vessel that needs filling..

The onli result I am satisfied wif is my MT.. Surprising.. MT was my weakest subject, contrary to what my frens believe.. I just speak chi on the fone, at home I still use EL.. My lit.. I thot I cld get A1.. But I guess.. Nope.. So I am sooo disatisfied wif my Lit.. My poem sabo me.. But then again, Osgodby is the one marking it and hes so strict.. At least his comment on one of my point was Gd.. So it gave me the confidence that i can do better.. Its these little things that instil determination into a student.. How i wish I got Osgodby as my lit teacher, nt that I dun like Ms Ong.. Its just taht I feel she does nt like me.. Maybe i am just too sensitive.. Thinking abt it.. I feel so hated.. Rozi Hates me.. although that one i cant care less.. She is just so.. childish and unreasonable. She is the first teacher who whines when sth goes wrong.. and her incessant whining is SO irritating.. She does not know how to solve her own problems and expects us to solve it for her. Hello, we are paying u ur salary.. Why shud we be helping u solve ur problem..

Well.. Tahts all I guess.. Adios Amigos..

-------------------Despair is a hole in your heart that drains your life fluids--------------------

Ai.. Blogger gort a weird problem.. Sigh.. Just posting to document a REALLY stupid and FUNNIE thing that happened today.. As i think most pple know, today is our Physics paper.. Got 2 stupid things happen.. First thing, I was late for the exam, wif my class though, den when i went into the hall, my fren reminded me to bring calculator.. Which, i didnt bring down, so I ran all the way up and ran down again, but already like so late and I missed most of e instructions.. Then I dun care lar, just start doing paper.. MCQ was ez, paper 2 is ok ok.. I dislike paper 2 cus got so much drawings then waste my time drawing.... Haiz.. Managed to finish paper 2 den teacher say times up and i thought, just in time!! Den Mr Lim ask us check ur OAS and MAKE sure u got ur class in the centre no. So i checked and den wrote my class.. ANd then, I REALISED I NEVER SHADE THE WHOLE THING!!! IT WAS TOTALLY CLEAN!!! Den I stun liao, and the teacher was walking arnd collecting the scripts and I was like OH NO!! WAD TO DO??!! 30 MARKS!!!! Haiz.. Den she came and i just handed in the blank OAS plus my paper 2, and she nv like noticed it was blank... Den after that, I laughed.. Call me crazy but I just started laughing.. It was REALLY a stupid thing to do and I was like laughing and telling my fren that i NEVER shade OAS.. And they nv believe me.. Haiz... I resolve to fail my EOY physics liao.. Although might still be able to get a borderline pass.. Haiz.. At least I learnt my lesson, nxt time do MCQ, shade it IMMEDIATELY and not write down answer on paper.. Haiz.. Been doing that since P1 until dis yr mid yr... And nothing went wrong.. Luckily it happened in EOY dis yr and NOT O level nxt yr.. Thank God.. Always look on the bright side :D.. Lucky dis happened now and not nxt time.. So I wasnt rly that unhappy although at first I was.. Since i could haf gotten an A2 or even A1.. Sigh.. But neways, thank God for making me realise my mistake earlier..

Bought Maksim's new album A New World and the songs are realliy nice.. I think I wanna learn how to play Nostradamus.. Haha, but saw the score liao, very disheartening...