Today's the last day I spent in my CCA in PJC!! Haha, after today NO MORE DOTA CLUB!! YAY!! Anyways, today PE sth incredible happened. I stood like 30 CM away frm the 3 point line and shot a soccer ball into the basketball hoop! I was like WOW!! Silent shot somemore! Haha, HAXXORZ!

After that was my last day in my CCA. Boring lar, I rly regretted taking it as a CCA. Luckily, I only went for 3 trainings total. Haha. Not that I needed any o.0. After my CCA I went to ACJC to meet Glenn n WP, and together we went to Queensway to solve our racquet woes. I got a yellow grip and yellow BG 80 string for my Ashaway racq. Den me n WP saw this rly cool looking Ashaway racquet, Ashaway Thunder I think. It's like totally shiny and RLY RLY LIGHT! IT's LIKE THE Lightest Racquet EVEr. We had a look at the squash racquets too. Both me n WP felt Prince's 03 Silver looks the best, rly sleek and futuristic. However, Glenn felt 03 Orange better. Lol, he said becus it looked weird. Ah well, both racquets are $190. Not bad. Max string tension is 29lbs.

While we were at AC, I told GLenn that today, during my chinese public speaking, I said that I was gay and that I like him. And I told him I think some of my class people actually believed it. Den WP chimed in that I was ruining Glenn's name. Den I said I was praising him, so it was more like making him more well-liked! Besides, I used his Chinese name, not his english name. Lol.. I came up wif 3 reasons as to why some ppl will actually believe I'm gay.
1) My MSN Dps are always guys.
2) My class ppl knows I'm crazy abt ACJC and in my speech I said Glenn was frm AC.
3) WP keeps trying to hug me -.-||...
Well, I believed I wrote in my blog that if she doesn't like me I wld be gay. Come to think of it, I dun wanna be gay (Not that I can, it's just not in my genes). I'll just remain a bachelor. So they were teasing me that I was gay. Sometimes I will tell Glenn that so and so is good looking (guy). Then Glenn said its a sign of gayness. But I think its ok for guys to think other guys are good looking. Not that I'm attracted to them... And I also told Glenn I'm not interested in girls. Just don't wanna flirt you know? Not horny yet? Lol, I'm a decent guy! Then GLenn n WP somehow related it to being gay -.-||... But alas, I know they are just joking... I hope... Well, Glenn said he has faith in me that I will find a girl that I like and that I will get married. He also said the problem is I dun have faith in myself. It's true, I mean, I dun even have confidence that I will get into ACJC. Even after so many people assured me. Actually, its times like these, that I felt Glenn is rly a good friend. Though such times are rare :). Sometimes he rly says stuffs that are insightful. Which is also why I admire him. Heck, that will make him think I'm gay LOL! I think I'm just not rdy for a relationship, don't even know when I'll be ready, after that MAJOR heartbreak... As the proverb goes, "A burnt child fears the fire." Then WP added that I'll probably be the first to get married among the three of us. Even Derek thinks I'll get married. Not that I will PURPOSELY not get married to prove them wrong. But when I do, I'll let them know if we're still in contact :). For when I do, it means I've finally gotten over her. OR as brokeback puts it, just trying to cover up, trying to forget abt past relationships. Such weddings WILL and ALWAYS fail. Mwahhz, Glenn says AC will change me n make me somewhat interested in girls. Maybe.... See first :).. I dun mind giving a shot at it. But.. Is not interested in girls such a terminal illness? ISit that much a cause for concern? Besides, my mom doesn't want me to start relationships.

Meh, right now GUY friends deserve more of my time than GIRLS. And COMPUTER games are higher on my PRIORITY list than looking for GIRLS. And STUDIES are definitely more IMPORTANT than GIRLS. I shall stick to my plan of getting 4As for A levels, surviving NS, going to NUS for BA, followed by Princeton for Masters & PhD, before travelling Europe/USA, migrate to the states, and find a job. Yepp, that's my plan before thinking of starting a relationship.

I'm pretty idealistic rite? Life ain't a bed of roses, and so far it's been a bed of hot coals for me.

I shall end this post with a parting note:
"Every little thing I do never seems enough for you."

Soledad.............

Your Birthdate: October 10

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it. You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter! You are very prone to love - hate relationships. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2 You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

Just realised sth, Why does the number of times You'll have your heart broken is always equal to the number of true loves you'll have?? DotX.. Stupid QUIZ..

Yay, finally got more ppl tagging :):)..

kk.. Our posting results are coming out soon!! Yay, can feel the excitement alr.. It's on 7th March. And after that, we have our 1 wk holidays!! I think it's confirmed that we are going over to Glenn's house for a stayover, but the length is not decided. K, now I just hope my dad and mom allows me to bring my comp over.

Tuesday I have dental appointment. Hmm.. Right now I'm deciding if I should get braces. It's SO expensive..

Okay, go KBox for musical outing? I think Glenn n WP wun be too happy abt it lol.. Last time suggested KBox Glenn was "huh... dun want leh.." Den watch movie also no good for an outing, cos no socialising, just keeping quiet in the cinema. Glenn will surely suggest cycling and WP will surely say YA! YA! Also, WP will suggest......... Ice skating -.-.... Now, I suggest..... SKIING!!! 3 Days 2 Night stay in KOREA! Lol... USA also can, but air ticket to Korea is cheaper.

Sometimes I wonder what life is like as a pop star........ Nvm......

Some random fact: It's physically IMPOSSIBLE to crack an egg by applying pressure whilst holding it in your palm. Haha, Glenn n WP learnt it the hard way :):).. TOo bad I nv bet wif WP. DOH!

Then again, I hate gambling.. Lol...

Glenn asked me to camp outside Covenant EFC every Saturday and Sunday. Lol.. I might.. If someone wanna camp with me. You know, cover my back.. Haha! The likeliest I'll do is go Glenn's house den after that go cycling/walking/jogging/play badminton/eat wif him. Den conveniently go pass the church. *Laughs maniacally* *Coughs* Ok.. Nvm..

I wonder.. Does Glenn go to church..? Somehow he seems so involved in TY's church activities. Or maybe cos Dex tell him..

"Tell me why I can't be there where you are"

Sigh, I'm still so.. Shy.. Afraid.. Wonder how guys even try to chase after a girl... Lol, must be retribution, I used to laugh at guys failing, and thinking they are stupid.

Lol, i went off to watch vids on yahoo music and end up forget to finish blogging... Oh w8! BE My Escape just started! Byebye, I go watch! WOots! So nice that song... Sigh, Yahoo took down alot of vids.. Now alot of my fav vids I can't watch anymore...

Sigh, i'm too distracted to blog so stop here. And.. I haven't had my dinner and its 8:17 lol..

Yoyoyo.. So long since I last posted. CNY just passed like that, nothing much to it. Just got to catch up on times with my cousins. Haha, suddenly everyone seemed so grown-up. Sigh. Crashed AC squash training again ytd. Wow, training is RLY slow when all the girls come.. Lol, Glenn got irritated and went to play in the free court. We also got to see the DSA players play, and boy are they GOOD.

School nowadays feel so surreal, cos I know I wun be staying on in PJC, and yet I dun wanna withdraw... And the super short weeks due to result release and CNY didn't help either. Sigh.. ANyway, sidetrack a little, who wanna play World of Warcraft wif me? I got lvl 29 warlock in Nagrand and lvl 12 Hunter in Thaurissan. Dono whether my parents going overseas anot.. If they go overseas den I may stayover at Glenn's house. Also, Glenn suggested (or was it WP) a stayover at his house during the hols. I dun mind lol, I'll bring my 8800GTX COMP OVER!! WAHAHA!

Anyway, my aims for physical conditioning are:
1) Do 2.4 in under 11 minutes.
2) Train abs via sit-ups.
3) Train wrist muscle for squash and badminton
4) Train shoulder muscles for stronger swing.

Sigh, got quite alot work to do. Not to mention in order to build stronger muscles need to eat more. Sigh.. These days I dun have appetite, see food feel like puking (Doesn't help that PJC food sux).

"A helping hand to make it right, I am holding you walk through the night.."
"I'll be the light, when you feel like there's no where to run."

Feel SOOO tired nowadays, and I dun understand why. I should have had alot of sleep due to the holidays.

There's something missing in my life.... Unpredictabilities, excitement... I miss those in BP.... Sigh, now I'm starting to miss those times we had during musical. Gawsh, it was RLY fun and I had something to look forward to every week. lol.

"Tell me why, those times seem so far away..."

Sigh, dono wad to post leh.. Alot of things I feel like saying yet bcos this is public (Well.. I set it to private yet google still turns it out in searches...), I shall not.... Anyway, I feel like changing my blog URL..

Today's valentines day and as usual, I have no date.

Edit: I got a date!! Glenn dated me to go ACJC and play squash wif him hahaha..

Anyway, today pon my chinese tutorial (again). My class sarbo us (again), told my chinese teacher we pon chinese. But seriously, I dun care.... Though I do not want to leave a bad impression. I have a gd reason ok! I had to leave early so I can make it to ACJC in time for squash training. It starts at 2 30 and my school ends 1 30. What's more I need to have my lunch first. So I decided to pon chinese, and my frens decided to pon wif me haha. It just so happened chinese is the last period lar...

SO went ACJC. VERY nervous at first, scared of the guard. In the end the guard didn't even give us so much as a glance. Met HZ and chatted wif him. ACJC rly treats valentine day seriously man... Anyway, saw Grace but Glenn said he didn't see. Haha, she looks rly cute wif her hair plaited. So I walked around wif GLenn, listen to him talk to his friends. Felt so left out sigh.. Den went for squash training. Haha, actually its fun! What's more, I made it to the school team! HAHA! Anyways, there was this girl in squash that I suspect is interested in Glenn. Everytime Glenn turn she will shout "Go Glenn gO!!" Den when Glenn not hitting and she isn't she would talk to him. What's more, its her second time at squash only.... But then again, she could just be VERY friendly, but seriously, what are the chances. And I found the squash coach rly nice haha. But shooting is still my top priority. Anyway, the teacher IC came and was asking glenn and some other guy their L1R5 and if they're still staying on in AC. den she asked mine, so i said 9, den she asked are u staying, and i replied i'm not from this school, thinking of transferring here. So she asked me wad school am i frm, and i said PJC. She said Oh, VJC? Ic, so u minus 4 wif 5? Den i said I dun take HMT, den she said I probably can get in. THe funny thing was, she mistook PJC to VJC. Oh well.. I don mind coming frm a good school without actually being in it.

Took the MRT home wif Glenn, chatted wif him all the way. Man, I feel we bonded closer alr.. After that ate in KFC wif him at Lot 1, before we went home. Urk, my mom bought alot of new year stuffs and my fathers relatives are all coming over to eat on sunday (Aw man, free loaders on our food!). Sigh, Every year without fail they would come to our house. I don rly mind them, just that they keep relying on my dad for financial aid, which is very irritating.. Like last time one of my cousins wanna open a food store in a hawker centre, den my dad came up wif half the money i think, so he was a shareholder, den they closed down after a few months -.-... I dun think my dad got back the money he invested. And he's like so calm about it.... WT, my family isn't exactly made of money.. Ok, and the other part I dun like is they keep asking me "Whats ur results," "Where u wanna go," U know, small talk? It's RLY RLY RLY IRRITATING! Sometimes I wish I get 6 points and get into RJC so I can tell them to SHUT UP! I mean, somehow my mother's side not so bad, they do ask, but not until so irritating... Oh wait, even if I get into RJC they wld continue to ask "What university you wanna go to?". JEEZ I RLY HATE SMALL TALK! I guess this kind of small talk not as bad as "Why are you still single?", "Do you have a girlfriend?", "Why JC still dun have?". That's definitely worse. I would simply answer "Bachelorhood is the way and I wanna travel the earth without xtra baggage." Thats my dream actually, to be travel the Earth. (Actually, Europe and America only). The ONLY and I rly mean ONLY exception is if she accepts me. Yeah, den I wld be willing to start a relationship and family. If not, forget it, wait until I'm bored of travelling. And I have a limit to which I must get married by. After the age of 35 I wld be SINGLE and NOT LOOKING. So pretty much I wun rly get married. And Derek was saying I would miss out on something important in my life (Ok, for those of you who fake innocent or rly innocent, its SEX). Den I was like, "You wld miss out on sth better, called TRAVELLING!"

As a parting note, Rly sincerely praying that I would be able to enter ACJC.

P.S. To all readers, ENJOY LIFE!

Post-Postscript: =)

RESULTS RESULTS!! Gasp, the day we've been waiting so eagerly for (or not)! Actually, others wld beg to differ but neways, I was w8ing eagerly for this day!

Anyways, I got... 9 points!!! YEAH!!! AT LEAST NOT DOUBLE DIGIT!!! Ok, I shall pray and give thanks to God later tonight :). Haha, though I was expecting 7 points, since I thought my A maths and Bio wld be A1. End up A2. Lala.

NEways, gonna apply to go ACJC. Yep, that school sure sounds fun, from friends I have in there. Haha.

Read Grace's blog and she thanked the teachers inside it. Well, Shud I do likewise? Since I rly have nothing else to post.

*Scratches head, thinking of ppl to thank*
(In no order of importance, just jumbled)

My Mom: Ah well, definitely have to thank my mom for pushing me :). Though I wasn't pushed much, but at least she gave me momentum to start :).

My Sis: Haha, actually, she just provide consolation and stuffs, yeah, but she's the GREATEST sister on Earth :).

Glenn: Wow, have no idea why the names aren't my teachers, how bout, I normally sleep in class! Haha, ya, so I also wonder why Glenn is in my list. Thank him for giving me reassurance, without him I'd feel so lost.

Grace: Lol, ya, I rmb posting RLY long ago that she was my motivation, yeah, so must thank my motivation. She motivated me to do well (Though she did not say anything, it was more like in my head kind of thing).

Wt, rly have no teachers for me to thank, I pretty much relied on myself all the way. Ya, they do help out in some places but not significant enough. I'm a soloist haha.

Anyway, the school acknowledged ppl wif 8 distinctions, however, BOTH ME N GLENN HAD 8 AND WE WEREN'T ACKNOWLEDGED!! GRRR!! UNFAIR UNFAIR UNFAIR!!!!

"I try to, just forget you. But I dunno how, if only I knew. It's written all over your face, such a painful thing to waste, tell me now, where do we go? Now the future's not so clear, I can't believe we've ended here, where's the world that doesn't care, maybe I could meet you there."

"Maybe I should meet you there.."

"Maybe.."

".."

Woots, wounded again. Bah, not fun to relate the incident, suffice to say, there is one rowdy class and their teacher wants them to win, case closed.

"I'm waiting for the perfect time to call you back. Cos I rmb saying I dun wanna another truth, can't handle that."

"I'm sorry. If I ever slagged you down I meant no harm. But when I heard the stories, said things I didn't mean should have stayed calm. Sadly, you got angry, and it breaks my heart. You're so mad at me.."

"Tell me now, where do we go..."

Results are out soon! Yeah! This friday!! Maybe staying over at TY's hse tmr. Nt sure.

"You can save me from the man that I've become... Looking back on the things I've done.. I was trying to be someone. I've played my part, kept you in the dark, now let me show you the shape of my heart..."

Sigh, WoW servers are so unstable lately, can't play at all. And I haven't gotten my Supreme Commander yet, sianz... Actually, I dun think it's out yet.

Actually, dono wad to post haha.

Noticed sth rly cool today while showering. I took off my plaster den while showering inspected my wound. It had white colour stuff all over it (dead skin?). Den later shampooed my hair. Den i looked at my hand again, and i noticed some yellow discolouration. Den immediately I thot wad weird thing am I afflicted wif now... Den I went to rub it, and it felt slippery and it comes off. So i smelt my finger. Oh, it was my shampooo. Lol, den i luffed at my paranoid-ness.

WoW character lvl 18 now. Sigh, its painfully hard to level up. But had my first taste of a dungeon raid today. Now i know why its so addictive. its rly fun and i had like a 2+ hr raid in the dungeon. Rox :)!

Speakin of spendin so much time in WoW, I didnt do my chinese essay today. Not my fault also.. My comp cant read + write chinese. Also coming down wif a flu. Yux, have to drink a yucky flu medicine. Flu SUX!

Woo, found another 2 injury today. Both on the same knee. Haha, bruise. Damn cool. While I was bored I would press it and try to apply pressure until I cannot bear the pain. Wah, feels rly good when I feel the pain. I dun care if its supposed to be bad for healing haha. I still rmb last time I would trick my sister to help me press it. I would say like If you can make me wince in pain or say ouch I would give her money. Aha, she never succeeded.

nt much to post in the weekend, my life is just one boring life. Ah well. without her in my life, surprises and unpredictabilities cease to exist. *Symphony of sorrow and pain* (Lol, almost typed Frost and Flame). Oh, and dled microsoft free edition of Visual C++. somehow it doesnt work wif my basic programming stuffs, so i didnt try the advanced stuff and uninstalled it. Need to find a good compiler. Recommendations? Ok, i have nth else to post.

****, v pain... I not going school on Monday probably, need to go hospital soon. Some ******* pushed me to the floor today. and that person frm my class one. Damn pissed now. Damn, here to vent my anger, cant believe I apologized to him when I kicked him. Damn. Didnt wanna cause a scene.

So, if u wanna know how serious it was, there was a crater. Yeah, A CRATER in my finger.. And now KENA INFECTION. ****, need to go hospital alr... Not sure how long they will keep me in... But looks serious now... Screw... Totally cant bend my finger now, got a bandage around it. My mom calling NUH now to check wif them if hospitalisation is required and bla bla bla, so now i here to post. I dun even know how kena infection....

CHILDISH GAMES! I HATE PEOPLE WHO PLAY CHILDISH GAMES! !@#$%^&*() YOU PEOPLE! **** Ok, need to go out now, ****, will update again when I get back....
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Ok, so who believed the above story? Haha, it was blown up alot more lar. Ok, abt the crater its true lar. There IS a crater in my finger. And ya, it does hurt alot, like my whole finger on fire. And Its true I cant bend my finger now, cos its totally plastered. haha. Hope dun kena infection, last time I kena this kind of thing almost have to amputate. but last time was my whole arm. THe doctor last time told me if dun heal within one weak will have to amputate. LUCKY LUCKY it healed. Cant believe if they amputated one of my arm.

Abt the seriousness its not true. Abt the anger, yes, I'm rly angry, and yes I RLY HATE PEOPLE WHO PLAY CHILDISH GAMES!

Jeez, still I think today campfire ended TOO early. I mean, I was just getting hyped up den they say go home go home.. SIANZZZ.. Not fun one... ACJC better, let them play until 11. In the end, wad I dun like abt PJC is still the people. Of course, its a general statement, there are really great people too. Rly like Joel's blogsong, "Everything to me" I Think, rly nice song.

Some ppl in my class are just so talented. Derek is like an inventor-in-the-making, Joel can play the drums, and can do pull-ups like its childsplay and he's also a rly nice guy, Terence can play soccer, badminton, and the piano. Sigh, then I think of myself, I can only be a jack of all trades but a master of none. The only thing I'm close to mastering is DotA, and its not satisfying at all. Damn, I h8 complaining. I wanna do sth abt it. I shall do FULL BODY WORKOUT, not to mention I shall start learning some musical instrument, self-taught. Also, I'm gonna pick up programming. And, I wanna be a nice guy, I wanna be someone everyone will like (Which is so isnt myself, and I h8 not being myself). As the saying goes, you can't please everyone. Darn, I'm rly living a screwed up life.

《梦痕》
V.1.0B
你有梦痕。他有梦痕。每个人都有梦痕。痕迹的深度当然会不一样，但是重点就是每个人都有梦痕。生为人，我们都会有梦想，因为有梦想，所以逃不掉梦痕。我们必须知道我们这一生一定有几个梦想是实现不了的。一旦有梦想不能实现，我们要坚持下去，因为即使我们颓丧也解决不了问题。
有些人很特别，他们并没有梦想。我属于这类的人。没有梦想的生活真好，无忧无虑，什么东西都可以做。但是，没有梦想也有不好的地房，譬如当老师要你写关于梦想的文章，你就写不出了。突然间我忘记要写什么，因此就到此为止。

AM really irritated now that WoW server is down. Crap, waste $1 today cus I can't play. It had BETTER be working tmr...

Tmr wld be campfire night #2! Quite looking forward to it since there is mass dance and fun dance haha. DOno why but nowadays I'm rly into dancing (Not becus of girls, I can garunttee that). I just find dancing fun and a great way to have a workout. Contrary to popular belief, dancing is cool!!

Today WP and my sis came. My sis pretty much just hanged out wif her senior. I hanged out wif WP. We went to the hall to play the grand, den saw Alvin and some girl playing badminton and we got tempted into playing. So me n WP played alone first, half court. We borrowed Alvin's racquet. Wow, he's rich, he has like 5 racquets each priced at about $300. After that jordan came and I stopped playing. WP and jordan played against 2 girls frm his class. One of them quite good, last time school team one. WP and jordan still won. After that me n WP played against jordan and alvin. although we didnt play score, we were winning haha.

ok, i think i found out the code to type out for programming to input strings. To declare a string, it isnt "string variable", but char string[insert number]. Basically a string is an array of char. Haha, cool, now i can continue making my survey tmr. Gotta learn how to upload the final product to blogger template so ppl can do my quiz. too bad its in MS console.

Just now I went to zheng hwa CC to play badminton wif WP and his church friends. Den later glenn joined us. Me n WP pretty much won his church friends. Made a few new aquinttances. Quite happy I went actually. Den poor Glenn came. Why poor? He has a sore throat. Awwwww... Ok, everyone wish him well and hope he gets well soon :). He alr has that dreaded thing for 1 wk. From me to him: Hope you get well soon Glenn :). Dun look so moody, you looked rly down today.

Haha, looks like glenn knows joel too, he's in his group during youth camp.

Seriously considerin going to wp church again. Dono, but suddenly i find christians rly friendly. Last time i went always seem to attract weird looks. It may just be me but i felt rly uncomfortable and stopped going after half a year. After today, I realised that being in church actually lifts my spirit up. Seriously, I believe in the prescence of God. Somehow I felt rly calm when I was there for service. And anyways, the worship songs are realli great. But I'm not enthu until like some of the guys who knelt down. These things take time I guess, not used to it and my mom ain't rly very approving of me going.

Take it from me, meeting new people is rly fun! I was too stubborn last time, but still, I am very serious when it comes to lifetime friends. Once you are a good friend of mine, you'll stay that way. I rly treasure Glenn and WP as my friends. They are my bestest friends :). I should rly thank God for sending them into my life, they have helped me pass a difficult secondary school life, though some of the difficulty was added by them haha. Rly was a wild sec school life. Hope to be able to enter ACJC during the JAE intake.

Soon, results wld be released nxt Friday. the newspaper and news should be announcing the date this weekend.

Ok, sign off for now. Hope to have a blast tmr :):)..