Is it a sin to love you? Somehow I feel so, it's just that how can someone as imperfect as me love you? It's like I am trying to break into the upper caste.

Ytd Meet The Parents Session. My mom came to talk to Rozi, but that part nth much lar. Ytd my mom saw Grace for the first time. Lol. Den I didnt know she saw her, until dinner time when eating my mom suddenly say the girl I talk abt isit Grace Wong. Den I like huh? Wong? I dunno a Grace Wong, but my cousin is Bernice Wong. LOL!! Den I say nope, den I said is Grace Wang. Den my mom say she cldnt see tag clearly, just rmb seeing Grace W*ng. So she guessed Wong. Diao. But shud be correct lar, since she said Grace was wif 3 other girls. Which ytd when I saw was correct. The conversation was sth like that.

Mom: You know that girl you tell me abt?
Me: Ya?
Mom: I saw her today, her name is Grace Wong isit?
Me: err... No.
Mom: Maybe I saw wrong..
Me: Her name is Grace Wang
Mom: Oh, I saw Grace W*ng, cannot see clearly, but was she with 3 other girls?
Me: Should be, one was Rachel, the other I dunno, and the last one was RuYi.
Mom: I think she looks like those decent girls, but she isnt veri pretty.
Me: Oh........ (I dun realli get my mom's taste)
Dad: Are you interested in her???
Me: No...... (This is of course a blatant lie)
Mom: Why are you so eager to find out if ur son likes someone?
Dad: Oh no, my son dun like girls...
Me: Yeah, I like guys.

I feel that Grace is the prettiest girl I have ever saw, and the most talented one too.

Been feeling depressed these few days. I dunno for wad. Results? Maybe. I just dunno wad to do with my life anymore. Musical is very interesting, I felt I had alot of fun there. But, I wish I got a major role, like Maurice. I think, I am at a disadvantage cus I never had the courage or boldness to step forward and challenge for a role. Even if I had a high chance to win. I think I am too passive, I'd rather everyone got along and I dun wanna cause disputes. In fact, unless the director make me try out for the role, it is highly unlikely I wld volunteer for any role. Haiz, I think I am either a coward or indecisive. I kind of think I am a coward. I dare not do alot of things. Budden, when I went for tryouts, I wanted to try for Maurice the role, but the director never gave me a chance. After Glenn tried he immediately picked Glenn. Haiz.. Gaston's role I obviously cannot, I am neither tall, dark, nor handsome. Haiz. Beast? Nonono, I dun haf that height, nor the raspy voice. I dun even think I have the strength. Glenn lost the Maurice role to Dexter. And I feel that it is rather unfair for Glenn, he shud be given a chance to improve. In fact, today I can see that Glenn already putting in effort to improve. He even stop smiling! He also added feelings into his act. I feel v sorry for Glenn, prepare so much then lose the role. Haiz. Life is so unfair. I shud be more like Dexter, bold, daring, dare to ASK for sth. The problem wif me, even in other situations, is I dare not ask for things, even if I have the right to. Like, when I wanna swap items in the NTUC, I dun dare to walk to the cashier to demand an item switch because the one I got is "faulty". I dun dare to ask for refunds, ask for directions, ask for something, ask for ANYTHING! I dunno WHY??!! But I realli need 2 start being bolder, or else alot of opportunities gonna pass me by. Now, I already regretted when I first auditioned for the musical I wasn't aggressive enuff. I was so passive, I basically relied on the director putting me to roles. Haiz. I shud have fought for the roles.

The other time I posted abt a dream, ytd had the same dream again. Not exactly the same, just the "theme" is more or less the same. Hope it realli meant that the dream gonna come true. Dunno though.

Autumn arrives and the flower in my heart withers.....

Dunno why I posted the above line, just felt it was realli nice. I invented it :D. I think I gonna put it as my MSN nick sometime soon.

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In my sEA of REd
ThERE liEs onli onE
OthERs cAn't suRvivE
SAvE my CrystAllinE DRaGon

Dragons
Green Dragon, Red Dragon, Azure Dragon, Crystal Dragon, Ebony Dragon
Reigning as the ultimatum in mythology
An aura of assurance emits from them
Channeling courage into people on its side
Erasing fear from their hearts
Inspirational
Lifting any doubts in people
Overcasting the skies of enemies
Volleying flames into their ranks
Effectively destroying thy foes

Dragons are indeed inspirational for me. My fav, numero uno, mythical beast. To me, the dragon is a symbol of undying power, unwavering courage, of not giving up for wad I stand for.