Happy birthday to Grace :):)!

Happy birthday to my blog :):)!

Yepp, 31st Jan is a special date for me haha. Ok, for those of u who dun get it, im too lazy to xplain.

Yaa, I cant believe I have blogged for 2 yrs now, I wld have thought after 1 year I would stop.

Den again, there are alot of things that I thought and proved wrong.

It's funny, that this is my own blog, and yet out of fear of wad ppl might think, I cant type wad i thought and proved wrong.

Well, one of them can, I thought I wld forget abt her but well, to make a long story short, she's always on my mind.

Wondering why I'm typing in such short paragraphs. I guess its to make this post look long. I rly have nothing much to post, I'm too lazy to post abt happenings in school. Ok, maybe one.

Had quite a long chat wif Joel today, found out he goes to Glory Presbyterian church. Same one TY goes to. And that he has a personal website wif his twin, http://www.theohbrothers.com. I find him a v nice guy, just somewhat shy. And he plays the drums. Lol.

I'm quite distressed as to wad to do wif my time tmr. I have 2 hrs of nothing-to-do-ness. And after school, my sis wld be coming and WP too. Lol. There goes a quiet time observing ppl doing their PE.

(Ya, Alan knows why I enjoy watching ppl do their PE. Derek too I think.)

Ok, seriously have nothing else to post as life falls into a routine. I need sth unexpected and exciting to happeN!

[Wrath]
Who did you last get angry with?
>My God, I dunno! I'm a peace-loving person :).

What is your weapon of choice?
>Nukes anyday :).

Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
>yes.

How about the same sex?
>yes.

Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
>Frankly, no idea :). Should be someone frm my class haha.

What is your pet peeve?
>Err... Ok, I shall not pretend I understood this qn.

Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
>I keep them....... for 5 minutes?

[Sloth]
What is one thing you're suppose to do daily that you haven't?
>Er.. My homework?

What is the latest you've ever woken up?
>1-3pm

Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
>Er, Grace!

What is the last lame excuse that you made?
>Can't rmb seriously... I am so lame that almost everything I say is lame.

Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?
>yes.

How many times do you usually hit the snooze button on your alarm clock?
>I dun have an alarm clock!

[Gluttony]
Are you a meat eater?
>yes.

What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
>1 can. ( Yeah, I know, v little..)

Are you comfortable with your drinking and eating habits?
>No, my eating capacity varies to a great extent.

Do you enjoy candy and sweets?
>OK, I dun rly care much for them.

Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods?
>I love food, case closed.

Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"?
>LMAO! THIS IS FUNNY! But no :).

[Greed]
How many credit cards do you own?
>1000000 X 0.

If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
>SPEND SPEND SPEND!!! No idea spend on wad, but.. SPEND!

Would you rather be rich or famous?
>Rich, I dun care much abt having ppl know me.

Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks?
>Lets see. Yes. And after 1 year I quit. HAHA!

[Lust]
How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)?
>One, myself :).

What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice?
>Face?

Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons?
>Sadly. No. I'm a virgin :). And I havent kissed :).

Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a person of your chosen sex during a normal conversation?
>Nope.

[Envy]
What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
>Eh, no idea.

If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be?
>JUNNO!!!

Have you ever been cheated on?
>No idea.

Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
>Sob, height sob...

What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
>No idea..

[What deadly sin... ]
Do you do the most often?
>sloth.

Do you do the least often?
>lust.

Is your favorite to act on?
>Er.. dun understand.

*****

1. Have u ever *really* been in love?
Yepp

2.If yes,how many times?
1 timess.. I'm only 16 :).

3.Is there someone who u like at the moment?
Haha, yes, but only 1 person I LOVE.

4.Do u think u'll never stop loving someone once u start?
Weird phrasing, this qn..

5.What does love feel like?
Painful, painful, painful, painful.. Bittersweet, falls short of wad movies make them out to be, painful. Haha, how can I emphasize more, PAINFUL!

6.Is it different with different people?
Guess so.

7.What is ur dream person like?
her.

8.Are you ready to fall in love again?
No, NEVER WILL AGAIN!

9.If not, do u think u'll really have a choice?
Nope, hence I will not fall in love again.

10.What are two things u've learned from being in love?
1- NEVER TELL THAT PERSON!
2- There is no such thing as fairytale-like love.

11.Have you ever given or been given roses?
Nope.

12.Are most high school kids infatuated or in love?
infatuated, definitely.

13.Do u think that u should become friends with someone first?
Like duh? Its the safest route!

14.Have u ever had ur heart broken?
lets see, worse than that? Like blasted to smithereens?

15.Do u believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
Nope, but I believe in "Once broken, forever broken"

16.Have u ever broken someone's heart?
I guess so, my mom.

17.Are u the one who makes the move or do u wait for them to make the move?
I make the move. ANd fall flat on my face.

18.At what age did u start noticing the opposite/same sex?
Sec 2 for opposite, Primary sth for same.

19.Where would you like to go on a first date?
Anywhere she would like to go :).

20.Can u trust him/her?
Yes, definitely.

21.Would he/she commit to u?
Ask her that.

22.Do u want to be with him/her right now?
YES! I RATHER BE WIF HER THAN ANYWHERE!

23.Why don't u call them?
I dono wad to say, she wld be irritated.

24.What would you do if you were given him/her & urself for a day, together?
I'll take her to places she likes, do stuff she likes, And at the end of the day, propose to her.

25.Is that ur final answer?
Yes, sure.

Watched High School Musical the 8th time today, haha, that show just ROX! We should have done it as our musical instead of B&B :). Got more dance inside woots!

Ok, today was a slacky day. First up maths tutorial. Must have been the early morning that caused our minds to continue sleeping. Me n derek kept making mistakes in our identity swapping. Example, when the teacher calls me, I will answer accidentally instead of derek, and when she says derek, derek will answer accidentally. However, we insisted we were who we said we were and the teacher did not ask further. Den, do qn on board time. I volunteered to xplain qn 8. den xplain xplain and the teacher said thank you wei rong, and i said Im derek, and she apologized!! Den the girls sittin in front said we swapped identities !&*(). Darn, den she grew doubtful and asked us again. Howver, we insisted we werent lying and then someone asked whether the teacher trust the girls or trust us. Naturally, being a female, she trusted the girls. So I said those girls are liars, they are in computing course which girls wldnt take, so they arent conventional girls and thus are liars. Lol. After that the teacher walked over to check our names. she flipped my maths tutorial, no name, maths lecture notes, no name, file, no name. den DAMN SHE FLIPPED MY PHYSICS NOTES. Lol, and I wrote my name on that. Ahh crap crap crap...

Maths lecture we skipped it. Unanimous vote haha, it was spontaneous. We were like "Sian leh, dun wanna go maths lecture, AP GP so ez... Ok pon, pon ah? Pon? Ok pon." Case closed, we skipped maths lecture. Lol.. CT time, after my speech my form teacher praised me o.0... SHe said I was confident, know what I want, and isnt ashamed of saying "I'm rich". Den she said I can be a future leader lol. Hopefully.

Derek left school early today cos he needed to attend some seminar. Cool. And about half the class went to NYP. Not cool. I wanted the whole class to go. Den I can be "guai kia" (Good boy) and be the only one left in my class! Haha.. Sigh, however 10 other ppl stayed wif me. CRAP! Computing we had to write a programme to solve 3 qns. EZ.. Chinese the teacher let us do wad we want cos the class too few ppl. She's a rly nice chinese teacher lor. Den she was like talking to me n kiat lee. Haha..

KL and I decide to try out sth. We went to the cafe and ordered ice lemon tea without ice. Guess wad? They gave us one cup of ice lemon tea. NO ICE! Means we get ALOT more drink for wad we paid, compared to wif the ice. Den we tried again, ice lemon tea without ice, den say on second thought abit of ice wld be good. HAHA! IT works!!

Sigh, nowadays I just wanna stay back in school and walk around the compound. Dun feel like going home. GO home nothing to do one, so boring. Play computer until bored alr. I wanna stay in school and watch ppl do their PE, go for their CCAs. Haha, so interesting to watch them run.

Need to update our GP site soon. SIgh.. So much stuffs to do, yet I'm too lazy to do them. Nxt Wednesday is GW birthday and my blog anniversary. Hopefully sth interesting happens on that day :). The following monday is the release of our O level results. YahoO! I'm quite excited to be able to receive it. (And of course to see her, havent seen her since PJC finale night). SHe grew very tanned. Everyone I know who entered AC came out very tanned. Even glenn. Jin zhe. And I'm still irritated wif the MOE way of doing things. Screw them.. Screw HMT..

First and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLENN!!! Yepp, today, 23rd of Jan, is Glenn's bday!!! Most honourable chieftain turns 17!! lol -.-..

Okok. So some of you may want to wish Glenn a happy belated birthday. It'll brighten up his day knowing people care! Also, Grace bday is coming up and my blog 2nd anniversary too :):)..

Results are gonna be released soon, and actually, I'm quite nervous. Yet, I am excited to be able to receive it soon. Today lessons quite boring. Lunch me derek and kiat lee went out to eat at mac, since we had 90 mins of break. Econs lecture stinks.. We changed lecturer and the new one is so bitchy. She insists we sit on alternate seats -.-.. Computing equally crappy, the teacher refused to on the aircon and we spent 1 hr sweating in the computer lab. Its DAMN uncomfortable. Den Physics tutorial I had to stand cus I forgot to bring black file. Aiyo... Maths tutorial did binomial expansion exercise, so sian. I h8 binomial expansion, so tedious.

Ok, my school ice lemon tea is RLY NICE!! Can be bought from the cafe for $1. Lol.. I'm thinking of taking 4 H2s after JAE. Provided I qualify for it. Me n Derek were also looking at university brochures in the library. We realised that career opportunities that require chem is rly few. Mostly says Either physics or chem. Wow, so why learn chem..

I cant access the Private server for MU anymore!! Oh no!! I went to Atlans and den the game crashed cus of a missing file. Subsequently I cannot load the same character cus the game will just keep crashing. DARN!!

Wow.. Weird title huh. Just finished exploring Derek's website and concluded I'm wasting my life. I was looking at what he does in his free time compared to what I do in mine. He comes up wif self-initiated DIY projects that sound rly cool (a la Class IIIb laser and infra-red cam) during his supposedly free time. When I'm free, all I do is play games (lifeless ones at that) or lie on my bed staring at the ceiling for hours. Sometimes I enjoy standing by my window and look into the distance and stare for half an hour. And no, I'm not enjoying the scenery, I'm spacing out. Other favourite free-time activities I do include plugging my MP3 player earphones into my ear and listen to songs for as long as I can. Also I enjoy meditating on my bed with my dog. Sometimes, I also do peer counselling. I talk to my dog about all the ****ed up-ness of my life. Ya, you get the point, I'm rly not putting my life to good use! I should be motivated to do something, maybe not designing lasers or infra-red cameras, but I could say take up programming on my own? Write a programme on my own? Create a flash game? Heck, or even clean up my room.

Backtrack: I kinda enjoy meditating wif my dog, having peer couselling wif it, and lying down on my bed staring at the ceiling for hours. Sometimes I find life full of shit.

Ok, so I may not be a science guy like derek. I'm kinda an art guy. Some novel I have started on last year is still waiting to be completed. Maybe I shall go complete it. BUt I've written to a writer's block and have no idea how to continue. Stuck at chapter 5 I think. Thinking of joining dance actually. Oh w8, thats so random!!! Watched High School Musical 3 times. And I was thinking, how much fun it must be to be in the cast, singing and dancing. Gosh, I suddenly have a fetish for dancing. It just seems so cool and fun!! Of course, PJC ppl dun like. No idea why, they laugh at ppl who audit for choir and dance. ANyway, ppl who go PJC are called PJeons (pronounced pigeons). Sth I came up wif.

Come to think of it, I may not be lifeless after all. It's just I like to spend my time differently. I dun like self-imposed projects. Maybe cus I dun like responsibilities? But that doesn't make me irresponsible. I just like slacking off, enjoying life at its simplest and finest.

"Am I rly enjoying myself..?" Dono, everyday just seem like a day of worries and problems. No, I'm not feeling stressed out by JC. I feel like a genius at PJC man. I slack off in lectures, tutorials I'm spacing out, and I dun even bother doing homework. All that and I can still understand wads going on. "Not to mention some ppl are rather dim.." Shall not say who. "You have no idea who.." True.. I duno who, just know there are.

When does life have a meaning? Isit after u accomplish something big? After you gotten your degree? When you make your first million? When you meet your true love? Nope, I dun think its any of this. Life has meaning cus you think it has meaning. If you think slacking off everyday is meaningful then your life has meaning. That when you die you are satisfied with your life. You find it meaningful that while you lived you slacked off. A meaningful life doesn't have a fixed definition. You define it.

I should put a disclaimer on my blog. Just have no idea how to make it display everytime someone comes. I dun want it in the form of a popup since its annoying. And I also wanna compose a tune for one of my college songs titled "Perfect Strangers". Never got around to it. Thought of abit here and there but didn't write it down. It ain't even mine actually, just while listening to it, felt it could be improved.

CNY is comin and results are going to be released soon. I just wanna be out of PJC and go to some better JC. Actually, only 2, NJC and ACJC. All the other JCs I dun wanna go. I have not gotten my next issue of PC Gamers yet. Popular still haven't received their stock. Crap. What's more I think they only import 1 issue? Sigh, I hope I'm not too late.

Footnote: I dono why every time I settle down to blog I begin to forget what I wanted to blog about.

Back to post. Just realised there are quite a number of ppl in this world called Wei Rong. Haha, did a google on myself. There's this one, who has a blog and is currently in sec 4. My God, I thought it was some other blog i created without realisin it! Haha. Anyways, DotA trials today ran smoothly. I think. It's 2v2, and it's 12 mins. Sigh, that is so lame.

Today we have our first tutorials. Woohoo!! Our physics teacher quite chio haha, but v weird one. She can speak nicely for one second and suddenly her voice turn fierce for the next before returning to normal. At first very scary but I got used to it. Haha. She just went through the qns wif us. Have PE today also, soooo tiring. Run 5 rounds. I wish got SLACK PE! Haha. Lucky today must take height and weight, if not I dun think will be that simple. Maybe run 6 rounds. After run 5 rounds still must do Pull ups. Haiz.

Sth funny happened today. I think the canteen got some chio bu frm the school. Then all the J2 guys were like "Eh, so-and-so is in the canteen now, wanna go c anot?" Horny guys, all of them charged down to the canteen. Ah well, it sure was funny. I didnt go cus.... Im not horny haha!.

Anyways, my school no pretty girls one. Only got one girl look abit like *. And rly abit. Not alot. I think she got say Hi to me one day after lecture, but I nv reply cos I thought she talking to someone behind me. Den after awhile i turn around but behind me no one and she was still standing at my row there. I dun think she was calling to the opposite row cos she spoke quite softly some more. But nvm, Dun wanna think abt it, so long ago liao. Insanity lvl is at 72%! OH NO!!!! Left 28%!!! Must work my insanity doWN!!! Any ideas anyone???

KK, I go bang my head on the wall now. BYE!

"All of the things I've been looking for, always have been outside of my door.."

So long nv post alr.. Not much to update abt my life. JC feels so.. Sec School-ish, only difference is I dun have Glenn or Grace or WP.. And HPs are allowed.. And my allowance got a 2X increase.. Lectures feel like a massive class, tutorials feel same. Even my computing teacher remind me of Mr Ng. Sigh.. At least I spend less time being lifeless at home. PE also can kill ppl one, run 3KM sianz.. 2 hr of PE evry week also v sian... Haiz.. Tmr got DotA trials..

Maths so lame, taught Partial Fractions and Binomial Expansion.. Physics even lamer, teach SI units, Uncertainties, and Vectors. Vectors the lamest one, its E maths vectors. Wt, so me derek and kiat lee just slack durin Phy lecture. We did the tutorials. Oh, that isnt slack. Lol. Econ keep talking abt scarcity, so lame! We get it alr!!!

Oo, and computing we learnt a few lines, which I have no idea which line does wad.

#include

void main()

{

cout << "I am lame!";

}

shud be sth lidat. ALl it does is to cause ur comp to create a message "I am lame!" in MS dos. And we had 1 hr to learn that. Wt?! The teacher just kept ranting abt non-important stuff. Ok, i think i know wad cout means alr, its command output! yay! The teacher also said 2 funny stuffs today. Er, not realli funny, but gives u the -.-|| face.

#1 "Ok, you can now switch on your computers. To switch on, press the round button on the CPU" - Come on, I think everyone knows that? Or they wun even join computing?

#2 "Everyone press control alternate delete together." - Ok everyone, on the count of 3 press control, den count 3 press alternate, we must press control alternate delete together or the computer will not log in. It's a test of our teamwork!

So me n derek just gave each other the diao look. Me n Dex bought Glenn a bday present, a SPONGEBOB CUSHION!! Haha, he can bring to lecture and slp on it! Actually I wanted to get for him a SUPER big dog plushie but dex say too EX and cannot garuntee TJ WP and TY will share cost. My bday ez lar, just get for me PS3 can liao :):).. Haha..

Woots, Seishun Amigo is a nice song!! And everyone watch Nobuta Wo Produce!! 10 Eps onli, v fast watch finish, and got Misa Misa inside!

Games WANTLIST:
Supreme Commander
C&C 3
S.T.A.L.K.E.R.
Alan Wake
Spore
Overlord
Bioshock

Lol, am I greedy? Yepp Yepp.. And I like playing Burnout. Went to Best Denki to play on Saturday. Played one hour wif Glenn Jeremy and Dex. Lol, I first-timer got silver medal! The rest struggle to get bronze HAHA! I'm a natural ROAD-RAGER!! Lol.. So damn fun!!

Objects WANTLIST:
PS3
PSP

Ok, this not so greedy. Lol. PS3 can playback videos also and is the cheapest blu-ray player around! According to Derek. Lol..

Ok, I shud rly be sleeping, its 11 10 PM. Just blogging to keep myself awake longer, hopefully she comes online. But nvm, cannot stay up later alr, later mom scold.

P.S: 02 Jam is fun.

My only wish this year, is for her. Sigh.. Same as last year.. And the year before..

"..alone.."

Firstly before I start posting anything, Happy New Year!

Ok, so if ur wondering why the weird title, it simply means to me, 2007 will be the same as 2006. I mean, its gonna be just as shitty. Isit a bad omen to start a new year wif negative thoughts? As long as you have negative actions I think its ok, since negative negative positive. Or wad Mr Ng says.

Today, boring like ****. All I did was play NWN 2. And den played one round of DotA, won 2v5. And I wasnt the 5. After that George n Ben came online so I started another round of DotA. Halfway through I had to eat my dinner and Glenn n WP ask me go out cycle wif them. So I left the game and ate and took my bike out. Cycling on a flat tire is HORRIBLE. Can totally feel the sluggishness of the control. ANyways, found a new love. No, it isnt a girl. Its cycling alone at night.

Since long ago, People felt the night has some magic in it, albeit sinister. Somehow this magic is hypnotic and it makes me feel peaceful. Wads more, since there is nobody on the streets, I can cycle and sing all I want. Heck, even though the person opposite can probably hear but I dun rly care, for it seems they cant. Budden, got problem. Becus I sing den got shortness of breath, can't breathe properly. Of course got solution, cycle slowly. But cycle slowly dun have the exhiliration and the feeling of being free. When I cycle fast and alone I feel so free like the chains around my soul are released. When I sing while cycling and singing at home while bathing or doing nothing is realli different. Somehow can put more feeling into the song when I'm cycling.

To answer Glenn's qn. He asked me why I looked so distressed. Cus I was thinking of her, thinking wad she's doing, where is she. Sry man, though my being is wif u all, my heart is somewhere else. And wassit distressed? Lol, dono how I look but I felt realli down. And actually, ur insults didnt realli help me feel better. Dono isit u think it would make me luff or wad or u rly didnt know i was feeling down. New Year and I didnt spend it wif whom I realli wanna spend it wif. Anyways, saw Kaira Gong. Yux, her singing is mediocre and her looks are ugh... Nvm... Glenn wrote WP is a noob on the pavement wif a rock. Haha, amusing.

Does New Year bring me new friends? I dun think so. New enemies? More likely than new friends. I dun want any new friends, my current ones are good enough. With my luck, I should be thankful I dun make new enemies. This year will probably be worse than last year. Last year there's her, this year... THere's just me and my shadow. How will I survive? Same as I did last year, the year before, the year before that, Just walk through and ignore everything. Don't deviate frm the path and you wun get lost.

Wads my New Year Resolution? I resolve not to resolve to think so much and just walk through life and be done wif it. To me, you create the meaning of your life. But given my shitty luck, if I try to do anything it probably has an adverse effect. So I think I shall let nature take its course

Goku: When You fight for yourself, you will truly be strong
Sanzo: I dun need anyone who will stand in my way. If you dun fight you will die.
Bishop: Those who live are those who fight.
Naruto: When you protect someone, you will truly be strong

So... Naruto's values aren't true!! Beginning to respect Bishop. Used to hate him so much.

Sometimes it disgusts me when ppl say happy new year. What is so happy about the new year? Its the same damned thing happening again and again. I wanna break out of this damned vicious cycle. I HATE the same thing. Why cant things be different? Why cant I be happy/lucky for a change? I hate being a hypocrite. I hate hypocrites. I HATE MYSELF! Can I let go?

Optimist: Change yourself, and you can change the people around you, den u can change the community, den country, den the world!
Pessimist: I shall be the world and wait for someone to change himself and change the people around him and the community and his country.

I happen to be the latter. Ok, and I was gonna say nothing can change me, on second thought, YES, just follow that procedure :). I'm insane.. At least, going insane.. Ok, I shall retreat to my bed and blanket and dog. And sob out the new year. Screw myself..

Woots, everyone came back today! Nt sure what I will be doing tmr. perhaps we would be gg LAN. Who knows.

Spoke to her today. Ok. Not spoke. MSNed. She got into AJC. Ahh, congratulations. My mom asked me to appeal to AJC. I was reluctant at first, cus (in order of importance):

#1: She's there and I dun want her to misunderstand I appealed to get into the same school as her.

#2: AJC does not offer Computer Programming.

#3: I dun wanna go out.

In the end my mom said sth that made me decide to appeal.

"Why are you always so indecisive. What's yours you dun want to fight for it. Prelim also like that, never go and claim marks, then never get 11 points without minus."

Ahh, I was rly surprised, den I thought about it. Ya, I should not let opportunities slide by. I should take it. So be it if she thinks I appealed to be in the same school as her. Well, it shows I'm despo. (Oh wait, that isnt good isit?) Yeah, I shall go appeal. I think Tuesday or sth. But I think must call them up first.

I think I analyse too much. Sometimes, before I say things, I would think 3 lines ahead. What the person will reply, what I should reply, what that person in turn will reply. I make sure that it's satisfactory before I speak. Omg, I'm turning into Kira. Actually, this is only when I chat wif her. haha. I'm proud (or ashamed) to say that my predictions are almost always correct. Or at least close to the reply. And then I applied it to other ppl also. And now... Sigh... Though this doesn't happen wif every sentence. Just some.. sensitive.. ones. But there's nth wrong in thinking before you say something right? I just overdo it.

Yeah, I was trying to be someone else. I was trying to be someone everyone likes. I dun care what I like, I just try to please everyone. Jeez, you know that sux? You know its realli terrible to not have things go your way? Its terrible to keep following. Ya, some ppl think I dun have my own opinion. You just nv thought that I DO have my own opinion, I just dun want to make you all angry. I just want to be some one everyone likes. And in the end, I hate myself.

I wish I can be like Glenn. Inconsiderate yet considerate. He knows how to satisfy himself yet make himself likeable. Ya, I am attracted to him. Seriously. I think he can be a girl magnet if he wants to. I mean, he really treats me badly. Most of the time. BUt somehow I keep believing in him, keep supporting him. THere are times where I thought, "SCREW GLENN", but somehow, I never quit being his friend. I think it has to do with his personality? So.. Girls, if you dun wanna get attracted by him, dun bother knowing him. Once you know him, you might find him irresistable. OM, what am I saying, I make him sound like some evil rapist. Ah well. He's just charming in my opinion.

Jeez. I rly like my current friends, though there are frictions. Alot. But somehow, we managed to glue together. Glenn, WP, Dex, TY. TY's the worst one. We fell out 2-3 times, yet got together in the end. These 4 are my good friends, my inner circle. Glenn and WP are my best friends. And I guess, they will stay that way. Yeah. I excluded George cus he's not our age haha, but I treat him as an older brother I never had. He's rly nice too.

As my post title suggested, these are my true feelings. I think, you can probably tell. I'm not holding anything back. Actually, I'm onli sure TY reads my blog. And Grace Yeoh. I dun think anyone else reads. Lol. So I guess, this is almost a personal diary.

Sincerely praying after O levels results release I can get into NJC. Of course, I pray that Glenn will get in too. And Grace too :). I really doubt WP and TY can get into NJ, and TY wants to go Poly anyways. WP also considering going Poly. I'm not sure about Dex, but judging by how confident he was during the Os, he should be able to enter NJ too. But confidence is a double-edged sword. Rly, I think onli my EL will sarbo. Crap. I shouldn't have anyhow wrote my composition. Sigh. I must have been insane. I think my dual maths get A1 alr. My MT shud be able to push to A1 also. Bio and Physics should be A1 too. Geography should also be A1.

Lord, please grant me the grades that I desire. Nothing has ever went my way before. So please grant this wish. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

I think the MOE should stop giving priority to HMT ppl. It's unfair enough they get a 2 point advantage. Still want to give them advantage. THat is seriously CRAP. They should do sth like ppl who Prelim get A1 for English can minus 2 points off their Os. That would be more fair to ppl who MT sux but EL good. Ah well, MOE sux, enough said. They are still miles behind the education system in America. I rly dun see the emphasis on MT. I mean, taking MT ok, nth wrong wif that. BUt giving priority to ppl wif HMT is just insane. It shows poor planning and also ministers and officials who hasn't went through this kind of education system. Which actually sux. This is my main gripe now of the examination system. Another thing MOE can do is introduce GP in secondary school. Den if u take GP no need take English. Score a pass in GP can minus 2 pts. So GP becomes like the english version of HMT. so all's fair. See. It's not so hard to make things fair. Poor planning, that's what I say. Never actually thought through the policy properly. Never realised it's so one-sided.

Ok, Nth else to post. Another long post. Haha. Rarely have long post alr..

This post can dun read. Hate post.

SCREW HMT

Today Glenn, Dex, and TY went for church camp, hope they have fun there. Actually, I was supposed to go too, but I decided I dun wanna go and spend more time wif my sis. And besides, I dun wanna meet new people. Not yet at least. Yes, I am VERY anti-social. I dun like meeting new people. I dun like making new friends. I just want my current frieds.

Dreamt of her again today. Dreamt of her yesterday too. Sigh, what's wrong wif me nowadays... I can't realli rmb wad was the yesterday's dream, it had to be good, for I dun rmb panicking or waking up with a start. But today's dream, I can still see it, hear it, touch it. I woke up feeling really happy (Not wet dream), felt that I have been born again, and then I realised it was a dream... Sigh, as usual I was disappointed. Then I thought about it, somehow the dream didn't seem like a big deal, so why did I feel so happy? So I started reflecting about it, and I came to a conclusion. THe conclusion is:__________________________________________. Lol, I dun wanna say. If this was a personal diary, I may write that out.

"I try to forget you, but I dunno how.."

WP came over today. Not much cept we watched Getbackers, den we DotAed and played a few lame games. Den he watched me play Fly For Fun. SO, we just talk cock until 6 den he went home. How can I forget, we neopets a little too. Ok, a little is an understatement lol.

These few days I feel very heavy, like sth is chaining my legs and holding me down. I dunno wads causing it, nor do I have the morale to find out what is it. Ever since she left for China, I felt something missing from my heart. What puzzled me was even when she was here, I did not talk to her much. So logically speaking, when she goes overseas, the change to my life should not be that great, right? WRONG! I dunno why, but I feel I lose my purpose in life and I keep feeling like giving up. Exactly the same feeling I had last year this time of the year. And then the age old saying "Man does not treasure what he has until he has lost it" Yet, she was never mine, so how could I have lost her? Theoretically wrong. I cannot lose something I never had.

"I love you, from the bottom of my heart. You are, will always be, my only one. My heart is only big enough for you, no one can take the number one place in my heart, nor can anyone have a place in my heart while you are still here. Even when I close my eyes, I see your face. In times of loneliness, I wish only for your company. Whenever I feel like giving up, I think of you, and I find the courage to turn the next bend. Sometimes, I wish I was someone else. I wish I was someone you would love. I cannot be satisfied with myself. I want so much to be the only one in your life, but am I not good enough? THen, why can't I be someone worthy? Someone worthy of your touch, your kiss, your loving gaze? Why then, do I have to be me?"

When can I win your heart? Sadly, this isn't a carnival, where if you have enough money, and enough patience and determination, you can win the top prize. This, is life. This is the game of love. This is where many people suffer. This is reality, not dreams. What dreams do I have? My only dream is to be with you. To protect you.

At this juncture, I think of Ginji and his promise to protect the people of unlimited city. And that is so totally irrelavant.

"Looking back on the things I've done, I was trying to be someone. I played my part, I kept you in the dark. Now let me show you the shape of my heart."

When life throws you a fastball, You catch it. But when life throws me a fastball, I let it hit me in the face, so I can wake up. Or perhaps knock me out. Either way, it would be good.

I shall just let life takes it course and see what unfolds. Perchance I shall win her heart? Perchance I end up in the same JC as her? Either way, it's all up to Fate now. Ok Fate, everything is in your hands, I can only... Believe.... Shinjitteru...

Wow, I am finally getting down to making a blog entry. Can just remember I was here a few days ago rdy to write when I suddenly decided to play games, so I did not. Sigh, I am such a procrastinator. Anyways, I promise this will be a long post.... I hope... As long as I do not forget what I wanted to write.

Before embarking on the story of my (Suxy) life, just one announcement, TY's coming back today (tonite?)!!! Lets welcome him and (laughs) tell him we have completed our partying.

I can't remember how many events has it been since choir ROD, but the most important one is prom. For the first time in my life, I actually went shopping for my own clothes!! WOW!!! o.0, normally I just wear wad my mom buys! Went over the whole of Taka and yet I could not find what I wanted, so I went back empty handed (Yeah, Im damn choosy). Nxt day went to IMM, also cannot find what I want, then went to Isetan, where I finally (thankfully) found something I want. And this happened the day before prom! Haha, if I cannot find what I wanted, I'll simply wear T-shirt and Jeans, cool rite? I thought so too! Den me n glenn would somehow be similar haha.

Anyways, my end suit was a white shirt (Yay, i nv button the top button to show off my pendant), A pendant which is actually a ring, jeans, and (drum rolls) TRACK SHOES (Laughs). Anyways, I didn't know to turn up casual or formal, so I chose the inbetween. Many people turned up like businessmen and I found it rather odd. Definitely not to my taste (Who cares? I'm not gay). WP and dex wore ALMOST IDENTICAL SUITS! So they became Glenn (president) bodyguard. LOL! I was supposed to be personal assistant but I did not want to participate in their charade. Some ppl made me rly wanna laugh, first one was Alvin. WHen I saw him, I thot he was an insurance agent, and I was wonderin what was an insurance agent doing here. And den, I realised it was him. LOL!!! Then, more ppl streamed in, all looking like businessmen on impt businesses. Den the girls started coming. Saw Jinzhe and I was like WOAH, JZ know how to dress well!! Future Hu Jin Tao mah! Den WP keep running off to flirt wif some girls. Some girls actually cosplayed -.-.. I only rmb a cinderella and an angel? Wow, (laughs). Well then, we started getting impatient and wanted to get into the Dunearn Ballroom ASAP, so we camped by the doors. As soon as it was opened we CHIONG IN!!! Haha, got table 8, cus WP wanted it, and sui man, it was beside the teacher's one. AHH!! Our table had me, glenn, dex, wp, gx, and mx at first. Den no one wanted to join us. Michele walked pass and WP said I wish she would sit here. My evil plan was WP scram and she just MIGHT sit there. LOL!!! Den later WP can come back and say sth like sry, went toilet so long, thks dex for reserving my seat. Haha, den she wanna change place also too late. But anyways, later Rachel Low and her fren came to join us. Den Chiam was walking about and I can't rmb who invited him to sit wif us. Lol, then our table lidat lor, got 9 ppl. The emcee for the nite was rly funny! And that, to me, was the whole highlight. His humour and jokes left me rolling on the floor laughing (Not literally). Buttt FOOD FIRST!!! And to tell the truth, the food tasted... bland.. Definitely not good quality food, I've eaten better in hawker centres. THe salmon? I've tasted better salmons in Sakae Sushi. The food definitely wasn't great. But the programmes were. I liked the song game, where ur supposed to guess wad song it was. Actually I knew quite a number, but too shy to go forth.

Oh no, the problem I feared is back, I forgot what I wanted to post....

Crap, I can't even rmb what happened nxt. THe nxt thing seemed to be the Prom King and QUeen segment, I dun rly wish to elaborate cus it wasn't an impt event for me. Jimson became King and Joan became Queen (2 Js lol..) Gx qualified as a finalist but too bad the whole 5A banded behind Jimson. In my heart, the only queen is Grace.

EDIT: The start of the event was a slideshow of pictures, and (drum rolls) the PULITZER PRIZE WINNING PHOTO TAKEN BY ME WAS SHOWN!!! Oh man, that photo should have won a Nobel Prize award too! I mean, everyone who saw it will laugh together and den realise that they are all humans so all fighting will stop! NOBEL PEACE PRIZE! DEN I WOULD ACHIEVE WORLD PEACE THROUGH AN INCREDIBLE FOOTAGE OF WP LOOKING RETARDED! Mwahaha, so you guys who dunno where the heck that photo came frm and which genius took it, the answer is ME!! Actually, i dono who gave the photo, but I TOOK IT MWAHAHA!! Outside 204 classroom 2 years ago. Anyways, the person who gave the photo, I'm gonna sue that person, its copyrighted by law (no pun) and no permission was granted for that photo to be shown. ANyway, for those interested to know how I took it, it happened so lamely. I was supposed to take a picture of marcus, glenn, dexter, and ting jun i think, den WP was standing out of the frame laughing at them. So I quickly turned towards him and hit the shutter, thats when that Nobel prize winning photo of WP's retarded look was born.

Fastforward, nowadays I've been playing badminton wif Glenn and WP at Jelapang. Life seems to get so repetitive, we rly need more big events. Anyways, ytd went ice sk8ing wif them becus I had nth to do at home. My sis came along. So at first I thot was 4 ppl. When I reached there, I was shocked that WP has invited Rachel Low too. And den, I got a second shock when wp told me he tried to get Sandy to come. LMAO! I wanted to, but I played DotA and forgot to SMS her LOL!! Haiz, so Glenn got nooo partner T.T.. Haha... Practically the whole session I was wif my sis, so nth much to say, her first time ice sk8ing. Den we went KFC to eat. Er, not much to say. Wow, I just realised yesterday was sooo like the day before. Haha, lifeless.. At night went to play badminton (again). Den played DotA (Again). WOw, monotonous.. I rly dono wad else to post, but if I rmb, I will edit this post.

Wow, its been aeons since my blog posts have titles!! Wowowow....

Why does my blog entries somehow sound so lame?

Cause... The blogger is a lamer...

Now don't all of you agree?

Haha. that is so beside the point.

This style of writing. So unlike me.

Just somehow felt like writing like that.

Currently listening to Never Gone by Backstreet Boys which is found in the disc the choir committee gave me.

Maybe that is why Im writin like that.

Im gonna treasure that disc. It holds nice memories (Though Dun have a photo of me inside save 1, but I dun care!)

Today's ROD was fun, must rly thank the committee for organizing such a great ROD. The first thing we did was the amazing race where we were supposed to find places and take photo of them. Places wif committee members, we must do a challenge. Well, the girls in my group were AMAZING. THey seem to know Sentosa like the back of their hands, so they pretty much lead the way. But... THey were rly slooooow..... Haha.. Esp at the end, they refuse to budge at all!! so i thot we lost alr, lost to glenn and dexter group. Den we just strolled back, den me and wp were strolling on siloso beach when we saw one group crossin the bridge to the meeting pt. Then I was saying Wah, now the first team den arrive, sian, if we run just now sure first alr.. So we continued strolling. Then as we got closer, I saw them piling sand on their feet, which was the challenge, that was when I realised they haven't won, so we shouted to our members and we CHIONG!!!! AND WE GOT FIRST!!! WOOHOO!!!! Of course, I stayed and w8ed for glenn and luffed at him. He said he wld be first, true to a certain extent.. He was first... From the back.. Lol..

Then it was a lunch break. NExt was some rubberband game which you must use toothpicks to transfer the rubberband to ur group members. Me n WP sat that one out for we were late. Our group won again.. Haha... Den it was a balloon game, coordination one. Basically, must put a blown balloon between 2 ppl, whole group must participate, so 6 ppl group must have 5 balloons. THe balloons cannot drop and cannot burst, if not must restart. My group won AGAIN!! LOL!!!

After that we got to select our own group. So, the sec 4s split into 2 groups. Me WP GLenn Dexter Sue yi and Pearlyn one group. The game goes like this: We have to be sth like a snake, person in front in charge of attacking, person at back must avoid the front person of another snake. The back person has 2 balloons tied to the feet and the front person must burst the balloons of the back person of another group. Grace's group did a very evil strategy. She's the tail of the snake so they coiled around her, like how millipedes and centipedes react when under attack. It's like impenetratable!! But somehow someone managed to burst one balloon. And their group plus mine plus another was left, so they got kicked out becus my group and the other group got 2 balloons left (full life). We swapped leader for Dexter was too aggressive. Den Pearlyn veri passive, move to the left and right so slowly. THe other group lost becus they swerved and their chain broke, so got disqualified. AND MY GROUP WON AGAIN!! LOL!! Den we versus the committee members. At first was abit even, no win no lose. Den suddenly, we got pummelled realli bad and we just cant be on the offence. Then they can't win cus me and WP are 2 walls preventing them from reaching glenn. And glenn got this amazing reflex that keeps preventing ppl from stepping on his balloons. Den we saw why we were getting pummelled. THeir snake broke into 2. One side defending the other concentrate on attack. AND THEY DIDNT REALISE!! HAHAHA!!! So they got disqualified and we won again. Den they decided to pop glenn's balloons by stepping, and surprise surprise, it wouldn't pop, it just compressed and we were like luffing our heads off.

The next activity was a variation of catching. Basically, form groups of 4, den stand around, apart from each other. One runner and one catcher is selected. The runner must run to another group, to form a group of 5. This action causes the other end member of the group of 5 to knock off that member, so the group remains 4. That member becomes the nxt runner and the cycle repeats.In essence, if the runner runs to this group of 4 from the left, the rightmost member must run off and find another group of 4. Then Glenn, Wen Pu, Me, and Marcus form one group. The group of elite runners ok! but... no one came to us.... What the, den we just sat on the floor. In the end we cldnt take it so we started calling to ppl to come to us. First to get knocked off was Marcus. No one cld catch him lol. Den we w8ed awhile be4 WP got knocked off. Again, no one caught him. Then finally finally, I got to run!!! Lol, and becus my slipper spoiled, one foot was bare the other was wearing a slipper. When i started running, I tore my muscle on the back of my leg. Wah, very pain, and I had to hobble. Yet the person couldnt catch me. I quickly find a place to stand and knock another person out. Then later that person, Melvyn, said to me I run veri fast. Lol, I so zhuai, I said like that you call fast? I tore my muscle leh, lidat if I didn't you can forget abt touching me alr.. Den later I got knocked off again and I crab ran, ran sideways, cus it doesnt stretch my tendon. After awhile it healed and I could run properly again. But I think, I v evil. If is ppl whom I know cannot catch me, I would just slack and stand behind one group, and like feign left feign right. Or I would just walk and w8 for that person to catch up before running off again. And I just keep running arnd like that until I decided I wanted to knock someone off. Lol, only when ppl like glenn or wen pu den i more serious cus if i let them get too close they may catch me. And den later they make 2 catchers 2 runners and it was damn messy, so they changed to 2 catchers 1 runner. More challenging for the runner. Den I volunteered to be the runner and let glenn catch me, but glenn not happy, he dun wanna catch me. So I knocked Amirul out and he got caught by Glenn. After awhile, I got knocked off again and I just repeated wad I normally do and den knock someone else off. Den WP was the catcher and he cldnt catch anyone. Cus ppl just run to the nxt group. So I offered my hand out to WP when someone knocked me off. Funny funny, HE SHOOK MY HAND!!! HE said good friend good friend and kept shaking my hand. Den I said ya good friend and I touched him back and ran off. Lol. In the end he still got someone. After that I didn't rly run anymore. Eh, I just realised the first time i was catcher i wasnt caught. I was runner den they said swap, runner be catcher catcher be runner. So the runner knocked dexter off and I was directly beside him. But he my friend, I dun wanna so evil, when he dono wad going on den catch him. So I just stand beside him and w8 for him to run. And.. I almost got him, but he just nice ran to soemone else and I had to change target. That person ran to Grace's group and knocked her off. Den Theresa they all like Woahhhhh. Lol, I hope she wun be insulted, but I didn't wanna catch her. SO I just jogged after her (If I rly want I probably can). I think Theresa they all think I will chiong after her. Den she knocked Melvyn off and I chionged for him. He ran like 1-2 seconds only I caught him liao. Then run lor, I ran to beside Marcus. And stayed there for some time. Grace became catcher somehow, and Marcus was signalling ppl to stand on the opposite end of me. Then I told him if she wants to catch me I will let her. ANd he said Ya I know. XY in the end knocked me off and I extended my hand to let her catch. But I dunno why she hesitated. I think she thought I would do to her what I did to Wen Pu. The whole choir WOAHHH!!! CUs she's the only one I so nice to :).. I see her run so long alr.. But later, Glenn told me it wasn't long. Compared to others not long lar, but I see her run all over the place my heart feel pain. Den I just stand there after she catch me and catch the person she knocked off. After that I didn't run alr. I hope she isn't insulted, I just haven't the heart to catch her. And I scared she catcher and I runner I will play around again. Which is somehow my instinct.. Like a horse... Den she will not be happy wif me or even dislike me... THat would be more insulting.. SO better dun take the risk.. Come to think of it, its the only time I can get her to chase me.. Sigh.. THe ironies...

Ytd dyed my hair and like alot of ppl in choir noticed it. Yet, my dad didn't!! And my mom and sis were sooo amused and was luffin durin dinner. My frens told me the colour v nice, thks man! Got girls tell me nice also! And the funniest qn I got was:"Dyed one or natural colour" Lol, we in choir so long liao also nv notice my hair original is black. Abit brown lar. Den I still managed to trick ppl its natural colour. Haha. I think Im an attention seeker.. EEEE YUX! I got injuries lor.. My legs muscle are overstretched, there's a torn blister beneath my feet becus I ran barefoot on rough terrain. But these will become happy memories, for I will always remember this day, when for once, I could get Grace to chase me, although I just stood there and let her catch. Now I wonder if she reads my blog... Now I resolve not to wonder so much...

Overall, today was a great day. Once again, many thanks to the choir committee for making this unforgettable. Sigh. 4 years passed in a flash. On the way back from Sentosa, I heard some chinese song on the bus. I cant rmb wad song it was but quite old song and i heard it be4. The lyrics somehow tugged at me. AND I CANT RMB THE LYRICS!!! Shud go and ask someone abt it.. Lol, the girls in the bus were singing that song soooo loudly.

Lastly, I still love Grace, and will stay the same, always. My heart is too small to allow room for another girl. I hope I will get into the same school as her for the first 3 months, and if she decides to go JC after 3 mths, hope to see her in NJ. Also, I hope to be in the same school as glenn, which is NJC. GLenn almost confirmed get in alr.. NJC has been my dream college anyway...

1. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR LAST EX IF YOU COULD?
- Who said I have an ex? Dotx, self-assuming quiz...

2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
- Eh, shirt lar...

3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
- Yes, dun say who.

4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP FRIENDS LIST?
- Yes, dun say who.

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
- 100/100

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
- Never thought about it, when I get married then I'll think about it.. At least 1.

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
- Sometimes...

9. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?
- Maybe.

10. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST B-DAY?
- Stayed at home and played wif Glenn who also pon school.

12. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
- 6 45. Got EL paper in school.

13. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT THREE NIGHTS AGO?
- Sleeping.

14. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
- Of course not... Who enjoys pain other than masochists.

15. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
- Play Neverwinter Nights 2

16. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
- Few seconds ago, she came to ask me to study.

17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
- Wah, I wanna change everything.. Ok, my height..


18. IF YOU HAD 250,000 DOLLARS... WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH IT?
- Save it.


19. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
- I don't have a job..... Why so self-assuming....

20. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
- WHO THE HECK IS TOM?!!!

21. DESCRIBE WHAT UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING?
- It's made of cloth...

22. LAST THING YOU ATE?
- Starfruit, yumm..

23. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
- October.

24. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
- February

25. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE??
- Can't remember..

26. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
- Dunno..

27. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
- NEOPETS!!!

28. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
- Eh, dun remember...

29. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
- Grace Wang.

30. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
- Yep, if he has a revolver I wld help him take the bullet. (Get it? Take the ammunition and give it to him?)

31. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
- Water.

32. HAVE YOU BEEN TO AUSTRALIA?
- Yeah, this year i think..

35. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
- I wouldn't know in the first place.





1.Do you envy somebody this very moment?
. YES! I ENVY TAGUCHI JUNNOSUKE!!

2.Can you tell whether a person is lying or not?
. Nope.. Sometimes only...

3. Who's tattoo is appearing on your mind?
. .......................................

4.Ever had chicken pox?
. Yes

5.What was the last movie you watched that made you cry?
. Eh, movie I dunno, anime is FRUITS BASKET!!! And I just finished watchin it today.

6.Do you have a friend who's a bigmouth?
. Of course, almost all my friends..

7.Do you have a lot of bestfriends?
. Nope.

8.Do you cry when you get low grades?
. Eh, no, just get depressed.

9.What is your favorite song ?
. Let It All Out by Relient K

11.Who freaks you out the most?
. Hmm, never thought about it...

12.Who is your brother?
. WHY SO SELF-ASSUMING? I DUN HAVE A BROTHER!

13.What kind of cellphone do you own?
. I have no idea...

14.are you in love right now?
. Yeah..

15.is he/she in love with you too?
. CONFIRM no..

16.if you could rewind time, at what moment would you go back to?
. Year 2006 January. Though I rather be moving forward.

17.who is your biggest enemy?
. I dun have an enemy...

18. is there somebody that hates you?
. I dunno, if there is he/she is hiding it well.

19.have you experienced having a fight with the person you have feelings for?
. Nope, we barely talk... Sigh...

20.what song can you relate to?
. Let It All Out, Less is More, Tonight I wanna cry, For Fruits Basket, My Will, Crucify My Love, and many many more...

21.do you torture other people?
. Nah....

22.what do you like better coke or pepsi?
. Pepsi, and I dono why, they taste the same to me.

22.Are you in favor of Romeo and Juliet's relationship?
. Yes, though I rather Oreo and Julie orange juice. Ok, that was lame..

23.What is the best love story you've ever known?
. Lovers in Prague.

24.what are you looking forward to?
. Many things.. ROD party, prom night..

25.do you think that time stops when you finally see the love of your life?
. Nah, of course not, time keeps moving on..



THE WHO'S**

Who is in the room with you?
. I'm all alone...

Who was the last person to text you?
. Lazy to check my handphone.

Who are you thinking about now?
. Grace Wang.

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
. My mom.

Whose house did you last go to?
. Glenn.

Who was the last person you told you love them?
. Eh, I dunno, my sis I think.

**THE WHAT'S**

What was the last thing you ate?
. Starfruit

What was the last thing you drank?
. Soup.

What is the closest item near you that is blue?
. Razer Copperhead.

What are you wearing on your feet?
. Another self-assuming qn.. I HAVE NOTHING ON MY FEET!

What instant messaging service do you use?
. MSN Messenger.

What is your favorite website?
. Weird.. Blogger?

What do you wear more, jeans or skirts?
. Skirts!!! Yeah right.. Jeans..

What is the last movie u watched?
. DEATHNOTE!!!! WOOTS!!

What do you currently hear?
. This Everyday Love by Rascal Flatts

**THE WHEN'S**

When did you meet your best friend(s)?
. Today.

When is your birthday?
. 10th October.

When did you last take a shower?
. 4 o clock?

**THE WHERE'S**

Where is your phone?
. Eh, I dunno, LOL!!

Where is your mom?
. In her room.

Where do you sleep?
. In the air, I levitate. Lol, j/k, of course my bed lar..

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
. I didn't get it, my mom did.

Where in your room are you?
. In front of my comp lar, if not how I do this quiz....

Just changed my blogsong to "For Fruits Basket". Rly love the soothing tune and it's more compatible wif my blog bg (Think Fairytale). Anyways, I still rmb 2 years ago when I first started watching Fruits Basket, it was during Dec hols and because of this, I was often late for choir practise. And I can still rmb they use to make fun of me cus I watch that show (Title sounds weird). But.. It's a realli great show (anime actually), mainly comedy but the storyline and characters are nicely developed. Towards the ending, it grew really sad, and I admit I cried while watching it. Esp the final episode when they overcame their inner struggle. Oh, this show has almost no violence, its about a family that is cursed wif the 12 animals of the zodiac. When they are hugged by a person from the opposite sex, they will transform to their corresponding animal. The main characters are Yuki and Kyou, mouse and cat. Though cat isn't an animal of the zodiac, but there was a myth that it was the mouse who deceived the cat and end up the cat did not go to the party. And in that show, the 2 of them keep fighting and bickering, but in the last episode, they finally became friends. But it isn't abrupt, throughout the show there were improvements. I finished watching 16 discs in one day haha, 4 more discs to go! It's a really great anime and I reccommend everyone to watch it and not be put off by the lame title (Actually, up to now, I have no idea why they call it Fruits Basket)

So nostalgic, the year I watched this video, the month I watched this video, is the same year and month I met her. Haiz, and I can still rmb when WP told me that they were discussing why I was late for choir and the moment I came in Mr Yong asked isit I watch Fruits Basket again. Haha..... I'm truly touched by that show, it teaches alot of values and if you like crying, that show can help u cry too, but mostly it will make you laugh.

NEways, I hope, if you are reading this, crank up your speakers and just listen to the song, it's realli nice. The lyrics also have alot of meaning to me. K, since it's in jap, I shall post the translation here:

Totemo ureshikatta yo kimi ga warai kaketeta
Subete wo tokasu hohoemi de

I was so happy as you laughed
With that smile that melts everything

Haru wa mada tookute tsumetai tsuchi no naka de
Mebuku toki wo matteta n da

Far away within the cold earth, Spring was still waiting
For the moment the first sprout appeared

Tatoeba kurushii kyou dato shite mo
Kinou no kizu wo nokoshite ite mo
Shinjitai kokoro hodoite yukeru to

Although today is painful
And yesterdays's scars still remain
I want to believe I'll be able to free my heart

Umare kawaru koto wa dekinai yo
Dakedo kawatte wa ikeru kara
Let's stay together itsumo

I can't be reborn
But I can change, so
Let's stay together always

Boku dake ni waratte sono yubi de nee sawatte
Nozomi bakari ga hateshinaku

Laugh only for me, please touch me with those fingers
Only wishes are free from bounds

Yasashiku shitai yo mou kuyamanu you ni
Nageki no umi mo koete ikou

I want to be kind
Let's finally cross this sea of sadness and regret

Tatoe kurushii kyou dato shite mo
Itsuka atataka na omoide ni naru
Kokoro-goto subete nagedaseta nara

Even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you free your heart

Koko ni ikiteru imi ga wakaru yo
Umare ochita yorokobi wo shiru
Let's stay together itsumo

Here I'll understand the meaning of living
And know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always

Tatoeba kurushii kyou dato shite mo
Itsuka atataka na omoide ni naru
Kokoro-goto subete nagedaseta nara

Even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you free your heart

Koko ni ikiteru imi ga wakaru yo
Umare ochita yorokobi wo shiru
Let's stay together itsumo

Here I'll understand the meaning of living
And know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always

Type ur reactions when somebody say these phrases to u..

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?
*Silence*

I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU?
I have no idea wad I would do, when it happens I'll know (Someone I like)
Oh..Ok.. (Someone neutral)
*Walks away* (Someone I dun like)

LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY. YOULL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME
Go and die.

COME ON. SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO THAT
*Stares blankly*

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO
OK (Friend)
*Silence* (Not Friend)

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU.
*Blush*

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
Because it does not come after Tuesday.

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?
Ok (Someone I like)
No (Others)

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
*Blush*

I THINK IM FALLING FOR YOU.
I fell for you already (Someone I like)
Don't hurt yourself too badly (Neutral)
*Walks away* (Someone I don like)

I CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU
Then be wif me (Someone I like)
I'm not a toothpaste (Neutral)
And I can't smile wif you (Someone I don like)

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUSTARENT HIM/HER
It's ok, I'll always be there for you.

NOTHING
ok..

WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
999

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE?
Ok (Someone I like)
Er.. No thanks (Neutral)
Yes, by yourself. (Someone I don like)

MAY I ESCORT YOU?
As long as you are not a police escorting me to a police station I'm fine with it.

DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM/HER TILL NOW
Yes and till forever so you can forget about persuading me to give up.

YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED
*Blush*

WHEN WILL I GET YOUR SWEET EYES
You have a pair of eyes already, why would you want mine?

1. Where do you hang your towel to dry after showering?
I hang it in my room.

2. What kind of mouse pad do you have?
Some cheapo free mousepad I got.

3. Do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush?
Comb.

4. From your opinion, who do you think is the hottest celeberity?
Any celebrity in the Sahara Desert.

5. You got a project due tomorrow, do you use tape or glue?
None, I don do it.

6. Chicken or pork?
Chicken

7. By the time you get to school/work, is the sky still dark?
No.

8. If you had a choice to see a unicorn or mermaid which would it be?
I'd rather a dragon, but since its not in the choices, I wld say unicorn.

9. What was in your bag the last time you went out?
Assortment of worksheets, pencil box, and calculator.

10. What time does the sun usually set?
7 30?

11. What do you think of last before you go to sleep?
Her, in fact, I just dreamt of her last night.

12. AC or fan?
Why no natural wind? Fan...

13. Do you wear braces?
No, but my bottom row teeth is abit out of alignment.

14. Can you hand stand?
No, but I can leg stand.

15. If you were the opposite sex, how would you style your hair?
Dunno...

16. What level math are you in?
Additional.

17. Jessica Simpson or Alba?
No preference.

18. Which subject is worst, English or Math?
Math!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

19. What's one thing you really want to do this very moment?
Play DotA wif my friends.

20. After buying something, do you automatically throw it away?
No, but I manually keep it.

21. CD player or iPod?
Wads this? Advertisement for Apple? I rather my own mp3 player.

22. Would you rather spin upside down goin 30 miles or drop 400 ft. into water? I'd rather spin upside down going 30 miles and drop 400 ft. into water. This way, I can win the Olympic diving champion.

24. What you got planned for the weekend?
Study, er... Study, and er... Study... Oh, and sleep too!

25. Have you ever gone ice skating?
Yes, but I prefer skiing more.. ALOT more..

26. If you were put in a room with nothing except for a pencil and paper what would you do?
Open the door and walk out. The door ain't locked LOL!!

27. Is it always easy finding your remote everytime you want to watch TV?
Yes.

28. How was your day?
Boring, just studying...

29. Do you grow your nails, bite or cut them?
Why isnt there an option called lick? Haha, of course I cut them..

30. Describe your handwritting:
Untidy but legible.

31. Do you consider yourself a stalker?
Maybe.. But I dun follow someone of the opposite sex on purpose.. Sometimes in my brainless wandering I end up walking the same path..

32. Do you bruise easily?
Dunno.. I guess?

33. There's nothing on TV except Barney and Japanese news what do you do?
I rarely even watch TV...

34. Do you know more than 3 friendster codes?
What's a friendster? Sounds like prankster.

35. You got an essay due, you either can type or write in pen, which will it be?
None, I wld be too lazy to do it.

36. Do you wear jeans to relax at home?
Dotx, of course not!!! I wear a tux!! j/k j/k..

37. Describe yourself using one word:
Sucky..

38. Do you think bestfriends make the best lovers?
Yes.

39. Do you like ice in your drink?
Yes.

40. Do you have abs?
Not sure..

What is the best nickname that u ever had?
LegO.Horse

Do you think suicide is the best way?
Depends..

Rate your social life from scale 1 to 10?
4.

Are you in love with someone at the moment?
Yessssssssssssssssssssssss....

Are you missing someone at the moment?
Yessssssssssssssssssssssss....

Would you die for the one you love?
Yessssssssssssssssssssssss....

Do you think love hurts?
Yes, but I think its the sweetest feeling too.

Whats the best thing about love?
It gives u the greatest happiness on Earth and an aim in life.

Whats the worst thing about love?
Rejection...

Will you wait for someone you love?
Am now, and definitely will be...

What song that best describes your love life at the moment?
Let It All Out by Relient K.

Do you wanna get married?
Its not the qn about I wanna or not, its wif whom..

Have you talked to the person you love in the last 24 hours?
Sadly no...

Do you keep memories or try to forget them?
Keep.. I'm very sentimental..

Is love always on your side or the opposite way?
Opposite way..

Do you have a gay/lesbian/bisexual friend?
Pretend gay friend yes...

Are you sick of love?
Nope, definitely not..

Are you sick of questions on love?
Nope, but new kinds of questions on love would help..

What are you going to do today/tomorrow? Study and study.. STUDY!!! Perhaps go Glenn house and.. STUDY!!

What do u want so badly right now?
My $3600 computer!! If include whom den her :):)

Do you think money is everything?
No, but without money you are nothing.

Whats the song that u last downloaded?
Can't rmb... So long ago alr...

How much do you love music?
Alot, I listen to them everyday.. BUt I can live without them lol..

Do you play an instrument?
Yep, the piano..

Have you writen your own song?
Nope, lyrics only..

What movie did you last watch?
Deathnote.

Do you believe in love forever?
Yes..

What is in your mind rite now?
What to study later?

What song is in your mind rite now?
Let It All Out

This quiz was taken from Grace Yeoh's blog.

Recently, I have been watching a Korean drama, called Lovers in Prague (NOT Lovers in Paris!! Different!!). It's a very touching drama yet it has alot of humour. It got more serious towards the end (Like most dramas.). At the start, the relationships were really funny, cus the main characters were very comical together. I spent 3 days to watch 18 episodes, actually, 14 only. I started watching from disc 4. Woke up one morning and saw my mom watching it, so I decided to watch abit to see what it was about. Then, I saw the second lead actress, who looked ALOT, and I mean ALOT like Grace Wang. I could just picture her there... Then that got me interested so I decided to watch further. After a few more episodes, I realised the story was very intriguing and the acting was good, so I decided to just finish watching it. So, I holed up myself in my mom's room and watched it for every hour I was at home (Which wasn't alot, hence it took me 3 days). In that show, I learnt something very deep.

When the person you love turns his/her back to you, don't turn your back to them. For if you look at their back, the shortest distance between you and him/her is the distance between your feet and his/her back. But if you turn your back to him/her, the shortest distance between the two of you is one round around the Earth.

I really like the second male lead, though towards the middle, he got really evil, but in the end, it was all for his plan to irritate his rich dad. His rich dad, btw, was very evil and prevented him from going out with the lead actress. Wah, towards the middle I was actually quite pissed at the second lead actor for being so evil, but at the end when his plan was revealed, I was reduced to tears. He was so admirable, he sacrificed himself for the benefit of the main lead actor + actress. At the cost of his own suffering, he had to give up the woman he loved so much, and whom he waited for for 5 years. Somemore, even while he was trying to win the female lead back, he kept letting her go to the male lead. He kept sacrificing himself and did not come between them. Then the female lead also like keep hurting him, I realli felt like crying everytime they show him alone by himself. I can sort of empathise with him, though I dun think I can be as noble as him...

She doesn't like me... Yeah, actually I kinda know it.. But found from my friend that its true, another friend say he can see that she dun like me.. Then my friend said thats why he ask me give up, but.. If you give up, you will never get what you want. I mean, then might as well I give up on my whole life now. My whole FUCKING FUCKED UP life. I realli h8 my life. It sux. Totally. But you don see me doing it. Cus I still believe I can turn it around. Make it worth living. I guess this is the reason why I like computer games so much, that I can go hours without food and water and rest. It's cus I HATE my life. Comp games are the only way I can escape from it. Maybe when I start liking it I will stop playing games. If I were to commit suicide, I would do it like those Koreans, play comp games until I die, at least I die in an imaginary world rather than as suxy me. This seems inappropriate a thought considering my birthday just passed. We celebrate birthdays because we welcome the future. For me, what future is there? Study for what? I'm studying cus I wanna know what JC life is like, what University life is like, what army life is like, what owning things feel like. After that, I can die and I don care. But before I die, I will burn all my money. Either that or give it to someone worthy of it. Actually, to my friends who maybe think I'm extravagant wif the way I spent my money (Ya, on the mouse), its simply I have no use for money at all. I mean, a dead person has no use for money right? Yeah, and I'm dead, or half dead. Only my physical being is left, the spiritual me is dead. It only exists in computer games now.... I can't wait for NWN 2, then I can escape into a fantasy world, and perhaps never come back. I'd sooner face dragons and trolls than face my fucked up life.

I changed my blogsong, but the lyrics totally doesnt describe what I feel. I didnt receive any "sweet love" at all... And I have no one to lean on... But I just like this song, for the tune.. Maybe a better song that describes my feelings is "Tonight I wanna cry" by the same singer as the one who sang my blogsong.

I hate putting up a facade. But if I just be who I am, I will soon have no more friends. She and I are just like worlds apart. I can't even think of a similarity between us. Other than we are both in the same school and are of the same age.

Now I'm getting the thought, why can't I be born someone else? Why do I have to be me? It's not fair, some people just have the life, yet I'm like shit. Some people get what they want, why isit I can't? Some people have looks, why isit I don't? Some people have the IQ, why isit I'm so stupid? Some people have an amazing character, why am I so sucky? Some people have talents, why isit I'm just average in everything? Why can't God just make me someone else, like Junno. Why does He have to make me me. I wouldn't mind being as myself now if only I have a mutant power like super fast healing, super strength, Lightning speed, control nature...

I rmb she said my world is dark because I can't see the light of my life or something like that. I absolutely agree with that, my world is so dark that I am walking blindly through it. It's so dark that I can't see the end of the tunnel, the end of the dark ages. So my life will probably be dark all the way, so I'll just be walking blindly through it for the rest of my days. Aimless.