Reason is just an illusion. There is no reason.

Ok that was so random... Anyways, AC life just seems much more interesting!! WOOTS!! Rly loving it.. :).. Anyway, I suspect there are girls in AC that likes Glenn!! GASPS!! Wanna know who???? :P:P, I wun tell wahahha...

That was so random too! Lecture only week is almost over.. SIgh, soon the slackiness will end.. Ah well, abt time to start studying anyways... And.. my hair is still brown..

"I believe your promise but there is no promise forever baby."

Eh, my mind feels so splintered. Anyway, took a personality test today. I'm INFP! Lol, Glenn is INTP. Hmmz, derek one is so different, ESTJ. Absolute opposites of mine.

Somewhere doko ka ni iru, taisetsu ga Only One. You're not all alone anymore, hitori janai. Tatoe million years toki ga tsukidemo. We never change, no worries we'll be alright. You are my precious only one. One day you'll find, kono hoshi de I believe in love, zutto. Sometime toki ni nazeka mune ni semaru loneliness. I don't want to be all alone, setsunakute. Someday itsuka aeru unmei no someone you love. Futo ki ga tsukeba hora ne kimi no soba ni iru. Kimi no soba ni iru. You'll meet your only one.

{
ippo zutsu de iisa, kono te wo hanasazuni. Tomo ni ayunda hibi ga iki tsuzuketerukara. Boro boro ni naru made, hikisakarete itemo. Ano toki no ano basho, kienai kono kizuna.

It's alright to take it one step at a time, not letting go of my hand. Because we can continue living the days that we walked together. Even of we are dragged along until we are worn out, That place, that time, the bond will last.
}

5..4..3..2..1.. I still can't forget her.. Kk, I know this is EMO POST, actually, it feels more to me like CRAP post. Cos my mind is in a state of mess I'm not quite sure what I'm typing. And Glenn n derek were saying I live in Emo-dom, wear EMO uniform, listen to EMO songs. Basically everything abt me is EMO. Well, isit that bad to have such a high EQ???? Lol.. I'm just too "feeling" type. DO stuffs based on feelings. Besides, somehow emo songs the tune always v nice, so thats why my MP3 is full of them...

Kk, Emo is good, better than HEARTLESS. Kk, I shall stop, cos I need 2 slp soon. KAT-TUN still ROX haha..

Sry, no major post after all.. I fell sick on the day AC had their campfire.. Sigh..

Kk, but that was quite long ago, 1 wk i think haha.. My hols just passed like that.. Poof... Gone... I'm in 1SB2 haha, same class as glenn. Tuesday I went to Glenn house to stayover. Brought my comp there. Stayed for one day only sian.. Lol.. Quite fun actually, if not for the frequent net breakdowns.. APparently someone tried to hijack their net.. Stupid ppl...

Today went to AC to check my class posting. Me n Glenn cycled there and we made it in abt 45 minutes. The way home took 37. Big difference. And the shocking thing is we weren't actually rushing, just taking a leisurely cycle. Woah. I'm actually faster than the MRT. Cool. Anyways, we started to see who were in our class. Conclusion, we are the weirdo class AGAIN. Filled wif scholars. And almost no girls. Den Glenn was soooo sad... And i told him quality over quantity haha.. But he said he wanted a total change of class. Apparently 50% of the ppl frm his old class is same class wif him now.

Den we went for a drink and chatted at the sports complex. Walked back to check the posting again. Then we saw her. lol, den glenn said "Stick wif me n you'll see her more often". We guessed choir just ended and the whole bunch of them are checking their posting. We walked back to our bikes, den decided it was too early to go home so we went to get another drink frm the canteen. Chatted quite awhile and den left for home. I went over to glenn house cos my sis fren came over. Just didnt wanna b at home when her fren is there. And in the end i ate wif glenn, his bro, and their grandparents at greenridge. My dad came to pick me up and den HOME!! haha, left my bike at glenn's hse. Tmr must go n cut hair alr... sadded... Glenn came up wif the LAMEST reason why i don wanna go home. he say i scared her fren like me den cannot concentrate on their project. *bleah*.

/emotional

Gah, can't forget her still. she's just too beautiful. she's just too perfect.

/emotional

Kk, PERSONAL QUIZ TIME!!! haha.. Frm Grace Yeoh's blog.

Things you'd write to 10 people, that you'd never bring up face-to-face with them. Don't mention names.

1) Ur weird.. RLY weird.. RLY FREAKING WEIRD.. But ur a nice guy, a great friend, and well.. for being weird.. you actually ROCK.. I feel so blessed to have such a great friend, though we had alot of quarrels and arguments haha. But den again, which friendship doesnt? Have fun being a pigeon. XD XD.. Maybe i'll crash someday.

2) What can I say.. Um, ur great.. Caring.. i still rmb my promise to live wif you forever.. Yep, im working to it haha. For now, peace out in school, dun be so stressed. I love you :).

3) You are at once a rly good fren and yet can be a totally horrid person. You also leave me totally confused at what the heck you are thinking. But, ur matured, and actually do show concern sometimes. Quite hard to believe considerin the way u act lol. I just enjoy ur company and though I do get really fustrated, its probably my high demands (Do i have any..?).. Nvm.. I believe friendships are give and take.. Ur one of my best frens :).

4) Didnt know you until quite late. Thks for listening to all the sh*t I have to say. And more often than not I'm the one doing the complaining. Rly sorry to bore you so much. And guess wad, ur alot different frm the rest of my frens! haha. Kk, just have fun in what you do and ya, peace out :). P.S. Rly appreciate ur consolation when I'm rly down.

5) Well, ur the person that caused a 180 degree turn in my life. A milestone, and a gigantic nuclear hole in my life. But heck, even if it turns out disastrous, I still do not regret meeting you. Because of you, my life began to have colour. Sorrow became one feeling I am familiar wif. WIthout you, I wld be alien to that feeling. I can go on and on, but I dun think I should.. I'll love you forever.

6) Haha, didnt know you talk alot actually. Lol, thks for chatting wif me too :). And again, sry for all the sh*t I say to you. Lol, and you patiently listen to all the crap that I have to say.. Thks for being such a great listening ear. I'll also be glad to listen to ur problems shud u have any. best of luck for your A levels and I hope you get into ur dream course in uni. :).

7) If my frens knew who are you, they'll definitely think I'm crazy. And they'll start shying away frm me. But since this is ANON, Haha, I can do a tribute to you too :). ur instrumental in pulling me out of depression. And ur definitely the person that took the most sh*t frm me, and even dried my tears when I cried. Without you I'll have gone insane or perhaps commited suicide. Thks so much for listening without giving dumbass comments. Thks for understanding. u will and always be my bestest fren. *Hugs*.

8) Hey, don rly know u much, but u made my life in PJC so much more bearable. And now ur a fellow ACSIan too!! We'll work hard together for As k? And I can FINALLY return u ur disc hahaha. Lol, fellow ponstar of PJC.. WOOHOO, 10 lectures ponned, 3 tuts, and 3 days of school!!! We're the ELITES man.. Haha..

9) Ur like the big brother I nv had and I rly appreciate you acting like one (Whether you know it or not haha). Thks for putting up wif me when I'm at ur house, helping me debug stuffs. Also through you I know a whole different sphere of friends haha.

10) Fellow freak and 04king. actually, maybe you duno, but I actually treasure my friendship wif u. Though I do not act it.. Ok, sry for any offences commited against u. And thks for being the lively one. ANd... UR RLY LAME!!!! Lol...

Ok.. Finally done. If u wanna know who the ten are, just MSN me, I might say :) (Actually, its likely I'll say. Its kind of like a test to see who reads my blog).

Hey! This is my 200th post!! Haha.. Ok, major update (I hope) coming up soon. For now...

No matter the distance
I want you to know
That deep down inside of me
You are my fire
The one desire
Believe when I say
I want it that way

(This isnt an ERIF cheer lol) ERIF one goes like:

We are your fire
Your one desire
Make you perspire
Cause we are the fire

Kk, tmr is my campfire and I'll post my whole orientation soon. Still can't believe I made it into ACJC. By God's grace :).

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

Never Date a Scorpio

Jealous, paranoid, and possessive - deep down, your Scorpio will never trust you. And even if you are very trust worthy person, Scorpio's paranoia may drive you to act out. Instead try dating: Aries, Gemini, Libra, or Sagittarius

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

You Are Smokin' Hot

You're a terrible flirt, a sharp dresser, and a party animal. Of course, you're totally sizzling too. And for you, being hot just comes naturally.

You Are 20% Evil

You are good. So good, that you make evil people squirm. Just remember, you may need to turn to the dark side to get what you want!

Your Pride Quotient: 37%

You're a little prideful, but nothing out of the norm. Like everyone, you enjoy attention. But you're also good at sharing the spotlight!

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you. With respect to money, you save for a rainy day. You think good luck is something you won't attain - you expect bad luck. The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are. While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need. Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational. You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

You Are Snow

Magical yet potentially destructive You are well known as fun to play with People anticipate your arrival but then are quickly sick of you You are best known for: your serenity Your dominant state: reflecting

Ok, go ahead and laugh at the mermaid one and at the weather one.....

Today is probably the last day I will spend in PJC. Sad thing Derek didn't come, cos today DAMN slack. WHole school like celebratin. CT time my class was watching I-robot, den I was listening to my MP3 player playing "You're my better half" by Keith URban.

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Anyways, completed Max Payne 2 campaign!! YEAH!!! After only like 5 hrs of playing. Jeez, its too short... Bullet time is just too fun. W8ing for Alan Wake and Crysis to come out, den can c the next-gen shooters. Meanwhile I shall contend wif WoW.

Ok, everyone, peace out for the weekend! Posting results are out on Tuesday! Gasps, I'm so nervous..... Pray for me K? Esp GLenn who's gonna get a treat if I get into ACJC. Sigh, even after assurances frm Glenn, and practically everyone I know, I'm still SOOOO nervous. I need assurance from God. Only then I will be able to relax. Sigh, just keep praying then... God answered my prayer for a single digit L1R5 and I believe He will answer my prayer to be able to enter ACJC too.

Have fun over the weekend, cos after PAE its time to switch gears and go faster.

Today's the last day I spent in my CCA in PJC!! Haha, after today NO MORE DOTA CLUB!! YAY!! Anyways, today PE sth incredible happened. I stood like 30 CM away frm the 3 point line and shot a soccer ball into the basketball hoop! I was like WOW!! Silent shot somemore! Haha, HAXXORZ!

After that was my last day in my CCA. Boring lar, I rly regretted taking it as a CCA. Luckily, I only went for 3 trainings total. Haha. Not that I needed any o.0. After my CCA I went to ACJC to meet Glenn n WP, and together we went to Queensway to solve our racquet woes. I got a yellow grip and yellow BG 80 string for my Ashaway racq. Den me n WP saw this rly cool looking Ashaway racquet, Ashaway Thunder I think. It's like totally shiny and RLY RLY LIGHT! IT's LIKE THE Lightest Racquet EVEr. We had a look at the squash racquets too. Both me n WP felt Prince's 03 Silver looks the best, rly sleek and futuristic. However, Glenn felt 03 Orange better. Lol, he said becus it looked weird. Ah well, both racquets are $190. Not bad. Max string tension is 29lbs.

While we were at AC, I told GLenn that today, during my chinese public speaking, I said that I was gay and that I like him. And I told him I think some of my class people actually believed it. Den WP chimed in that I was ruining Glenn's name. Den I said I was praising him, so it was more like making him more well-liked! Besides, I used his Chinese name, not his english name. Lol.. I came up wif 3 reasons as to why some ppl will actually believe I'm gay.
1) My MSN Dps are always guys.
2) My class ppl knows I'm crazy abt ACJC and in my speech I said Glenn was frm AC.
3) WP keeps trying to hug me -.-||...
Well, I believed I wrote in my blog that if she doesn't like me I wld be gay. Come to think of it, I dun wanna be gay (Not that I can, it's just not in my genes). I'll just remain a bachelor. So they were teasing me that I was gay. Sometimes I will tell Glenn that so and so is good looking (guy). Then Glenn said its a sign of gayness. But I think its ok for guys to think other guys are good looking. Not that I'm attracted to them... And I also told Glenn I'm not interested in girls. Just don't wanna flirt you know? Not horny yet? Lol, I'm a decent guy! Then GLenn n WP somehow related it to being gay -.-||... But alas, I know they are just joking... I hope... Well, Glenn said he has faith in me that I will find a girl that I like and that I will get married. He also said the problem is I dun have faith in myself. It's true, I mean, I dun even have confidence that I will get into ACJC. Even after so many people assured me. Actually, its times like these, that I felt Glenn is rly a good friend. Though such times are rare :). Sometimes he rly says stuffs that are insightful. Which is also why I admire him. Heck, that will make him think I'm gay LOL! I think I'm just not rdy for a relationship, don't even know when I'll be ready, after that MAJOR heartbreak... As the proverb goes, "A burnt child fears the fire." Then WP added that I'll probably be the first to get married among the three of us. Even Derek thinks I'll get married. Not that I will PURPOSELY not get married to prove them wrong. But when I do, I'll let them know if we're still in contact :). For when I do, it means I've finally gotten over her. OR as brokeback puts it, just trying to cover up, trying to forget abt past relationships. Such weddings WILL and ALWAYS fail. Mwahhz, Glenn says AC will change me n make me somewhat interested in girls. Maybe.... See first :).. I dun mind giving a shot at it. But.. Is not interested in girls such a terminal illness? ISit that much a cause for concern? Besides, my mom doesn't want me to start relationships.

Meh, right now GUY friends deserve more of my time than GIRLS. And COMPUTER games are higher on my PRIORITY list than looking for GIRLS. And STUDIES are definitely more IMPORTANT than GIRLS. I shall stick to my plan of getting 4As for A levels, surviving NS, going to NUS for BA, followed by Princeton for Masters & PhD, before travelling Europe/USA, migrate to the states, and find a job. Yepp, that's my plan before thinking of starting a relationship.

I'm pretty idealistic rite? Life ain't a bed of roses, and so far it's been a bed of hot coals for me.

I shall end this post with a parting note:
"Every little thing I do never seems enough for you."

Soledad.............

Your Birthdate: October 10

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it. You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter! You are very prone to love - hate relationships. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2 You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

Just realised sth, Why does the number of times You'll have your heart broken is always equal to the number of true loves you'll have?? DotX.. Stupid QUIZ..

Yay, finally got more ppl tagging :):)..

kk.. Our posting results are coming out soon!! Yay, can feel the excitement alr.. It's on 7th March. And after that, we have our 1 wk holidays!! I think it's confirmed that we are going over to Glenn's house for a stayover, but the length is not decided. K, now I just hope my dad and mom allows me to bring my comp over.

Tuesday I have dental appointment. Hmm.. Right now I'm deciding if I should get braces. It's SO expensive..

Okay, go KBox for musical outing? I think Glenn n WP wun be too happy abt it lol.. Last time suggested KBox Glenn was "huh... dun want leh.." Den watch movie also no good for an outing, cos no socialising, just keeping quiet in the cinema. Glenn will surely suggest cycling and WP will surely say YA! YA! Also, WP will suggest......... Ice skating -.-.... Now, I suggest..... SKIING!!! 3 Days 2 Night stay in KOREA! Lol... USA also can, but air ticket to Korea is cheaper.

Sometimes I wonder what life is like as a pop star........ Nvm......

Some random fact: It's physically IMPOSSIBLE to crack an egg by applying pressure whilst holding it in your palm. Haha, Glenn n WP learnt it the hard way :):).. TOo bad I nv bet wif WP. DOH!

Then again, I hate gambling.. Lol...

Glenn asked me to camp outside Covenant EFC every Saturday and Sunday. Lol.. I might.. If someone wanna camp with me. You know, cover my back.. Haha! The likeliest I'll do is go Glenn's house den after that go cycling/walking/jogging/play badminton/eat wif him. Den conveniently go pass the church. *Laughs maniacally* *Coughs* Ok.. Nvm..

I wonder.. Does Glenn go to church..? Somehow he seems so involved in TY's church activities. Or maybe cos Dex tell him..

"Tell me why I can't be there where you are"

Sigh, I'm still so.. Shy.. Afraid.. Wonder how guys even try to chase after a girl... Lol, must be retribution, I used to laugh at guys failing, and thinking they are stupid.

Lol, i went off to watch vids on yahoo music and end up forget to finish blogging... Oh w8! BE My Escape just started! Byebye, I go watch! WOots! So nice that song... Sigh, Yahoo took down alot of vids.. Now alot of my fav vids I can't watch anymore...

Sigh, i'm too distracted to blog so stop here. And.. I haven't had my dinner and its 8:17 lol..

Yoyoyo.. So long since I last posted. CNY just passed like that, nothing much to it. Just got to catch up on times with my cousins. Haha, suddenly everyone seemed so grown-up. Sigh. Crashed AC squash training again ytd. Wow, training is RLY slow when all the girls come.. Lol, Glenn got irritated and went to play in the free court. We also got to see the DSA players play, and boy are they GOOD.

School nowadays feel so surreal, cos I know I wun be staying on in PJC, and yet I dun wanna withdraw... And the super short weeks due to result release and CNY didn't help either. Sigh.. ANyway, sidetrack a little, who wanna play World of Warcraft wif me? I got lvl 29 warlock in Nagrand and lvl 12 Hunter in Thaurissan. Dono whether my parents going overseas anot.. If they go overseas den I may stayover at Glenn's house. Also, Glenn suggested (or was it WP) a stayover at his house during the hols. I dun mind lol, I'll bring my 8800GTX COMP OVER!! WAHAHA!

Anyway, my aims for physical conditioning are:
1) Do 2.4 in under 11 minutes.
2) Train abs via sit-ups.
3) Train wrist muscle for squash and badminton
4) Train shoulder muscles for stronger swing.

Sigh, got quite alot work to do. Not to mention in order to build stronger muscles need to eat more. Sigh.. These days I dun have appetite, see food feel like puking (Doesn't help that PJC food sux).

"A helping hand to make it right, I am holding you walk through the night.."
"I'll be the light, when you feel like there's no where to run."

Feel SOOO tired nowadays, and I dun understand why. I should have had alot of sleep due to the holidays.

There's something missing in my life.... Unpredictabilities, excitement... I miss those in BP.... Sigh, now I'm starting to miss those times we had during musical. Gawsh, it was RLY fun and I had something to look forward to every week. lol.

"Tell me why, those times seem so far away..."

Sigh, dono wad to post leh.. Alot of things I feel like saying yet bcos this is public (Well.. I set it to private yet google still turns it out in searches...), I shall not.... Anyway, I feel like changing my blog URL..

Today's valentines day and as usual, I have no date.

Edit: I got a date!! Glenn dated me to go ACJC and play squash wif him hahaha..

Anyway, today pon my chinese tutorial (again). My class sarbo us (again), told my chinese teacher we pon chinese. But seriously, I dun care.... Though I do not want to leave a bad impression. I have a gd reason ok! I had to leave early so I can make it to ACJC in time for squash training. It starts at 2 30 and my school ends 1 30. What's more I need to have my lunch first. So I decided to pon chinese, and my frens decided to pon wif me haha. It just so happened chinese is the last period lar...

SO went ACJC. VERY nervous at first, scared of the guard. In the end the guard didn't even give us so much as a glance. Met HZ and chatted wif him. ACJC rly treats valentine day seriously man... Anyway, saw Grace but Glenn said he didn't see. Haha, she looks rly cute wif her hair plaited. So I walked around wif GLenn, listen to him talk to his friends. Felt so left out sigh.. Den went for squash training. Haha, actually its fun! What's more, I made it to the school team! HAHA! Anyways, there was this girl in squash that I suspect is interested in Glenn. Everytime Glenn turn she will shout "Go Glenn gO!!" Den when Glenn not hitting and she isn't she would talk to him. What's more, its her second time at squash only.... But then again, she could just be VERY friendly, but seriously, what are the chances. And I found the squash coach rly nice haha. But shooting is still my top priority. Anyway, the teacher IC came and was asking glenn and some other guy their L1R5 and if they're still staying on in AC. den she asked mine, so i said 9, den she asked are u staying, and i replied i'm not from this school, thinking of transferring here. So she asked me wad school am i frm, and i said PJC. She said Oh, VJC? Ic, so u minus 4 wif 5? Den i said I dun take HMT, den she said I probably can get in. THe funny thing was, she mistook PJC to VJC. Oh well.. I don mind coming frm a good school without actually being in it.

Took the MRT home wif Glenn, chatted wif him all the way. Man, I feel we bonded closer alr.. After that ate in KFC wif him at Lot 1, before we went home. Urk, my mom bought alot of new year stuffs and my fathers relatives are all coming over to eat on sunday (Aw man, free loaders on our food!). Sigh, Every year without fail they would come to our house. I don rly mind them, just that they keep relying on my dad for financial aid, which is very irritating.. Like last time one of my cousins wanna open a food store in a hawker centre, den my dad came up wif half the money i think, so he was a shareholder, den they closed down after a few months -.-... I dun think my dad got back the money he invested. And he's like so calm about it.... WT, my family isn't exactly made of money.. Ok, and the other part I dun like is they keep asking me "Whats ur results," "Where u wanna go," U know, small talk? It's RLY RLY RLY IRRITATING! Sometimes I wish I get 6 points and get into RJC so I can tell them to SHUT UP! I mean, somehow my mother's side not so bad, they do ask, but not until so irritating... Oh wait, even if I get into RJC they wld continue to ask "What university you wanna go to?". JEEZ I RLY HATE SMALL TALK! I guess this kind of small talk not as bad as "Why are you still single?", "Do you have a girlfriend?", "Why JC still dun have?". That's definitely worse. I would simply answer "Bachelorhood is the way and I wanna travel the earth without xtra baggage." Thats my dream actually, to be travel the Earth. (Actually, Europe and America only). The ONLY and I rly mean ONLY exception is if she accepts me. Yeah, den I wld be willing to start a relationship and family. If not, forget it, wait until I'm bored of travelling. And I have a limit to which I must get married by. After the age of 35 I wld be SINGLE and NOT LOOKING. So pretty much I wun rly get married. And Derek was saying I would miss out on something important in my life (Ok, for those of you who fake innocent or rly innocent, its SEX). Den I was like, "You wld miss out on sth better, called TRAVELLING!"

As a parting note, Rly sincerely praying that I would be able to enter ACJC.

P.S. To all readers, ENJOY LIFE!

Post-Postscript: =)

RESULTS RESULTS!! Gasp, the day we've been waiting so eagerly for (or not)! Actually, others wld beg to differ but neways, I was w8ing eagerly for this day!

Anyways, I got... 9 points!!! YEAH!!! AT LEAST NOT DOUBLE DIGIT!!! Ok, I shall pray and give thanks to God later tonight :). Haha, though I was expecting 7 points, since I thought my A maths and Bio wld be A1. End up A2. Lala.

NEways, gonna apply to go ACJC. Yep, that school sure sounds fun, from friends I have in there. Haha.

Read Grace's blog and she thanked the teachers inside it. Well, Shud I do likewise? Since I rly have nothing else to post.

*Scratches head, thinking of ppl to thank*
(In no order of importance, just jumbled)

My Mom: Ah well, definitely have to thank my mom for pushing me :). Though I wasn't pushed much, but at least she gave me momentum to start :).

My Sis: Haha, actually, she just provide consolation and stuffs, yeah, but she's the GREATEST sister on Earth :).

Glenn: Wow, have no idea why the names aren't my teachers, how bout, I normally sleep in class! Haha, ya, so I also wonder why Glenn is in my list. Thank him for giving me reassurance, without him I'd feel so lost.

Grace: Lol, ya, I rmb posting RLY long ago that she was my motivation, yeah, so must thank my motivation. She motivated me to do well (Though she did not say anything, it was more like in my head kind of thing).

Wt, rly have no teachers for me to thank, I pretty much relied on myself all the way. Ya, they do help out in some places but not significant enough. I'm a soloist haha.

Anyway, the school acknowledged ppl wif 8 distinctions, however, BOTH ME N GLENN HAD 8 AND WE WEREN'T ACKNOWLEDGED!! GRRR!! UNFAIR UNFAIR UNFAIR!!!!

"I try to, just forget you. But I dunno how, if only I knew. It's written all over your face, such a painful thing to waste, tell me now, where do we go? Now the future's not so clear, I can't believe we've ended here, where's the world that doesn't care, maybe I could meet you there."

"Maybe I should meet you there.."

"Maybe.."

".."

Woots, wounded again. Bah, not fun to relate the incident, suffice to say, there is one rowdy class and their teacher wants them to win, case closed.

"I'm waiting for the perfect time to call you back. Cos I rmb saying I dun wanna another truth, can't handle that."

"I'm sorry. If I ever slagged you down I meant no harm. But when I heard the stories, said things I didn't mean should have stayed calm. Sadly, you got angry, and it breaks my heart. You're so mad at me.."

"Tell me now, where do we go..."

Results are out soon! Yeah! This friday!! Maybe staying over at TY's hse tmr. Nt sure.

"You can save me from the man that I've become... Looking back on the things I've done.. I was trying to be someone. I've played my part, kept you in the dark, now let me show you the shape of my heart..."

Sigh, WoW servers are so unstable lately, can't play at all. And I haven't gotten my Supreme Commander yet, sianz... Actually, I dun think it's out yet.

Actually, dono wad to post haha.

Noticed sth rly cool today while showering. I took off my plaster den while showering inspected my wound. It had white colour stuff all over it (dead skin?). Den later shampooed my hair. Den i looked at my hand again, and i noticed some yellow discolouration. Den immediately I thot wad weird thing am I afflicted wif now... Den I went to rub it, and it felt slippery and it comes off. So i smelt my finger. Oh, it was my shampooo. Lol, den i luffed at my paranoid-ness.

WoW character lvl 18 now. Sigh, its painfully hard to level up. But had my first taste of a dungeon raid today. Now i know why its so addictive. its rly fun and i had like a 2+ hr raid in the dungeon. Rox :)!

Speakin of spendin so much time in WoW, I didnt do my chinese essay today. Not my fault also.. My comp cant read + write chinese. Also coming down wif a flu. Yux, have to drink a yucky flu medicine. Flu SUX!

Woo, found another 2 injury today. Both on the same knee. Haha, bruise. Damn cool. While I was bored I would press it and try to apply pressure until I cannot bear the pain. Wah, feels rly good when I feel the pain. I dun care if its supposed to be bad for healing haha. I still rmb last time I would trick my sister to help me press it. I would say like If you can make me wince in pain or say ouch I would give her money. Aha, she never succeeded.

nt much to post in the weekend, my life is just one boring life. Ah well. without her in my life, surprises and unpredictabilities cease to exist. *Symphony of sorrow and pain* (Lol, almost typed Frost and Flame). Oh, and dled microsoft free edition of Visual C++. somehow it doesnt work wif my basic programming stuffs, so i didnt try the advanced stuff and uninstalled it. Need to find a good compiler. Recommendations? Ok, i have nth else to post.

****, v pain... I not going school on Monday probably, need to go hospital soon. Some ******* pushed me to the floor today. and that person frm my class one. Damn pissed now. Damn, here to vent my anger, cant believe I apologized to him when I kicked him. Damn. Didnt wanna cause a scene.

So, if u wanna know how serious it was, there was a crater. Yeah, A CRATER in my finger.. And now KENA INFECTION. ****, need to go hospital alr... Not sure how long they will keep me in... But looks serious now... Screw... Totally cant bend my finger now, got a bandage around it. My mom calling NUH now to check wif them if hospitalisation is required and bla bla bla, so now i here to post. I dun even know how kena infection....

CHILDISH GAMES! I HATE PEOPLE WHO PLAY CHILDISH GAMES! !@#$%^&*() YOU PEOPLE! **** Ok, need to go out now, ****, will update again when I get back....
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Ok, so who believed the above story? Haha, it was blown up alot more lar. Ok, abt the crater its true lar. There IS a crater in my finger. And ya, it does hurt alot, like my whole finger on fire. And Its true I cant bend my finger now, cos its totally plastered. haha. Hope dun kena infection, last time I kena this kind of thing almost have to amputate. but last time was my whole arm. THe doctor last time told me if dun heal within one weak will have to amputate. LUCKY LUCKY it healed. Cant believe if they amputated one of my arm.

Abt the seriousness its not true. Abt the anger, yes, I'm rly angry, and yes I RLY HATE PEOPLE WHO PLAY CHILDISH GAMES!

Jeez, still I think today campfire ended TOO early. I mean, I was just getting hyped up den they say go home go home.. SIANZZZ.. Not fun one... ACJC better, let them play until 11. In the end, wad I dun like abt PJC is still the people. Of course, its a general statement, there are really great people too. Rly like Joel's blogsong, "Everything to me" I Think, rly nice song.

Some ppl in my class are just so talented. Derek is like an inventor-in-the-making, Joel can play the drums, and can do pull-ups like its childsplay and he's also a rly nice guy, Terence can play soccer, badminton, and the piano. Sigh, then I think of myself, I can only be a jack of all trades but a master of none. The only thing I'm close to mastering is DotA, and its not satisfying at all. Damn, I h8 complaining. I wanna do sth abt it. I shall do FULL BODY WORKOUT, not to mention I shall start learning some musical instrument, self-taught. Also, I'm gonna pick up programming. And, I wanna be a nice guy, I wanna be someone everyone will like (Which is so isnt myself, and I h8 not being myself). As the saying goes, you can't please everyone. Darn, I'm rly living a screwed up life.

《梦痕》
V.1.0B
你有梦痕。他有梦痕。每个人都有梦痕。痕迹的深度当然会不一样，但是重点就是每个人都有梦痕。生为人，我们都会有梦想，因为有梦想，所以逃不掉梦痕。我们必须知道我们这一生一定有几个梦想是实现不了的。一旦有梦想不能实现，我们要坚持下去，因为即使我们颓丧也解决不了问题。
有些人很特别，他们并没有梦想。我属于这类的人。没有梦想的生活真好，无忧无虑，什么东西都可以做。但是，没有梦想也有不好的地房，譬如当老师要你写关于梦想的文章，你就写不出了。突然间我忘记要写什么，因此就到此为止。

AM really irritated now that WoW server is down. Crap, waste $1 today cus I can't play. It had BETTER be working tmr...

Tmr wld be campfire night #2! Quite looking forward to it since there is mass dance and fun dance haha. DOno why but nowadays I'm rly into dancing (Not becus of girls, I can garunttee that). I just find dancing fun and a great way to have a workout. Contrary to popular belief, dancing is cool!!

Today WP and my sis came. My sis pretty much just hanged out wif her senior. I hanged out wif WP. We went to the hall to play the grand, den saw Alvin and some girl playing badminton and we got tempted into playing. So me n WP played alone first, half court. We borrowed Alvin's racquet. Wow, he's rich, he has like 5 racquets each priced at about $300. After that jordan came and I stopped playing. WP and jordan played against 2 girls frm his class. One of them quite good, last time school team one. WP and jordan still won. After that me n WP played against jordan and alvin. although we didnt play score, we were winning haha.

ok, i think i found out the code to type out for programming to input strings. To declare a string, it isnt "string variable", but char string[insert number]. Basically a string is an array of char. Haha, cool, now i can continue making my survey tmr. Gotta learn how to upload the final product to blogger template so ppl can do my quiz. too bad its in MS console.

Just now I went to zheng hwa CC to play badminton wif WP and his church friends. Den later glenn joined us. Me n WP pretty much won his church friends. Made a few new aquinttances. Quite happy I went actually. Den poor Glenn came. Why poor? He has a sore throat. Awwwww... Ok, everyone wish him well and hope he gets well soon :). He alr has that dreaded thing for 1 wk. From me to him: Hope you get well soon Glenn :). Dun look so moody, you looked rly down today.

Haha, looks like glenn knows joel too, he's in his group during youth camp.

Seriously considerin going to wp church again. Dono, but suddenly i find christians rly friendly. Last time i went always seem to attract weird looks. It may just be me but i felt rly uncomfortable and stopped going after half a year. After today, I realised that being in church actually lifts my spirit up. Seriously, I believe in the prescence of God. Somehow I felt rly calm when I was there for service. And anyways, the worship songs are realli great. But I'm not enthu until like some of the guys who knelt down. These things take time I guess, not used to it and my mom ain't rly very approving of me going.

Take it from me, meeting new people is rly fun! I was too stubborn last time, but still, I am very serious when it comes to lifetime friends. Once you are a good friend of mine, you'll stay that way. I rly treasure Glenn and WP as my friends. They are my bestest friends :). I should rly thank God for sending them into my life, they have helped me pass a difficult secondary school life, though some of the difficulty was added by them haha. Rly was a wild sec school life. Hope to be able to enter ACJC during the JAE intake.

Soon, results wld be released nxt Friday. the newspaper and news should be announcing the date this weekend.

Ok, sign off for now. Hope to have a blast tmr :):)..

Happy birthday to Grace :):)!

Happy birthday to my blog :):)!

Yepp, 31st Jan is a special date for me haha. Ok, for those of u who dun get it, im too lazy to xplain.

Yaa, I cant believe I have blogged for 2 yrs now, I wld have thought after 1 year I would stop.

Den again, there are alot of things that I thought and proved wrong.

It's funny, that this is my own blog, and yet out of fear of wad ppl might think, I cant type wad i thought and proved wrong.

Well, one of them can, I thought I wld forget abt her but well, to make a long story short, she's always on my mind.

Wondering why I'm typing in such short paragraphs. I guess its to make this post look long. I rly have nothing much to post, I'm too lazy to post abt happenings in school. Ok, maybe one.

Had quite a long chat wif Joel today, found out he goes to Glory Presbyterian church. Same one TY goes to. And that he has a personal website wif his twin, http://www.theohbrothers.com. I find him a v nice guy, just somewhat shy. And he plays the drums. Lol.

I'm quite distressed as to wad to do wif my time tmr. I have 2 hrs of nothing-to-do-ness. And after school, my sis wld be coming and WP too. Lol. There goes a quiet time observing ppl doing their PE.

(Ya, Alan knows why I enjoy watching ppl do their PE. Derek too I think.)

Ok, seriously have nothing else to post as life falls into a routine. I need sth unexpected and exciting to happeN!

[Wrath]
Who did you last get angry with?
>My God, I dunno! I'm a peace-loving person :).

What is your weapon of choice?
>Nukes anyday :).

Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
>yes.

How about the same sex?
>yes.

Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
>Frankly, no idea :). Should be someone frm my class haha.

What is your pet peeve?
>Err... Ok, I shall not pretend I understood this qn.

Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
>I keep them....... for 5 minutes?

[Sloth]
What is one thing you're suppose to do daily that you haven't?
>Er.. My homework?

What is the latest you've ever woken up?
>1-3pm

Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
>Er, Grace!

What is the last lame excuse that you made?
>Can't rmb seriously... I am so lame that almost everything I say is lame.

Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?
>yes.

How many times do you usually hit the snooze button on your alarm clock?
>I dun have an alarm clock!

[Gluttony]
Are you a meat eater?
>yes.

What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
>1 can. ( Yeah, I know, v little..)

Are you comfortable with your drinking and eating habits?
>No, my eating capacity varies to a great extent.

Do you enjoy candy and sweets?
>OK, I dun rly care much for them.

Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods?
>I love food, case closed.

Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"?
>LMAO! THIS IS FUNNY! But no :).

[Greed]
How many credit cards do you own?
>1000000 X 0.

If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
>SPEND SPEND SPEND!!! No idea spend on wad, but.. SPEND!

Would you rather be rich or famous?
>Rich, I dun care much abt having ppl know me.

Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks?
>Lets see. Yes. And after 1 year I quit. HAHA!

[Lust]
How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)?
>One, myself :).

What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice?
>Face?

Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons?
>Sadly. No. I'm a virgin :). And I havent kissed :).

Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a person of your chosen sex during a normal conversation?
>Nope.

[Envy]
What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
>Eh, no idea.

If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be?
>JUNNO!!!

Have you ever been cheated on?
>No idea.

Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
>Sob, height sob...

What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
>No idea..

[What deadly sin... ]
Do you do the most often?
>sloth.

Do you do the least often?
>lust.

Is your favorite to act on?
>Er.. dun understand.

*****

1. Have u ever *really* been in love?
Yepp

2.If yes,how many times?
1 timess.. I'm only 16 :).

3.Is there someone who u like at the moment?
Haha, yes, but only 1 person I LOVE.

4.Do u think u'll never stop loving someone once u start?
Weird phrasing, this qn..

5.What does love feel like?
Painful, painful, painful, painful.. Bittersweet, falls short of wad movies make them out to be, painful. Haha, how can I emphasize more, PAINFUL!

6.Is it different with different people?
Guess so.

7.What is ur dream person like?
her.

8.Are you ready to fall in love again?
No, NEVER WILL AGAIN!

9.If not, do u think u'll really have a choice?
Nope, hence I will not fall in love again.

10.What are two things u've learned from being in love?
1- NEVER TELL THAT PERSON!
2- There is no such thing as fairytale-like love.

11.Have you ever given or been given roses?
Nope.

12.Are most high school kids infatuated or in love?
infatuated, definitely.

13.Do u think that u should become friends with someone first?
Like duh? Its the safest route!

14.Have u ever had ur heart broken?
lets see, worse than that? Like blasted to smithereens?

15.Do u believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
Nope, but I believe in "Once broken, forever broken"

16.Have u ever broken someone's heart?
I guess so, my mom.

17.Are u the one who makes the move or do u wait for them to make the move?
I make the move. ANd fall flat on my face.

18.At what age did u start noticing the opposite/same sex?
Sec 2 for opposite, Primary sth for same.

19.Where would you like to go on a first date?
Anywhere she would like to go :).

20.Can u trust him/her?
Yes, definitely.

21.Would he/she commit to u?
Ask her that.

22.Do u want to be with him/her right now?
YES! I RATHER BE WIF HER THAN ANYWHERE!

23.Why don't u call them?
I dono wad to say, she wld be irritated.

24.What would you do if you were given him/her & urself for a day, together?
I'll take her to places she likes, do stuff she likes, And at the end of the day, propose to her.

25.Is that ur final answer?
Yes, sure.

Watched High School Musical the 8th time today, haha, that show just ROX! We should have done it as our musical instead of B&B :). Got more dance inside woots!

Ok, today was a slacky day. First up maths tutorial. Must have been the early morning that caused our minds to continue sleeping. Me n derek kept making mistakes in our identity swapping. Example, when the teacher calls me, I will answer accidentally instead of derek, and when she says derek, derek will answer accidentally. However, we insisted we were who we said we were and the teacher did not ask further. Den, do qn on board time. I volunteered to xplain qn 8. den xplain xplain and the teacher said thank you wei rong, and i said Im derek, and she apologized!! Den the girls sittin in front said we swapped identities !&*(). Darn, den she grew doubtful and asked us again. Howver, we insisted we werent lying and then someone asked whether the teacher trust the girls or trust us. Naturally, being a female, she trusted the girls. So I said those girls are liars, they are in computing course which girls wldnt take, so they arent conventional girls and thus are liars. Lol. After that the teacher walked over to check our names. she flipped my maths tutorial, no name, maths lecture notes, no name, file, no name. den DAMN SHE FLIPPED MY PHYSICS NOTES. Lol, and I wrote my name on that. Ahh crap crap crap...

Maths lecture we skipped it. Unanimous vote haha, it was spontaneous. We were like "Sian leh, dun wanna go maths lecture, AP GP so ez... Ok pon, pon ah? Pon? Ok pon." Case closed, we skipped maths lecture. Lol.. CT time, after my speech my form teacher praised me o.0... SHe said I was confident, know what I want, and isnt ashamed of saying "I'm rich". Den she said I can be a future leader lol. Hopefully.

Derek left school early today cos he needed to attend some seminar. Cool. And about half the class went to NYP. Not cool. I wanted the whole class to go. Den I can be "guai kia" (Good boy) and be the only one left in my class! Haha.. Sigh, however 10 other ppl stayed wif me. CRAP! Computing we had to write a programme to solve 3 qns. EZ.. Chinese the teacher let us do wad we want cos the class too few ppl. She's a rly nice chinese teacher lor. Den she was like talking to me n kiat lee. Haha..

KL and I decide to try out sth. We went to the cafe and ordered ice lemon tea without ice. Guess wad? They gave us one cup of ice lemon tea. NO ICE! Means we get ALOT more drink for wad we paid, compared to wif the ice. Den we tried again, ice lemon tea without ice, den say on second thought abit of ice wld be good. HAHA! IT works!!

Sigh, nowadays I just wanna stay back in school and walk around the compound. Dun feel like going home. GO home nothing to do one, so boring. Play computer until bored alr. I wanna stay in school and watch ppl do their PE, go for their CCAs. Haha, so interesting to watch them run.

Need to update our GP site soon. SIgh.. So much stuffs to do, yet I'm too lazy to do them. Nxt Wednesday is GW birthday and my blog anniversary. Hopefully sth interesting happens on that day :). The following monday is the release of our O level results. YahoO! I'm quite excited to be able to receive it. (And of course to see her, havent seen her since PJC finale night). SHe grew very tanned. Everyone I know who entered AC came out very tanned. Even glenn. Jin zhe. And I'm still irritated wif the MOE way of doing things. Screw them.. Screw HMT..

First and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLENN!!! Yepp, today, 23rd of Jan, is Glenn's bday!!! Most honourable chieftain turns 17!! lol -.-..

Okok. So some of you may want to wish Glenn a happy belated birthday. It'll brighten up his day knowing people care! Also, Grace bday is coming up and my blog 2nd anniversary too :):)..

Results are gonna be released soon, and actually, I'm quite nervous. Yet, I am excited to be able to receive it soon. Today lessons quite boring. Lunch me derek and kiat lee went out to eat at mac, since we had 90 mins of break. Econs lecture stinks.. We changed lecturer and the new one is so bitchy. She insists we sit on alternate seats -.-.. Computing equally crappy, the teacher refused to on the aircon and we spent 1 hr sweating in the computer lab. Its DAMN uncomfortable. Den Physics tutorial I had to stand cus I forgot to bring black file. Aiyo... Maths tutorial did binomial expansion exercise, so sian. I h8 binomial expansion, so tedious.

Ok, my school ice lemon tea is RLY NICE!! Can be bought from the cafe for $1. Lol.. I'm thinking of taking 4 H2s after JAE. Provided I qualify for it. Me n Derek were also looking at university brochures in the library. We realised that career opportunities that require chem is rly few. Mostly says Either physics or chem. Wow, so why learn chem..

I cant access the Private server for MU anymore!! Oh no!! I went to Atlans and den the game crashed cus of a missing file. Subsequently I cannot load the same character cus the game will just keep crashing. DARN!!

Wow.. Weird title huh. Just finished exploring Derek's website and concluded I'm wasting my life. I was looking at what he does in his free time compared to what I do in mine. He comes up wif self-initiated DIY projects that sound rly cool (a la Class IIIb laser and infra-red cam) during his supposedly free time. When I'm free, all I do is play games (lifeless ones at that) or lie on my bed staring at the ceiling for hours. Sometimes I enjoy standing by my window and look into the distance and stare for half an hour. And no, I'm not enjoying the scenery, I'm spacing out. Other favourite free-time activities I do include plugging my MP3 player earphones into my ear and listen to songs for as long as I can. Also I enjoy meditating on my bed with my dog. Sometimes, I also do peer counselling. I talk to my dog about all the ****ed up-ness of my life. Ya, you get the point, I'm rly not putting my life to good use! I should be motivated to do something, maybe not designing lasers or infra-red cameras, but I could say take up programming on my own? Write a programme on my own? Create a flash game? Heck, or even clean up my room.

Backtrack: I kinda enjoy meditating wif my dog, having peer couselling wif it, and lying down on my bed staring at the ceiling for hours. Sometimes I find life full of shit.

Ok, so I may not be a science guy like derek. I'm kinda an art guy. Some novel I have started on last year is still waiting to be completed. Maybe I shall go complete it. BUt I've written to a writer's block and have no idea how to continue. Stuck at chapter 5 I think. Thinking of joining dance actually. Oh w8, thats so random!!! Watched High School Musical 3 times. And I was thinking, how much fun it must be to be in the cast, singing and dancing. Gosh, I suddenly have a fetish for dancing. It just seems so cool and fun!! Of course, PJC ppl dun like. No idea why, they laugh at ppl who audit for choir and dance. ANyway, ppl who go PJC are called PJeons (pronounced pigeons). Sth I came up wif.

Come to think of it, I may not be lifeless after all. It's just I like to spend my time differently. I dun like self-imposed projects. Maybe cus I dun like responsibilities? But that doesn't make me irresponsible. I just like slacking off, enjoying life at its simplest and finest.

"Am I rly enjoying myself..?" Dono, everyday just seem like a day of worries and problems. No, I'm not feeling stressed out by JC. I feel like a genius at PJC man. I slack off in lectures, tutorials I'm spacing out, and I dun even bother doing homework. All that and I can still understand wads going on. "Not to mention some ppl are rather dim.." Shall not say who. "You have no idea who.." True.. I duno who, just know there are.

When does life have a meaning? Isit after u accomplish something big? After you gotten your degree? When you make your first million? When you meet your true love? Nope, I dun think its any of this. Life has meaning cus you think it has meaning. If you think slacking off everyday is meaningful then your life has meaning. That when you die you are satisfied with your life. You find it meaningful that while you lived you slacked off. A meaningful life doesn't have a fixed definition. You define it.

I should put a disclaimer on my blog. Just have no idea how to make it display everytime someone comes. I dun want it in the form of a popup since its annoying. And I also wanna compose a tune for one of my college songs titled "Perfect Strangers". Never got around to it. Thought of abit here and there but didn't write it down. It ain't even mine actually, just while listening to it, felt it could be improved.

CNY is comin and results are going to be released soon. I just wanna be out of PJC and go to some better JC. Actually, only 2, NJC and ACJC. All the other JCs I dun wanna go. I have not gotten my next issue of PC Gamers yet. Popular still haven't received their stock. Crap. What's more I think they only import 1 issue? Sigh, I hope I'm not too late.

Footnote: I dono why every time I settle down to blog I begin to forget what I wanted to blog about.